Chapter 8
Ling Hao has agreed to hold a press conference with Xia Mo! Cai Ne opens the conference stating that Ling Hao and Yin Xia Mo initially met on set for filming. Aside from a working relationship, there is nothing of the personal nature going on between them. Ling Hao sits quietly next to Xia Mo, his face lacking the usual ease and self-confidence that he normally maintains in the public eye.
The reporters instantly narrow in on Xia Mo, asking her questions that become increasingly direct and point-blank. Does she know that Ling Hao and An Hui Ni have been dating for two years? If so, then why was she trying to break them up by becoming the third person in their relationship? How does she think her relationship with Ling Hao has affected her sudden transition to leading female role? If her relationship with Ling Hao is so innocent, then why would An Hui Ni publicly announce her departure from the entertainment industry as a result of breaking up with Ling Hao? Doesn’t Yin Xia Mo feel any repentance for causing so much pain to An Hui Ni? If Yin Xia Mo claims that she has done nothing wrong, then what about the attempted seduction at the hotel? An Hui Ni said you were shameless…!
Xia Mo repeatedly and calmly states her innocence; she has done no such thing. She and Ling Hao are only working partners. She doesn’t even own a transparent negligee! If she really was trying to seduce Ling Hao at said hotel, then they should look up the security footage from that hotel!
Realizing that they are not going to get a different answer from Yin Xia Mo, the reporters turn their attention to Ling Hao and start firing questions at him. Why do you think Yin Xia Mo is trying to get close to you? Have you officially broken up with An Hui Ni? Why would you give up your two year relationship with An Hui Ni for Yin Xia Mo? We heard that An Hui Ni was recently taken to the hospital; have you visited her? An Hui Ni’s fans have said that if you leave her, they will instantly boycott you; what do you think of that? Someone close to An Hui Ni has said that she’ll take you back as long as you leave Yin Xia Mo; who will you choose?
Zhen En is freaking out. She and Xia Mo had tried to get contact Ling Hao for the past two days and although he had expressed remorse for what was happening to Xia Mo, he declined to come out in public with her to address the situation. Ling Hao had repeatedly apologized to Xia Mo though, and so Zhen En then decided to try another tactic – she called him every ten minutes. And when Ling Hao turned off his cell phone, Zhen En stood by his front door until she finally found him in the middle of the night. She doesn’t know if her three hours of crying and begging changed his mind but Ling Hao finally called her this morning to tell her that he would appear the press conference.
However, what if Ling Hao is really on An Hui Ni’s side?
The reporters wait anxiously for Ling Hao’s response – whatever he says will ultimately decide the entire situation! Xia Mo stares straight ahead at the cameras but when Ling Hao still does not respond, she cannot help but also incline her head slightly to watch him.
“Yin Xia Mo and I…”
Suddenly, the doors to the conference room are pushed open! As a few of the reporters turn to see who has entered, everyone else’s attention leaves Ling Hao. It is the person who had to be taken to the hospital a few days ago because she got so sick from stress! An! Hui! Ni!
An Hui Ni stumbles to the front of the room, tears in her eyes as she determinedly makes her way to Ling Hao. The reporters are abuzz and crowd anxiously around her, snapping pictures right and left. Ashen and pale… heartbroken… desperate… An Hui Ni only has eyes for Ling Hao.
“I’m sorry… I misunderstood you… Ah Hao…”
“Hui Ni! What’s wrong??”
“I thought… your heart was no longer with me… I thought she used shameless tricks to steal you from me… But, I just realized… you still love me! In your heart, there’s only me! Right? I’m sorry… I should never have doubted you…”
“Hui Ni…”
“Since I misunderstood you… then let me take care of everything…” An Hui Ni faces Xia Mo, who stands up to look back at her. “Miss Yin, you cannot destroy the relationship I have with Ah Hao. I was at the hospital when I received his engagement ring and letter, and I finally realized that I had misunderstood him. I’m going to accept his proposal. Even though you tried countless times to seduce him, I’m still going to be happy. And so, I am willing to forgive you…”
The audience members watching the press conference are touched. The kind An Hui Ni not only does not rightly yell at Yin Xia Mo but also offers to forgive her for her indiscretions! She is too nice…
“Congratulations. Is this the ring that Ling Hao just delivered to you? It is very pretty. However, how come it looks exactly like the ring that Cai Ni received on her birthday when you were filming that scene?”
“Ah Hao bought the same design.”
“I remember that the jewelry designer purposely designed a one-of-a-kind ring for you to convey his appreciation and support of ‘Innocent Love Song’ and your performance.” Complete silence. An Hui Ni feels the cold sweat breaking out on her.
“Well, I must have remembered incorrectly then. There are so many rings in my jewelry box!”
