G.o.d, I hoped he didn"t want to live here permanently. I mean, I did have school to go back to eventually. We hadn"t exactly gotten around to discussing where we"d live. But the thought of Martha, Jimmy and Adrian being around all the time sent me into a panic. s.h.i.t. I couldn"t afford to think like that. Negativity would swallow me whole. What was important was being with David. Sticking together and making it work.
How horrible, being forced to live in the lap of luxury with my wonderful husband. Poor me. I needed a good slap and a cup of coffee. Or twelve hours" sleep. Either would work wonders.
He drew the curtains, blocking out the dawn"s early light. "You look beat. Come lie down with me?"
"That"s, umm ... yeah, good idea. I"ll just use the bathroom."
"Okay." David started stripping, dumping his leather jacket on the lounge chair, pulling off his T-shirt. The normal hoorah of my hormones was sorely missing in action. Drowned out by the nerves. I fled into the bathroom, needing a minute to pull myself together. I closed the door and switched on the lights. The room blazed to life, blinding me. Spots flickered before my eyes. I stabbed switches at random until finally it dimmed to a soft glow. Much better.
A giant white tub that looked like a bowl, gray stone walls and clear gla.s.s part.i.tions. Simply put, it was opulent. One day I"d probably become inured to all this, but I hoped not. Taking it for granted would be terrible.
A shower would soothe me. Sitting in the giant soup bowl would have been nice. But I didn"t totally trust myself to get into it without falling on my b.u.t.t and breaking something. Not in the overtired, wound-up state I was in.
No, a long, hot shower would be perfect.
I stepped out of my flats and undid the zip on my jeans, getting undressed in record time. The shower could have fit me and ten close friends. Steaming hot water poured out from overhead and I stepped into it, grateful. It pounded down in the best way possible, making my muscles more pliable in minutes, relaxing me. I loved this shower. This shower and I needed to spend quality time together, often. Apart from David, and occasionally Mal, this shower was the best d.a.m.n thing in the whole house.
David"s arms slipped around me from behind, drawing me back against him. I hadn"t even heard him come in.
"Hi." I leaned back against him, lifting my arms to thread them around his neck. "I think I"m in love with your shower."
"You"re cheating on me with the shower? d.a.m.n, Evelyn. That"s harsh." He picked up a bar of soap and started washing me, rubbing it over my belly, my b.r.e.a.s.t.s, softly between my legs. Once the soap suds had reached critical ma.s.s he helped the warm water chase the bubbles away. His big hands slid over my skin, bringing it to life and returning my hormones to me tenfold. One strong arm wrapped around my waist. The fingers of his other hand, however, lingered atop my s.e.x, stroking lightly.
"I know you"re worried about being here. But you don"t need to be. Everything"ll be fine." His lips brushed against my ear as the magic he was working on me grew. I could feel myself turning liquid hot like the water. My thighs trembled. I widened my stance, giving him more room.
"I-I know."
"It"s you and me against the world."
I couldn"t have kept the smile off my face if I tried.
"My lovely wife. Let"s go this way." With careful steps he turned us, so that his back was to the water. I braced my hands on the gla.s.s wall. The tip of his finger teased between the lips of my s.e.x, coaxing me open. G.o.d, he was good at this. "Your p.u.s.s.y is the sweetest f.u.c.king thing I"ve ever seen."
My insides fluttered with delight. "Whatever I did to deserve you, I need to do it much more often."
He chuckled, his mouth fixing to the side of my neck and sucking, making me groan. I swear the room spun. Or that might have been my blood rushing about. For certain, my hips bucked of their own volition. But he didn"t let me go far. The hard length of him pressed against my b.u.t.t and my lower back. My s.e.x clenched unhappily, aching for more.
"David."
"Hmm?"
I tried to turn but his splayed hand against my middle stopped me. "Let me."
"Let you what? What do you want, baby? Tell me and it"s yours."
"I just want you."
"You"ve got me. I"m all over you. Feel." He pressed himself hard against me, holding me tight.
"But-"
"Now, let"s see what happens when I strum your c.l.i.t."
Feather light strokes worked me higher and higher, all centered around that one magic spot. No great surprise he could play me to perfection. He"d already proven it several times over. And the way he rubbed himself against me drove me out of my mind. My body knew exactly what it wanted and it wasn"t his d.a.m.n clever fingers. I wanted to feel that connection with him again.
"Wait," I said, my voice high and needy.
"What, baby?"
"I want you inside of me."
