Xie Yuansheng looked at Feng Xinying tenderly. His mind was not able to think of an answer. He was speechless. His stared deep in her eyes which were glinting like two bright stars. They touched his soul and seemed to say "touch me" or was he thinking like that? His eyes were filled with dreams of their future. The way he looked at her, she felt as if he was touching her all over. They wanted to feel each other, caress each other and love each other, but they weren"t.
"Feng Xinying, I have only dreamt of you ever since I met you," he wanted to say that but he pursed his lips. She was right there in front of him. So what was this inhibition? She looked like a fairy queen traversing on the clouds.
"Do you love me?" she asked him softly again.
Yes, each and every cell of his body loved her. His eyes became misty. He looked down. How could he steal someone else"s wife? He wanted her crazily but this was torture. "What do I do Xinying?" he asked her as he tried to stop the tear to roll out from his eyes.
She understood what he was trying to say. She didn"t want to make him feel guilty. "Do what you want to do right now," she coaxed him into flowing with his feelings for her. Then, after a pause, she asked, "What is it you want to do Shengu?"
Xie Yuansheng was looking down when the tear rolled out. He looked up and said, "I want you but I am scared of the future. What will happen if your husband would come to know? I want to weave the rest of my life with you but I don"t want to steal you from your husband."
Feng Xinying got up from the pillow and brought her face near him. "What if I say that you don"t have to think about him?" Her lips were almost brus.h.i.+ng his.
He gasped and closed his eyes waiting for her to take the initiative. If she initiated, he would not be able to stop himself. However, if she refrained even a little bit, he would stop immediately. While he was thinking this, he suddenly felt that she had kissed the tear that had rolled out of his eyes. She whispered, "Come to me." She was a siren he couldn"t resist. She kissed her check and then softly brushed his lips with hers. She was the seductress, a witch who had completely taken over him. He could no longer resist her.
Holding her pet.i.te face with his, he grabbed her lips and kissed them crazily as if he was quenching his thirst. Gently, he pushed her back to the pillow and sat on the edge of the bed as he leaned over her. Now there was no going back. He was determined. "You are mine," he said in between kisses.
Xie Yuansheng opened her lips with his tongue and plunged inside. This was what he had been waiting for. He didn"t know why but he felt that he knew everything about her. His hand went down to her dress and he slid the dress to the side to uncover her bosom. He had been dying to touch it and squeeze it. "Ah!" a moan escaped his lips as he squeezed it. All his fantasies were coming true. He felt as if a few days back they made love but perhaps that was just a dream.
He left her lips and went down to her neck where he nibbled at her skin and then went down to her perfect collarbone, which he kissed. After removing his coat, he climbed onto the bed, pus.h.i.+ng her slightly inside. He looked at her exposed breast and went to grab the nipple that dotted it. He sucked them and in between said, "Lord, save me. I am unable to control." He removed the dress from her other breast and squeezed them. His pa.s.sion increased by the minute. He wanted to gobble her. Leaving her breast, he went to the other one and then abused it to his heart"s content.
He was panting and gasping for breath after he had sucked them for a long time. His face became red for the want of oxygen. He stopped for a moment and looked at Feng Xinying, who was moaning with pleasure with her face buried in the pillow on the side. "Feng Xinying, is this correct?" he asked.
She nodded. "Yes, it is because we want each other," she encouraged him. She didn"t want him to stop. He had to consciously feel love for her.
"Do you love me?" he asked on an impulse. He wanted her confession.
There was an awkward moment"s pause as he waited with antic.i.p.ation for her answer. She nodded shyly.
"Then say it," he demanded.
"I love you!"
Xie Yuansheng rested his face on her chest and closed his eyes. He felt cathartic. This was the feeling he had been chasing from so long and finally it was here. He stared in her eyes and said, "Say my name."
"Shengu, I love you," said Feng Xinying.
"d.a.m.n! I love you too!" he said and started kissing her b.r.e.a.s.t.s all over. Then he looked at her and chuckled. He looked like a child who had found his candy. He went to her face again and kissed her lightly on her lips. He left her and slid into a sleeping position right next to her. Making her turn to his side, he opened the zip of her dress behind and removed it. Then he took out all her jewelry. He stared at her naked body and his little brother revolted. He wanted to release his pent up emotions but she had gone through a lot that day, so all he did was to cover her with a blanket and wrap himself around her. "Sleep with me Xinying. I want to feel you all over." He started caressing her. He opened his pant"s zip to free his erection and then brought her hand over it wrapping his over hers.
Feng Xinying wanted him in her but she knew that perhaps he was taking one step at a time, which was fine with her.
Next day they had to go to the psychiatrist. But how would they survive the night? He had released and he wanted more.
"Why do I feel all this is so natural?"