"You can keep to the dressing-room until the show"s over and the people"ve gone ash.o.r.e. And tomorrow morning, bright and early, we"ll be off. I promised Pat a day for a drunk at Sutherland. He"ll have to postpone it. I"ll give him three at Jeffersonville, instead."
Susan put on her sunbonnet as soon as the show boat rounded the bend above town. Thus she felt safe in staying on deck and watching the town drift by. She did not begin to think of going into the cabin until Pat was working the boat in toward the landing a square above the old familiar wharf-boat. "What day is this?" she asked Eshwell.
"Sat.u.r.day."
Only Sat.u.r.day! And last Monday--less than five days ago--she had left this town for her Cincinnati adventure. She felt as if months, years, had pa.s.sed. The town seemed strange to her, and she recalled the landmarks as if she were revisiting in age the scenes of youth. How small the town seemed, after Cincinnati!
And how squat! Then----
She saw the cupola of the schoolhouse. Its rooms, the playgrounds flashed before her mind"s eye--the teachers she had liked--those she had feared--the face of her uncle, so kind and loving--that same face, with hate and contempt in it----
She hurried into the cabin, tears blinding her eyes, her throat choked with sobs.
The Burlingham Floating Palace of Thespians tied up against the float of Bill Phibbs"s boathouse--a privilege for which Burlingham had to pay two dollars. Pat went ash.o.r.e with a sack of handbills to litter through the town. Burlingham followed, to visit the offices of the two evening newspapers and by "handing them out a line of smooth talk"--the one art whereof he was master--to get free advertising. Also there were groceries to buy and odds and ends of elastic, fancy crepe, paper muslin and the like for repairing the shabby costumes. The others remained on board, Eshwell and Tempest to guard the boat against the swarms of boys darting and swooping and chattering like a huge flock of impudent English sparrows. An additional--and the chief--reason for Burlingham"s keeping the two actors close was that Eshwell was a drunkard and Tempest a gambler. Neither could be trusted where there was the least temptation. Each despised the other"s vice and despised the other for being slave to it.
Burlingham could trust Eshwell to watch Tempest, could trust Tempest to watch Eshwell.
Susan helped Mabel with the small and early supper--cold chicken and ham, fried potatoes and coffee. Afterward all dressed in the cabin. Some of the curtains for dividing off the berths were drawn, out of respect to Susan not yet broken to the ways of a mode of life which made privacy and personal modesty impossible--and when any human custom becomes impossible, it does not take human beings long to discover that it is also foolish and useless. The women had to provide for a change of costumes. As the dressing-room behind the stage was only a narrow s.p.a.ce between the back drop and the forward wall of the cabin, dressing in it was impossible, so Mabel and Vi put on a costume of tights, and over it a dress. Susan was invited to remain and help. The making-up of the faces interested her; she was amazed by the transformation of Mabel into youthful loveliness, with a dairy maid"s bloom in place of her pallid pastiness. On the other hand, make-up seemed to bring out the horrors of Miss Anstruther"s big, fat, yet hollow face, and to create other and worse horrors--as if in covering her face it somehow uncovered her soul. When the two women stripped and got into their tights, Susan with polite modesty turned away.
However, catching sight of Miss Anstruther in the mirror that had been hung up under one of the side lamps, she was so fascinated that she gazed furtively at her by that indirect way.
Violet happened to see, laughed. "Look at the baby"s shocked face, Mabel," she cried.
But she was mistaken. It was sheer horror that held Susan"s gaze upon Violet"s incredible hips and thighs, violently obtruded by the close-reefed corset. Mabel had a slender figure, the waist too short and the legs too nearly of the same girth from hip to ankle, but for all that, attractive. Susan had never before seen a woman in tights without any sort of skirt.
"You would show up well in those things," Violet said to her, "that is, for a thin woman. The men don"t care much for thinness."
"Not the clodhoppers and roustabouts that come to see us,"
retorted Mabel. "The more a woman looks like a cow or a sow, the better they like it. They don"t believe it"s female unless it looks like what they"re used to in the barnyard and the cattle pen."