He eased a finger into me, ma.s.saging an area behind my c.l.i.t that made me see stars. Still, it was wrong, wildly insufficient. Not a bit funny. It would be a tragedy to have to kill him but he was really pushing it.
"David. Please."
"No good?"
"I want you."
"And I want you. I"m crazy about you."
"But-"
"How about I get you off with a shower head? Wouldn"t that be nice?"
I actually stamped my foot, despite my wobbling knees. "No."
At which point my husband cracked up laughing and I hated him.
"I thought you were in love with the shower," he t.i.ttered away, highly amused with himself and all but begging for death.
Tears of frustration actually welled in my eyes. "No."
"You sure? I"m pretty certain I remember hearing you say it."
"David, for f.u.c.k"s sake, I"m in love with you."
He stilled completely. Even the finger embedded within me stopped moving. There was only the sound of the water falling. You"d think those words would have lost their power. Weren"t we already married? Hadn"t we decided to stay married? Invoking the L-word should have lost its mystical punch, given our crazy situation. But it hadn"t.
Everything changed.
Strong hands turned me and lifted me, leaving my feet dangling precariously in the air. It took me a second to figure out where I was and what had happened. I wrapped my legs and arms around him for safe-keeping, holding on tight. His face ... I"d never seen such a fierce, determined expression. It went well beyond l.u.s.t and closer toward being what I needed from him.
His hands gripped my rear, taking my weight and holding me to him. Slowly, steadily, he lowered me on to him. There was none of the pain this time to rob me of pleasure. Nothing to distract me from the feel of him filling me. It was such a strange, wonderful sensation, having him inside of me. I squirmed, trying to get more comfortable. Instantly, his fingers dug into my b.u.t.t cheeks.
"f.u.c.k," he groaned.
"What?"
"Just, just stay still for a minute."
I scrunched up my nose, concentrated on catching my breath. This s.e.x stuff was tricky. Also, I wanted to memorize every moment of this perfect experience. I didn"t want to forget a thing.
He balanced my back against the shower wall and pushed more fully into me. A startled sound burst out of my mouth. Most closely it resembled "argh".
"Easy," he murmured. "You okay?"
I felt really full. Stretched. And it might have felt good. It was hard to tell. I needed him to do something so I could figure out where this new sensation was taking me. "Are you going to move now?"
"If you"re okay now."
"I"m okay."
He did move then, watching my face all the while. The slide out lit me up inside in a lovely rush, but the thrust back in got my immediate attention. Whoa. Good or bad, I still couldn"t quite tell. I needed more. He gave it to me, his pelvis shifting against me, keeping the warmth and tension building. My blood felt fever hot, surging through me, burning beneath my skin. I fit my mouth to his, wanting more. Wanting it all. The wet of his mouth and the skill of his tongue. All of him. No one kissed like David. As though kissing me beat breathing, eating, sleeping or anything else he might have otherwise planned to do with the rest of his life.
My back b.u.mped hard against the gla.s.s wall and our teeth clinked together. He broke the kiss with a wary look, but he never stopped moving. Harder, faster, he rocked into me. It just got better and better. We needed to do this all the time. Constantly. Nothing else mattered when it was like this between us. Every worry disappeared.
It was so d.a.m.n good. He was all that I needed.
Then he hit upon some spot inside of me and my whole body seized up, nerves tingling and running riot. My muscles squeezed him tight and he thrust in deep several times in rapid succession. The world blacked out or I closed my eyes. The pressure inside me shattered into a million amazing pieces. It went on and on. My mind left the stratosphere, I was sure of it. Everything sparkled. If it felt anything like that for David, I don"t know how he stayed on his feet. But he did. He stood strong and whole with me clutched tight against him like he"d never let me go.
Eventually, about a decade later, he did set me down. His hands hovered by my waist, just in case. Once my limbs proved trustworthy, he turned me to face the water. With a gentle hand, he cleaned me between my legs. I didn"t get what he was up to at first and tried to back away. Touching anything there right then didn"t seen a smart idea.
"It"s okay," he said, drawing me back into the spray of water. "Trust me."
I stood still, flinching out of instinct. He took nothing but care. The whole world seemed weird, everything too close and yet buffered at the same time. Weariness and the best o.r.g.a.s.m of my life had undone me.
Next he reached over and turned off the water, stepped out and grabbed two towels. One he tied around his waist, the other he patted me dry with.
"That was good, right?" I asked as he dried off my hair, tending to me. My body still shook and quivered. It seemed like a good sign. My world had been torn apart and remade into some sparkly surreal love-fest thing. If he said it was only okay I might hit him.
