(Cast)- Jimin
- bts
-Mysterious army crowds
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Jimin POV
Three loud noises sounded as the stage gets lit. Literally, the fire comes on. Army thinks we are G.o.d. That we are near perfection but we just show the shining side of us. Our inner demon eats us alive every time and hurts us more than the expectations that armys have for us. We can"t escape any guilty conscience and our forcedly made roads towards a fire pit.
"Jin hyung."
"What is it Jiminie?"
"Why are we friends?"
"We"re friends because we"re fond of each other of course."
Why does Jin hyung lie. Why do we brainwash ourself? Why does destruction follow us closely behind? We love everyone for their support but they only love the us on the internet, not the ones who"re ordinary. What if we were all not idols and ugly? Disdain will start and disgusted stares. We are who we are. "All humans have rights to love and is not restricted they say?" Why do we have people"s heart when we don"t have comfort from our lover.
Hates fly everywhere but they don"t control us. Why do people judge us so many times? Our business seems private so why are there unrelated people coming into the conversation? We"re some top star with spotlight on us. Our glowing aura were illusions created by the entertainment. Sometimes we are heros and sometimes we become villains. There"s many versions of us but which one is the real us? Let"s just not forget that all versions are us.
"Jiminie Hyung" Jungkook said while walking towards Jimin. "What is on her mind that is making you frown?" Jungkook said while he put his arm over Jimin"s shoulder. "I just thought of some unnecessary things." Jimin said with a playful tone.
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The stares of admiration and adoration still keeps me fighting but also hurts me whenever I think of the truth, people believe we are almost perfect or some angels that fell out of the sky. We don"t even know how to live like humans anymore because this job is so hard and mentally draining.
I am Kim Namjoon but I can be referred to as Rap Monster. I am an English speaker but I have hardships and obstacles coming my way.
I am Min Yoongi or Suga, my past was pitiful but here I am, earning money to support my family. I am a rapper but the steps of the dances get hard every comeback that my heels are hurting.
I am seokjin or just Jin. I am sometimes putting a confident mask or helping others. I am friendly and was supposed to go home normally but instead got scouted by big hit.
I am Hoseok or J-Hope. I was performing as a street dancer. After debuting, my existence were overshadowed by the maknaes but I still had fame and was known a bit.
I am Jimin who knew that I could"ve gotten kicked out of Bighit. I lost much weight because people said I was too chubby and couldn"t dance correctly. The fans said they loved me cute but I knew, if I didn"t lose weight but gain more, they would start saying it too.
I am Kim Taehyung but also V. I am close to Jungkook and often had to speak my name to the CEO because he kept forgetting my name. I was the hidden member and I felt sad that I wasn"t included in the vlog.
I am Jungkook. I overshown because I was cute. I have to do aegyo because I was the Maknae. I was known for my talent and face. I worry for the safety of others and yet I felt I was still in 7th grade.
We are BTS but we would"ve been ordinary people if we didn"t last long enough. We have come this far and earned recognition or our faces, personality and popularity.
I am an ARMY. I felt the need of comfort and BTS had some small fame back then. I felt that they were cute and watched over them for over 5 years, this year is currently 2019. I thought BTS coming to America was a good thing but I slowly found out that they were a bit different in the TV shows in America. They were professional unlike in Korea. I thought that I would have more brothers and sisters who were encouraged by BTS
But..
I gained less and lost much. I started losing interest because all I can watch was small clips of bts over and over again. I couldn"t afford some merch because of my age and I couldn"t afford the time because of my studies. I started having fake friends around me and being laughed at for being a BTS fan. I started hating them but they still said they loved ARMY and that they wouldn"t care if the haters hated them. I slowly felt more encouraged and made new good friends. I believed that I loved their faces and so called talent but I finally knew that I loved their personality, bond, honesty, and their trust in us.
I was glad I overturned my madness and became a complete loyal fan. I was faking an act at school but now I am truly winning my confidence with BTS on my side.
My mask has come off and my memories were my past.