Fafhrd stiffened and held his breath. When he could no longer, he began to let it out and draw it in, open-mouthed, in noiseless draughts.
"Fafhrd?" The voice was a little louder, though still like a ghost cry. "I heard you come in. You"re not asleep."
No use keeping silent. "You haven"t slept either, Mother?"
"The old sleep little."
That wasn"t true, he thought. Mor wasn"t old, even by the Cold Waste"s merciless measure. At the same time, it was was the truth. Mor was as old as the tribe, the Waste itself, as old as death. the truth. Mor was as old as the tribe, the Waste itself, as old as death.
Mor said composedly-Fafhrd knew she had to be lying on her back, staring straight upward-"I am willing that you should take Mara to wife. Not pleased, but willing. There is need for a strong back here, so long as you daydream, shooting your thoughts like arrows loosed high and at random, and prank about and gad after actresses and such gilded dirt. Besides, you have got Mara with child and her family does not altogether lack status."
"Mara spoke to you tonight?" Fafhrd asked. He tried to keep his voice dispa.s.sionate, but the words came out strangledly.
"As any Snow Girl should. Except she ought to have told me earlier. And you earlier still. But you have inherited threefold your father"s secretiveness along with his urge to neglect his family and indulge himself in useless adventurings. Except that in you the sickness takes a more repulsive form. Cold mountaintops were his mistresses, while you are drawn to civilization, that putrid festering of the hot south, where there is no natural stern cold to punish the foolish and luxurious and to see that the decencies are kept. But you will discover that there is a witchy cold that can follow you anywhere in Nehwon. Ice once went down and covered all the hot lands, in punishment for an earlier cycle of lecherous evil. And wherever ice once went, witchery can send it again. You will come to believe that, and shed your sickness, or else you will learn as your father learned."
Fafhrd tried to make the accusation of husband-murder that he had hinted at so easily this morning, but the words stuck, not in his throat, but in his very mind, which felt invaded. Mor had long ago made his heart cold. Now, up in his brain, she was creating among his most private thoughts crystals which distorted everything and prevented him from using against her the weapons of duty coldly performed and joined by a cold reason which let him keep his integrity. He felt as if there were closing in on him forever the whole world of cold, in which the rigidity of ice and the rigidity of morals and the rigidity of thought were all one.
As if sensing her victory and permitting herself to joy in it a little, Mor said in the same dead, reflective tones, "Aye, your father now bitterly regrets Gran Hanack, White Fang, the Ice Queen, and all his other mountain paramours. They cannot help him now. They have forgotten him. He stares up endlessly from lidless sockets at the home he despised and now yearns for, so near, yet so impossibly far. His fingerbones scrabble feebly against the frozen earth, he tries futilely to twist under its weight...."
Fafhrd heard a faint scratching, perhaps of icy twigs against tent leather, but his hair rose. Yet he could move no other part of him, he discovered as he tried to lift himself. The blackness all around him was a vast weight. He wondered if Mor had magicked him down under the ground beside his father. Yet it was a greater weight than that of eight feet of frozen earth that pressed on him. It was the weight of the entire Cold Waste and its killingness, of the taboos and contempts and shut-mindedness of the Snow Clan, of the pirate greed and loutish l.u.s.t of Hringorl, of even Mara"s merry self-absorption and bright, half-blind mind, and atop them all Mor with ice crystals forming on her fingertips as she wove them in a binding spell.
And then he thought of Vlana.
It may not have been the thought of Vlana that did it. A star may have chanced to crawl across the tent"s tiny smoke-hole and shoot its tiny silver arrow into the pupil of one of his eyes. It may have been that his held breath suddenly puffed out and his lungs automatically sucked another breath in, showing him that his muscles could could move. move.
At any rate he shot up and dashed for the doorway. He dared not stop for the lashings, because Mor"s ice-jagged fingers were clutching at him. Instead he ripped the brittle, old leather with one downward sweep of his clawed right hand and then leaped leaped from the door, because Nalgron"s skeletal arms were straining toward him from the narrow black s.p.a.ce between the frozen ground and the tent"s elevated floor. from the door, because Nalgron"s skeletal arms were straining toward him from the narrow black s.p.a.ce between the frozen ground and the tent"s elevated floor.
And then he ran as he had never run before. He ran as if all the ghosts of the Cold Waste were at his heels-and in some fashion they were. He pa.s.sed the last of the Snow Clan"s tents, all dark, and the faintly tinkling Tent of the Women, and sprinted out onto the gentle slope, all silvered by the moon, leading down to the upcurving lip of Trollstep Canyon. He felt the urge to dash off that verge, challenging the air to uphold him and bear him south or else hurl him to instant oblivion-and for a moment there seemed nothing to choose between those two fates.
Then he was running not so much away from the cold and its crippling, supernatural horrors, as toward civilization, which was once again a bright emblem in his brain, an answer to all small-mindedness.
He slowed down a little and some sense came back into his head, so that he peered for living late-walkers as well as for demons and fetches.
He noted Shadah twinkling blue in the western treetops.
He was walking by the time he reached G.o.dshall.
He went between it and the canyon"s rim, which no longer tugged him.
He noted that Essedinex"s tent had been set up again and was once more lit. No new snow worm crawled across Vlana"s tent. The snow sycamore bough above it glittered with crystals in the moonlight.
He entered without warning by the back door, silently drawing out the loosened pegs and then thrusting together under the wall and the hems of the racked costumes his head and right fist, the latter gripping his drawn knife.