“It’s okay if you remembered the wrong ring. However, there are many things that are better to not remember incorrectly. Such as I’ve never been alone with Ling Hao on a rendezvous date, never even had a dinner together by ourselves. How can you incorrectly remember that?”"
“You… What exactly are you trying to say? Since you have the audacity to try to seduce Ling Hao, why can’t you just admit to it? You tried to seduce him at the hotel, so you should just face up to it…!”
“What hotel? On which day?”
“I can’t remember anymore…”
“Then maybe you ‘can’t remember’ who that person was either??”
The reporters are confused; why is it looking more and more like An Hui Ni is the one lying here? How does she not clearly remember so many things?
“Ah Hao! You tell everyone whether or not Yin Xia Mo tried to seduce you!”
Embarra.s.sment covers Ling Hao’s ashen face. His conscience forces him to look at Yin Xia Mo, who levels a direct stare back at him. However, shame quickly makes him look away. Looking over at Hui Ni, who is anxiously clutching at his sheet sleeve, he sees the desperation in her pleading gaze. Ling Hao knows… her entire career, her reputation, all her hard-earned work… is all riding on his answer… Ling Hao does not agree with what she is doing – and in fact has had several arguments with her about this very issue – but how can he tell the truth and destroy Hui Ni?
“I’m sorry, Xia Mo… I cannot harm Hui Ni…”
Chaos explodes! So Yin Xia Mo did try to seduce Ling Hao! The reporters begin to fire question after question at Xia Mo; so weren’t you the one who was just lying then? Ling Hao has already admitted that you are the third party! Are you going to leave the entertainment industry then? What are you feeling right now?
Members of the public community are a little confused right now though; Ling Hao has essentially affirmed An Hui Ni’s claim but why does something still feel off about the situation?
“You cannot harm An Hui Ni so you choose to not tell the truth?! Do you really think that a simple apology will make everything go away? That you’ll be able to help An Hui Ni cover the truth and make me the one to blame? An Hui Ni, is materialism really that important to you? Because we didn’t throw ourselves before you, so you slapped my agent? Because I didn’t NG and was actually praised by the director, you got jealous and decided to slap me? Because that incident negatively impacted you and got you changed to second lead role, you make up these lies about me trying to seduce Ling Hao?!
“What do you think you’re talking about?! You think I’m jealous of you? What do you have that I should be jealous of? A newcomer with nothing to her name, what right do you have to be talking to me in such a loud voice!”
“Ah Hao… perhaps in your mind he is a treasure. But in my mind, he’s just a regular entertainer. Accusing me of seducing him… you first have to see if I would even like him! Fine; you claim that I tried to seduce him! Well, then let’s just bring it all out for everyone to know! Ling Hao, how did I repeatedly seduce you? When? Where? What did I do? Please tell everyone!”
But of course, Ling Hao cannot say anything. As he surrept.i.tiously avoids Xia Mo’s glare, sweat begins to form on his forehead. Desperate to save the situation, An Hui Ni jumps in to intervene; the only reason that Ah Hao isn’t saying anything is because he’s trying to save face for Xia Mo! He’s already affirmed the attempted seduction, you despicable woman!
An Hui Ni raises her hand and it comes flying down towards Yin Xia Mo’s face! Yin Xia Mo suddenly reaches out and firmly grabs An Hui Ni’s hand – and then lands a sound slap on An Hui Ni!
Enraged, An Hui Ni goes crazy and loses her composure. Screaming at Yin Xia Mo, An Hui Ni tries to throw herself at her and is further angered to see that Ling Hao is holding her back. She knew it! She knew that Ah Hao liked Yin Xia Mo! Otherwise Ah Hao wouldn’t have looked at Yin Xia Mo like that while filming! Otherwise Ah Hao wouldn’t be trying to interrupt her plans! She will make Yin Xia Mo leave! She will force her out of the entertainment industry!!
“How dare you hit me, you liar! You say that I’m lying, so what evidence do you have that proves that you didn’t do it?! What proof do you have? What’s wrong? You can’t say anything? Then you’re the one who’s lying! Liar!!”
“I am her proof.”
What a warm and soothing voice. Such a beautiful voice to listen to and yet carrying a dark lure to it…
Xia Mo freezes! What a familiar voice but yet it is impossible!
Cameras start flashing like mad and everyone’s attention is riveted on the person standing at the front doors. The instant he appears, everyone else becomes nothing but a shadow; the only brightness is that of his beautiful midnight black eyes, his beautiful smile…
“Xia Mo – is my girlfriend.”
It is Luo Xi! Luo Xi!! Wait… Yin Xia Mo… is his girlfriend?!
In an apologetic voice, Luo Xi directs his attention to Xia Mo; he cannot let her suffer this kind of humiliation… so please allow him to publicly announce their relationship. Xia Mo is conflicted; she knows what Luo Xi is trying to do but she is touched and shamed that time after time, she is always the recipient of his help.