"That was f.u.c.king incredible," he corrected, pulling off his towel and throwing it onto the bathroom counter.
Even my grin quivered. I saw it in the mirror. "Yes. It was."
"Us together, always is."
Hand in hand we walked back into the bedroom. Being naked in front of him didn"t feel weird for once. There was no hesitation. He discarded his towel and we climbed onto his giant-sized bed, gravitating naturally toward the middle and each other. We both lay on our sides, face to face. I could slip into a coma, I was so worn out. Such a pity to have to close my eyes when he lay right there in front of me. My husband.
"You swore at me," he said, eyes amused.
"Did I?"
His hand sat atop of my thigh, his thumb sliding back and forth over my hip bone. "Gonna pretend you don"t remember what you said? Really?"
"No. I remember." Though I hadn"t meant to say it, neither the cuss word nor the declaration of love. But I had. Big girl panties time. "I said I was in love with you."
"Mm. People say stuff during s.e.x. It happens."
He was giving me an out but I couldn"t take it. I wouldn"t take it, no matter how tempting. I wasn"t about to diminish the moment like that.
"I am in love with you." I said, feeling awkward. The same as when I"d said I trusted him, he was going to leave me hanging here too. I knew it.
His gaze lingered on my face, patient and kind. It hurt. Something inside me felt brittle and he brought it straight to the fore. Love made spelunking look sensible. BASE jumping and wrestling bears couldn"t be far behind. But it was much, much too late to worry. The words were already out there. If love was for fools then so be it. At least I"d be an honest one.
He stroked my face with the back of his fingers. "That was a beautiful thing to say."
"David, it"s okay-"
"You"re so f.u.c.king important to me," he said, stopping me short. "I want you to know that."
"Thank you." Ouch, not exactly the words I wanted to hear after I admitted I loved him.
Rising up on one elbow, he brought his lips to mine, kissing me silly. Stroking my tongue with his and taking me over. It left no room for worry.
"I need you again," he whispered, kneeling between my legs.
This time we did make love. There was no other word for it. He rocked into me at his own pace, pressing his cheek against mine, scratching me with his stubble. His voice went on and on, whispering secrets in my ear. How no one had ever been this right for him. How he wanted to stay just like this as long as could. Sweat dripped off his body, running over my skin before soaking into the bed sheet. He made himself a permanent part of me. It was bliss. Sweet, tender, and slow. Maddeningly slow near the end.
It felt like it went on for forever. I wish it had.
CHAPTER SIXTEEN.
Adrian went ballistic over the bruises on David"s face. He didn"t seem too pleased to see me again, either. There was a brief flash of shark"s teeth before I was hustled into a corner of the big dressing room out of harm"s way. Security stood outside, letting only those invited into the inner sanctum.
The show was in a ballroom at one of the big, fancy hotels in town. Lots of twinkling chandeliers and red satin, big round tables crammed full of stars and the pretty-people posses that accompanied them. Luckily, I"d worn a blue dress, the only one that remotely covered everything, and a pair of the mile-high shoes Martha had ordered. Kaetrin, the Bikini Girl, David"s old friend, had been on the other side of the room, wearing a red frock and a scowl. She was going to get wrinkles if she kept that up. Happily, she got bored with pouting at me after a while, and wandered away. I didn"t blame her for being mad. If I"d lost David, I"d be p.i.s.sed too. Women hovered near David, hoping for his attention. I could have high-fived someone over the way he ignored them.
There was no sign of Jimmy. Mal sat with a stunning Asian girl on one knee and a busty blonde on the other, much too busy to talk to me. I still hadn"t met the fourth member of the band, Ben.
"Hey," David said, exchanging my untouched gla.s.s of Cristal for a bottle of water. "Thought you might prefer this. Everything okay?"
"Thank you. Yes. Everything"s great."
Wonderful man, he knew I still hadn"t recovered enough from Vegas to risk the taste of alcohol. He nodded and pa.s.sed the gla.s.s of champagne off to a waiter. Then he started slipping out of his leather jacket. Other people might put on tuxedos but David stuck to his jeans and boots. His one concession to the occasion was a black b.u.t.ton-down shirt. "Do me a favor and put this on."
"You don"t like my dress?"
"Sure I do. But the air-conditioning"s a bit cold in here," he said, wrapping the jacket around my shoulders.
"No, it"s not."
He gave me a lopsided grin that would have melted the hardest of hearts. Mine didn"t stand a chance. With an arm either side of my head he leaned in, blocking out the rest of the room and everyone in it.