Miss Anstruther was not in the least offended. She paraded, jauntily switching her great hips and laughing. "Jealous!" she teased. "You poor little broomstick."
Burlingham was in a white flannel suit that looked well enough in those dim lights. The make-up gave him an air of rakish youth. Eshwell had got himself into an ordinary sack suit.
Tempest was in the tattered and dirty finery of a seventeenth-century courtier. The paint and black made Eshwell"s face fat and comic; it gave Tempest distinction, made his hollow blazing eyes brilliant and large. All traces of habitation were effaced from the "auditorium"; the lamps were lighted, a ticket box was set up on the rear deck and an iron bar was thrown half across the rear entrance to the cabin, that only one person at a time might be able to pa.s.s. The curtain was let down--a gaudy smear of a garden scene in a French palace in the eighteenth century. Pat, the orchestra, put on a dress coat and vest and a "d.i.c.key"; the coat had white celluloid cuffs pinned in the sleeves at the wrists.
As it was still fully an hour and a half from dark, Susan hid on the stage; when it should be time for the curtain to go up she would retreat to the dressing-room. Through a peephole in the curtain she admired the auditorium; and it did look surprisingly well by lamplight, with the s.m.u.tches and faded spots on its bright paint softened or concealed. "How many will it hold?" she asked Mabel, who was walking up and down, carrying her long train.
"A hundred and twenty comfortably," replied Miss Connemora. "A hundred and fifty crowded. It has held as high as thirty dollars, but we"ll be lucky if we get fifteen tonight."
Susan glanced round at her. She was smoking a cigarette, handling it like a man. Susan"s expression was so curious that Mabel laughed. Susan, distressed, cried: "I"m sorry if--if I was impolite."
"Oh, you couldn"t be impolite," said Mabel. "You"ve got that to learn, too--and mighty important it is. We all smoke. Why not?
We got out of cigarettes, but Bob bought a stock this afternoon."
Susan turned to the peephole. Pat, ready to take tickets, was "barking" vigorously in the direction of sh.o.r.e, addressing a crowd which Susan of course could not see. Whenever he paused for breath, Burlingham leaned from the box and took it up, pouring out a stream of eulogies of his show in that easy, lightly cynical voice of his. And the audience straggled in--young fellows and their girls, roughs from along the river front, farmers in town for a day"s sport. Susan did not see a single familiar face, and she had supposed she knew, by sight at least, everyone in Sutherland. From fear lest she should see someone she knew, her mind changed to longing. At last she was rewarded. Down the aisle swaggered Redney King, son of the washerwoman, a big hulking bully who used to tease her by pulling her hair during recess and by kicking at her shins when they happened to be next each other in the cla.s.s standing in long line against the wall of the schoolroom for recitation.
From her security she smiled at Redney as representative of all she loved in the old town.
And now the four members of the company on the stage and in the dressing-room lost their ease and contemptuous indifference.
They had been talking sneeringly about "yokels" and "jays" and "slum b.u.ms." They dropped all that, as there spread over them the mysterious spell of the crowd. As individuals the provincials in those seats were ridiculous; as a ma.s.s they were an audience, an object of fear and awe. Mabel was almost in tears; Violet talked rapidly, with excited gestures and nervous adjustments of various parts of her toilet. The two men paced about, Eshwell trembling, Tempest with sheer fright in his rolling eyes.
They wet their dry lips with dry tongues. Each again and again asked the other anxiously how he was looking and paced away without waiting for the answer. The suspense and nervous terror took hold of Susan; she stood in the corner of the dressing-room, pressing herself close against the wall, her fingers tightly interlocked and hot and cold tremors chasing up and down her body.
Burlingham left the box and combined Pat"s duties with his own--a small matter, as the audience was seated and a guard at the door was necessary only to keep the loafers on sh.o.r.e from rushing in free. Pat advanced to the little s.p.a.ce reserved before the stage, sat down and fell to tuning his violin with all the noise he could make, to create the illusion of a full orchestra. Miss Anstruther appeared in one of the forward side doors of the auditorium, very dignified in her black satin (paper muslin) dress, with many and sparkling hair and neck ornaments and rings that seemed alight. She bowed to the audience, pulled a little old cottage organ from under the stage and seated herself at it.
