The Year of the Great Sea: Autumn Equinox.
It was a huge relief to Zesi when she and the priest at last emerged from the forest cover.
It was around noon. She and Jurgi faced an open landscape of low hills studded with stands of trees, through which snaked the shining trail of a wide, sluggish river - a river that would head northward, just as they would, until it and they reached the sea. The sky was a deep, clear blue, cleansed by recent rains, and fat white clouds drifted. An autumn sky, she thought.
And as they walked into the sunlight Jurgi turned around, raised a grimy face to the sun, and, walking backwards, began to sing a song in praise of the little mother of the sky.
"I wish you wouldn"t," Zesi grumbled.
"And you"re a misery." A cloud of midges hummed around his head; distracted, he swatted at them. "What a relief it is to break out of that awful dense clinging forest with those mad Pretani. Like being in a great green belly." He breathed in deep and spread his arms, and for a moment she feared he was going to sing again. "The sky and the sea - the greatest gifts of the first mother. Just to stand here - you can feel your mind expanding, filling the world."
She grumbled, "When I look at that sky all I see is a threat of rain. When I look at the land I see the distance we still have to travel before we get home. And when we get home I will see only the work that has to be done before the winter comes, all the things that my father won"t have got around to sorting out yet."
"You are a leader," he said. "And that"s a good thing. We need leaders. Nothing would get done otherwise. But leaders need calm too. You can share some of your energy with me. And I will share my calm with you."
"We"ll see," she said, noncommittal. There was a bite in the wind from the north, a breeze that sent ripples scudding across the long gra.s.s. "Look how low the sun is, even though it"s noon. The year is late. It took us much longer to work our way back out of the forest than it took to go the other way."
"Are you surprised? Those trails they follow are narrower than a stoat"s back pa.s.sage. Shade and his boys probably hoped we would never make it out at all."
"I told you, if I never hear that name again, I"ll be happy."
Jurgi grunted. "And now that he"s buried his father and brother, dead at his own hands, Shade probably feels the same way about you. Anyway, come on." He turned around and strode off north, his pack on his back. "We"ll eat up a bit more distance before we have to make camp for the night."
She followed his lead, hitching her own pack on her back, settling her stabbing spear in the straps, and marching on.
The priest seemed to have thrived on the adventure. He had become stronger, healthier in every way since joining her on this summer jaunt. She had to admit he had been a good companion during this long summer of walking.
But what had she taken away from her journey? Her understanding of the world had expanded hugely. She now knew the country of the Pretani; she no longer thought of the Pretani as mere savages but had glimpsed their culture, their background. Maybe you had to leave home to learn about the world - even to learn about home itself.
But these were lessons she had learned at what felt like great cost.
She hadn"t wielded the blades that had been plunged into the bellies of the dead men. She hadn"t created Pretani society with all its peculiar tensions and challenges. But if she had never existed, the Root and Gall would probably still be alive, and Shade would still be the bright, curious, loving boy she had met, instead of the bitter thing he had become in the course of a single summer. She"d made a mess of her time in Etxelur too, in her father"s absence. What was it about her that caused her to trail death and unhappiness wherever she went? It was the darkness in herself she"d had to confront this summer that disturbed her most, more than all the horrors she had seen in Albia.
And then, of course, there was the baby.
It was her first child. She had no idea how it was supposed to feel, growing inside her. She could have asked Jurgi. In Etxelur tradition medical lore was scattered in everybody"s heads, which was how her father had been competent enough to deliver Ice Dreamer"s baby in a boat out on the ocean - but the priest, above all, guarded and supervised that lore. But pride kept her silent. She was the experienced hunter, she was in control while they were away from home. She did draw comfort from the priest"s silence on the matter. She had the feeling that if there had been something to be worried about he would have spoken out.
This priest had a way of guiding you without opening his mouth at all. Curse the man!
But despite everything she was, at last, going home. Keeping up with the priest, she walked briskly, swinging her arms, concentrating on the simple pleasure of not having to pick her way along some cramped, confusing trail in the enclosure of the woods, and relishing the raspberries and blackberries they plucked as they marched.
