Chapter 833: I Feel Distressed
After Ren Xinghe finished speaking her last sentence, she leaned in Ku Jie’s arms and fell asleep.
When she woke up again, her mind was clearer, but her throat was still hoa.r.s.e, and the man who had taken care of her all night was nestled on the sofa beside her, sleeping very uncomfortably.
Perhaps it was because of her gaze, Ku Jie suddenly opened his eyes and looked at her: “You are already awake?”
Ren Xinghe stood up, and she was still a little ill as she said: “Last night…Did I talk nonsense again?”
Ku Jie also stood up and looked at her: “What kind of words are nonsense?”
“For example, I’m very tired…can’t hold on…and so on.” Ren Xinghe explained, “When I am unconscious, I tend to say these words.”
When Ku Jie heard these words, he chuckled lightly, and squatted down beside her as he said: “In front of me, I will allow you to be weak.”
“Then you cannot take me seriously. No matter whether I say I cannot keep going, or if I say that I want to give up, don’t take it seriously.”
Ku Jie tapped the tip of her nose and nodded: “I will not take you seriously when that happens then.”
Last night, for Ren Xinghe, it was a ma.s.sive transformation.
She had completely withdrawn from her mother’s shadow.
So, for Ren Xinghe, this was not a bad thing.
“Do you want to continue to sleep or get up for breakfast?”
Ren Xinghe came over last night, so she hadn’t had time to take a good look at Ku Jie’s private s.p.a.ce. Furthermore, after falling asleep all night, she felt sore and weak.
“I choose to wake up…”
“There are new toiletries in the bathroom. Although it is brand new, it might be a bit masculine, so bear with me.”
Ku Jie helped her get up, then watched her go into the bathroom, before he went downstairs and cooked a pot of porridge.
After Ren Xinghe closed the bathroom door, she looked at herself in the mirror. She was sweating from the fever and she looked haggard and messy now. Her clothes were sticky and uncomfortable, and she thought that she would go home to change out of it later.
Then, Ren Xinghe began to look around the man’s bathroom. There were traces of a man everywhere. However, it was neat and clean. It looked even like some hotel’s bathroom as it was not often used at first glance.
He must not be home much…
Ren Xinghe guessed right, because there was almost no life in this family.
There were many things, but he did not even had time to tear the labels off.
After Ren Xinghe freshened up quickly, she went downstairs and saw the busy figure in the open kitchen. She sat down in front of the bar and said, “Don’t you come home often?”
Ku Jie was pouring a gla.s.s of milk, and when he heard the question, he nodded and said: “X Society has a lounge and I have other places to stay.”
“Can you…tell me about your relatives?”
Ku Jie placed the gla.s.s of hot milk in front of Ren Xinghe, and then sat down opposite her: “I don’t know where to start. So, you can ask me questions and I will answer all of your questions then.”
“Parents?”
Ku Jie’s pupils deepened and he smiled. For him, reminiscing about things before the age of eight wa.s.s the same as Jiang Yuning’s reminiscence of her 19-year-old family’s collapse. Of course, he has experienced much more experiences than Jiang Yuning.
Ren Xinghe saw that he looked different, and immediately understood something, and waved her hand quickly: “If it’s a bad memory and you don’t want to remember it, just don’t think about it. I’m not very curious, so I don’t need to know so clearly.”
“There is nothing I can’t say.” Although Ku Jie’s mouth was open, his tone was firm. “I have no parents. After I turned eight years old, I was supported by my uncle. When I was in college, I found out that my uncle was in trouble, so I left school. After returning to China, I joined the entertainment industry and established X Society to take care of my younger sister.”
“Why…do you not have parents…?”
“My father was born a famous man, but compared to my uncle, he can only be called a decent person. He was a professor at the university and later married my mother after a blind date. At first, the both of them were respectful and lived well, but when I was born, my father’s first love found him, and the both of them suddenly got together again. My mother found out. My mother was in confinement and she kept going back and forth. She suffered from postpartum depression and she nearly jumped down from the inpatient department of the hospital.”
When Ren Xinghe heard this, she immediately grabbed Ku Jie’s hand.
“She did not manage to do so and was stopped by my grandmother. But since then, her spirit is not the same anymore, and because of my crying, she…tried to strangle me several times.”
“But even so, my father still fooled around with his first love. This family relations.h.i.+p has also been deformed for several years.”
Ren Xinghe’s heart hurt when she heard Ku Jie’s melodious words, and it hurt her so much.
She thought of when she saw Ku Jie for the first time, and when she had contacted him for the first time. He seemed to be naturally immune to that kind of family ethics plot.
Ren Xinghe felt that he had no sympathy, even to the point of indifference, as he was able to speak such cruel and realistic words to children.
She finally understood now.
Ren Xinghe couldn’t listen anymore, and suddenly got up from the chair, went around behind Ku Jie, and hugged him from the back as she said, “Stop talking…Stop talking…I feel distressed.”
Ku Jie was immersed in his thoughts, and continued:
“My mother’s illness was good and bad at times. When I was a child, I was afraid of her being irritated because she had no other channels to vent her anger, except on me. It was such a frightening life and it lasted until the age of eight. I still remember that year. My father came to my mother to ask for a divorce because his first love was pregnant. My mother went crazy and started to beat them up. They went crazy and the other party lost her baby. There was no need for this family to exist anymore. After that, my uncle came forward, led me away, and finally brought me back to the track of living a life as a normal person.”
Ku Jie has never told anyone about these things.
Even Jiang Yuning didn’t fully understand the details of everything that happened that year.
His childhood experience made him very numb to the outside world and this was the reason why he lacked empathy. If Jiang Zhitong hadn’t used a lot of love to drag him back, he might even be a perverted murderer now.
Many years have pa.s.sed and time has changed. Although these things were not enough to affect his worldview of life, he was still troubled by nightmares.
Resentment and anger, every now and then would be so strong there was nowhere for him to vent them.
Fortunately, he had Jiang Yuning and a group of paparazzi around him. Although they were constantly making noise, they always pulled him forward.
At this moment, Ren Xinghe didn’t speak, and she hugged him tightly from behind as she asked, “It’s all over, isn’t it?”
“Yeah.” Ku Jie nodded, “So Xinghe, sometimes, I envy you very much. After enduring so much pain and suffering so much damage, you still have a firm goal and you will go all out to achieve it. I did not.”
“My sister is living very happily now. She doesn’t need me anymore. She really doesn’t need me anymore in any aspects of her life. That is the reason why I started panicking and feeling lost. I kept learning new things, and changing my ident.i.ties but I have never found my own value anywhere.”