After the overture, a pause. Susan, peeping through a hole in the drop, saw the curtain go up, drew a long breath of terror as the audience was revealed beyond the row of footlights, beyond the big, befrizzled blond head of Violet and the drink-seared face of Pat. From the rear of the auditorium came Burlingham"s smooth-flowing, faintly amused voice, announcing the beginning of the performance "a delightful feast throughout, ladies and gentlemen, amusing yet elevating, ever moral yet with none of the depressing sadness of puritanism. For, ladies and gentlemen, while we are pious, we are not puritan. The first number is a monologue, "The Mad Prince," by that eminent artist, Gregory Tempest. He has delivered it before vast audiences amid thunders of applause."
Susan thrilled as Tempest strode forth--Tempest transformed by the footlights and by her young imagination into a true king most wonderfully and romantically bereft of reason by the woes that had a.s.sailed him in horrid phalanxes. If anyone had pointed out to her that Tempest"s awful voice was simply cheap ranting, or that her own woes had been as terrible as any that had ever visited a king, or that when people go mad it is never from grief but from insides unromantically addled by foolish eating and drinking--if anyone had attempted then and there to educate the girl, how angry it would have made her, how she would have hated that well-meaning person for spoiling her illusion!
The spell of the stage seized her with Tempest"s first line, first elegant despairing gesture. It held her through Burlingham and Anstruther"s "sketch" of a matrimonial quarrel, through Connemora and Eshwell"s "delicious symphonic romanticism" of a lovers" quarrel and making up, through Tempest"s recitation of "Lasca," dying to shield her cowboy lover from the hoofs of the stampeded herd. How the tears did stream from Susan"s eyes, as Tempest wailed out those last lines:
But I wonder why I do not care for the things that are like the things that were?
Can it be that half my heart lies buried there, in Texas down by the Rio Grande?
She saw the little grave in the desert and the vast blue sky and the buzzard sailing lazily to and fro, and it seemed to her that Tempest himself had inspired such a love, had lost a sweetheart in just that way. No wonder he looked gaunt and hollow-eyed and sallow. The last part of the performance was Holy Land and comic pictures thrown from the rear on a sheet subst.i.tuted for the drop. As Burlingham had to work the magic lantern from the dressing-room (while Tempest, in a kind of monk"s robe, used his voice and elocutionary powers in describing the pictures, now lugubriously and now in "lighter vein"), Susan was forced to retreat to the forward deck and missed that part of the show.
But she watched Burlingham shifting the slides and altering the forms of the lenses, and was in another way as much thrilled and spellbound as by the acting.
Nor did the spell vanish when, with the audience gone, they all sat down to a late supper, and made coa.r.s.e jests and mocked at their own doings and at the people who had applauded. Susan did not hear. She felt proud that she was permitted in so distinguished a company. Every disagreeable impression vanished.
How could she have thought these geniuses common and cheap! How had she dared apply to them the standards of the people, the dull, commonplace people, among whom she had been brought up! If she could only qualify for membership in this galaxy! The thought made her feel like a worm aspiring to be a star.
Tempest, whom she had liked least, now filled her with admiration. She saw the tragedy of his life plain and sad upon his features. She could not look at him without her heart"s contracting in an ache.
It was not long before Mr. Tempest, who believed himself a lady-killer, noted the ingenuous look in the young girl"s face, and began to pose. And it was hardly three bites of a ham sandwich thereafter when Mabel Connemora noted Tempest"s shootings of his cuffs and rumplings of his oily ringlets and rollings of his hollow eyes. And at the sight Miss Mabel"s bright eyes became bad and her tongue shot satire at him. But Susan did not observe this.
