Then he left, still looking just a little bit ashamed of himself, as I"ve seen fellows do in a defeated crew when they have sunk down for a moment on their sliding seats.
"I think the boy feels alone, sometimes," said Mrs. Barnett. "He has really a great deal to contend with. But he is a splendid fellow, and I"m sorry for him. Every one loves him in Sweetapple Cove, you know."
Presently the two left us, after I had promised to go to the little church on the next day. Susie had come in with a lighted lantern, clad to her feet in an ancient oilskin coat, and insisted on seeing them home.
They thanked us very charmingly and I watched their departure, the reflections of the light playing over the deep puddles on the road.
Then I sat down by Daddy"s bed, pondering.
"A penny for your thoughts, daughter," he said.
"I was thinking that men are very interesting," I told him. "Dr. Grant always looks like such a strong man."
"And now you think you have discovered the feet of clay?"
"Well, it seemed quite strange, Daddy."
"I"ll tell you one thing, girly," he said. "Never make the fatal error of thinking any one is perfect. It is a mistake that young people are rather apt to indulge in. There are little weak points, and sometimes big ones, in all of us."
"I suppose so," I a.s.sented, "but these were such dreadful things he told us about. It seems so terrible that they should happen at all. It has made me feel unhappy. I thought that doctors got used to such things."
"There are a lot of things a fellow never gets used to, my dear,"
answered Daddy. "This one is young yet, but he will probably never get over the sense of rebellion which comes over a man, a real man, who finds himself b.u.t.ting his head against stupidity and ignorance. Don"t you make any mistake about that fellow Grant! The poorest kind of chap is the one who is always letting things slide. This is a tough, square-jawed, earnest chap, of the sort who put their hearts and souls into things, right or wrong. The man who has never felt or shown weakness is a contemptible egotist. The c.o.c.ksure fools always have perfect faith in themselves. Those two men, the big and the little one, are both pretty fine specimens, and in their own ways they are equally strong. They"re made of the right stuff."
I don"t exactly know why, but I felt greatly pleased. Daddy is a mighty keen man of the world, and his judgment of others has been one of his great a.s.sets.
"I wish we could help too, Daddy," I told him.
"We may, if we find a way," he answered. "I"m going to investigate the matter."
When Daddy says he is to investigate, something is going to drop, with a dull thud. At least that"s the way Harry Lawrence puts it. By the way, Aunt Jennie, what has become of him, and why hasn"t he written to me?
Your loving HELEN.
CHAPTER X
_From John Grant"s Diary_
I slept rather late, this morning, and came out of the house feeling very fit. Had it not been for my blistered hands nothing would have remained to show what a hard pull we had yesterday, excepting the unpleasant feeling that I made rather a donkey of myself last evening. My only excuse, and a mighty poor one, is that I was rather played out and developed a silly grouch.
I had only gone a little way when I met Mrs. Barnett. She came towards me with her hand outstretched, smiling in her usual pleasant way.
"Right again and topside up," she exclaimed, brightly. "Sammy was just telling me what a hard time you had to make the cove, yesterday. Those broad shoulders of yours give you an advantage over my husband. He would have had to go off towards North Cove. It is fine to be as strong and big as you."
"Mrs. Barnett," I said, fervently, "you are an awful humbug."
She c.o.c.ked her head a little to one side, with a pretty motion she sometimes unconsciously affects.
"Out with it," she said. "Explain yourself so that I may repent and be forgiven."
"There is nothing to be forgiven you," I declared. "I would like to place you on a pedestal and direct the proper worshipping of you. None but the most superior kind of a woman can take a fool chap and turn his folly around so that he may be rather pleased with it. I expected a good wigging from you, and deserve it."
"That sort of thing is one of the most important functions and privileges of a woman," she answered. "Men need it all the time for the smoothing out of their ruffled feelings."
"The men shouldn"t allow them to get ruffled," I said.
"There speaks the wise man," she laughed, "nor should the sea permit itself to get stormy. Were you not explaining to me the other day that the wind allows the climbing up of the sap in swaying trees, and that the stirring of the waters keeps them pure and fit to maintain the unending life beneath them?"
"It seems to me that I did."
"Well, I suppose that a little storminess now and then serves some useful purpose in a man, and if he only can have a woman about him, to see that it doesn"t go too far, it will do him a lot of good. You should get married."
"Of course I ought to," I replied, "and moreover I would give everything in the world if only...."
I interrupted myself, considering that since Dora Maclennon and I are not engaged, and that she merely represents to me a longing which I often consider as a hopeless one, I have no right to discuss her, even with this dear kind woman.
"You have already found the girl?" asked Mrs. Barnett, her eyes filled with the interested sympathy always shown by the gentler s.e.x in such matters.
"I have found her," I replied, "but she is very far away from me, and it is just a case of having to grin and bear it."
Then her blue eyes opened widely, and with an exquisitely gentle touch she placed her hand on my arm.
"You poor dear boy!" she said, with the sweetest little inflection of voice, that held a world of friendliness and compa.s.sion.
"I am afraid you will think I am in a perpetually disgruntled state," I told her. "Nothing of the kind! I eat the squarest kind of square meals every day and really enjoy the work here. If it were not a bit trying, from time to time, it wouldn"t be worth a man"s while to tackle it."
"That is the way to talk," approved Mrs. Barnett.
So we shook hands again and I left her, thinking what a splendid thing it must be for a fellow to have such a tower of gentle strength to lean upon.
I went over to the Jelliffes" and cut down the plaster dressing. The broken leg is doing very well, as was to be expected, and I was much pleased.
"That"s doing splendidly," I told him. "A little more patience for a couple of weeks and we"ll have you walking up and down the village, a living advertis.e.m.e.nt of my accomplishments."
"A couple of weeks!" exclaimed Mr. Jelliffe. "That sounds like three or four. I know you fellows. No one ever managed to get anything definite out of a doctor, with the possible exception of his bill."
I laughed, but refused to commit myself by making any hard and fast promises, and Miss Jelliffe came in.
"Daddy enjoyed himself ever so much last evening," she said. "He likes Mr. Barnett and grows enthusiastic when he speaks of Mrs. Barnett. I must say that I share his views."
"They are made of the salt of the earth," I a.s.serted.
"Yes, there can be no doubt of that," she said. "But doesn"t it seem dreadful that a gently nurtured woman should be placed in such surroundings, with no means of obtaining anything but the barest needs of existence? She has to stand all the worries of her own household and, in addition, is compelled to listen to the woes of all the others."
"And any help that she can extend to them," I added, "saving that of sympathy and kind words, is always at the cost of depriving herself and her little ones. And yet she is doing it unceasingly, and goes about in shocking clothes and with a smile on her face, cheerfully, as if her path in life lay over a bed of roses."