James Mottram was as unlike Charles Nagle as two men of the same age, of the same breed, and of the same breeding could well be. He was shorter, and of st.u.r.dier build, than his cousin; and he was plain, whereas Charles Nagle was strikingly handsome. Also his face was tanned by constant exposure to sun, salt-wind, and rain; his hair was cut short, his face shaven.
The very clothes James Mottram wore were in almost ludicrous contrast to those which Charles Nagle affected, for Mottram"s were always of serviceable homespun. But for the fact that they and he were scrupulously clean, the man now walking by Catherine Nagle"s side might have been a prosperous farmer or bailiff instead of the owner of such large property in those parts as made him, in spite of his unpopular faith, lord of the little world about him.
On his plain face and strong, st.u.r.dy figure Catherine"s beautiful eyes dwelt with unconscious relief. She was so weary of Charles"s absorption in his apparel, and of his interest in the hundred and one fal-lals which then delighted the cosmopolitan men of fashion.
A simple, almost childish gladness filled her heart. Conscience, but just now so insistent and disturbing a familiar, vanished for a s.p.a.ce, nay more, a.s.sumed the garb of a meddling busybody who seeks to discover harm where no harm is.
Was not James Mottram Charles"s friend, almost, as the old priest had said, Charles"s brother? Had she not herself deliberately chosen Charles in place of James when both young men had been in ardent pursuit of her--James"s pursuit almost wordless, Charles"s conducted with all the eloquence of the poet he had then set out to be?
Mottram, seeing her in the wood, uttered a word of surprise. She explained her presence there. Their hands scarce touched in greeting, and then they started walking side by side up the field path.
Mottram carried a stout ash stick. Had the priest been there he would perchance have noticed that the man"s hand twitched and moved restlessly as he swung his stick about; but Catherine only became aware that her companion was preoccupied and uneasy after they had gone some way.
When, however, the fact of his unease seemed forced upon her notice, she felt suddenly angered. There was a quality in Mrs. Nagle that made her ever ready to rise to meet and conquer circ.u.mstance. She told herself, with heightened colour, that James Mottram should and must return to his old ways--to his old familiar footing with her. Anything else would be, nay was, intolerable.
"James,"--she turned to him frankly--"why have you not come over to see us lately as often as you did? Charles misses you sadly, and so do I.
Prepare to find him in a bad mood to-day. But just now he distressed Mr. Dorriforth by his unreasonableness touching the railroad." She smiled and went on lightly, "He said that you were a false friend to him--a traitor!"
And then Catherine Nagle stopped and caught her breath. G.o.d! Why had she said that? But Mottram had evidently not caught the sinister word, and Catherine in haste drove back conscience into the lair whence conscience had leapt so suddenly to her side.
"Maybe I ought, in this matter of the railroad," he said musingly, "to have humoured Charles. I am now sorry I did not do so. After all, Charles may be right--and all we others wrong. The railroad may not bring us lasting good!"
Catherine looked at him surprised. James Mottram had always been so sure of himself in this matter; but now there was dejection, weariness in his voice; and he was walking quickly, more quickly up the steep incline than Mrs. Nagle found agreeable. But she also hastened her steps, telling herself, with wondering pain, that he was evidently in no mood for her company.
"Mr. Dorriforth has already been here two days," she observed irrelevantly.
"Aye, I know that. It was to see him I came to-day; and I will ask you to spare him to me for two or three hours. Indeed, I propose that he should walk back with me to the Eype. I wish him to witness my new will.
And then I may as well go to confession, for it is well to be shriven before a journey, though for my part I feel ever safer on sea than land!"
Mottram looked straight before him as he spoke.
"A journey?" Catherine repeated the words in a low, questioning tone.
There had come across her heart a feeling of such anguish that it was as though her body instead of her soul were being wrenched asunder. In her extremity she called on pride--and pride, ever woman"s most loyal friend, flew to her aid.
"Yes," he repeated, still staring straight in front of him, "I leave to-morrow for Plymouth. I have had letters from my agent in Jamaica which make it desirable that I should return there without delay." He dug his stick into the soft earth as he spoke.
James Mottram was absorbed in himself, in his own desire to carry himself well in his fierce determination to avoid betraying what he believed to be his secret. But Catherine Nagle knew nothing of this.
She almost thought him indifferent.
They had come to a steep part of the incline, and Catherine suddenly quickened her steps and pa.s.sed him, so making it impossible that he could see her face. She tried to speak, but the commonplace words she desired to say were strangled, at birth, in her throat.
"Charles will not mind; he will not miss me as he would have missed me before this unhappy business of the railroad came between us," Mottram said lamely.
She still made no answer; instead she shook her head with an impatient gesture. Her silence made him sorry. After all, he had been a good friend to Catherine Nagle--so much he could tell himself without shame.
He stepped aside on to the gra.s.s, and striding forward turned round and faced her.
