"A heaping-up of sh.e.l.ls . . . So high and so long - a hundred paces? I will measure it out. Many, many sh.e.l.ls."
The priest nodded. "It has taken many generations to build these middens. They are holy places for us. We bury the bones of our dead here. But, can you see, the sea is taking back the land . . ."
The ends of the midden arcs where they cut to the coast were eroded, worn down by the sea.
Shade held out his arms along the line of the midden. "Still, they are two bits of circles. Like those on your belly, on the stone flat on the beach, and now here in the ocean. This is how you know yourself. Circles in circles."
Jurgi said dryly, "Maybe you should be a priest."
"Oh, shut up," Ana said. She"d had enough; this was her night. She started to make her way down the midden. "Let him build his stupid fire. Come on, priest, let"s get to the boats before the tide turns."
A little fleet of boats pushed off from the island"s sandy sh.o.r.e, paddles lapping at the chill black water. The boats were frames of wood over which hide was stretched, dried and caulked with tallow.
Ana travelled in one boat, which was paddled by the priest and by Zesi in the place of her father. Mama Sunta sat in another boat with her daughter Rute, Ana"s aunt, and Rute"s husband Jaku. Ana"s eyes were used to the dark now, and she could see them all quite clearly in the misty moonlight. The paddlers all wore heavy fur mittens to protect their hands from the cold. Out on the water in the dark Ana felt small, terribly fragile, yet she had barely left the land. But her father, if he lived, was out on the breast of the wider ocean in a boat not much more substantial than this.
n.o.body spoke as the boats receded from the sh.o.r.e. Indeed it had been a long while since Sunta had said anything; she was just a heap of sealskin, with her crumpled white face barely visible beneath a hat of bear fur. Ana was glad of the silence, compared to the clamour and the foolishness that had plagued the day since the arrival of the Pretani boys.
Lost in her thoughts, she was startled by a noise coming from the dark, beyond the waves" lapping, a kind of shuffling, a snort of breath. The priest stopped paddling and put his finger to his lips. Then he pointed ahead.
Suddenly Ana saw a black shape like a hole cut neatly out of the moonlit sky. This was North Island, a sc.r.a.p of rock only exposed at low tide; already they had reached it.
And on its tiny foresh.o.r.e a bulky form stirred. It was a seal, a huge one, a bull.
The priest dipped his paddle in the water and, almost noiselessly, swung the boat around to bring Ana alongside the seal. Only paces separated them. The seal, clearly visible now in the moonlight, was looking straight back at Ana, quite still, its eyes pools of blackness. She could make out no colours in its pelt.
The priest smiled at her.
She understood why. The seal was the best Other of all. The seal was a survivor of the days before death had come to the world, when humans had lived among the animals, and had shifted forms from one kind to another as easily as ice melts to water. That had ended when the little mothers made their lethal bargain with the moon, and so had saved the whole world from starvation as the undying animals ate all there was to eat. But just as humans and animals now had to die, so they could no longer share each other"s forms. A human was for ever a human, a dog a dog. The seals, however, had been too busy playing to hear of the little mothers" bargain. And so they had become stuck in a middle form, neither of the land or the sea, with faces like dogs and bodies like fish, and there they had remained ever since, relics of a better time.
Ana couldn"t look away from the seal"s deep, heavy gaze.
But then, without warning, it slid off its rock, slipped into the water and vanished. The priest frowned, and Ana felt a stab of disappointment. Was the seal not to be her Other after all?
The boats, quietly paddled, drifted towards the island.
Jurgi nodded to Ana. "It is time."
She shucked off her cloak and opened up her tunic. Zesi helped her pull her boots off her feet. Then, uncertainly, the ring-symbol of Northland painted on her bare belly, she stood up in the boat and faced the island. The ice cold air was sharp on her flesh.
The priest turned to the second boat. "Mama Sunta . . ." Sunta, in the place of Ana"s mother, was to stand now, and drop into the ocean a rag stained with Ana"s first woman-blood, now dried and rust-brown. All this was to be performed in the light of the moon, the G.o.ddess of death, as a defiance of her dread legacy.
But Sunta didn"t move. Rute, her daughter, reached over and touched her shoulder. The old woman seemed to start awake, but her eyes were unseeing. She clutched at her belly, at the thing growing inside her. Ana, standing in the cold air, smelled an acrid stink of p.i.s.s and s.h.i.t; Sunta"s bowels had emptied. Then she fell back, limp, and sighed like a receding tide. Rute shook her. "Mama Sunta!" But Sunta moved no more.
And a clatter of wings came from the island. Ana, startled, would have fallen if Zesi had not helped her. She saw an owl, unmistakable, lift from a rocky ledge and make for the mainland, beating its great wings, its eerie flat face held before it.
