"I stood up abruptly. The atrocity in the mirror rose also.
""That isn"t I," I cried imploringly.
"Mrs. Hedges looked startled, but Andy came to my side at once.
""No, it certainly isn"t," he said heartily. "What on earth have you been doing to yourself, Connie?"
"I went close to the mirror, inspecting myself, grimly, piteously. I do not understand it to this day. The girls do the same things to themselves and they look wonderful,--never like that.
"I rubbed my lips with my fingers, and understood the moisture. I examined my brows, and knew what the scratching meant. I shook the pile of hair, and a shower of invisible hair pins rewarded me. I brushed my fingers across my throat, and a cloud of powder wafted outward.
"What does it say in the Bible about the way of the unrighteous? Well, I know just as much about the subject as the Bible does, I think. For a time I was speechless. I did not wish to blame my friends. But I could not bear to think that any one should carry away such a vision of one of father"s daughters.
""Take a good look at me please," I said, laughing, at last, "for you will never see me again. I am Neptune"s second daughter. I stepped full-grown into the world to-night from the hands of my faithless friends. Another step into my own room, and the lovely lady is gone forever."
"Andy understands me, and he laughed. But his mother still smiled the clouded smile.
"I hurled myself into the depths of self-abas.e.m.e.nt. I spared no harsh details. I told of the shampoo, and the candy on the window-ledge, the magazine under the bed. Religiously I itemized every article on my person, giving every one her proper due. Then I excused myself and went up-stairs. I sneaked into my own room, removed the dream of Nile green and lace and jumped up and down on it a few times, in stocking feet, so the girls would not hear,--and relieved my feelings somewhat.
I think I had to resort to gold dust to resurrect my own complexion,--not the best in the world perhaps, but mine, and I am for it. I combed my hair. I donned my simple blue dress,--cost four-fifty and Aunt Grace made it." I wore my white kid slippers and stockings.
My re-debut--ever hear the word?--was worth the exertion. Andy"s face shone as he came to meet me. His mother did not know me.
""I am Miss Starr," I said. "The one and only."
""Why, you sweet little thing," she said, smiling, without the cloud.
"We went for a long drive, and had supper down-town at eleven o"clock, and she kept me with her at the hotel all night. It was Sat.u.r.day. I slept with her and used all of her night things and toilet articles. I told her about the magnificent stories I am going to write sometime, and she told me what a darling Andy was when he was a baby, and between you and me, I doubt if they have a million dollars to their name.
Honestly, Carol, they are just as nice as we are.
"They stayed in Chicago three days, and she admitted she came on purpose to get acquainted with me. She made me promise to spend a week with them in Cleveland when I can get away, and she gave me the dearest little pearl ring to remember her by. But I wonder--I wonder-- Anyhow I can"t tell him until he asks me, can I? And he has never said a word. You know yourself, Carol, you can"t blurt things out at a man until he gives you a chance. So my conscience is quite free. And she certainly is adorable. Think of a mother-in-law like that, pink and gray, with dimples. Yes, she is my ideal of a mother-in-law. I haven"t met "father" yet, but he doesn"t need to be very nice. A man can hide a hundred faults in one fold of a pocketbook the size of his.
"Lots of love to you both,--and you write to Larkie oftener than you do to me, which isn"t fair, for she has a husband and a baby and is within reaching distance of father, and I am an orphan, and a widow, and a stranger in a strange land.
"But I love you anyhow.
"Connie."
CHAPTER XV
THE SECOND STEP
They sat on canvas chairs on the sand outside the porch of the sanatorium, warmly wrapped in rugs, for the summer evenings in New Mexico are cold, and watched the shadows of evening tarnish the gold of the mesa. Like children, they held hands under the protecting shelter of the rug. They talked of little Julia off in Mount Mark, how she was growing, the color of her eyes, the shape of her fingers. They talked of her possible talents, and how they could best be developed, judging as well as they could in advance by the a.s.sembled qualities of all her relatives. David suggested that they might be prejudiced in her favor a little, for as far as they could determine there was no avenue of ability closed to her, but Carol stanchly refused to admit the impeachment. They talked of the schools best qualified to train her, of the teachers she must have, of the ministers they must demand for her spiritual guidance. They talked of the thousand bad habits of other little girls, and planned how Julia should be led surely, sweetly by them.
Then they were silent, thinking of the little pink rosebud baby as she had left them.
The darkness swept down from the mountains almost as sand-storms come, and Carol leaned her head against David"s shoulder. She was happy.
David was so much better. The horrible temperature was below ninety-nine at last, and David was allowed to walk about the mesa, and his appet.i.te was ravenous. Maybe the doctors were wrong after all. He was certainly on the high-road to health now. She was so glad David had not known how near the dark valley he had pa.s.sed.
David was rejoicing that he had never told Carol how really ill he had been. She would have been so frightened and sorry. He pictured Carol with the light dying out in her eyes, with pallor eating the roses in her cheeks, with languor in her step, and dullness in her voice,--the Carol she would surely have been had she known that David was walking under the shadow of death. David was very happy. He was so much better, of course he would soon be himself. Things looked very bright.
