What will we do with the extra money?
I look back behind the stage curtain and Franks and The Five are smiling at me. People are clapping like mad now. Everyone is smiling, and I notice that there are people crying in the audience, which makes me feel very strange.
$7,628.54.
This can"t be right.
$23,425.76.
I almost c.r.a.p myself.
$62,981.72.
"What is going on?" I yell to Franks, sorta laughing now, because there is no way we raised that much money.
He winks at me from offstage.
$121,521.09.
Suddenly I notice news cameras in the aisles, camera crews and news reporters.
$215,671.87.
The last number flashes on the screen several times and then the words Grand Total appear for a few seconds.
Suddenly-Bobby Big Boy and I are standing on the stage alone now, and the auditorium is completely silent.
The screen goes blank.
What the h.e.l.l is going on?
These words flash up on the screen: A Message From Amber"s Nemesis Suddenly, Joan of Old"s head is on the screen, which completely shocks me for obvious reasons. The shot is a close-up, so her wrinkly face is gigantic. I can see the pillow behind her head, and it looks like she is having trouble breathing. Her wrinkly eyelids look really pink and her skin looks like wax, or maybe ancient cheese.
"I"m probably already dead by now," Joan of Old"s pink wrinkly enormous eyeless head says. "For those of you who don"t know, Amber and I used to battle every Wednesday afternoon. Her strange little boyfriends recorded this several days ago, which was fortuitous, because I am probably gone and buried by now, yes-but especially because I vowed to make Amber cry before I died, and I always keep my word, Ms. Appleton, Princess of Hope. Today is the day I defeat you, once and for all. The doctors say this is the end of the road for me. It"s about time. My body is going to return to dust. Good riddance! Now I understand the town is having some sort of pep rally for you because of what happened to your mother and because you were so constantly on your guard that you are no longer able to defend yourself, like Nietzsche said. I hear you"ve lost hope, and-regardless of my philosophical views-you"re far too young for that. What will you have to look forward to in old age, if you become a nihilist before you hit eighteen?"
Joan of Old starts coughing very badly here, but then recovers.
"I want to say two things to you before I die. One. My Lawrence was a German philosophy professor, hence my obsession with Nietzsche. Here is a quote I never got around to sharing with you: *We should consider every day lost on which we have not danced at least once. And we should call every truth false which was not accompanied by at least one laugh." That was my Lawrence"s favorite quote. He used to dance me around the house every night. Every. Single. Night. And how we would laugh. He was a beautiful man, who died far too young, but he would have absolutely loved you. Keep making people laugh, Amber. At least until you are old and gray. Laugh at yourself and others will always laugh with you. Even mean old defeated women like me."
Joan of Old coughs again.
"Two. I"ve got some bucks left over-and I"m leaving my entire estate to The Amber Appleton Community Service College Fund, which is what your friends have established without your knowing it. My son Teddy hasn"t come to visit me in eleven years, so screw him! Bye-bye, Amber. See you in h.e.l.l."
Joan of Old smiles the last grin of a dying woman-which is huge and beautiful-and then she says, "I finally got you, didn"t I?"
I"m crying now onstage even though I"m not exactly sure what is happening.
The film cuts to the old folk"s common room at the home. My old able-legged silver-haired friends are gathered around my wheelchair-bound silver-headed friends. With his oxygen bottle by his side, Old Man Linder steps forward and says, "Kid, you were the only one who came to visit us when we needed a good laugh. Life is a long, long race, and the finish is often lonely. Even our own flesh and blood-many of our sons and daughters-abandoned us at some point, so when we heard about what happened to your mother, we all wrote you into our wills. Some of us are giving more than others, but you should be all set covering your Bryn Mawr tuition over the next five years or so. Maybe there"ll be some left over for law school too."
The audience is clapping now, camera crews are rolling film, women are crying, and I"m still not sure what the h.e.l.l is going on.
But then Franks and The Five walk out onto the stage.
Franks has a live microphone. He says, "I"ve never met a person with more spirit, I"ve never met a person with more hope and love in her heart, I"ve never met a more deserving person than Amber Appleton. She never thinks of herself first. She"s always thinking up some crazy scheme to help others, whether they want help or not. Well, Amber, this time it was The Five who thought up a plan to help you in your time of need."
Ricky, Chad on Das Boot, Jared, Ty, and Lex Pinkston dressed as a Puerto Rican gang member-they are all smiling at me.
"You are loved, Amber Appleton," Franks says.
"So this money is for me?" I ask.
"It"s your college fund."
"What about Bobby Big Boy"s operation? How will I pay for that?"
"She wants to know how she"s going to pay for her dog"s operation," Franks says into his microphone, and the audience starts laughing-as if everyone is in on the joke except me.
Dr. Weissmuller stands up in the third row, smiles, and yells, "On the house!"
The audience cheers again, and then some bright loser starts yelling, "Speech! Speech! Speech!"
The chant catches on, and then Franks is handing me the live microphone.
I"m still crying a little.
"Thank you, everyone. I"m not really sure this is real, or what it means exactly. I hope my mom is looking down on us tonight," I say and then pause, because I start to cry a little harder.
I swallow and think about my mom.
She"d have liked to see this.
She would have c.r.a.pped her pants when that last number flashed up on the screen.
"I don"t know what else to say. I"m speechless. Thanks."
I hand the live microphone back to Franks, and he says, "Thanks for coming, everyone. You make me proud to live in Childress-the town that takes care of its own. Drive home safely!"
And before he sees me coming, I give Franks a big old teddy-bear hug right onstage-getting my arms halfway around his big belly and sinking my tear-streaked face into his chest.
