She then called her motherIn just 2 rings her mother receive her call
"h.e.l.lo My daughter how are you..?? It"s been a week since we last talk , Happy new year My baby..."
When Stella listened her she smiled brightly and said "Happy new year Mom... I missed you all a lot"
"Mom missed her baby too...Come meet me on your brothers birthday and stay here till your birthday..."
"Mom , Really? I can stay this log at our main house??"
"Of course you can , I fought with your father I already lost my one son and my one daughter is living like a orphan there..."
"Mom don"t worry I"ll be there on 1st Feb and will celebrate Maximus"s Birthday on 3rd and also we will celebrate my birthday too, right mom??"
"Yes yes my love just come here I can"t live with out seeing you any more we last see you in April and we will celebrate your 1st Wedding Anniversary as well "
When her mom mentioned her wedding anniversary she got nervous because she was not sure if Sebastian will come with her to their Home Country but at the other hand her mother was excited
Stella replied "Yes Mom we will... How dad ??Isa and Maximus?"
"They all misses you so much and Isa and Victor decided to work at the company starting next year and your Sister in law husband they doctor one is doing very well and he recently received best doctors award and your father in law ask him to join Hospital under Empire as a director and the 2nd one Lawyer his Law firm is doing great and they your father and they have a life time contract with their firm... and the eldest one is doing very well in his business..."
Stella silently listened her and became happy her mother continued "Your mother in law and me both have to work a lot in office it"s not easy to attend PR And HR Department we are very busy..."
"I know mom but what about Isabella and Victor??"
Stella wanted to match make them because Victor once promised her them he will love her sister more than any one...
"What about them Stella??"
"Mom...Umm... Don"t get surprised but u think Victor likes our Isa...!!"
"Oh wow... What a great news you know I actually had my doubts but it"s all clears now.. I"m going to fix their marriage on your birthday party... but no one will tell them they are still child... what we did to you was very rude... But I swear we were afraid and just wanted to protect you "
"Mom...it"s ok even though we didn"t live together since last 8 years but you did all the things which a parents should do... and you already know that I"m not interested in fame at all..."
"Yes Yes Yes my love...only if your brother was alive you never had to face all these hurdles..."
At the mention of her brother both parties felt silent Her mom felt grief and at the other end Stella felt guilty She said... "Mom What did you feel at the time when you listen that you lost your son.."
"I just wanted to die at that time he was my son and I raised him I carried him in my self but, It was like my life was gone..."
Stella felt sad "I can understand mom that how bad it feels to lost your precious thing which was part of yours for almost a year..."
Stella"s Mom did not think much and thought she was sad because of her brother and still blaming her self "Don"t blame your self any more" She said in firm voice "No one has right to blame you.. you have already suffered enough by living your life like a poor girl... "
"But mom you were all protecting me"
"Yes , good that you understand us baby... Now I want my grand child soon..."
Stella"s heart shrank when she heard , she knew it that this day will come one day...
"Mom...Mom what if I don"t want to give birth to a baby...??"
Her mother became bit angry "What are you talking about?? You should must give birth to make your husband happy... wait is everything fine with you and my son in law..."
"Mom he is good...but if I give birth to a child then I might lose my figure..."
When her mother listened her reasoning she laughed out loud "Silly la.s.sie you will maintain your figure again , and come back soon I"ll make a lot of favorite food for you..."
"Mom... I was just thinking , just imagining that , What -What if I can"t give birth to a child? What if I can"t carry a baby in me?? Will you guys hate me...??"
While Stella said all these Sebastian was standing behind her and listened what she just said...
"What are you talking baby... it"s ok if you can"t ... but I know you can we did whole body check up of yours when you were 19 and you are very healthy... Ah ... if you don"t want to give birth then talk to your husband..." Her mother thought that she was just kidding so she laughed crazily , But Stella"s face turned dark...
"I got it mom... I was just joking... ok byee Sebastian is about to come back..."
"Byee lovely come back soon , love you and talk to your husband as well..."
"Okay mom love you a lot..."
Stella put her phone down and pressed hard on it , and softly said "It"s not like I can"t give my self to my husband I said those harsh words like he can"t touch me , I can never let him touch me because one day he will for sure desire for a child and that I can"t give him... I better leave him for good , he is so good to me now he didn"t even fight me any more he cares for me... but what am I doing?? I"m just hurting him, I can"t even give him a child... " She started crying loudly and while sobbing she said "He treats me so well I don"t think he will leave me but... but I can"t be with him... I can"t me... I"m good for nothing... he .. he doesn"t like me and...and if he got to know that I"m .. I"m infertile then he will leave me immediately... I-I promise l will leave him first just few months more... please don"t let him hate me for this reason... I will make him hate me in other way... but it. hurts my heart hurts G.o.d... Why do you have to s.n.a.t.c.h me every precious thing I have...WHY...
I can never be a mother... They said I have 10% of possibility and which is nothing but a consolation... I don"t want to live like this... I lost everything , and I"ll lost him again if he will know my truth..."
She cried and cried behind her Sebastian was stunned when he listen all her words...