Suddenly Jurgi stopped dead. He breathed in deeply. "Why - I"m sure I can smell salt."
She sniffed suspiciously. She could smell it too. They shouldn"t be smelling the ocean this far south. Something was wrong.
They didn"t speak further, and walked on.
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They sheltered that night in a copse of trees, dominated by an old oak. But when they awoke in the morning that smell of salt in the air was stronger.
The scent gathered in the days that followed. And they started to notice changes in the land.
They came to a stand of trees, obviously dying, their roots waterlogged, their leaves limp. Zesi approached cautiously. Through her boots she felt the coldness of the damp ground around the tree roots. Only the alders seemed to be flourishing. One big oak that must have survived centuries was clearly suffering. There was no sign of life in the soggy undergrowth, no voles stirring. She found the mouth of a badger sett, stopped up with leaves and abandoned.
She touched the bark of the silent oak, then crouched down by its roots. A few acorns floated in a puddle, and she collected a handful absently. Then she dipped a finger in the water and tasted it.
"Salt?" the priest asked.
"Salt, yes. I think I remember this place. We are still at least a day from home, from the coast and the sea. How can salt water be poisoning these trees, this far inland?" She looked north, troubled; she sensed a great silence. "Something has happened, priest."
"Yes. Though I can"t imagine what."
It got worse the next day. They saw more dead trees, more standing puddles of water that always proved to be brackish. In one place the river opened out to a marsh, where at this time of year the wading birds should have been flocking, preparing for their flights to their winter homes, and the reeds turning from green to brilliant gold. But there were no birds, and the reeds were wilted and the willows bare. The place stank of salt and rot and death, and Zesi and Jurgi made a detour to avoid it.
Then they started to notice a strange covering over the land, a pale, whitish, sandy mud. It had clearly been there for some time, many days or even months, for it had been worked on by the rain and was washing away into rivulets and streams. But in places it stood thick, banked up like snow. Zesi bent to explore this strange stuff; it was gritty and full of stones and broken sh.e.l.ls from the sea, and very salty on the tongue.
As they walked on the blanket of pale mud grew thicker, until it covered whole swathes of land. In places it included big blocks of peat, torn from the ground. Sometimes it obscured familiar features in the landscape, making tracks hard to spot. There were no raspberries to pluck now, nothing to eat, even fresh water rare.
But then they came to a place where somebody had taken a stick and scrawled in the mud, making the symbol of Etxelur, the three concentric rings and the radial slash. They both stood over this, oddly reluctant to go on.
"h.e.l.lo! h.e.l.lo!" A man stood by a copse, carrying a wicker basket. He was waving vigorously. His call had been in the Etxelur tongue. "By moon and sun, I"m glad to see you, Zesi, Jurgi, we all will be!"
He was Matu, a friend of Zesi"s father. They sat together, and shared dried meat and water.
His skin tunic was filthy, his legs were coated with the white dirt, and his basket was less than half full of acorns. He had been out since dawn, he said. They were half a day from home. "But you have to come further south every day to find acorns, to find a tree that"s not been poisoned by the Great Sea. I"ve never known an autumn like it. Well, none of us have. We"re trying to get ready for the winter, we all are. But I sometimes wonder if I"m working off more fat than I"ll get back from my share of the acorns. But what can you do?"
Ana and Jurgi glanced at each other. The Great Sea?
"Tell us what happened," Jurgi said gently.
So Matu told his story. He mostly spoke to the priest. Jurgi seemed to have a knack of listening, of keeping the man"s anxious gabble flowing. But neither of them knew what to make of Matu"s account, of how the ocean had risen up and smashed Etxelur, drenched the land with salt water and mud, and poisoned every stream and well.
This wasn"t the Matu Zesi had known, this gaunt, anxious man with the hollow eyes, and gabbling speech. She"d never been much interested in him. He was a decade or so older than her, quiet, not particularly competent, short, squat, balding, with watery eyes. He was never a leader, never the sort of man who could challenge or excite Zesi. She supposed that without people like Matu no community like Etxelur could exist - there would be no stage for the more exciting exploits of people like herself. But now this uninteresting, unprepossessing man lived on where so many others had died.
