"That"s queer!" said Patty, smiling fondly and giving Waitstill"s hair the hasty brush of a kiss.
"She told me she had had a girl baby, born two or three years after Ivory, and that she had always thought it died when it was a few weeks old. Then suddenly she came closer to me--
"Oh! Waity, weren"t you terrified?"
"No, not in the least. Neither would you have been if you had been there. She put her arms round me and all at once I understood that the poor thing mistook me just for a moment for her own daughter come back to life. It was a sudden fancy and I don"t think it lasted, but I didn"t know how to deal with it, or contradict it, so I simply tried to soothe her and let her ease her heart by talking to me. She said when I left her: "Where is your house? I hope it is near! Do come again and sit with me. Strength flows into my weakness when you hold my hand!" I somehow feel, Patty, that she needs a woman friend even more than a doctor. And now, what am I to do? How can I forsake her; and yet here is this new difficulty with father?"
"I shouldn"t forsake her; go there when you can, but be more careful about it. You told father that you didn"t regret what you had done, and that when he ordered you to do unreasonable things, you should disobey him. After all, you are not a black slave. Father will never think of that particular thing again, perhaps, any more than he ever alluded to my driving to Saco with Mrs. Day after you had told him it was necessary for one of us to go there occasionally. He knows that if he is too hard on us, Dr. Perry or Uncle Bart would take him in hand. They would have done it long ago if we had ever given any one even a hint of what we have to endure. You will be all right, because you only want to do kind, neighborly things. I am the one that will always have to suffer, because I can"t prove that it"s a Christian duty to deceive father and steal off to a dance or a frolic. Yet I might as well be a nun in a convent for all the fun I get! I want a white book-muslin dress; I want a pair of thin shoes with buckles; I want a white hat with a wreath of yellow roses; I want a volume of Byron"s poems; and oh! n.o.body knows--n.o.body but the Lord could understand--how I want a string of gold beads."
"Patty, Patty! To hear you chatter anybody would imagine you thought of nothing but frivolities. I wish you wouldn"t do yourself such injustice; even when n.o.body hears you but me, it is wrong."
"Sometimes when you think I"m talking nonsense it"s really the gospel truth," said Patty. "I"m not a grand, splendid character, Waitstill, and it"s no use your deceiving yourself about me; if you do, you"ll be disappointed."
"Go and parboil the beans and get them into the pot, Patty. Pick up some of the windfalls and make a green-apple pie, and I"ll be with you in the kitchen myself before long. I never expect to be disappointed in you, Patty, only continually surprised and pleased."
"I thought I"d begin making some soft soap to-day," said Patty mischievously, as she left the room. "We have enough grease saved up. We don"t really need it yet, but it makes such a disgusting smell that I"d rather like father to have it with his dinner. It"s not much of a punishment for our sleepless night."
AUTUMN
XVII. A BRACE OF LOVERS
HAYING was over, and the close, sticky dog-days, too, and August was slipping into September. There had been plenty of rain all the season and the countryside was looking as fresh and green as an emerald. The hillsides were already clothed with a verdant growth of new gra.s.s and
"The red pennons of the cardinal flowers Hung motionless upon their upright staves."
How they gleamed in the meadow gra.s.ses and along the brooksides like brilliant flecks of flame, giving a new beauty to the nosegays that Waitstill carried or sent to Mrs. Boynton every week.
To the eye of the casual observer, life in the two little villages by the river"s brink went on as peacefully as ever, but there were subtle changes taking place nevertheless. Cephas Cole had "asked" the second time and again had been refused by Patty, so that even a very idiot for hopefulness could not urge his father to put another story on the ell.
"If it turns out to be Phoebe Day," thought Cephas dolefully, "two rooms is plenty good enough, an" I shan"t block up the door that leads from the main part, neither, as I thought likely I should. If so be it"s got to be Phoebe, not Patty, I shan"t care whether mother troops out "n" in or not." And Cephas dealt out rice and tea and coffee with so languid an air, and made such frequent mistakes in weighing the sugar, that he drew upon himself many a sharp rebuke from the Deacon.
"Of course I"d club him over the head with a salt fish twice a day under ord"nary circ.u.mstances," Cephas confided to his father with a valiant air that he never wore in Deacon Baxter"s presence; "but I"ve got a reason, known to n.o.body but myself, for wantin" to stan" well with the old man for a spell longer. If ever I quit wantin" to stan" well with him, he"ll get his comeuppance, short an sudden!"