The tears were rolling down her cheeks; but she threw back her head and met his gaze with a cold, almost a defiant look. "You startled me greatly," she said breathlessly, "and took me so by surprise, James! I am grieved to think how Charles--nay, how we shall both--miss you. It is of Charles I think, James; it is for Charles I weep----"
As she uttered the lying words, she still looked proudly into his face as if daring him to doubt her. "But I shall never forget--I shall ever think with grat.i.tude of your great goodness to my poor Charles. Two years out of your life--that"s what it"s been, James. Too much--too much by far!" She had regained control over her quivering heart, and it was with a wan smile that she added, "But we shall miss you, dear, kind friend."
Her smile stung him. "Catherine," he said sternly, "I go because I must--because I dare not stay. You are a woman and a saint, I a man and a sinner. I"ve been a fool and worse than a fool. You say that Charles to-day called me false friend, traitor! Catherine--Charles spoke more truly than he knew."
His burning eyes held her fascinated. The tears had dried on her cheeks.
She was thirstily absorbing the words as they fell now slowly, now quickly, from his lips.
But what was this he was saying? "Catherine, do you wish me to go on?"
Oh, cruel! Cruel to put this further weight on her conscience! But she made a scarcely perceptible movement of a.s.sent--and again he spoke.
"Years ago I thought I loved you. I went away, as you know well, because of that love. You had chosen Charles--Charles in many ways the better fellow of the two. I went away thinking myself sick with love of you, but it was false--only my pride had been hurt. I did not love you as I loved myself. And when I got clear away, in a new place, among new people"--he hesitated and reddened darkly--"I forgot you! I vow that when I came back I was cured--cured if ever a man was! It was of Charles, not of you, Catherine, that I thought on my way home. To me Charles and you had become one. I swear it!" He repeated: "To me you and Charles were one."
He waited a long moment, and then, more slowly, he went on, as if pleading with himself--with her: "You know what I found here in place of what I had left? I found Charles a----"
Catherine Nagle shrank back. She put up her right hand to ward off the word, and Mottram, seizing her hand, held it in his with a convulsive clasp. ""Twas not the old feeling that came back to me--that I again swear, Catherine. "Twas something different--something infinitely stronger--something that at first I believed to be all n.o.ble----"
He stopped speaking, and Catherine Nagle uttered one word--a curious word. "When?" she asked, and more urgently again she whispered, "When?"
"Long before I knew!" he said hoa.r.s.ely. "At first I called the pa.s.sion that possessed me by the false name of "friendship." But that poor hypocrisy soon left me! A month ago, Catherine, I found myself wishing--I"ll say this for myself, it was for the first time--that Charles was dead. And then I knew for sure what I had already long suspected--that the time had come for me to go----"
He dropped her hand, and stood before her, abased in his own eyes, but one who, if a criminal, had had the strength to be his own judge and pa.s.s heavy sentence on himself.
"And now, Catherine--now that you understand why I go, you will bid me G.o.d-speed. Nay, more"--he looked at her, and smiled wryly--"if you are kind, as I know you to be kind, you will pray for me, for I go from you a melancholy, as well as a foolish man."
She smiled a strange little wavering smile, and Mottram was deeply moved by the gentleness with which Catherine Nagle had listened to his story.
He had been prepared for an averted glance, for words of cold rebuke--such words as his own long-dead mother would surely have uttered to a man who had come to her with such a tale.
They walked on for a while, and Catherine again broke the silence by a question which disturbed her companion. "Then your agent"s letter was not really urgent, James?"
"The letters of an honest agent always call for the owner," he muttered evasively.
They reached the orchard gate. Catherine held the key in her hand, but she did not place it in the lock--instead she paused awhile. "Then there is no special urgency?" she repeated. "And James--forgive me for asking it--are you, indeed, leaving England because of this--this matter of which you have just told me?"
He bent his head in answer.
Then she said deliberately: "Your conscience, James, is too scrupulous.
I do not think that there is any reason why you should not stay. When Charles and I were in Italy," she went on in a toneless, monotonous voice, "I met some of those young n.o.blemen who in times of pestilence go disguised to nurse the sick and bury the dead. It is that work of charity, dear friend, which you have been performing in our unhappy house. You have been nursing the sick--nay, more, you have been tending"--she waited, then in a low voice she added--"the dead--the dead that are yet alive."
Mottram"s soul leapt into his eyes. "Then you bid me stay?" he asked.
"For the present," she answered, "I beg you to stay. But only so if it is indeed true that your presence is not really required in Jamaica."
"I swear, Catherine, that all goes sufficiently well there." Again he fixed his honest, ardent eyes on her face.
And now James Mottram was filled with a great exultation of spirit. He felt that Catherine"s soul, incapable of even the thought of evil, shamed and made unreal the temptation which had seemed till just now one which could only be resisted by flight. Catherine was right; he had been over scrupulous.
There was proof of it in the blessed fact that even now, already, the poison which had seemed to possess him, that terrible longing for another man"s wife, had left him, vanishing in that same wife"s pure presence. It was when he was alone--alone in his great house on the hill, that the devil entered into him, whispering that it was an awful thing such a woman as was Catherine, sensitive, intelligent, and in her beauty so appealing, should be tied to such a being as was Charles Nagle--poor Charles, whom every one, excepting his wife and one loyal kinsman, called mad. And yet now it was for this very Charles that Catherine asked him to stay, for the sake of that unhappy, distraught man to whom he, James Mottram, recognized the duty of a brother.