An Hui Ni has gone completely pale as she sways unsteadily on her feet. All of the reporters are now only focused on Luo Xi and Xia Mo… how could this have happened?!
“I originally was planning on flying straight back from j.a.pan when the news broke out, but Mo Mo didn’t want to worry me and said repeatedly that she could handle it on her own. Unable to protect the person I like, who was worried about my own career… I couldn’t do it and decided to fly straight back to tell everyone, that Mo Mo and I are dating! An Hui Ni, how could Mo Mo possibly give up me to ‘seduce’ your Ling Hao? You’ll be receiving a letter from my lawyer tomorrow.”
As everyone stares in shock at the wooden An Hui Ni, her facial expression is her admission of guilt. And they slowly realize the truth – in an attempt to rectify the negative consequences from slapping Yin Xia Mo, An Hui Ni then decided to concoct this story to retaliate against her. And trying to protect An Hui Ni’s career, Ling Hao chose to sacrifice the innocent Yin Xia Mo, which is why he kept apologizing to her…
In her shock and anger, An Hui Ni suddenly pa.s.ses out. Due to Luo Xi’s appearance, Ling Hao had momentarily forgotten to continue to hold onto her and she crumples to the floor! The instant that Luo Xi appeared at the press conference, An Hui Ni’s game was over. Although Ling Hao is a catch, anyone with eyes can instantly see that Luo Xi is by far the better prize – no girl in her right mind would pick Ling Hao over Luo Xi. To give up Luo Xi to seduce Ling Hao? What a joke.
“I hope that everyone will bless me and Mo Mo. But even if you don’t, we’ll still be together forever.”
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Since that day when he momentarily lost consciousness, Ou Chen has now gained back his memory. No longer just fragments of the past, but wholly and complete pictures of his history with Xia Mo. However, gaining his memory has only added to the pain and he would almost rather not have remembered at all. Amnesia… is actually another type of happiness.
Luo Xi again…
The memory of five years ago now convolving with the present – this name is his life’s curse… If Luo Xi had not appeared, perhaps she would have failed and left the entertainment industry. She should be his; she is not a movie star who belongs to the entire world. Even though this departure may have caused her pain, it would have eventually pa.s.sed. But to stay in the entertainment world would have created an even greater harm in the future. After she had gotten used to leaving, he would have helped her clear her name and make An Hui Ni pay. But now, Luo Xi has ruined everything.
“Luo Xi…”
Chapter 9
Since the press conference, the media outlets have been playing the same bit of news every day. An Hui Ni’s fans are torn; although Ling Hao is super hot, there’s just no way Yin Xia Mo would give up Luo Xi to be with him… Unable to control her anger, An Hui Ni has also been accepting interviews and rehashing Yin Xia Mo’s “seduction attempts” on Ling Hao. However, every time she breaks down in pitiful tears and sobs, the reporters don’t even bat an eye and instead, ask her for explicit evidence to back her claims. An Hui Ni hems and haws, and can only give an approximate time on January 12 but can’t remember at which hotel.
Reporters instantly investigated Yin Xia Mo’s whereabouts on January 12 and found out that she had not been present on set. However, she had been in Zhong Ya’s office all day with Zhong Ya and her a.s.sistant, going over the script and had not left until 2am. The saddest thing is that Ling Hao had booked a hotel reservation for that night but had to fly out of the country last minute. There was no way he could have been at the hotel with An Hui Ni that night and then run into a scantily-clad Yin Xia Mo!
An Hui Ni’s lies have been completely found out. This has to be the saddest and most pathetic story in the history of the entertainment industry!
An Hui Ni’s fans are devastated! Their innocent and kind Ni Ni is actually such a scheming and manipulative person! Not only is she jealous of a newcomer but also concocts such a lie to pull her fans to such incredibly low lengths too! But the one to have hurt them is not anyone else but the very person they were trying to loyally protect!
Such a shameless and calculating woman should leave the entertainment industry!
They once so dearly loved An Hui Ni and now that has changed to extreme hatred. When fans think of how they once treated Yin Xia Mo, they are seized with shame and guilt. The fan who drove the car at Yin Xia Mo that day initiated an apology to her and begged for forgiveness. Yin Xia Mo did not pursue anything and only told fans to always take things with a grain of salt and not believe so easily at face value.
No one agrees to contracting An Hui Ni anymore. She has even been released from her original contract as spokeswoman. At the same time, Ling Hao has also left the country to take some time away. Rumor has it that he has officially broken things off with An Hui Ni but out of respect from their years together, has chosen to not publicly announce the news. No longer does anyone believe any excuse or reason An Hui Ni has to say; her career and romance ruined, An Hui Ni falls ill and has to be taken instantly to the hospital. No friend or fan goes to visit her. Only reporters are there to take pictures of her pale and sickly face – “Karma; An Hui Ni’s Tears of Regret!”