"Speakin" o" standin" well with folks, Phil Perry"s kind o" makin" up to Patience Baxter, ain"t he, Cephas?" asked Uncle Bart guardedly. "Mebbe you wouldn"t notice it, hevin" no partic"lar int"rest, but your mother"s kind o got the idee into her head lately, an" she"s turrible far-sighted."
"I guess it"s so!" Cephas responded gloomily. "It"s nip an" tuck "tween him an" Mark Wilson. That girl draws "em as mola.s.ses does flies! She does it "thout liftin" a finger, too, no more "n the mola.s.ses does. She just sets still an" IS! An" all the time she"s nothin" but a flighty little red-headed spitfire that don"t know a good husband when she sees one. The feller that gits her will live to regret it, that"s my opinion!"
And Cephas thought to himself: "Good Lord, don"t I wish I was regrettin" it this very minute!"
"I s"pose a girl like Phoebe Day"d be consid"able less trouble to live with?" ventured Uncle Bart.
"I never could take any fancy to that tow hair o" hern! I like the color well enough when I"m peeling it off a corn cob, but I don"t like it on a girl"s head," objected Cephas hypercritically. "An" her eyes hain"t got enough blue in "em to be blue: they"re jest like skim-milk. An" she keeps her mouth open a little mite all the time, jest as if there wa"n"t no good draught through, an" she was a-tryin" to git air. An" "t was me that begun callin" her "Feeble Phoebe in school, an" the scholars"ll never forgit it; they"d throw it up to me the whole "durin" time if I should go to work an" keep company with her!"
"Mebbe they"ve forgot by this time," Uncle Bart responded hopefully; "though "t is an awful resk when you think o" Companion Pike! Samuel he was baptized and Samuel he continued to be, "till he married the Widder Bixby from Waterboro. Bein" as how there wa"n"t nothin" partic"ly attractive "bout him,--though he was as nice a feller as ever lived,--somebody asked her why she married him, an" she said her cat hed jest died an" she wanted a companion. The boys never let go o" that story! Samuel Pike he ceased to be thirty year ago, an" Companion Pike he"s remained up to this instant minute!"
"He ain"t lived up to his name much," remarked Cephas. "He"s to home for his meals, but I guess his wife never sees him between times."
"If the cat hed lived mebbe she"d "a" been better comp"ny on the whole," chuckled Uncle Bart. "Companion was allers kind o" dreamy an" absent-minded from a boy. I remember askin" him what his wife"s Christian name was (she bein" a stranger to Riverboro) an" he said he didn"t know! Said he called her Mis" Bixby afore he married her an" Mis"
Pike afterwards!"
"Well, there "s something turrible queer "bout this marryin" business,"
and Cephas drew a sigh from the heels of his boots. "It seems"s if a man hedn"t no natcheral drawin" towards a girl with a good farm "n" stock that was willin" to have him! Seems jest as if it set him ag"in" her somehow! And yet, if you"ve got to sing out o" the same book with a girl your whole lifetime, it does seem"s if you"d ought to have a kind of a fancy for her at the start, anyhow!"
"You may feel dif"rent as time goes on, Cephas, an" come to see Feeble--I would say Phoebe--as your mother does. "The best fire don"t flare up the soonest," you know." But old Uncle Bart saw that his son"s heart was heavy and forbore to press the subject.
Annabel Franklin had returned to Boston after a month"s visit and to her surprise had returned as disengaged as she came. Mark Wilson, thoroughly bored by her vacuities of mind, longed now for more intercourse with Patty Baxter, Patty, so gay and unexpected; so lively to talk with, so piquing to the fancy, so skittish and difficult to manage, so temptingly pretty, with a beauty all her own, and never two days alike.
