Translated by potats
Edited by Amaris
Right at this moment, Ning Can was terrified.
The forgotten memories surged up. In front of him, Xia Yan looked much more sinister and terrifying than an evil spirit.
Ning Can stood in place and his mind went blank, not knowing what to say.
Xia Yan couldn"t restrain himself anymore.
Things had become a terrible mess, he should not make it even worse.
Rather than slowly killing himself by hanging around Ning Can, it would be better for him to make a clean break once and for all. He could go on this tedious life alone.
"Never show up in front of me anymore." Xia Yan stared at Ning Can, saying these sentences as if to engrave them in Ning Can"s mind, "Otherwise, the things from four years ago might happen again."
What had happened four years ago?
That was something Ning Can had tried his best to forget, yet it had dreadfully occupied his whole brain.
Within a night, his sworn brother turned against him. Even after four years had pa.s.sed, Ning Can still couldn"t think of the reason why.
Was it because he treated Xia Yan like a woman?
Was it because he vainly attempted to kiss Xia Yan?
Was it Xia Yan"s retaliation against him?
Or was it because Xia Yan liked Qin Sijie…
Ning Can felt as if his heart was being p.r.i.c.ked by a needle. He lowered his head and said, "I"m sorry."
If Xia Yan also liked Qin Sijie, Xia Yan would inevitably lose his mind facing Ning Can"s nonsense.
But…who knew Xia Yan would get mad to that extent, who…knew…
Hearing his apology, Xia Yan"s eyes darkened.
Don"t apologize.
If you can"t understand my feelings, please just stay away from me, you don"t need to apologize.
"I"ll send you home," Xia Yan felt like all of his strength had escaped from his body, every single word he said felt as if they were going to be the last words of his life.
Ning Can paused for awhile, but he eventually asked, "You…Why are you not together with Qin Sijie?"
Qin Sijie?
Xia Yan was dumbfounded before he finally reacted on who that was.
She was a girl Ning Can liked when he was 18 years old. At that time, Ning Can was dead drunk. He embraced Xia Yan, kissed him, then said that he liked him. Just when Xia Yan was feeling so excited he felt he almost died, Ning Can completed his words. "Qin Sijie, I like you."
Falling from heaven into h.e.l.l, Xia Yan lost his self-control.
Xia Yan had been lost in his delusion for a long time, just like a person who was eager to breathe the last wisp of air, even if he would only be suffocated to death later.
Xia Yan"s temple throbbed. He dared not recall it.
Ning Can still continued his words. "I never knew that you liked her. If I knew…" I definitely wouldn"t say that nonsense.
Xia Yan wasn"t the same as Ning Can. When it came to liking a person, he wouldn"t handle it like it was a trifling matter.
Xia Yan finally snapped out of it, yet he still couldn"t respond to Ning Can. "Whom did you say…that I like?"
Ning Can smiled uncomfortably. "You definitely know whom. My brain couldn"t remember much about it, but if you have something on your mind, you have to clearly tell me… When have I argued with you growing up?"
This was where Ning Can felt most wronged.
He had regarded Xia Yan as his own brother as he grew up. He always gave the good things to Xia Yan first.
Ning Can knew that Xia Yan"s temper was stuffy and he didn"t like to talk much. Even when he liked something, he would do it secretly. Even such an uncouth fellow like Ning Can could notice Xia Yan looked at a pen more than twice and bought it for him…
That was how nice he was to Xia Yan.
Yet, why did he do that…
Ning Can become more uncomfortable than ever. "I shouldn"t have treated you as Qin Sijie, but you didn"t have to do that…"
Xia Yan"s mind was in a complete mess. He couldn"t comprehend what Ning Can was talking about.
But in the end, he understood his words.
Ning Can treated him as someone else. Ning Can liked someone else.
Xia Yan"s eyes drooped. "It"s me who should apologize, but I don"t regret it."
Ning Can was stupefied.
Xia Yan gazed at Ning Can and said, "Stay away from me. I couldn"t forget about you even though we parted ways four years ago. I"m still in love with you." He laughed at himself, thinking that these four years were nothing. For his whole life, his heart had been holding onto Ning Can.
But Ning Can didn"t love him.
Xia Yan said wearily, "If you don"t want to be humiliated like that again, don"t provoke me."
It"s over.
Xia Yan felt that everything was over this time.
Even if Ning Can said that he was disgusted, Xia Yan could calmly accept it.
But…
Ning Can stood still, his body stiffened. Then, he looked at Xia Yan with an inconceivable expression in his eyes. "You…love me?"
Author"s Note
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T/N:
Sorry for the super late release, Amaris-san isn"t feeling well, let"s wish her a speedy recovery!
Anyway, here"s a word from me about the story for now: Sigh…