"I don"t want to hear any more argument," he exclaimed, facing her quite suddenly. His eyes had a light she had never seen in them before. "Monday you will go with me and attend to the necessary legal papers. After that, I"ll attend to the means of getting there."
He stood looking down at her where she sat with her hands clasped in her lap, staring up at him steadfastly from under her eyebrows. His face softened, quivered until she thought he was going to cry like a woman.
But he only came and laid a shaking hand on her head and smoothed her hair as one caresses a child.
"Don"t oppose me in this, Babe," he said wearily. "I"ve thought it all out, and it"s best for all of us. I can"t see you dying here by inches--in the harness. And think of Vic, if that happened. He"s just at the age where he needs you. I couldn"t do anything much with him alone.
It"s the best thing to do, the only thing to do. Don"t say anything more against it, don"t argue. When the time comes, you"ll do your part bravely, as I shall do mine. And if you feel that it isn"t worth while for yourself, think of Vic."
Peter turned abruptly and went into his room, and Helen May dropped her head down upon her arms and cried awhile, though she did not clearly understand why, except that life seemed very cruel, like some formless monster that caught and squeezed the very soul out of one. Soon she heard Vic coming, and pulled herself together for the lecture he had earned by going out without permission and staying later than he should. On one point dad was right, she told herself wearily, while she was locking up for the night. Town certainly was no place for Vic.
The next day, urged by her father, Helen May met Johnny Calvert, and cooked him a nice dinner, and heard a great deal about her new claim. And Monday, furthermore, the three attended to certain legal details. She had many moments of panic when she believed her father was out of his mind, and when she feared that he would do some desperate thing like stealing money to carry out this strange plan. But she did as he wished. There was a certain inflexible quality in Peter"s mild voice, a certain determination in his insignificant face that required obedience to his wishes. Even Vic noticed it, and eyed Peter curiously, and asked Helen May what ailed the old man.
An old man Peter was when he went to his room that night, leaving Helen May dazed and exhausted after another evening spent in absorbing queer bits of information from the garrulous Johnny Calvert. She would be able to manage all right, now, Peter told her relievedly when Johnny left. She knew as much about the place as she could possibly know without having been there.
He said good night and left her wondering bewilderedly what strange thing her dad would do next. In the morning she knew.
Peter did not answer when Helen May rapped on his door and said that breakfast would be ready in five minutes. Never before had he failed to call out: "All right, Babe!" more or less cheerfully. She waited a minute, listening, and then rapped again and repeated her customary announcement. Another wait, and she turned the k.n.o.b and looked in.
She did not scream at what she found there. Vic, sleeping on the couch behind a screen in the living room, yawned himself awake and proceeded reluctantly to set his feet upon the floor and grope, sleepy-eyed, for his clothes, absolutely unconscious that in the night sometime Peter had pa.s.sed a certain mountain of difficulty and had reached out unafraid and pulled wide open the door of opportunity for his children.
Beyond the door, Helen May was standing rigidly beside the bed where Peter lay, and was reading for the second time the letter which Peter had held in his hand. At first her mind had refused to grasp its meaning.
Now, reading slowly, she knew ...
Dear Babe, (said the letter).
Don"t be horrified at what I have done. I have thought the whole matter over calmly, and I am satisfied that this is the best way. My life could not go on very long, anyway. The doctor made that plain enough to me Sunday. I saw him. I was in a bad way with kidney trouble, he said. I knew it before he told me. I knew I was only good for a few months more at the most, and I would soon be a helpless burden. Besides, I have heart trouble that will account for this sudden taking off, so you can escape any unpleasant gossip.
Take the life insurance and use it on that claim, for you and Vic. Live out in the open and get well, and make a man of Vic. Three thousand dollars ought to be ample to put the ranch on a paying basis. And don"t blame your dad for collecting it now, when it will do the most good. I could see no benefit in waiting and suffering, and letting you get farther downhill all the while, making it that much harder to climb back.
Go at once to your claim, and do your best--that is what will make your dad happiest. You will get well, and you will make a home for you and Vic, and be independent and happy. In doing this you will fulfill the last, loving wish of your father.
PETER STEVENSON.
P.S. Better stock the place with goats. Johnny Calvert thinks they would be better than sheep.
CHAPTER THREE
VIC SHOULD WORRY
Wise man or fool, Peter had taken the one way to impress obedience upon Helen May. Had he urged and argued and kept on living, Helen May could have brought forth reasons and arguments, eloquence even, to combat him.
But Peter had taken the simple, unanswerable way of stating his wishes, opening the way to their accomplishment, and then quietly lying back upon his pillow and letting death take him beyond reach of protest.
For days Helen May was numb with the sudden dropping of Life"s big responsibilities upon her shoulders. She could not even summon energy enough to call Vic to an accounting of his absences from the house. Until after the funeral Vic had been subdued, going around on his toes and looking at Helen May with wide, solemn eyes and lips p.r.o.ne to trembling.
But fifteen years is the resilient age, and two days after Peter was buried, Vic asked her embarra.s.sedly if she thought it would look right for him to go to the ball game. He had to do _something_, he added defensively.
"Oh, I guess so; run along," Helen May had told him absently, without in the least realizing what it was he had wanted to do. After that Vic went his way without going through the ceremony of asking her consent, secure in the knowledge of her indifference.
The insurance company for which she had worked set in motion the wheels that would eventually place in her hands the three thousand dollars for which Peter had calmly given his life. She hated the money. She wanted to tell her dad how impossible it was for her to use a cent of it. Yet she must use it. She must use it as he had directed, because he had died to open the way for her obedience. She must take Vic, against his violent young will, she suspected, and she must go to that claim away off there somewhere in the desert, and she must live in the open--and raise goats!
