"He"s probably dead--or divorced you long ago."
"I do not know."
"I can find out--without stirring things up. What was his name?"
"Ferguson."
"What was his first name?"
She tried to recall. "I think--it was Jim. Yes, it was Jim."
She fancied she could hear the voice of that ferocious sister snapping out that name in the miserable little coop of a general room in that hot, foul, farm cottage.
"Where did he live?"
"His farm was at the edge of Zeke Warham"s place--not far from Beecamp, in Jefferson County."
She lapsed into silence, seemed to be watching the gay night streets of the Montmartre district--the cafes, the music halls, the sidewalk shows, the throngs of people every man and woman of them with his or her own individual variation upon the fascinating, covertly terrible face of the Paris mob.
"What are you thinking about?" he asked, when a remark brought no answer.
"The past," said she. "And the future."
"Well--we"ll find out in a few days that your farmer"s got no claim on you--and we"ll attend to that marriage contract and everything"ll be all right."
"Do you want to marry me?" she asked, turning on him suddenly.
"We"re as good as married already," replied he. "Your tone sounds as if _you_ didn"t want to marry _me_." And he laughed at the absurdity of such an idea.
"I don"t know whether I do or not," said she slowly.
He laid a gentle strong hand on her knee. Gentle though it was, she felt its strength through the thickness of her cloak.
"When the time comes," said he in the soft voice with the menace hidden in it, "you"ll know whether you do or don"t.
You"ll know you _do_--Queenie."
The auto was at the curb before the Abbaye. And on the steps, in furs and a top hat, stood the tall, experienced looking, cynical looking playwright. Susan"s eyes met his, he lifted his hat, formal, polite.
"I"ll bet he"s got the best table in the place," said Palmer, before opening the door, "and I"ll bet it cost him a bunch."
CHAPTER XXI
BRENT had an apartment in the rue de Rivoli, near the Hotel Meurice and high enough to command the whole Tuileries garden.
From his balcony he could see to the east the ancient courts of the Louvre, to the south the varied, harmonious facades of the Quay d"Orsay with the domes and spires of the Left Bank behind, to the west the Obelisque, the long broad reaches of the Champs Elysees with the Arc de Triomphe at the boundary of the horizon. On that balcony, with the tides of traffic far below, one had a sense of being at the heart of the world, past, present, and to come. Brent liked to feel at home wherever he was; it enabled him to go tranquilly to work within a few minutes after his arrival, no matter how far he had journeyed or how long he had been away. So he regarded it as an economy, an essential to good work, to keep up the house in New York, a villa in Pet.i.te Afrique, with the Mediterranean washing its garden wall, this apartment at Paris; and a telegram a week in advance would reserve him the same quarters in the quietest part of hotels at Luzerne, at St. Moritz and at Biarritz.
Susan admired, as he explained his scheme of life to her and Palmer when they visited his apartment. Always profound tranquillity in the midst of intense activity. He could shut his door and he as in a desert; he could open it, and the most interesting of the sensations created by the actions and reactions of the whole human race were straightway beating upon his senses. As she listened, she looked about, her eyes taking in impressions to be studied at leisure. These quarters of his in Paris were fundamentally different from those in New York, were the expression of a different side of his personality. It was plain that he loved them, that they came nearer to expressing his real--that is, his inmost--self.
"Though I work harder in Paris than in New York," he explained, "I have more leisure because it is all one kind of work--writing--at which I"m never interrupted. So I have time to make surroundings for myself. No one has time for surroundings in New York."
She observed that of the scores of pictures on the walls, tables, shelves of the three rooms they were shown, every one was a face--faces of all nationalities, all ages, all conditions--faces happy and faces tragic, faces homely, faces beautiful, faces irradiating the fascination of those abnormal developments of character, good and bad, which give the composite countenance of the human race its distinction, as the characteristics themselves give it intensities of light and shade. She saw angels, beautiful and ugly, devils beautiful and ugly.
When she began to notice this peculiarity of those rooms, she was simply interested. What an amazing collection! How much time and thought it must have taken! How he must have searched--and what an instinct he had for finding the unusual, the significant! As she sat there and then strolled about and then sat again, her interest rose into a feverish excitement.
It was as if the ghosts of all these personalities, not one of them commonplace, were moving through the rooms, were pressing upon her. She understood why Brent had them there--that they were as necessary to him as cadavers and skeletons and physiological charts to an anatomist. But they oppressed, suffocated her; she went out on the balcony and watched the effects of the light from the setting sun upon and around the enormously magnified Arc.
"You don"t like my rooms," said Brent.
"They fascinate me," replied she. "But I"d have to get used to these friends of yours. You made their acquaintance one or a few at a time. It"s very upsetting, being introduced to all at once."
She felt Brent"s gaze upon her--that unfathomable look which made her uneasy, yet was somehow satisfying, too. He said, after a while, "Palmer is to give me his photograph. Will you give me yours?" He was smiling. "Both of you belong in my gallery."
"Of course she will," said Palmer, coming out on the balcony and standing beside her. "I want her to have some taken right away--in the evening dress she wore to the Opera last week.