Somehow to-night he did not yearn so much for work. It was Carol that counted most, Carol and the little Julia who was theirs, and would some day be with them. The big thing now was getting Julia ready for the life that was to come to her.
He was richly satisfied.
"Carol, this is the most wonderful thing in the world, companionship like this, being together, thinking in harmony, hoping the same hopes, sharing the same worries, planning the same future. Companionship is life to me now. There is nothing like it in all the world."
Carol snuggled against his shoulder happily.
"Love is wonderful," he went on, "but companionship is broader, for it is love, and more beyond. It is the development of love. It is the full blossom of the seed that has been planted in the heart. Service is splendid, too. But after all, it takes companionship to perfect service. One can not work alone. You are the completion of my desire to work, and you are the inspiration of my ability to work. Yes, companionship is life,--bigger than love and bigger than service, for companionship includes them both."
CHAPTER XVI
DEPARTED SPIRITS
As the evenings grew colder, the camp chairs on the mesa were deserted, and the chattering "chasers" gathered indoors, sometimes in one or another of the airy tent cottages, sometimes before the cheerful blaze of the logs in the fireplace of the parlors, but oftenest of all they flocked into Number Six of McCormick Building, where David was confined to his cot. Always there was laughter in Number Six, merry jesting, ready repartee. So it became the mecca of those, who, even more a.s.siduously than they chased the cure, sought after laughter and joy.
In the parlors the guests played cards, but in Number Six, deferring silently to David"s calling, they pulled out checkers and parcheesi, and fought desperate battles over the boards. But sometimes they fingered the dice and the checkers idly, leaning back in their chairs, and talked of temperatures, and hypodermics, and doctors, and war, and ghosts.
"I know this happened," said the big Canadian one night. "It was in my own home and I was there. So I can swear to every word of it. We came out from Scotland, and took up a big homestead in Saskatchewan. We threw up a log house and began living in it before it was half done.
Evenings, the men came in from the ranches around, and we sat by the fire in the kitchen and smoked and told stories. Joined on to the kitchen there was a shed, which was intended for a summer kitchen. But just then we had half a dozen cots in it, and the hands slept there.
One night one of the boys said he had a headache, and to escape the smoke in the kitchen which was too thick to breathe, he went into the shed and lay down on a cot. It was still unfinished, the shed was, and there were three or four wide boards laid across the rafters at the top to keep them from warping in the damp. Baldy lay on his back and stared up at the roof. Suddenly he leaped off the bed,--we all saw him; there was no door between the rooms. He leaped off and dashed through the kitchen.
""What"s the matter?" we asked him.
""Let me alone, I want to get out of here," he said, and shot through the door.
"We caught just one glimpse of his face. It was ashen. We went on smoking. "He"s a crazy Frenchman," we said, and let it go. But my brother was out in the barn and he corralled him going by.
""I am going to die, Don," he said. "I was lying on the bed, looking up at the rafters, and I saw the men come in and take the big white board and make it into a coffin for me. I am going home, I want to be with my folks."
"Don came in scared stiff, and told us, and we said "Pooh, pooh," and went on smoking. But about eleven o"clock a couple of fellows from another ranch came over and said their boss had died that afternoon and they could not find the right sized boards for the coffin. They wanted a good straight one about six feet six by fourteen inches. We looked in the barns and the sheds, and could not find what they wanted. Then we went into the lean-to, where there were some loose boards in the corner, but they wouldn"t do.
""Say," said one of them, "how about that white board up there in the rafters? About right, huh?"
"We pulled it down, and it was just the size. They were tickled to get it, for they hated to drive twelve miles to town through snowdrifts over their heads.
""That"s the big white board that Baldy saw," said Don suddenly. Yes, by George! We sent for Baldy that night to make sure, and it was just what he had seen, and the very men that came for the board. Baldy was mighty glad he wasn"t the corpse."
"Mercy," said Carol, twitching her shoulders. "Are you sure it is true?"
"Gospel truth. I was right there. I took down the board."
"I know one that beats that," said the Scotchman promptly. "They have a sayin" over in my country, that if you have a dream, or a vision, of men comin" toward you carryin" a coffin, you will be in a coffin inside of three days. One night a neighbor of mine, next farm, was comin"
home late, piped as usual, and as he came zigzaggin" down a dark lane, he looked up suddenly and saw four men marchin" solemnly toward him, carryin" a coffin. McDougall clutched his head. "G.o.d help me," he cried. "It is the vision." Then he turned in his tracks and shot over a hedge and up the bank, screamin" like mad. The spirits carryin" the coffin yelled at him and, droppin" the coffin, started up the hill after him. But McDougall only yelled louder and ran faster, and finally they lost him in the hills. So they went back. They were not spirits at all, and it was a real coffin. A woman had died, and they were takin" her in to town ready for the funeral next day. But the next day we found McDougall lyin" face down on the gra.s.s ten miles away, stone dead."