For there was a certain strain of Peter"s simplicity in the nature of his daughter. His last scrawled advice was to her a command which she must obey as soon as she could muster the physical energy for obedience.
"What do I know about goats!" she impatiently asked her empty room one morning after a night of fantastic dreams. "They eat tin cans and paper, and Masonic candidates ride them, and they stand on high banks and look silly, and have long chin whiskers and horns worn back from their foreheads. But as to _raising_ them--what are they good for, for heaven"s sake?"
"Huh? Say, what are you mumbling about?" Vic, it happened, was awake, and Helen May"s door was ajar.
"Oh, nothing." Then the impulse of speech being strong in her, Helen May pulled on a kimono and went out to where Vic lay curled up in the blankets on the couch. "We"ve got to go to New Mexico, Vic, and, live on that land dad bought the rights to, and raise goats!"
"Yes, we have--not!"
"We have. Dad said so. We"ve got to do it, Vic. I expect we"d better start as soon as the insurance is paid, and that ought to be next week.
Malpais is the name of the darned place. Inez Garcia says Malpais means bad country. I asked her when she was here yesterday. I expect it does, though you can"t tell about Inez. She"s tricky about translating stuff; she thinks it"s funny to fake the meaning of things. But I expect it"s true; it sounds like that."
"I should worry," Vic yawned, with the bland triteness of a boy who speaks mostly in current catch phrases. "I"ve got a good chance for a juvenile part in that big five-reeler Walt"s going to put on. Fat chance anybody"s got putting _me_ to herding goats! That New Mexico dope got my number the first time dad sprung it. Not for mine!"
Helen May sat down on the arm of a Mission chair, wrapped her kimono around her thin figure, and looked at Vic from under her lashes. Besides raising goats and living out in the open, she was to make a man of Vic.
She did not know which duty appalled her most, or which animal seemed to her the more intractable.
"We"ve got to do it," she said simply. "I don"t like it either, but that doesn"t matter. Dad planned that way for us."
Vic sat up crossly, groping for the top b.u.t.ton of his pajama coat. His long hair was tousled in front and stood straight up at the back, and his lids were heavy yet with sleep. He looked very young and very unruly, and as though several years of grace were still left to Helen May before she need trouble herself about his manhood.
"Not for mine," he repeated stubbornly. "You can go if you want to, but I"m going to stay in pictures." No film star in the city could have surpa.s.sed Vic"s tone of careless a.s.surance. "Listen! Dad was queer along towards the last. You know that yourself. And just because he had a nutty idea of a ranch somewhere, is no reason why we should drop everything--"
"We"ve got to do it, and you needn"t fuss, because you"ve got to go along. I expect we can study up--on goats." Her voice shook a little, for she was close to tears.
"Well, I"m darned if you ain"t as nutty as dad was! Of course, he was old and sick, and there was plenty of excuse for him to slop down along towards the last. Now, listen! My idea is to get a nifty bungalow out there handy to the studios, and both of us to go into pictures. We can get a car; what I want is a speedy, sa.s.sy little boat that can _travel_.
Well, and listen. We"ll have plenty to live on till we both land in stock. I"ve got a good chance right now to work into a comedy company; they say my grin screens like a million dollars, and when it comes to making a comedy getaway I"m just geared right, somehow, to pull a laugh.
That college picture we made got me a lot of notice in the projection room, and I was only doing mob stuff, at that. But I stood out. And Walt"s promised me a fat little bit in this five-reeler. I"ll land in stock before the summer"s half over!
"And you can land with some good company if you just make a stab at it.
Your eyes and that trick of looking up under your eyebrows are just the type for these sob leads, and you"ve got a good photographic face: a _good_ face for it," he emphasized generously. "And your figure couldn"t be beat. Believe me, I know. You ought to see some of them Janes--and at that, they manage to get by with their stuff. A little camera experience, under a good director that would bring out your good points--I was going to spring the idea before, but I knew dad wouldn"t stand for it."
"But we"ve got to go and live on that claim. We"ve _got_ to."
Vic"s face purpled. "Say, are you plumb _bugs_? Why--" Vic gulped and stuttered. "Say, where do you get that stuff? You better tie a can to it, sis; it don"t get over with me. I"m for screen fame, and I"m going to get it too. Why, by the time I"m twenty, I"ll betcha I can pull down a salary that"ll make Charlie Chaplin look like an extra! Why, my grin--"
"Your grin you can use on the goats," Helen May quelled unfeelingly. "I only hope it won"t scare the poor things to death. You needn"t argue about it--as if I was crazy to go! Do you think I want to leave Los Angeles, and everybody I know, and everything I care about, and go to New Mexico and live like a savage, and raise goats? I"d rather go to jail, if you ask me. I hate the very thought of a ranch, Vic Stevenson, and you know I do. But that doesn"t matter a particle. Dad--"
"I told you dad was crazy!" Vic"s tone was too violent for grief. His young ambitions were in jeopardy, and even his dad"s death must look unimportant alongside the greater catastrophe that threatened. "Do you think, for gosh sake, the whole family"s got to be nutty just because he was sick and got a queer streak?"
"You"ve no right to say that. Dad--knew what he was doing."
"Aw, where do you get that dope?" Vic eyed her disgustedly, and with a good deal of condescension. "If you had any sense, you"d knew he was queer for days before it happened. _I_ noticed it, all right, and if you didn"t--"
Helen May did not say anything at all. She got up and went to her room and came back with Peter"s last, pitiful letter. She gave it to Vic and sat down again on the arm of the Mission chair and waited, looking at him from, under her lashes, her head tilted forward.
Vic was impressed, impressed to a round-eyed silence. He knew his dad"s handwriting, and he unfolded the sheet and read what Peter had written.