And she must have her portrait painted."
"When we are settled," said Susan. "I"ve no time for anything now but shopping."
They had come to inspect the apartment above Brent"s, and had decided to take it; Susan saw possibilities of making it over into the sort of environment of which she had dreamed. In novels the descriptions of interiors, which weary most readers, interested her more than story or characters. In her days of abject poverty she used these word paintings to construct for herself a room, suites of rooms, a whole house, to replace, when her physical eyes closed and her eyes of fancy opened wide, the squalid and nauseous cell to which poverty condemned her. In the streets she would sometimes pause before a shop window display of interior furnishings; a beautiful table or chair, a design in wall or floor covering had caught her eyes, had set her to dreaming--dreaming on and on--she in dingy skirt and leaky shoes. Now--the chance to realize her dreams had come. Palmer had got acquainted with some high-cla.s.s sports, American, French and English, at an American bar in the rue Volney. He was spending his afternoons and some of his evenings with them--in the evenings winning large sums from them at cards at which he was now as lucky as at everything else. Palmer, pleased by Brent"s manner toward Susan--formal politeness, indifference to s.e.x--was glad to have him go about with her. Also Palmer was one of those men who not merely imagine they read human nature but actually can read it. He _knew_ he could trust Susan. And it had been his habit--as it is the habit of all successful men--to trust human beings, each one up to his capacity for resisting temptation to treachery.
"Brent doesn"t care for women--as women," said he. "He never did. Don"t you think he"s queer?"
"He"s different," replied Susan. "He doesn"t care much for people--to have them as intimates. I understand why. Love and friendship bore one--or fail one--and are unsatisfactory--and disturbing. But if one centers one"s life about things--books, pictures, art, a career--why, one is never bored or betrayed. He has solved the secret of happiness, I think."
"Do you think a woman could fall in love with him?" he asked, with an air of the accidental and casual.
"If you mean, could I fall in love with him," said she, "I should say no. I think it would either amuse or annoy him to find that a woman cared about him."
"Amuse him most of all," said Palmer. "He knows the ladies--that they love us men for what we can give them."
"Did you ever hear of anyone, man or woman, who cared about a person who couldn"t give them anything?"
Freddie"s laugh was admission that he thought her right. "The way to get on in politics," observed he, "is to show men that it"s to their best interest to support you. And that"s the way to get on in everything else--including love."
Susan knew that this was the truth about life, as it appeared to her also. But she could not divest herself of the human aversion to hearing the cold, practical truth. She wanted sugar coating on the pill, even though she knew the sugar made the medicine much less effective, often neutralized it altogether. Thus Palmer"s brutally frank cynicism got upon her nerves, whereas Brent"s equally frank cynicism attracted her because it was not brutal. Both men saw that life was a coa.r.s.e practical joke. Palmer put the stress on the coa.r.s.eness, Brent upon the humor.
Brent recommended and introduced to her a friend of his, a young French Jew named Gourdain, an architect on the way up to celebrity. "You will like his ideas and he will like yours,"
said Brent.
She had acquiesced in his insistent friendship for Palmer and her, but she had not lowered by an inch the barrier of her reserve toward him. His speech and actions at all times, whether Palmer was there or not; suggested that he respected the barrier, regarded it as even higher and thicker than it was. Nevertheless she felt that he really regarded the barrier as non-existent. She said:
"But I"ve never told you my ideas."
"I can guess what they are. Your surroundings will simply be an extension of your dress."
She would not have let him see--she would not have admitted to herself--how profoundly the subtle compliment pleased her.
Because a man"s or a woman"s intimate personal taste is good it by no means follows that he or she will build or decorate or furnish a house well. In matters of taste, the greater does not necessarily include the less, nor does the less imply the greater. Perhaps Susan would have shown she did not deserve Brent"s compliment, would have failed ignominiously in that first essay of hers, had she not found a Gourdain, sympathetic, able to put into the concrete the rather vague ideas she had evolved in her dreaming. An architect is like a milliner or a dressmaker. He supplies the model, product of his own individual taste. The person who employs him must remold that form into an expression of his own personality--for people who deliberately live in surroundings that are not part of themselves are on the same low level with those who utter only borrowed ideas. That is the object and the aim of civilization--to encourage and to compel each individual to be frankly himself--herself. That is the profound meaning of freedom. The world owes more to bad morals and to bad taste that are spontaneous than to all the docile conformity to the standards of morals and of taste, however good. Truth--which simply means an increase of harmony, a decrease of discord, between the internal man and his environment--truth is a product, usually a byproduct, of a ferment of action.
Gourdain--chiefly, no doubt, because Susan"s beauty of face and figure and dress fascinated him--was more eager to bring out her individuality than to show off his own talents. He took endless pains with her, taught her the technical knowledge and vocabulary that would enable her to express herself, then carried out her ideas religiously. "You are right, _mon ami_," said he to Brent. "She is an orchid, and of a rare species. She has a glorious imagination, like a bird of paradise balancing itself into an azure sky, with every plume raining color and brilliancy."