Luo Xi and Yin Xia Mo have become the golden couple of the industry. She is the innocent and sweet princess who would rather suffer alone and protect her prince, and he is the charming prince who will publicly announce his personal life to protect his princess. Although there has been many rumors surrounding Luo Xi and his personal life – Shen Qiang has always been believed to be his girlfriend – this is the first time that Luo Xi has publicly announced to a relationship. Since Xia Mo is the person whom Xi Xi likes, then fans will do everything in their power to guard by this person!
One night, Luo Xi and Xia Mo are at his place when she suddenly remembers that given the craziness of the past few days, she has not even had a chance to thank Luo Xi for what he did for her that day. However, Luo Xi suddenly interrupts her.
“Did you miss me? The second day I was in j.a.pan, I came down with a little cold but I was really good and instantly took the medicine you packed for me. What about you? Did you follow through with what you promised me and really, really miss me?” Silence. “You… You didn’t even miss me at all, didn’t you? You didn’t even call me once, and turned off your cell phone, and I can’t even contact you… I come back home earlier and see you at your press conference, and all I get is a dazed expression on your face… Are you not even happy to see me again? You really didn’t miss me at all…”
Luo Xi worriedly asks Xia Mo if she is mad at him for intervening in her business without first getting her permission. Xia Mo is surprised at such a question; what kind of a person would she be if she got mad at him? Not being afraid of disappointing his fans, not being afraid that his agency will release him from his contract, not caring about anything except coming out to help her… What kind of a person would not be touched by this?
Luo Xi laughs; how would he know what she’s thinking? She used to be like that in the past! At his bittersweet words, Xia Mo thinks back to how she used to treat Luo Xi like an enemy and realizes the truth in them. Taking Luo Xi’s hand in her own and playfully swinging it back and forth, Xia Mo lightly chants “sorry” to him, much like a little girl trying to get her way after misbehaving.
Luo Xi watches Xia Mo in mild shock. In front of him, Xia Mo has always been cool and collected. Only five years ago, when she was with Ou Chen, did he ever see her act like a little playful kitten.
“Are you really Yin Xia Mo? My Xia Mo is made out of ice, but how is this Xia Mo so mischievous?”
“That was the outer packaging; this the real thing. You can still return, if you want.”
“Too late… I’ve already announced to the entire world. You are mine. And I – am yours. Together forever, and forever loyal.”
“Together forever, and forever loyal.”
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Ou Chen is occupied going through the material that Xi Meng has researched for him. As he is going through all the information, a talk show is currently airing in the background.
She is with Luo Xi yet again!
Ever since the press conference, the two have been appearing together everywhere. Their shared eye contact and their easy familiarity with each other – the public has essentially fully acknowledged their relationship together. On the talk show, the host digs for more information from the two – the next question is, where was your first kiss?
Ou Chen instantly swivels his head to stare at the television.
The hostess requires Luo Xi and Xia Mo to individually write their answers on a piece of paper before sharing their answers with the audience. Xia Mo writes down “airport”, hesitatingly explaining that at the time, Luo Xi was about to leave the country, and…
The audience and the hostess oooh dramatically. However, when it is Luo Xi’s turn to show his answer, he has written down “beneath the cherry blossom tree”. What is this? Who has incorrectly remembered the first kiss??
“Neither. At the time, Xia Mo and I were celebrating underneath the cherry blossom tree… she was a little drunk… And so when I stole a kiss, she didn’t even know. That was really our first kiss.”
A stabbing pain has pierced Ou Chen’s heart. Beneath the cherry blossom tree… that only belongs to him and Xia Mo! In that garden, that tree contains his happiest and his most painful memories… And yet she has shared memories with Luo Xi under that same tree?!
Luo Xi…
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“Innocent Love Song” has finished successfully and Xia Mo is a saddened to see it end; even though it was filled with obstacles, it was her very first acting project, after all. As she and Ling Hao bid farewell to each other, they both hope to be able to have the opportunity to work with one another again. It is after Ling Hao’s departure that Zhen En receives some shocking news.
Luo Xi’s series has stopped filming… because its biggest financial contributor, Ou Hua Corporations, is unsatisfied with Luo Xi’s performance and so is requesting to switch him out with another actor!
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While driving, Zhen En tries to a.s.sure Xia Mo that it could just be some sort of misunderstanding… However, thinking to herself, isn’t the CEO of Ou Hua Corporations Young Master…? Is it possible that Young Master is purposefully out to get Luo Xi? It couldn’t be…
Xia Mo is determined to get to Luo Xi’s place but Zhen En cautions her that now may not be the best time to go there – there are bound to be reporters surrounding his house right now. Xia Mo hesitates at Zhen En’s words, but she has been unable to reach Luo Xi since hearing the news. No one is picking up at the studio or at home and his cell phone is turned off… Seeing the look on Xia Mo’s face changes Zhen En’s mind though, and she promises Xia Mo that she will get her to Luo Xi.