After supper they went straightway to bed. Burlingham drew the curtains round the berth let down for Susan. The others indulged in no such prudery on so hot a night. They put out the lamps and got ready for bed and into it by the dim light trickling in through the big rear doorway and the two small side doorways forward. To help on the circulation of air Pat raised the stage curtain and drop, and opened the little door forward. Each sleeper had a small netting suspended over him from the ceiling; without that netting the dense swarms of savage mosquitoes would have made sleep impossible. As it was, the loud singing of these baffled thousands kept Susan awake.
After a while, to calm her brain, excited by the evenings thronging impressions and by the new--or, rather, reviewed--ambitions born of them, Susan rose and went softly out on deck, in her nightgown of calico slip. Because of the breeze the mosquitoes did not trouble her there, and she stood a long time watching the town"s few faint lights--watching the stars, the thronging stars of the Milky Way--dreaming--dreaming--dreaming.
Yesterday had almost faded from her, for youth lives only in tomorrow--youth in tomorrow, age in yesterday, and none of us in today which is all we really have. And she, with her wonderful health of body meaning youth as long as it lasted, she would certainly be young until she was very old--would keep her youth--her dreams--her living always in tomorrow. She was dreaming of her first real tomorrow, now. She would work hard at this wonderful profession--_her_ profession!--would be humble and attentive; and surely the day must come when she too would feel upon her heart the intoxicating beat of those magic waves of applause!
Susan, more excited than ever, slipped softly into the cabin and stole into her curtained berth. Like the soughing of the storm above the whimper of the tortured leaves the stentorian snorings of two of the sleepers resounded above the noise of the mosquitoes. She had hardly extended herself in her close little bed when she heard a stealthy step, saw one of her curtains drawn aside.
"Who is it?" she whispered, unsuspiciously, for she could see only a vague form darkening the s.p.a.ce between the parted curtains.
The answer came in a hoa.r.s.e undertone: "Ye dainty little darling!" She sat up, struck out madly, screamed at the top of her lungs. The curtains fell back into place, the snoring stopped. Susan, all in a sweat and a shiver, lay quiet. Hoa.r.s.e whispering; then in Burlingham"s voice stern and gruff--"Get back to your bed and let her alone, you rolling-eyed----" The sentence ended with as foul a spatter of filth as man can fling at man. Silence again, and after a few minutes the two snores resumed their ba.s.s accompaniment to the falsetto of the mosquito chorus.
Susan got a little troubled sleep, was wide awake when Violet came saying, "If you want to bathe, I"ll bring you a bucket of water and you can put up your berth and do it behind your curtains."
Susan thanked her and got a most refreshing bath. When she looked out the men were on deck, Violet was getting breakfast, and Connemora was combing her short, thinning, yellow hair before a mirror hung up near one of the forward doors. In the mirror Connemora saw her, smiled and nodded.
"You can fix your hair here," said she. "I"m about done. You can use my brush."
And when Susan was busy at the mirror, Mabel lounged on a seat near by smoking a before-breakfast cigarette. "I wish to G.o.d I had your hair," said she. "I never did have such a wonderful crop of gra.s.s on the knoll, and the way it up and drops out in bunches every now and then sets me crazy. It won"t be long before I"ll be down to Vi"s three hairs and a half. You haven"t seen her without her wigs? Well, don"t, if you happen to be feeling a bit off. How Burlingham can--" There she stopped, blew out a volume of smoke, grinned half amusedly, half in sympathy with the innocence she was protecting--or, rather, was initiating by cautious degrees. "Who was it raised the row last night?" she inquired.
"I don"t know," said Susan, her face hid by the ma.s.s of wavy hair she was brushing forward from roots to ends.
"You don"t? I guess you"ve got a kind of idea, though."
No answer from the girl.
"Well, it doesn"t matter. It isn"t your fault." Mabel smoked reflectively. "I"m not jealous of _him_--a woman never is. It"s the idea of another woman"s getting away with her property, whether she wants it or not--_that"s_ what sets her mad-spot to humming. No, I don"t give a--a cigarette b.u.t.t--for that greasy b.u.m actor. But I"ve always got to have somebody." She laughed.