Ana sat, shivering, and Zesi put her arms around her. "The owl," Ana said. The owl that dared hunt only at night, in the domain of the moon, the G.o.ddess of death. The owl that had flown into the air just as Sunta had died, bringing death to this unique moment of life. "The owl. My Other! No mother, no father, now this . . . Oh, Jurgi, can"t you help me?"
The priest leaned forward. "I am sorry. The Other chooses you . . . Come, Zesi, put a cloak around her."
From the other boat, in the dark, came the sound of Rute sobbing.
5.
Far around the curve of the world - to the west of Etxelur, beyond Albia"s forest-clad valleys, beyond an ocean flecked with ice and a handful of fragile skin boats - there was a land where the sun had not yet set. And a boy was crying.
"Dreamer, what"s wrong with him?" Moon Reacher plucked at Ice Dreamer"s sleeve. "Stone Shaper. Why is he crying?"
Ice Dreamer stopped walking and looked down at Moon Reacher, the girl"s red, windblown face, her tied-back nut-brown hair, her shapeless, grubby hide clothes scavenged from the bodies of the dead. Moon Reacher"s words seemed to come from another reality - perhaps from the Big House where your totem carried your spirit when you died. Words were human things. Ice Dreamer wasn"t in a human world, not any more.
This world, the land of the Sky Wolf, was a place of ground frozen hard as rock under her skin boots, and air so cold it was like a blade sliding in and out of her lungs, and, to the north, only ice, ice that shone with a pale, cruelly pointless beauty, ice as far as she could see. The only warmth in the whole world was in her belly, her own core, where her new baby lay dreaming dreams of the Big House she had so recently left. And Ice Dreamer didn"t even like to think about that, for when the baby came, who would there be to help her with the birth? All the women and girls were dead or lost, all save Moon Reacher, only eight years old. Maybe it would be better if the baby was never born at all, if she just stayed and grew old in the warmth and mindless safety of Dreamer"s womb.
Yet here was Moon Reacher, still tugging at her sleeve. "Dreamer! Why is Stone Shaper crying?"
Mammoth Talker loomed over them, ma.s.sive in his furs, his pack huge on his back, his treasured spear in his fist.
And beside him Stone Shaper was indeed crying again, shuddering silently, the tears frosting on his cheeks. His medicine bag hung around his neck. Even wrapped in his bearskin cloak Shaper looked skinny, weak; he was nineteen years old.
They were all that was left. The four of them might be the last of the True People, anywhere.
Mammoth Talker growled, "He cries because he is weak. Less than a priest. Less than a woman, than a child. That unborn thing in your belly, Dreamer. Shaper is less than that." Talker was somewhere over thirty years old, perpetually angry, irritated to be stopped yet again.
Dreamer shot back, "If he"s so weak, Talker, you should have taken the medicine bag when Wolf Dancer got himself killed. Reacher, I think he"s crying because he thinks this is his fault." She gestured. "The cold. The winter. He thinks he isn"t saying the right words to make the spring come."
"That"s silly," Reacher looked up at Shaper, and took his hand. "The winter"s bigger than you will ever be."
Shaper looked down at her, taking gulping breaths.
"She"s right," said Dreamer. "And you shouldn"t be wasting your strength on tears. Have you still got the fire safe?"
"Of course I have." He held up his medicine bag.
"Then you"re doing the most important job you have." She looked around. The world was a mouth of grey, the sky featureless, the tough gra.s.s on the ground frozen flat, the sun invisible. Trying to get some relief from the north wind they had been heading roughly east, skirting a bluff of rocks, soft brown stone worn by the wind into fantastic shapes. She turned to Mammoth Talker. "How late do you think it is?"
"How am I supposed to know? Ask him. Maybe the answer lies in the track of his tears."
"Oh, shut up." They were all tired, however early or late it was. Glancing across at the rock formation, she saw there was a kind of hollow under a ledge of stone, with a drift of soil underneath it. There was no source of water she could see, but there were old snow drifts in shadowed crevices above that lower ledge, ice they could melt. "Look at that. Maybe we could make a shelter for the night."
For a heartbeat it seemed Talker might refuse. His huge fist opened and closed around his spear, with its precious point bequeathed by his father, a blade as long as a man"s head, finely shaped, elaborately fluted. In his eyes he was the only hunter left, a hunter trailed by a gaggle of a woman, a boy-priest, and a child. He always wanted to go on, go further. But they had nowhere to go. "All right. Make your shelter." He shucked his pack off his shoulders and dropped it on the ground. "I"ll go find us something to eat. Take care of my spear points." He hoisted his spear and stalked off towards the south.
"Watch out for the Cowards. And bring back wood if you find it," Dreamer called after him, but if he heard he showed no sign of it.