True enough, when they arrive at Luo Xi’s, there is a crowd of reporters waiting. Zhen En and Xia Mo push their way through the crowd, and Zhen En serves as distraction by answering the reporters’ questions for her. Luckily, the security at Luo Xi’s is attentive and escort Xia Mo back, and so the reporters are unable to follow Xia Mo.
Jie Ni immediately lets Xia Mo in when she rings the doorbell, and she sees Luo Xi lounging casually on the sofa in the living room. When he sees her though, his eyes immediately light up and he holds out his hand to her. Pulling her down to sit next to him, he only smiles at her, holding her hand with both of his against his heart. Don’t worry…
Xia Mo is thrown to realize that when it comes to her own business, she can remain unflappably calm and steady. But when it comes to Luo Xi’s business, she completely falls apart?
Jie Ni is occupied doing damage control on her cell phone, as she speaks angrily to the other line. How dare they say that Luo Xi’s acting is not up to par! In fact, while filming, the director could not stop praising Luo Xi, so how exactly is his performance lacking, pray tell?! If you’re really so dissatisfied with Luo Xi’s acting, let’s release some of the footage to the public and let them decide whether or not it’s quality! I’m warning you; this is blasphemy against Luo Xi’s reputation! I have the right to take legal action against you!
When Jie Ni furiously ends the call, Xia Mo looks worriedly at both her and Luo Xi. Luo Xi, on the other hand, laughs lightly as he doesn’t have a care in the world. Jie Ni asks him if he somehow managed to offend a higher-up at Ou Hua Corporations; this seems to be specifically targeting him…
“Ou Hua Corporations… I guess I did. This seems to exactly fit his style.”
“Who is it?”
“Doesn’t matter. He’s threatening me with something that really doesn’t matter that much to me. And what he wants, I will never give him.”
“How can it not matter?! Don’t you know how big of a help this series will be to your career? Ah Luo, you haven’t done anything else these past three months except film this! With so many newcomers entering the entertainment industry, and fans being so fickle-minded… along with this kind of news…”
“What if I quit then?”
Jie Ni is flabbergasted – Luo Xi has done nothing but work for this since coming back from England! Does he want to just throw it all away? Who is this person at Ou Hua Corporations?! But Luo Xi refuses to disclose the name, telling Jie Ni that no matter what, he won’t be so easily defeated. Seeing herself at a dead end, Jie Ni excuses herself and leaves Luo Xi and Xia Mo to themselves. Luo Xi continues to maintain a light and playful mood with Xia Mo, teasingly tweaking her nose and telling her not to worry. Until Xia Mo mentions HIM; if he is doing it, then it’s all because of her – she’ll take care of it for Luo Xi.
“How are you going to take care of it? Agree to the condition of returning to him, so he’ll graciously let me go? Yin Xia Mo, in your mind, he will forever be the powerful and mighty young master while I will always be the pitiful and pathetic one, right?!?”
Angrily flinging out his hand, Luo Xi sends all the newspapers from the coffee table flying to the floor, and then stalks over to face the window. When Xia Mo hesitatingly calls out his name, Luo Xi remains quiet and ignores her. Xia Mo never meant her statement in that way; she had only wanted to offer her help. However, she didn’t realize until now that her making Luo Xi leave Taiwan five years ago still continues to torment him. Xia Mo cautiously walks up to Luo Xi but pauses when her eye is caught by one of the headlines – “Prince Luo Xi Abandoned as a Child!”
Luo Xi’s anger is slowly turning into fear. He had thought she would immediately deny his claim, that he was just misunderstanding her – even come up behind him to hug him and tell him that no matter what, she would never leave him. However, it is so deathly quiet…
So that’s how it is, isn’t it? She really does want to leave him, doesn’t she? She wants to give him up and go back to Ou Chen, and this just happens to have given her a ready excuse… Is that how it is?!
Whirling around to face Xia Mo, Luo Xi then notices her staring fixedly on a newspaper – and realizes which familiar picture she is studying! Ripping the newspaper out of her hand, Luo Xi quickly scans the article before angrily crumpling the newspaper into a ball and throwing it into the garbage can.
“Luo Xi…”
“How much did you see? Forget it all! It’s all fake! Lies! Forget it all, do you hear me?!”
“I can forget! But you have to forget too! It is because of this past that you’re always so afraid, aren’t you? You should be the one to forget, not me!”