Surprisingly, he hugs me back, and I smile and close my eyes-savoring the moment.
"You"re a good man, Franks," I say. "You really are. True."
"How about you give the rest of us some love, sweetheart?" Chad says.
But before I can answer, I"m rushed by a bunch of reporters who stick cameras in my face and ask me all sorts of personal questions about my mom.
Before I can even think, Donna is onstage, yelling, "My client has no comment at the present moment! Boys, let"s get her out of here!"
So I say a quick goodbye to PJ, FC, The KDFCs, DWL, The Hard-Working Brothers, Old Man Thompson, and- "Get the h.e.l.l out of here already before those reporters lynch you," Old Man Linder yells at me, and then squeezes my shoulder like he always does.
The Five gets me the h.e.l.l out of there, leaving Das Boot behind, because it doesn"t fit into Donna"s Mercedes. No worries. Mr. Fox will take Das Boot home in the Fox family van.
In the car I pet BBB, hug my boys and thank them for getting everyone to partic.i.p.ate in the show, filming Joan of Old, and raising money for my college fund, which is pretty amazing. I even thank Lex, who is still dressed as a Puerto Rican gang member and is somehow smushed in the car with us-making us The Six and no longer The Five.
Donna says, "Sundaes at my place!"
After a quick stop at the food store, I wash my hands, make proper sundaes in Donna"s kitchen for my boys, and then we celebrate the night by sharing ice cream and sword fighting with spoons. True.
After everyone is finished eating, the boys go to Ricky"s room to play Halo 3, and Donna and I wash dishes in the kitchen.
"What the h.e.l.l happened tonight?" I ask.
"The town of Childress came together and tried the best they could to make a wrong right. And I"m not talking about the money. They came together in the auditorium, gave their time to say that they care."
"Why?"
"Because most people are good," Donna says, and then pa.s.ses me a rinsed bowl.
I stick it into the dishwasher and say, "Did they make a wrong right?"
"What do you think?"
"It doesn"t bring my mom back. It doesn"t erase what happened-which is still messed up beyond imagination. Whack."
"No, it doesn"t. And yes, it still is."
"So I really have access to all that money?" I ask, shoving a handful of spoons into the dishwasher utensil bin.
"No," Donna says while rinsing the last ice cream bowl. "You have a college fund that you can use to pay college and graduate school tuition. I drew up all of the papers."
"What happens if I don"t use the money?"
"Why wouldn"t you use the money? You"re still planning on going to Bryn Mawr and then Harvard, right?"
"Yeah, but maybe I"ll get scholarships-like you did."
"I thought of that."
"You did?"
"If you get to go to school for free, you can donate the money to the charity of your choice."
"Really?"
"Really."
"So I could like-donate all of the money to the Childress Public High School Business Department so that Franks could maybe build a killer cla.s.sroom and get out of the bas.e.m.e.nt? Or maybe, at least, he could get some windows put in and he wouldn"t have to buy all of his own supplies using his own personal money?"
"You could do something like that. Absolutely."
I smile, thinking of all the good hooey I can do for others with the money.
CHAPTER 58.
When the junior prom rolls around, Donna rents Ricky and me a stretch limo. I wear my silver dress. Ricky wears his tuxedo. Donna has flowers for both of us. We take a c.r.a.pload of pictures in the backyard, and then we go to Ty"s house and pick him up. He"s still got the beard, but he looks dashing in a navy blue tuxedo. Mr. and Mrs. Hendrix take pictures of Ricky, Ty, and me for-like-an hour, and then we jump into the limo and tell the driver to take us to Jared"s and Chad"s house, where they are waiting with their dates-Carla Winslow and Sally Craig-from the cheerleading squad. These girls are bimbo airheads, but for my boys, I"m super nice to both of them. Mr. and Mrs. Fox take pictures of all of us in various poses for another hour, and then we are in the limo again-off to the local Hilton reception room where our junior prom is held, with Mr. Fox following us in the Fox van, which transports Das Boot for Chad.
When we arrive, we get Chad into Das Boot, and then we make our entrance.
Franks is a greeter, which means he has to check our breath for alcohol.
So we walk in all staggering, pretending to be hammered.
"Want some vodka?" I ask Franks.
"I"ll probably need some by the end of the night," Franks says to me, and we all laugh.
"How do I look, Franks?"
"All of you look great," Franks says, and Carla and Sally giggle at that one.
At the prom we eat good food, we dance to the music the DJ plays, we mix in with Lex Pinkston and all of the football players and their cheerleader dates. I split the slow dances equally between Ricky and Ty. And when they play "Always And Forever" at the end, all members of The Five and Sally and Carla dance in a big circle with our arms linked-and our teachers watching and waiting to go home. It"s all pretty silly, really.
When the prom is over, we put Das Boot into the Fox van, hop into our limo, and drive to Ty"s parents" beach house in Long Beach Island, or LBI. Mr. Fox follows us down with Das Boot, because he is a good dad.
Ty"s parents" house is actually right on the beach, so after we get Das Boot into the house and Mr. Fox leaves, we put Chad in a backpack and hit the sand to do some stargazing.
Barefoot, but still in our tuxedos and dresses, we run along the edge of the ocean, the water licking our ankles-laughing and singing like the kids we are.
Somehow we decide to spend the entire night on the beach so we can see the sunrise.
We pick out a spot in front of Ty"s parents" house.
We lie down on the sand making this big pile of teenagers.
We look up into the universe, and we get pretty quiet as we marvel.
Everyone falls asleep except me.
I think about my mom.