"I"ll set the traps," Moon Reacher said. She took off her pack and dug into it, looking for the snares, loops of bison-sinew rope with sharp bone stakes to stick into the ground. "I bet there are jackrabbits around these rocks."
"Look out for running water, a spring. And be careful." Moving cautiously, trying not to strain the muscles of her belly, Dreamer lifted her own pack"s strap over her head, and let it fall to the ground beside Talker"s. "Come on, Shaper. Let"s see what we can make of this place."
Shaper unpicked Mammoth Talker"s heavy pack, which, aside from his carefully wrapped bundle of spear points, mostly consisted of skins, enough for a small house.
Dreamer crawled under the ledge, exploring. At the front the s.p.a.ce was high enough to kneel, but it narrowed at the back. Dry, dirty soil had been piled up here by the wind, along with dead gra.s.s and a handful of bones. There were animal scuts, small pellets, maybe gopher droppings - with any luck Moon Reacher would turn out to be right about the jackrabbits - and bigger t.u.r.ds, maybe from the scavenger that had brought the bones in here. She sc.r.a.ped the scuts and gra.s.s and bones into a heap. All of these would burn, but if Talker didn"t come back with wood it wouldn"t be enough.
As she sc.r.a.ped up the dung her baby, some six months since conception, kicked her hard. She winced, and had to rest.
She had a sudden, sharp memory of her own childhood, when she had been younger than Moon Reacher, and the houses, six, seven, eight of them, had stood by a lake where trees dipped into the water. That had been a place somewhere far to the south of here, south and east. She could surely never find it again, for the people had been walking away from it since before she had become a woman. All gone now, she supposed. Oh, the lake and the gra.s.sy plain would still be there. But now, if anybody lived there, it would be Cowards in their swarming numbers and shabby huts, and they would know nothing of the people who had gone before. And here she was burning t.u.r.ds, and melting snow to drink.
Stone Shaper clumsily lifted a hide sheet over the mouth of the hollow, dropped it, and bent to try again. With a sigh Ice Dreamer crawled out of the cave to help him. They used loose rocks to hold the hide in place, and shut out the breeze from the little cave. Once back inside, Dreamer sc.r.a.ped a pit in the sandy ground to make the hearth, and lined it with flat stones gathered from the back of the hollow.
Stone Shaper reverently unpacked his medicine bag. In with the precious stones, herbs and strange old bits of curved tooth was an ember of last night"s fire, wrapped in moss and soft leather. He made a bed of dry moss and bits of gra.s.s in the hearth, laid down the ember, and blew on it gently, adding shreds of moss one by one until a tiny flame caught. This he sheltered with his hands, and Ice Dreamer helped him, feeding the flame with dried gra.s.s from the cave. When the fire was burning they sat back. It gave off light but little heat; for that they would have to wait for Mammoth Talker"s return with some decent fuel.
"Mammoth Talker is right," said Stone Shaper. He loosened his tunic at the neck, and sat with his legs stretched out. "I am no priest. I am no man. I am shamed by my tears."
"Well, Talker isn"t much of a man himself to say such things. You"re the only priest we"ve got."
"I never wanted to be a priest." He flexed his hands. "I am Stone Shaper. That"s my name, that"s what I should do."
And, she thought bitterly, I never wanted to be Pregnant Woman, far from my grandmothers and aunts. "This is the pattern of our lives, Shaper. Why, do you think Wolf Dancer wanted to be a priest either? The last true priest was Eagle Seer, before the split . . ."
It had been fifteen years since the True People had abandoned the houses by the lake and walked north in search of hunting lands free of the presence of the Cowards. Eagle Seer had been raised on the march. But the priest before him, who Dreamer remembered as a tired old man called the Coyote, had made sure Seer had been trained the way a priest should be trained - from boyhood, from the moment it was clear the spirits had chosen him.
But there had been a split. When it began to seem that nowhere was free of the swarming Cowards, the hunters had started arguing among themselves. Dreamer remembered the long nights, the desperate men posturing and shouting, the women and children, hungry, exhausted, sitting at their feet and trying to keep warm. In the end the men could only agree to do what Ice Dreamer had always thought was the worst choice of all: to split up. Most had turned west. Some, including Mammoth Talker and Horse Driver, who was to become the father of Dreamer"s baby, chose east. The women and their children had to follow their men. Dreamer had said goodbye to her sister, her aunt, her mother.
And the only priest, Eagle Seer, had chosen to go west. Talker"s group could not survive without a priest, without a door to the world of the spirits. There was no time for Eagle Seer to raise a new priest in accordance with custom. But Seer did his best. Talker and Driver and the other men had chosen Wolf Dancer, and Seer worked hard to train that young man in the arts of healing and weather lore and talking to the dead. He even made Dancer a new medicine bag and filled it with treasures from his own - to much hostility from those he would walk with, who thought he was diluting their own protection.