“I’m meant to always be given up on… this is my fate… To always be thrown away… just like garbage… You’re going to throw me again, aren’t you? Even if you didn’t know this, you would still throw me away… One is a royal young master and the other is just a peasant orphan…”
“Are you feeling sorry for yourself now? So what if you’re an orphan, what if you were abandoned as a child? We rely on ourselves to live; every single thing we get, we earn ourselves! What’s so shameful about that?! Even if you were once abandoned, maybe those people also had their own reasons that they couldn’t tell! Didn’t you overcome this already? Why do you have to say such hurtful things? Do you want me to pity you, is that why?”
“You…?!”
“Let the past be in the past. Just like you just said, the Luo Xi now is strong; he won’t be so easily toppled over. You don’t need anyone’s pity because there are countless people in this world who envy your success. Fate works in interesting ways. Sometimes it’ll take something away from us but it’ll give us something in return. Luo Xi, you are what fate has gifted you. In exchange for your childhood, fate has given you your outer appearance – perfect and beautiful.”
“But I don’t want…”
“Since we cannot change fate, then why not accept it? Fate hasn’t given up on you; just given you a different life. From now on… don’t say any more hurtful things to yourself…”
Laying her head against Luo Xi’s chest, Xia Mo’s warm presence slowly dissolves the tension from him. As he holds her closet to him though, Luo Xi cannot chase away the feeling of unease in his heart…
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At Luo Xi’s quiet entreat, Xia Mo ends up staying there to keep him company, watching over him while he sleeps. Luo Xi sleeps fitfully though, his mind caught in the endless nightmare of his childhood past…
“Mommy… Mommy…”
Mommy had taken him to the amus.e.m.e.nt park that day; so many fun things to play with! It was the happiest day of his life that he could ever remember! In fact, Mommy even bought him a big and sweet ice cream! So Mommy does love him, she does want him right?? Mommy has been calling orphanages these past few days, begging them to take him. He was so scared that he started crying and begging Mommy; he promises to be good and he’ll do really well in school! Please don’t make me an orphan, Mommy!
Mommy finally promised him that she wouldn’t send him away and he was very, very good. Today they’re at the amus.e.m.e.nt park and while eating his ice cream, Mommy said that she was going to buy him some noodles for lunch so be very good and wait here, okay?
One hour later… three hours later… Mommy has not returned yet. The ice cream has long since melted away. Five hours later… It is beginning to get dark and cold… As he sits there, shivering in the cold, he worries that Mommy may have gotten lost… Mommy wouldn’t abandon him; she’s just secretly hiding and making sure that he stays good…
“Mommy… Mommy…”
Xia Mo tries to gently wake Luo Xi up, her heart clenching at the fear in his childlike voice. The article had detailed how Luo Xi had been abandoned at nine years old at the amus.e.m.e.nt park; by the time people had found him, he had been waiting the entire night and he had fallen unconscious. He was in emergency care for three days and three nights, and the doctors were finally able to revive him. When the police had attempted to find his mother though, she had already moved away and there was no other choice except to send the child to an orphanage.
As Xia Mo continues to whisper to Luo Xi – “it’s just a dream…” – her gentle voice eventually enters his dream thoughts… the voice of the person that he has spent his entire life waiting for…
Chapter 10
Since news of Luo Xi being switched out has been released, some reporters have theorized that it wouldn’t make sense for Ou Hua Corporations to just randomly break the contract when there is so much money riding on it – especially given that so many scenes will need to be re-filmed again. Given that, it has to be that Luo Xi has somehow not performed up to par.
On the other hands, Luo Xi’s fans have taken this news personally as they believe that Luo Xi has always given nothing but his best. In fact, the news of Luo Xi’s childhood abandonment has only served to further increase their loyalty to him! Since their beloved Luo Luo had to go through so many trials as a kid, they will do everything they can to protect and support him! If Ou Hua Corporations dares to switch out Luo Xi, the fans will do everything in their power to make sure that the series fails!
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Ever since he has officially taken on the business, Xi Meng has never seen Young Master let his feelings get in the way of work. Even though Young Master had specifically requested Yin Xia Mo to be the spokeswoman for Lei Ou, he had ultimately allowed the initial auditions to take place and she had won the contract purely out of her own talents. However, Young Master seems adamant about switching out Luo Xi and he won’t even justify his reasoning to the other board members.
Xi Meng attempts to reason with Ou Chen on the matter; the board does not believe that there is anything wrong with Luo Xi’s performance and the series could potentially draw in a huge financial boon. However, Ou Chen remains firm to his decision and tells Xi Meng to convey to the board that this is a personal matter – he will not change his mind.
As Xi Meng is leaving though, he tells Ou Chen that Yin Xia Mo is waiting to see him. Ou Chen instinctively rises and goes immediately to the door before suddenly halting; he returns to his desk and curtly acknowledges Xi Meng, who then leaves. Ou Chen begins to concentrate on the files on his desk.