There were many lions in the way and these only added to the zest of pursuit. With all the other girls of the village opportunities multiplied, but he could scarcely get ten minutes alone with Patty. The Deacon"s orders were absolute in regard to young men. His daughters were never to drive or walk alone with them, never go to dances or "routs" of any sort, and never receive them at the house; this last mandate being quite unnecessary, as no youth in his right mind would have gone a-courtin" under the Deacon"s forbidding gaze. And still there were sudden, delicious chances to be seized now and then if one had his eyes open and his wits about him. There was the walk to or from the singing-school, when a sentimental couple could drop a few feet, at least, behind the rest and exchange a word or two in comparative privacy; there were the church "circles" and prayer-meetings, and the intervals between Sunday services when Mark could detach Patty a moment from the group on the meeting-house steps. More valuable than all these, a complete schedule of Patty"s various movements here and there, together with a profound study of Deacon Baxter"s habits, which were ordinarily as punctual as they were disagreeable, permitted Mark many stolen interviews, as sweet as they were brief. There was never a second kiss, however, in these casual meetings and partings. The first, in springtime, had found Patty a child, surprised, unprepared. She was a woman now; for it does not take years to achieve that miracle; months will do it, or days, or even hours. Her summer"s experience with Cephas Cole had wonderfully broadened her powers, giving her an a.s.surance sadly lacking before, as well as a knowledge of detail, a certain finished skill in the management of a lover, which she could ably use on any one who happened to come along. And, at the moment, any one who happened to come along served the purpose admirably, Philip Perry as well as Marquis Wilson.
Young Perry"s interest in Patty, as we have seen, began with his alienation from Ellen Wilson, the first object of his affections, and it was not at the outset at all of a sentimental nature. Philip was a pillar of the church, and Ellen had proved so entirely lacking in the religious sense, so self-satisfied as to her standing with the heavenly powers, that Philip dared not expose himself longer to her society, lest he find himself "unequally yoked together with an unbeliever," thus defying the scriptural admonition as to marriage.
Patty, though somewhat lacking in the qualities that go to the making of trustworthy saints, was not, like Ellen, wholly given over to the fleshpots and would prove a valuable convert, Philip thought; one who would reflect great credit upon him if he succeeded in inducing her to subscribe to the stern creed of the day.
Philip was a very strenuous and slightly gloomy believer, dwelling considerably on the wrath of G.o.d and the doctrine of eternal punishment.
There was an old "pennyroyal" hymn much in use which describes the general tenor of his meditation:--
"My thoughts on awful subjects roll, d.a.m.nation and the dead.
What horrors seize the guilty soul Upon a dying bed."
(No wonder that Jacob Cochrane"s lively songs, cheerful, hopeful, militant, and bracing, fell with a pleasing sound upon the ear of the believer of that epoch.) The love of G.o.d had, indeed, entered Philip"s soul, but in some mysterious way had been ossified after it got there.
He had intensely black hair, dark skin, and a liver that disposed him const.i.tutionally to an ardent belief in the necessity of h.e.l.l for most of his neighbors, and the hope of spending his own glorious immortality in a small, properly restricted, and prudently managed heaven. He was eloquent at prayer-meeting and Patty"s only objection to him there was in his disposition to allude to himself as a "rebel worm," with frequent references to his "vile body." Otherwise, and when not engaged in theological discussion, Patty liked Philip very much. His own father, although an orthodox member of the fold in good and regular standing, had "doctored" Phil conscientiously for his liver from his youth up, hoping in time to incite in him a sunnier view of life, for the doctor was somewhat skilled in adapting his remedies to spiritual maladies. Jed Morrill had always said that when old Mrs. Buxton, the champion convert of Jacob Cochrane, was at her worst,--keeping her whole family awake nights by her hysterical fears for their future,--Dr. Perry had given her a twelfth of a grain of tartar emetic, five times a day until she had entire mental relief and her anxiety concerning the salvation of her husband and children was set completely at rest.
The good doctor noted with secret pleasure his son"s growing fondness for the society of his prime favorite, Miss Patience Baxter. "He"ll begin by trying to save her soul," he thought; "Phil always begins that way, but when Patty gets him in hand he"ll remember the existence of his heart, an organ he has never taken into consideration. A love affair with a pretty girl, good but not too pious, will help Phil considerable, however it turns out."
There is no doubt but that Phil was taking his chances and that under Patty"s tutelage he was growing mellower. As for Patty, she was only amusing herself, and frisking, like a young lamb, in pastures where she had never strayed before. Her fancy flew from Mark to Phil and from Phil back to Mark again, for at the moment she was just a vessel of emotion, ready to empty herself on she knew not what. Temperamentally, she would take advantage of currents rather than steer at any time, and it would be the strongest current that would finally bear her away. Her idea had always been that she could play with fire without burning her own fingers, and that the flames she kindled were so innocent and mild that no one could be harmed by them. She had fancied, up to now, that she could control, urge on, or cool down a man"s feeling forever and a day, if she chose, and remain mistress of the situation. Now, after some weeks of weighing and balancing her two swains, she found herself confronting a choice, once and for all. Each of them seemed to be approaching the state of mind where he was likely to say, somewhat violently: "Take me or leave me, one or the other!" But she did not wish to take them, and still less did she wish to leave them, with no other lover in sight but Cephas Cole, who was almost, though not quite, worse than none.
