"Yee; but what"s to prevent your on-jinin" him? They used to tie up married folks in the old times so"t they couldn"t move an inch. When they read the const.i.tution and by-laws over "em they used to put in "till death do us part." That"s the way my father was. .h.i.tched to _his_ three wives, but death _did_ "em part--fortunately for him!"
""Till death us do part" is still in the marriage service," Susanna said, "and I think of it very often."
"I want to know if that"s there yit!" exclaimed Ansel, with apparent surprise; "I thought they must be leavin" it out, there"s so much on-jinin" nowadays! Well, accordin" to my notions, if there _is_ anything wuss "n marriage, it"s hevin" it hold till death, for then men-folks don"t git any chance of a speritual life till afterwards. They certainly don"t when they"re being dragged down by women-folks an" young ones."
"I think the lasting part of the bargain makes it all the more solemn,"
Susanna argued.
"Oh, yes, it"s solemn enough, but so"s a prayer meetin", an" consid"able more elevatin""; and here Ansel regarded the surrounding scenery with frowning disapproval, as if it left much to be desired.
"Don"t you think that there are _any_ agreeable and pleasant women, Ansel?" ventured Susanna.
"Land, yes; heaps of "em; but they all wear Shaker bunnits!"
"I suppose you know more about the women in the outside world than most of the Brothers, on account of traveling so much?"
"I guess anybody"t drives a seed-cart or peddles stuff along the road knows enough o" women to keep clear of "em. They"ll come out the kitchen door, choose their papers o" seasonin" an" bottles o" flavorin", worry you "bout the price an" take the aidge off every dime, make up an" then onmake their minds "bout what they want, ask if it"s pure, an" when by good luck you git your cart out o" the yard, they come runnin" along the road after ye to git ye to swop a bottle o" vanilla for some spruce gum an" give "em back the change."
Susanna could not help smiling at Ansel"s arraignment of her s.e.x. "Do you think they follow you for the pleasure of shopping, or the pleasure of your conversation, Ansel?" she asked slyly.
"A little o" both, mebbe; though the pleasure"s all on their side,"
returned the unchivalrous Ansel. "But take them same women, cut their hair close to their heads (there"s a heap o" foolishness in hair, somehow), purge "em o" their vanity, so they won"t be lookin" in the gla.s.s all the time, make "em depend on one another for sa.s.siety, so they won"t crave no conversation with men-folks, an" you git an article that"s "bout as good and "bout as stiddy as a man!"
"You never seem to remember that men are just as dangerous to women"s happiness and goodness as women are to men"s," said Susanna, courageously.
"It don"t seem so to me! Never see a man, hardly, that could stick to the straight an" narrer if a woman wanted him to go the other way. Weak an" unstable as water, men-folks are, an" women are pow"ful strong."
"Have your own way, Ansel! I"m going back to the world, but no man shall ever say I hindered him from being good. You"ll see women clearer in another world."
"There"ll be precious few of "em to see!" retorted Ansel. "You"re about the best o" the lot, but even you have a kind of a managin" way with ye, besides fillin" us all full o" false hopes that we"d gathered in a useful Believer, one cal"lated to spread the doctrines o" Mother Ann!"
"I know, I know, Ansel, and oh, how sorry I am! You would never believe how I long to stay and help you, never believe how much you have helped me! Good-by, Ansel; you"ve made me smile when my heart was breaking. I shan"t forget you!"
XII
THE HILLS OF HOME
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Susanna had found Sue in the upper chamber at the Office Building, and began to make the simple preparations for her homeward journey.
It was the very hour when John Hathaway was saying:--
"Set her place at hearth and board As it used to be."
Sue interfered with the packing somewhat by darting to and fro, bringing her mother sacred souvenirs given her by the Shaker sisters and the children--needle-books, pin-b.a.l.l.s, thimble-cases, packets of flower-seeds, polished pebbles, bottles of flavoring extract.
"This is for Fardie," she would say, "and this for Jack and this for Ellen and this for Aunt Louisa--the needle-book, "cause she"s so useful.
Oh, I"m glad we"re going home, Mardie, though I do love it here, and I was most ready to be a truly Shaker. It"s kind of pityish to have your hair shingled and your stocking half-knitted and know how to say "Yee"
and then have it all wasted."
Susanna dropped a tear on the dress she was folding. The child was going home, as she had come away from it, gay, irresponsible, and merry; it was only the mothers who hoped and feared and dreaded.