4:20pm
5:30pm
7:50pm
9:10pm
When Ou Chen finally dons his jacket and leaves the office, it is deep into the night and the pitter-patter of the rain can be heard hitting against the windows. There is a lone figure sitting the lobby, a cup of tea that has long since cooled in front of her. Almost instinctively sensing his presence, Xia Mo raises her head.
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Ou Chen and Xia Mo are surrounded by darkness as they sit quietly in the dark of the car. Ou Chen steadfastly ignores Xia Mo’s presence although the pounding of his heart continues on. When Xia Mo asks him where they are going, Ou Chen coolly replies that she is free to get out of the car if she pleases. Xia Mo then asks whether he has had dinner yet, to which he tells her that it is none of her business. Suddenly, to Ou Chen’s surprise, Xia Mo tells the driver to stop.
The rain is still pounding outside and when Xia Mo intends to head outside without an umbrella, Ou Chen shakes off his jacket and shoves it at her. Slightly thrown, Xia Mo only stares back at him before putting it on – “Wait… for me to come back…” However, the roaring of the rain and the pounding of Ou Chen’s own heart makes it hard for him to understand her as he watches her figure disappear in the darkness.
Come back… Will she still come back? Would a person who once so cruelly left him still come back?
After some time has pa.s.sed, the door to the car suddenly opens and a soaked Xia Mo comes flying in. Wiping the rain off her face, Xia Mo opens the brown bag that she is now carrying and pulls out its contents – a bottle of painkillers, warm milk and a sandwich. Opening the milk and the bottle of painkillers, Xia Mo hands two pills to Ou Chen and warms him that the milk may be a little hot. Ou Chen wordlessly looks down at the offering and his heart is consumed with conflicting emotions; however, he then ends up throwing the painkillers out the car.
“It’s no use! Do you think that I’m still the old Ou Chen?! The one you could always sweet-talk, the one who always gave in to you and changed his mind? Five years ago, I was the idiot who was just your toy and now you want to use the exact same tactics on me again?! Get out.” He doesn’t want to see her, doesn’t want to see her, doesn’t want to accept any of her fake kindness.
Pain in her heart from hearing Ou Chen’s words, Xia Mo nevertheless offers no explanation. She only quietly screws the lid back on the medicine bottle and then opens the car door. However, as soon as she has one leg out the door, she is suddenly pulled back into the car.
“Isn’t he that important to you?! Didn’t you come here to plead for him? Why don’t you say anything, why don’t you beg me?!”
“What do you want me to say?”
“Even if you wanted to take revenge on Luo Xi, why be so obvious? You could have a less obvious way of doing it. Just like when you arranged for me to get the Best Newcomer Award, just like you leaking out the pictures of An Hui Ni slapping me. You should be able to be a lot more subtle about it, so such a public and obvious tactic means that you really wanted me to come find you.” Xia Mo always suspected that based on her ability alone, there was no way she could have beaten Pan Nan and the others for the award. Just like the incident with An Hui Ni. “So why is it that when I do come find you, you’re so angry about it?”
“You care about him a lot?”
“Luo Xi is innocent, he has nothing to do with our past. If you want revenge, then come after me. Don’t hurt him.”
The pain in his heart has increased! If Luo Xi is so innocent, then why did you choose to so cruelly leave me five years ago?! Have you already forgotten what you said to me that night?
The day that Luo Xi left the country, Xia Mo’s parents were killed in a car accident and Xiao Cheng was sent to the emergency room. Xia Mo kneels alone in front of her parents’ memorial; she is not only filled with heartbreak and sadness but also hatred!
Ou Chen approaches her with trepidation; how did the accident happen? Will Xiao Cheng be okay? He has never seen Xia Mo like this… it is as if she has become a completely different person…
Under that cherry blossom tree… staring at the greater-than-thou young master… she hates him! She has never hated someone as much as this moment!
It is his fault… he has taken away everything that matters to her! Both her parents are dead, Xiao Cheng is in the hospital – she is all alone now… she is scared, so scared that she wants to scream and cry… she just wants to die… she’s scared, she’s scared, she’s scared!!!
“Are you happy?”
“What are you talking about?”
“It’s just like what you see – people are gone, dead, hurt… You must be very happy, right? There’s no one left with me now except you… I can only see you from now on. I can only hear you. My world consists only of you… Aren’t you happy? Listen… the world is so peaceful… no one is speaking… no one is crying… peaceful as if in a dream…”
“Xia Mo! What is going on? How did the car accident happen? What did the doctor say about Xiao Cheng…”
“Didn’t you plan all of this? Why are you asking me?”
“What?! I planned this?! You – “
“Am I wrong? You ordered Luo Xi to leave which caused Xiao Cheng to get sick, which then made Dad drive recklessly to get to him… How perfect! No, no… you didn’t actually plan all of this; you just planned the first step and then G.o.d did the rest for you.”