And there was something crucial he wasn"t telling them.
She broke into Matu"s descriptions and grabbed his arm. "My family," she snapped. "You say many are dead. What became of my family?"
Matu was frightened, she saw, intimidated by her. Yet he faced her, and spoke clearly.
And so she learned that she and Ana and Arga were alone now; Kirike was dead, and Arga"s parents, her uncle and aunt.
She grabbed her pack and spear and stood up. "Let"s go home."
49.
They walked down the valley of the Little Mother"s Milk, and at last came home to Etxelur.
Everything had changed. Much of the land was blanketed by the white muddy sand, which this close to the coast lay waist-deep in places. The old houses were gone, smashed and ruined, just as Matu had described. Even the sheltering dunes had been swept away, leaving heaps of sand and ragged clumps of marram gra.s.s.
All that Zesi recognised of her own home, the site of the Seven Houses, as they walked quietly up, was the basic shape of the land, its relation to the river valley to the east. Debris lay scattered on the ground - torn clothes, a necklace of pierced sh.e.l.ls tied tight to suit a little girl"s neck. There was only one structure here now, on the site of Zesi"s own old house, a single pole thrust into the ground with a kind of lean-to of posts and kelp and skins heaped up around it.
And there was only one person here, a girl. She had her back to the newcomers. Dirty, sweating, she was working at a pit dug into the ground. She had a heap of gravel, and with her hands she shovelled this into the pit. Zesi recognised what she was doing. This was a winter store, designed to keep acorns safe from rot and rodents. You sealed the walls with wet clay, and laid down a layer of pebbles and chopped-up reeds, then poured in your acorns, then another layer of rock and reeds, then more acorns. When the acorns were dug out in the leanest times of the winter, they would have lost their bitterness. But Zesi could see the pit was all but empty - a third full, maybe a quarter.
"It"s going to be a hard winter," she murmured.
The girl spun around. It was Arga. Like Matu, she had lost so much weight she was barely recognisable. But a smile as wide as the moon spread across her face. "Zesi! Oh, Zesi!" She got up and hurled herself at her cousin. Zesi felt the girl"s shuddering sobs. "Zesi, Zesi - you"ve been gone so long."
"Only a couple of months-"
"I thought you were dead!"
Zesi stroked her hair. "Now why would you think that?"
"Because everybody else is. My mother and my father and Kirike and-" She stopped, and her hand flew to her mouth. "You didn"t know."
"Matu told me. I knew. It"s all right . . ." But despite her soothing Arga was crying again, desolately.
"Poor kid," Matu murmured. "She"s lost so much. In fact, she"s lucky to be alive, and that"s a story in itself. But at least she"s got you home now, Zesi - and Ana."
"Where is Ana?"
Arga said, "Out fishing, with Heni."
Zesi gaped. "Fishing? Timid little Ana, fishing?" And she laughed, something in the shock of the day and the absurdity of the idea forcing the bubble of humour out of her.
But Arga looked confused, Matu disapproving.
Matu said, "Yes, she"s out on the ocean, fishing. Things aren"t as they were when you went away, Zesi. We"ve all had to do things we weren"t used to - things we find difficult, or even that scare us to death. We do them anyhow, to stay alive."
"I"m sorry. I"m just - this is hard for me."
He relented. "I know. This is the day you learned your father died. Well." He glanced at the sky, where the lowering sun was covered by a thin skim of fast-moving cloud. "Weather"s turning, and it"s getting late. The boats will probably be coming in soon. Why don"t you go and meet them?"
"Oh, yes," Arga said, eager now. She tugged at Zesi"s hand. "We"ll go to the island. Ana will be so glad to see you, it"s been so long . . . Come on."
Zesi slipped off her pack and her spear, and the priest added his pack to the pile. As they followed Arga and Matu she said to Jurgi, "You know, I expected to be the centre of attention. Home from our adventures in Albia." She patted her stomach. "With news of my own. Instead-"
"I know. Whatever happened here, these folk have lived through something we"ll probably never understand. But these are still our people, Zesi. And we are theirs. Just hang onto that."
