38.
ABBY INTRODUCED VIX to the School Volunteer Program the same way she introduced her to eligible young men. Vix signed up and every Wednesday night from six to eight she tutored a sixteen-year-old dropout, D"Nisha Cross, who was trying to get her GED.
"Cool name, huh?" D"Nisha said at their first meeting. "Sound like a movie star or a rapper, don"t it?"
"Very cool," Vix agreed.
When D"Nisha came to Vix"s place she checked it out, circling around a couple of times. "You could blade in here," she told Vix. For a minute Vix felt guilty to be sharing eight hundred square feet with two friends while D"Nisha lived in the projects with who knows how many relatives. She had to remind herself it was okay, unfair maybe, but okay.
"You read all these books?" D"Nisha asked, running her hand across a shelf of paperbacks.
"Not all, but a lot."
"I like to read but not the stuff they gave us in school."
"Starting tonight you can choose whatever you want."
"Cool." She browsed for a minute. "You married?"
"No."
"Got a boyfriend?"
"No."
"A computer?"
"At work."
"I gotta learn computer. You learn computer you get a job."
Vix made a note to pick up some computer intro books.
"You got luck?" D"Nisha asked.
Was this some code word? A new drug? "What do you mean by luck?" Vix said, cautiously.
"s.h.i.t a" D"Nisha looked at her as if she were hopeless, a person who just didn"t get it. "You know a good things happen when you got it? Nothin" happens when you don"t."
"Oh, that luck."
"You know another kind?"
"Not really."
"So?"
"Sometimes I have it," Vix told her, "but not always. How about you?"
"Not yet. But I keep waitin"."
Luck. Luck had changed her life, hadn"t it? Sometimes, when she couldn"t sleep she played the What If game. What if Caitlin hadn"t chosen her for her summer sister? What if Abby and Lamb hadn"t taken a personal interest? What if Nathan hadn"t died or she hadn"t gone to Harvard or she"d married Bru? What would her life be like? Would she be happy, fulfilled?
She was a great believer in luck. Every week she bought a lottery ticket from the newsstand near her office because, as the guy in the commercial said, Hey a you never know a She even signed up for a junket to Atlantic City in early April just to see what all the hoopla was about. Gus had taught her to play poker the summer she was seventeen, the last summer they"d shared the house with the Chicago Boys. He"d been impressed with her stone-cold expression. You don"t give away a thing, do you, Cough Drop?
Never, she"d told him.
Sometimes she dreamed about how it would feel if her ship came in. About how she would spend all that money. But she wasn"t as certain now as she"d been at fourteen.
She withdrew a hundred dollars from the ATM near her office in preparation for her trip. But she didn"t take her checkbook or credit cards. That way there"d be no danger of blowing more than she could afford, not that she could afford even a hundred, given her salary and expenses, but just this once couldn"t hurt.
Maia and Paisley were heading out to the Hamptons to look for a summer share. They"d wanted her to join them but Vix said, "Not this weekend."
"She"s probably got a hot date lined up and doesn"t want us to know," Maia joked.
"Something like that," she told them.
For added luck, she wrapped her piano shawl over her raincoat. She felt exotic when she wore it, like a flamenco dancer. And if she didn"t exactly find luck in At lantic City, she found Luke. She wouldn"t tell Maia and Paisley they met at the c.r.a.ps table. No one ever had to know the truth unless she and Luke wound up together. Then Maia would say, Can you believe Vix met Luke at a casino in Atlantic City? At the c.r.a.ps table?
No, they wouldn"t believe it. She kept her impulsive side to herself. She"d once overheard Maia telling a friend at school, Victoria is the least spontaneous person in our entire cla.s.s, but I"d trust her with my life.
Actually, she didn"t really meet Luke at the c.r.a.ps table. She watched him. He was hot, on a roll, with a stack of chips in front of him that doubled and tripled every time he threw the dice. He was boyish, flush with excitement. She didn"t know it was a twenty-dollar table until she tried to place a bet. Embarra.s.sed, she quickly retrieved her dollar chips. She hung around to watch anyway, as the crowd cheered Luke on, betting with him. He looked up once, caught her eye, and smiled.
At the end of the day, as she was playing a slot machine, he came up behind her, dropped a quarter into the slot, covered her hand with his, and pulled the handle. Three cherries, clanging bells, and twenty a thirty a fifty dollars" worth of quarters came spilling out. He caught them in a cup as she stood with her hands over her mouth, fighting the urge to jump up and down and shriek. "Some days you just can"t lose," he said.