Ou Chen is horrified! Did all of this happen because he made Luo Xi leave? When he was out of the country, he knew that she would try to change his mind and so purposely avoided her; he didn’t want her to know how much of an influence she actually has on him. However, but then to threaten to leave him if he didn’t return her calls? For Luo Xi, she actually threatened to leave him?! And so he had agreed that as long as Luo Xi left, he could care less where he ended up. But did all of this tragedy happen because of his decision to make Luo Xi leave?
“In this entire world, you are the one person whom I don’t want to see the most!”
“I never thought that making Luo Xi leave would…”
“You never thought? Do you want to know something that I’ve always wanted to say to you in the past? I’ve never liked you! I only chose to be with you in exchange for letting my dad keep his job! I like Luo Xi! Since the first moment I laid eyes on him, I’ve liked him! You can’t even compare to a finger of his! Even though you forced him to leave, we will be together!” She doesn’t even know what she’s saying right now… she just wants to hurt him!!
“For what I’ve done… I’m sorry.”
Xia Mo is stunned. This is the first time she has ever heard him apologize. But what use is it now?
“Let’s – break up.” Deftly untying the green scarf from her wrist, she holds it out to Ou Chen. When he doesn’t immediately take it back though, she throws it out to the wind and it flutters to the ground.
“From this moment on, you and I have absolutely nothing to do with one another!”
When Ou Chen pleadingly implores what he can do so that she will forgive him, Xia Mo coldly tells him that there is nothing he can do! Her parents are lying cold and dead!
And so Ou Chen kneels before her. Xia Mo freezes – and quickly turns away from him. Although there is so much anger and hate burning in her heart, she cannot bear to see Ou Chen humble himself in such a way. Ou Chen begs for her forgiveness; he promises her that he will change! And Xia Mo can no longer tell if the pain in her heart is from her own anger at him or because of the way she has so obviously hurt him…
But then the image of her parents’ b.l.o.o.d.y corpses flash in her mind… Xiao Cheng who is still in critical condition…
“You can never change. Unless… you’re dead.”
Sitting quietly by Ou Chen, Xia Mo is brought back to the memories of that fateful night five years ago. She had really lost all reasoning then; all she had wanted to do was to hurt him. Perhaps she shouldn’t have reacted so cruelly but now it no longer really matters who’s wrong or right. What’s most important is the happiness in her hand right now. She couldn’t protect the people she cared about then but she can now.
When Ou Chen flinches from his stomach pains, Xia Mo instinctively asks if he is all right; does his stomach still hurt? He should really take the medicine. However, Ou Chen refuses to accept her gesture.
“Why?! Five years ago, I only sent Luo Xi away! Why did you so cruelly leave me because of that? Is Luo Xi really so important to you?! Then what am I?!”
“Don’t you understand by now? You and I are of two different worlds. As long as you want something, you will do everything in your power to get it. I’m just like your doll. Because you love it so much, no one else can touch it. Not even her own brother. I was once very grateful to you because you gave my brother and my family a carefree lifestyle. But then you yourself took that happiness away from me. So I no longer want to depend on anyone to take care of me; I want to do it myself.”
“…I didn’t arrange for the car accident to happen.”
“I know that. But what does it matter now? From the moment you sent Luo Xi away… it had all come to an end.”
“I want to know… Were you purposely trying to make me angry that night? You said… you’ve never liked me… that you were only with me because of your dad’s work…”
Did she really say that five years ago? How could she have said such words, knowing his feelings for her? Although the time she spent with him may have been like a doll, but how could she have never liked him?
Xia Mo’s hesitation made Ou Chen suspicious. Yes, he knew at the beginning that she was only with him for her family. That’s why he was so scared; scared that she would leave him and so he hoped that she would see only him so that maybe one day she would slowly come to like him…
“Did you… ever like me?”
“No. I’ve never liked you.”
“You’ve never liked me… so then you’ve always liked Luo Xi?! You say that it has nothing to do with Luo Xi but yet you refuse to forgive me? I said I would change, said that I would stop trying to control you all the time and you still left without a backward glance! If it has nothing to do with him, then why would you come find me today… You came for him, didn’t you? Then beg me… you should know… that as long as you ask me… I’d promise you anything… Since you’re not here to beg for him, then I’m going to destroy him! Whatever he films, I will destroy him! Don’t you believe that I have that ability! Then beg me…”
“Fine, I beg you. Let go of Luo Xi.”
She finally said it; he’s known it all along. Ou Chen stares at Xia Mo, consumed with anger and bitterness.
“Is he really so important? Is he worth you sacrificing yourself to protect him?! If I said… that as long as you returned to my side, I’ll let him go… would you say yes?!”
“Impossible. We can never go back.”
Cannot return…
Are they of two worlds now… so they can no longer return to before…