The very universe was working toward Susanna"s desire at that moment, but she was all unaware of the happiness that lay so near. She could not see the freshness of the house in Farnham, the new bits of furniture here and there; the autumn leaves in her own bedroom; her work-table full of the records of John"s sorrowful summer; Jack handsomer and taller, and softer, also, in his welcoming mood; Ellen rosy and excited.
She did not know that Joel Atterbury had said to John that day, "I take it all back, old man, and I hope you"ll stay on in the firm!" nor that Aunt Louisa, who was putting stiff, short-stemmed chrysanthemums in cups and tumblers here and there through the house, was much more flexible and human than was natural to her; nor that John, alternating between hope and despair, was forever humming:--
"Set her place at hearth and board As it used to be; Higher are the hills of home, Bluer is the sea!"
It is often so. They who go weeping to look for the dead body of a sorrow, find a vision of angels where the body has lain.
"I hope Fardie"ll be glad to see us and Ellen will have gingerbread,"
Sue chattered; then, pausing at the window, she added, "I"m sorry to leave the hills, "cause I "specially like them, don"t you, Mardie?"
"We are leaving the Shaker hills, but we are going to the hills of home," her mother answered cheerily. "Don"t you remember the Farnham hills, dear?"
"Yes, I remember," and Sue looked thoughtful; "they were farther off and covered with woods; these are smooth and gentle. And we shall miss the lake, Mardie."
"Yes; but we can look at the blue sea from your bedroom window, Sue!"
"And we"ll tell Fardie about Polly Reed and the little quail bird, won"t we?"
"Yes; but he and Jack will have a great deal to say to us, and we mustn"t talk all the time about the dear, kind Shakers, you know!"
"You"re all "_buts_," Mardie!" at which Susanna smiled through her tears.
Twilight deepened into dusk, and dusk into dark, and then the moon rose over the poplar trees outside the window where Susanna and Sue were sleeping. The Shaker Brethren and Sisters were resting serenely after their day of confession. It was the aged Tabitha"s last Sabbath on earth, but had she known, it would have made no difference; if ever a soul was ready for heaven, it was Tabitha"s.
There was an Irish family at the foot of the long hill that lay between the Settlement and the village of Albion; father, mother, and children had prayed to the Virgin before they went to bed; and the gray-haired minister in the low-roofed parsonage was writing his communion sermon on a text sacred to the orthodox Christian world. The same moon shone over all, and over millions of others worshiping strange idols and holding strange beliefs in strange far lands, yet none of them owned the whole of heaven; for as Elder Gray said, "It is a big place and belongs to G.o.d."
Susanna Hathaway went back to John thinking it her plain duty, and to me it seems beautiful that she found waiting for her at the journey"s end a new love that was better than the old; found a husband to whom she could say in that first sacred hour when they were alone together, "Never mind, John! Let"s forget, and begin all over again."
When Susanna and Sue alighted at the little railway station at Farnham, and started to walk through the narrow streets that led to the suburbs, the mother"s heart beat more and more tumultuously as she realized that the issues of four lives would be settled before nightfall.
Little did Sue reck of life issues, skipping like a young roe from one side of the road to the other. "There are the hills, not a bit changed, Mardie!" she cried; "and the sea is just where it was!... Here"s the house with the parrot, do you remember? Now the place where the dog barks and snarls is coming next.... P"raps he"ll be dead ... or p"raps he"ll be nicer.... Keep close to me till we get past the gate.... He didn"t come out, so p"raps he is dead or gone a-visiting.... There"s that "specially lazy cow that"s always lying down in the Buxtons"
field.... I don"t b"lieve she"s moved since we came away.... Do you s"pose she stands up to be milked, Mardie? There"s the old bridge over the brook, just the same, only the woodbine"s red.... There"s ...
There"s ... Oh, Mardie, look, look!... I do b"lieve it"s our Jacky!"
Sue flew over the ground like a swallow, calling "Jack-y! Jack-y! it"s me and Mardie come home!"
Jack extricated himself from his sister"s strangling hug and settled his collar. "I"m awful glad to see you, Sukey," he said, "but I"m getting too big to be kissed. Besides, my pockets are full of angleworms and fishhooks."
"Are you too big to be kissed even by mother?" called Susanna, hurrying to her boy, who submitted to her embrace with better grace. "O Jack, Jack! say you"re glad to see mother! Say it, say it; I can"t wait, Jack!"