Well, since the split Ice Dreamer had heard nothing of those who had gone west; even if they lived they were dead to her. One by one her own party had dwindled, as the old and the young failed to keep the pace, and anybody who fell ill was quickly lost. She had been dismayed to find herself pregnant.
And then had come the night of the flood. It had been Horse Driver"s fault, Driver who insisted he had seen caribou in the shadow of a grimy glacier that scoured down from an eroded mountain. He had led them to the sh.o.r.e of a chill lake at the glacier"s foot, and left the women and children to make camp while the men hunted shadows. n.o.body had wanted to be there. They believed that glaciers were the claws of the Sky Wolf, who had smashed the good earth, making it dark and cold and wiping the land clean of game. Driver would not listen.
Well, the Sky Wolf had stirred in his sleep that night. A great piece of his glacier-claw broke away, and a wave of slushy water washed over their poor camp. Only four had survived, or five if you counted the child in Dreamer"s belly: Dreamer herself, Mammoth Talker, orphaned Moon Reacher, and poor Stone Shaper, who the hunters had thought was too weak to go with them, and who had found the dead priest"s medicine bag.
Now Shaper, exhausted, hungry, stared into the fragment of flame. He fingered the bits of curved tooth in his bag. "I was thinking about our totems," he said. "Here are the three of us, named for the bare bones of the world, ice and stone and moon - and Mammoth Talker, named for a beast n.o.body living has seen. Have our totems abandoned us?"
Ice Dreamer shifted, trying to find a less uncomfortable position. "Whether they have or not, it is up to us to behave as if it is not so."
He nodded gravely. "Maybe you should be the priest."
That made her laugh.
Moon Reacher pushed her way into the shelter. "Oh, it"s cosy. Not very warm yet. Why are you laughing?"
"Because we"re alive." Dreamer could smell the blood. "You caught something."
With a flourish, Reacher produced a jackrabbit from behind her back and held it up by the ears. The snare still dangled from its leg, and Reacher had broken its neck.
Dreamer leaned forward and kissed her on the forehead. "You are a great hunter. Come on, let"s get this cooking."
The three of them worked together. Dreamer quickly detached the animal"s head and sleeved off its skin. Dreamer and Shaper butchered the jackrabbit quickly, and Reacher used her own small obsidian blade to cut the meat fillets finely, so they would cook faster on the small fire.
When the meat was sizzling on a hot stone, Mammoth Talker pushed into the shelter. He let the cold wind in, and they all had to huddle around the fire to make room. "I found no prey," he growled. "But I did find this." He dragged in a bundle of wood, dried, old.
They eagerly piled it on the fire. Bark curled, the wood crackled, and smoke began to billow. For the first time that day Dreamer began to feel warm.
"You can have some of my jackrabbit," Reacher said brightly. She handed Talker a leg.
He gnawed it, crunching the delicate bones. "And I saw Cowards. Many of them."
The mood in the shelter immediately turned cold again. Dreamer asked, "Are we safe here until morning?"
"Yes. But listen to me. The Cowards have killed bison. They drove them into a valley . . . You should see it. Many animals. More bison than Cowards, I think."
"What have Cowards and their bison to do with us?"
"Don"t you see? There is more meat than they can eat, even if every man, woman and child gorges until the meat rots. More than they can carry away. Meat for us. All we have to do is take it."
"But it"s the Cowards" kill," Shaper said. "They hunted these beasts. We will be scavenging, like the dogs of the prairie."
Dreamer could see that Talker, the proud hunter, hadn"t allowed himself to think that way. "You should applaud me. Not peck at me with these questions, peck, peck, peck. I will sleep outside this hovel." He grabbed a handful of Reacher"s jackrabbit fillets, more than his share, and pushed his way out of the shelter.
"Don"t be a-" Fool. Dreamer bit back the word before she could say it; it would do far more harm than good.
Talker left a skin flapping loose. Stone Shaper crawled over to shut out the cold.
6.
Mammoth Talker woke them all not long after the dawn.
If he had been uncomfortable in the night, huddled alone in the cold protected only by his cloak, he said nothing of it. But Dreamer thought he looked paler, his eyes that bit darker. Even his great strength was not infinite, and he was a fool to waste it on displays of temper.
He pointed with his spear. "The kill site is that way. South. Not far. We will leave our stuff here."
Moon Reacher wasn"t happy. She was a child who in her eight years had seen almost everything taken from her, her whole family destroyed by the glacial flood, and now she had a habit of clinging to what was left.
Dreamer squeezed her hand. "Don"t worry, Reacher. We will be fine, our stuff will be safe here."