He was slight, just her height, charming, with bedroom eyes. "Have dinner with me," he said. When she didn"t answer right away he pulled out his wallet, fished out his driver"s license with its photo ID, held it up for her to see. "Luke Garden," he told her. "New York City. Thirty-one, single, respectable, straight, Cornell "80, sports management. I just won big!"
So she had dinner. She told him her name was D"Nisha Cross. She told him she worked at ABC, in development. Two things borrowed, nothing blue.
"Stay," he said after dinner. "I"ve got a suite. Two bedrooms, two bathrooms. You get to sleep wherever you want. Really. Here a" He pushed a key at her. "Check it out."
So she checked it out. While he filled the Jacuzzi tub, turned on the music, and turned down the lights, she wrapped the piano shawl around her naked body like a strapless gown. When the scene was set he slowly unraveled it, letting it fall to the floor.
The next morning he was gone. She found him in the casino, playing blackjack. She took the next bus back to New York and never said a word to anyone. If she were Paisley, she"d write his name on her list. But she didn"t need to write down names. For her there was still only one that counted. Only one she"d loved.
A postcard from Caitlin, dated April 4, 1989, Seattle.
Ran into some bad luck. Donny sick. Plans for restaurant postponed. Will call when I can.
Abby SHE TELLS LAMB they should get on the first plane to Seattle and see what"s going on for themselves. But Lamb says they have to allow Caitlin, and all the grown children, to work out their own lives. To solve their own problems. How else are they going to learn to make their way in the world?
This friend of hers, Donny, who"s in hospice care, has the disease. Not that Caitlin"s said anything, but she can read between the lines. She admires Caitlin for wanting to be there for her friend but she can"t help worrying. She"s been reading everything she can find on the subject and it"s horrifying, even if it"s not contagious in the usual way. And really, how can they be sure Caitlin hasn"t been intimate with someone a Another postcard arrives asking them to respect her time with Donny. Please don"t leave messages on her machine. She can"t return their calls right now. And tell Vix, will you, that she"s not out of touch, she"s just a preoccupied.
VIX WAS WORKING on three accounts at Marstelloa"a former Miss America starting her own line of cosmetics, a political consultant who had written a memoir, and an off-off-Broadway theater company they were representing pro bono. She"d become friendly with Earl, the writer/producer/director and sometimes hung out at the theater in the evening, watching rehearsals. Earl was ruthless in his revisions. He never threw the rejected scenes into a wastebasket like a normal person. He was paranoid enough to think someone might find his discarded work and plagiarize it so he bought a mini shredder, a cheapie on sale at Staples. He could feed it just a page at a time. Watching him, Vix sometimes wondered what would happen if you could do that with real life. Revise and shred.
She dropped a few notes to Caitlin, saying she was thinking of her and hoping it was going okay with Donny. Earl had already lost two of his closest friends and was sure his own days were numbered. She didn"t share that with Caitlin. She tried not to think of it herself.
She brought in her first major client, a cutting-edge fashion designer. When Vix asked how she had heard of her, the designer said, "Caitlin Somers."
"You know Caitlin?"
"We met in Milan. I was an apprentice at Gucci. Caitlin did some modeling for us. We got to be friendly. I ran into her in Seattle. She told me to look you up now that I"ve got my own shop a says you"re the best. You are, aren"t you?"
Gus CAITLIN CALLS HIM on June 5, screaming, G.o.dd.a.m.n it, Gus, you"re a reporter, aren"t you? Why aren"t you doing something about this ma.s.sacre?
The ma.s.sacre"s in China, he reminds her, but even if it weren"t, what do you think I can do?
I"m not talking about Tiananmen Square, you f.u.c.king idiot! I"m talking about here. People are dying. Does that mean anything to you?
Okay a let"s start again, he says.
What"s the point? She slams down the phone.
What was that all about? Should he call someone? Abby and Lamb? No. No need to upset them. Maybe Vix? But what would he say?
39.
PAISLEY DRAGGED HER to a fall fundraiser at the public library, where they filled in at the ABC corporate table. Paisley was becoming known on the benefit circuit and told Vix and Maia it was a great way to network, not to mention meet the right men. Vix gave in and bought a dress on sale at Bloomingdale"s. Black lace top. Elegant yet s.e.xy, the salesperson told her.
Will approached her on the grand staircase where she"d stopped to watch the dancing below. "Great cheekbones," he said.