If matters, by lack of masculine patience and self-control, did come to a crisis, what should she say definitely to either of her suitors? Her father despised Mark Wilson a trifle more than any young man on the river, and while he could have no objection to Phil Perry"s character or position in the world, his hatred of old Dr. Perry amounted to a disease. When the doctor had closed the eyes of the third Mrs. Baxter, he had made some plain and unwelcome statements that would rankle in the Deacon"s breast as long as he lived. Patty knew, therefore, that the chance of her father"s blessing falling upon her union with either of her present lovers was more than uncertain, and of what use was an engagement, if there could not be a marriage?
If Patty"s mind inclined to a somewhat speedy departure from her father"s household, she can hardly be blamed, but she felt that she could not carry any of her indecisions and fears to her sister for settlement. Who could look in Waitstill"s clear, steadfast eyes and say: "I can"t make up my mind which to marry"? Not Patty. She felt, instinctively, that Waitstill"s heart, if it moved at all, would rush out like a great river to lose itself in the ocean, and losing itself forget the narrow banks through which it had flowed before. Patty knew that her own love was at the moment nothing more than the note of a child"s penny flute, and that Waitstill was perhaps vibrating secretly with a deeper, richer music than could ever come to her. Still, music of some sort she meant to feel. "Even if they make me decide one way or another before I am ready," she said to herself, "I"ll never say "yes"
till I"m more in love than I am now!"
There were other reasons why she did not want to ask Waitstill"s advice.
Not only did she shrink from the loving scrutiny of her sister"s eyes, and the gentle probing of her questions, which would fix her own motives on a pin-point and hold them up unbecomingly to the light; but she had a foolish, generous loyalty that urged her to keep Waitstill quite aloof from her own little private perplexities.
"She will only worry herself sick," thought Patty. "She won"t let me marry without asking father"s permission, and she"d think she ought not to aid me in deceiving him, and the tempest would be twice as dreadful if it fell upon us both! Now, if anything happens, I can tell father that I did it all myself and that Waitstill knew nothing about it whatever. Then, oh, joy! if father is too terrible, I shall be a married woman and I can always say: "I will not permit such cruelty! Waitstill is dependent upon you no longer, she shall come at once to my husband and me!""
This latter phrase almost intoxicated Patty, so that there were moments when she could have run up to Milliken"s Mills and purchased herself a husband at any cost, had her slender savings permitted the best in the market; and the more impersonal the husband the more delightedly Patty rolled the phrase under her tongue.
"I can never be "published" in church," she thought, "and perhaps n.o.body will ever care enough about me to brave father"s displeasure and insist on running away with me. I do wish somebody would care "frightfully"
about me, enough for that; enough to help me make up my mind; so that I could just drive up to father"s store some day and say: "Good afternoon, father! I knew you"d never let me marry--"" (there was always a dash here, in Patty"s imaginary discourses, a dash that could be filled in with any Christian name according to her mood of the moment)""so I just married him anyway; and you needn"t be angry with my sister, for she knew nothing about it. My husband and I are sorry if you are displeased, but there"s no help for it; and my husband"s home will always be open to Waitstill, whatever happens.""
Patty, with all her latent love of finery and ease, did not weigh the worldly circ.u.mstances of the two men, though the reflection that she would have more amus.e.m.e.nt with Mark than with Philip may have crossed her mind. She trusted Philip, and respected his steady-going, serious view of life; it pleased her vanity, too, to feel how her nonsense and fun lightened his temperamental gravity, playing in and out and over it like a b.u.t.terfly in a smoke bush. She would be safe with Philip always, but safety had no special charm for one of her age, who had never been in peril. Mark"s superior knowledge of the world, moreover, his careless, buoyant manner of carrying himself, his gay, boyish audacity, all had a very distinct charm for her;--and yet--
But there would be no "and yet" a little later. Patty"s heart would blaze quickly enough when sufficient heat was applied to it, and Mark was falling more and more deeply in love every day. As Patty vacillated, his purpose strengthened; the more she weighed, the more he ceased to weigh, the difficulties of the situation; the more she unfolded herself to him, the more he loved and the more he respected her. She began by delighting his senses; she ended by winning all that there was in him, and creating continually the qualities he lacked, after the manner of true women even when they are very young and foolish.