Arga and Matu led them around the bay towards the causeway to Flint Island.
Nature was following its course, Zesi saw. The grey seals, plump after the summer"s riches, were arriving for their breeding season on the offsh.o.r.e rocks. They always returned to the same places, as if coming home.
But the seals were an exception, life going on amid the destruction. The beaches and marshes and tidal flats all showed signs of the ruin that the Great Sea had wrought: the dunes smashed, houses flattened, even the mud churned up and studded with dead trees and whole clumps of peaty earth. That awful layer of pale sand and mud lay over everything, thick with stones and smashed sh.e.l.ls. There was a stink of death, and of rotting fish.
Everybody looked thin, hollow-eyed, over-worked. They seemed pleased to see Zesi and the priest back. But they were few, terribly few. Not many of these survivors seemed to be seriously injured, but there were few young, few old, and many families with gaps, a husband or wife missing, a child or two. She couldn"t have imagined a greater contrast to the happy crowds of the day of the Giving.
They came to the causeway to Flint Island. People were working out on the line of the causeway itself, doing some kind of repair work with timbers and baskets of gravel; boats stood in the shallow water alongside, laden with supplies. Arga called Novu"s name, and at the middle of the causeway the man from Jericho straightened up, waved, and came back along the causeway, picking his steps with care.
Arga said, "The Great Sea made a mess of the causeway. Well, it made a mess of everything. You always have to ask Novu or one of the other builders to help you across, because it isn"t finished yet. That"s the rule."
"Whose rule?"
"Ana"s rule," Novu said as he approached, his strange accent thick. He too had changed since Zesi saw him last, the softness of his dark skin gone, his muscles prominent under a loose tunic. He didn"t look like a man of Etxelur, not quite, but he didn"t look like the creature who had arrived here with the trader either. He held out muddy hands to Zesi. "It"s good to see you back. Ana will be glad to know you"re here."
"So you"re building the causeway?" It was a strange thing for her to have to say; the people rarely "built" anything more elaborate than a house.
"Ana asked me to take charge," Novu said, with what appeared to be pride. "We build things in Jericho. The Great Sea smashed the causeway, so I"m building it back. We"re filling in the gaps with gravel embedded in mud, and then piling logs on the top until you get a surface that breaks the water at low tide."
The priest asked, "Where do you get the logs from?"
"There are plenty. The Great Sea did a lot of damage far inland. You get whole tree trunks swimming down the river. Or you get trees washed up from the ocean as driftwood." He grinned at Arga and ruffled her hair. "Like the one that saved Arga"s life."
Zesi raised an eyebrow at the priest. That was evidently a story worth hearing.
"Come on," Novu said. "I"ll take you across. It"s pretty secure at the centre line, but a lot narrower than you were used to. Just tread where I tread."
So Zesi and the priest crossed the new causeway, treading in Novu"s footsteps, followed by their excited, tearful retinue. It wasn"t difficult, provided you knew where to put your feet.
Arga held Zesi"s hand tightly, as if she might leave again. From the causeway Zesi got a good view of the ocean to the north, for the first time since returning to Etxelur. Something in her heart lifted at its grey hugeness. But she heard the people muttering curses at the little mother of the ocean, which you would never have heard a few months ago. As if in response a storm was gathering far out to sea, and rain fell in sheets that swept across the water.
When they reached the island Novu and Matu led them along the northern beach. At least here the white sea-bottom mud had mostly washed away on the tide. But everything had changed here too - the line of dunes, even the very shape of the shallow bay. Was it really possible that all of this had happened in a single day, as Matu had described?
The priest murmured, "Look at the middens."
By now it was no surprise to discover that the holy middens, too, had been wrecked. A few people were working up there even now, using broad-bladed shovels to heap up the debris, and Zesi saw the gleam of bone, pale on the middens" upper surfaces.
"The dead?" Jurgi murmured.
"This is the best we can do," Matu said. "Ana said we should lie them out on the ruins of the holy middens, and then build up the middens around them."