"A gift from a Cherokee ancestor," she told him. She"d been waiting a long time to try that line.
"A drop of Cherokee blood means the tribe can claim you forever, but not before I claim you for the night." He extended his hand. "C. Willard Trenholm. But my friends call me Will."
"Victoria Leonard."
"Glad to meet you, Victoria." He guided her down the stairs and out onto the dance floor. He was tall, maybe six five, and even in heels she came up only to his chest. He knew how to fox-trot, waltz, and lindy hop, all to music played by Peter Duchin himself. If her family could see her now!
She heard Bru"s voice chiding her but she pushed it away and concentrated on her feet, trying to avoid being trampled or, worse yet, stepping on Will, since she had no idea how to dance that way.
Later Paisley approached to say she"d met someone and was leaving with him. "Take a cab home, Victoria a okay? I mean it, no subways tonight."
Vix nodded, then returned to the dance floor with Will. She didn"t have to worry about getting home. He took her to the Rainbow Room for a nightcap and to admire the view. In the cab on the way back to her place, they made out like teenagers. When the taxi pulled up in front of her building, Will leaned forward and told the driver to go around the block again.
She saw him three times that week. And the weekend after that. He sent flowers to her at home and G.o.diva chocolates to her office.
"A person could get used to this," Maia sang.
Vix began to flirt with the idea of being a rich girl, of never having to worry about money again. You were wrong when you told me I wouldn"t fit in a she"d say to Tawny.
Money was Will"s favorite subject, s.e.x his second. He chased her around his family"s Park Avenue duplex, playing hide-and-seek in the gallery, which was lined with suits of armor, like a museum. In the forest green library he unb.u.t.toned her shirt and admired her b.r.e.a.s.t.s. "Beautiful," he said. "Are they implants?" She a.s.sured him they were the real thing. "I thought so," he said, "but you hardly ever get the real thing these days."
He invited her to the ballet. She"d never been and borrowed a crushed velvet suit from Paisley. The following week it was Shakespeare at the Public, followed by dinner at Chanterelle.
Maia began to call her The Heiress.
"She wouldn"t be inheriting," Paisley said, setting the record straight. "She"d be acquiring."
"Either way a" Maia said.
That night the three of them sat around the coffee table, eating Chinese food from the cartons, while they watched Don"t Look Now on the VCR. As Julie Christie and Donald Sutherland chased one another around Venice, Maia said, "I hope Vix will invite us to Venice a to her palazzo on the Grand Ca.n.a.l."
"Mmm a" Paisley shoveled in chicken with cashews. "I"ve always wanted to see Venice."
"How do you feel about Cincinnati?" Vix asked. "Because that"s where the business is based. That"s where the patriarch has his palazzo."
Will had his own place in the East Sixties with a view of the Russian Consulate. "I think of you every night, Victoria," he said, breathing heavily, when he finally took her there. His hand was under her skirt. "Have you been thinking of me? Have you?"
Well, yes a Will had a king-size bed, a gray comforter, down pillows. When he kneeled over her sporting a hot pink condom she thought, a p.e.n.i.s dressed as Malibu Barbie, and she tried not to giggle. Maybe her mother was right. Maybe the rich were different.
She was flattered by his attention and curious about his world but she couldn"t say she was in love with him. She found him arrogant and, at times, even boring. They spent a long rainy weekend at an expensive inn in the Berkshires. While he read Forbes, Barrons, the Financial Times, Vix found herself fantasizing about Bru.
At Sunday brunch Will said, "Tell me about your family, Victoria. Aside from the fact that you"re from Santa Fe I don"t know anything about you."
"What you see is what you get, Will."
"But what does your family do there?"
"My father manages a restaurant and my mother is the amanuensis to the Countess de Lowenhoff." She was glad to finally have the chance to use Abby"s description of her mother"s job.
"Restaurant a" he said, raising his eyebrows. "Amanuensis. How charming. What about your grandparents?"
"There are no grandparents." She smiled at him. "Are you checking out my ancestry, Will?"
"I"m interested in everything about you, Victoria."
"Well a my sister"s on welfare and my brother enlisted on his eighteenth birthday. I went all through school on scholarships. I owe my benefactors everything. They invested in my future so I could hold my own with sn.o.bs like you."
Will laughed, then applauded. "Brilliant!" He leaned over and kissed her. "You should write novels, Victoria. With your imagination and flair a"
What was she doing with him?