Vlana lay asleep alone on her back on the pallet, a light red woolen blanket drawn up to her naked armpits. The lamp burned yellow and small, yet brightly enough to show all the interior and no one but her. The unbanked and newly stoked brazier radiated heat.
Fafhrd came all the way in, sheathed his knife, and stood looking down at the actress. Her arms seemed very slender, her hands long-fingered and a shade large. With her big eyes shut, her face seemed rather small at the center of its glory of outspread, dark brown hair. Yet it looked both n.o.ble and knowing and its moist, long, generous lips, newly and carefully carmined, roused and tempted him. Her skin had a faint sheen of oil. He could smell its perfume.
For a moment Vlana"s supine posture reminded him of both Mor and Nalgron, but this thought was instantly swept away by the brazier"s fierce heat, like that of a small wrought-iron sun, by the rich textures and graceful instruments of civilization all around him, and by Vlana"s beauty and couth grace, which seemed self-aware even in sleep. She was civilization"s sigil.
He moved back toward the rack and began to strip off his clothes and neatly fold and pile them. Vlana did not wake, or at least her eyes did not open.
Getting back under the red blanket again some time later, after crawling out to relieve himself, Fafhrd said, "Now tell me about civilization and your part in it."
Vlana drank half of the wine Fafhrd had fetched her on his way back, then stretched luxuriously, her head resting on her intertwined hands.
"Well, to begin with, I"m not a princess, though I liked being called one," she said lightly. "I must inform you that you have not got yourself even a lady, darlingest boy. As for civilization, it stinks."
"No," Fafhrd agreed, "I have got myself the skillfullest and most glamorous actress in all Nehwon. But why has civilization an ill odor for you?"
"I think I must disillusion you still further, beloved," Vlana said, somewhat absently rubbing her side against his. "Otherwise you might get silly notions about me and even devise silly plans."
"If you"re talking about pretending to be a wh.o.r.e in order to gain erotic knowledge and other wisdoms-" Fafhrd began.
She glanced at him in considerable surprise and interrupted rather sharply: "I"m worse than a wh.o.r.e, by some standards. I"m a thief. Yes, Red Ringlets, a cutpurse and filchpocket, a roller of drunks, a burglar and alleybasher. I was born a farm girl, which I suppose makes me lower still to a hunter, who lives by the death of animals and keeps his hands out of the dirt and reaps no harvest except with the sword. When my parents" plot of land was confiscated by the law"s trickery to make a tiny corner of one of the new, vast, slave-worked, Lankhmar-owned grain farms, and they in consequence starved to death, I determined to get my own back from the grain merchants. Lankhmar City would feed me, aye, feed me well-and be paid only with lumps and perhaps a deep scratch or two. So to Lankhmar I went. Falling in there with a clever girl of the same turn of mind and some experience, I did well for two full rounds of moons and a few more. We worked only in black garb, and called ourselves to ourselves the Dark Duo.
"For a cover, we danced, chiefly in the twilight hours, to fill in the time before the big-name entertainers. A little later we began to mime too, taught by one Hinerio, a famous actor fallen by wine on evil days, the darlingest and courtliest old trembler who ever begged for a drink at dawn or contrived to fondle a girl one quarter his age at dusk. And so, as I say, I did quite well ... until I fell afoul, as my parents had, of the law. No, not the Overlord"s courts, dear boy, and his prisons and racks and head-and-hand-chopping blocks, though they are a shame crying to the stars. No, I ran afoul of a law older even than Lankhmar"s and a court less merciful. In short, my friend"s and my own cover was finally blown by the Thieves" Guild, a most ancient organization with locals in every city of the civilized world with a hidebound law against female membership and with a deep detestation of all freelance pilferers. Back on the farm I had heard of the Guild and hoped in my innocence to become worthy to join it, but soon learned their byword, "Sooner give a cobra a kiss, than a secret to a woman." Incidentally, sweet scholar of civilization"s arts, such women as the Guild must use as lures and attention-shifters and such, they hire by the half hour from the Wh.o.r.es" Guild.
"I was lucky. At the moment when I was supposed to be slowly strangling somewhere else, I was stumbling over my friend"s body, having looped swiftly home to get a key I"d forgot. I lit a lamp in our close-shuttered abode and saw the long agony in Vilis" face and the red silken cord buried deep in her neck. But what filled me with the hottest rage and coldest hate-besides a second measure of knee-melting fear-was that they had strangled old Hinerio too. Vilis and I were at least compet.i.tors and so perhaps fair game by civilization"s malodorous standards, but he had never even suspected us of thievery. He had a.s.sumed merely that we had other lovers or else-and also-erotic clients.
"So I scuttled out of Lankhmar as swiftly as a spied crab, eyes behind me for pursuit, and in Ilthmar encountered Essedinex" troupe, headed north for the off-season. By good fortune they needed a leading mime and my skill was sufficient to satisfy old Seddy.
"But at the same time, I swore an oath by the morning star to avenge the deaths of Vilis and Hinerio. And some day I shall! With proper plans and help and a new cover. More than one high potentate of the Thieves" Guild will learn how it feels to have his weasand narrowed a fingerclip"s breadth at a time, aye, and worse things!
"But this is a h.e.l.lish topic for a comfy morning, lover, and I raise it only to show you why you must not get deeply involved with a dirty and vicious one such as me."
Vlana turned her body then so that it leaned against Fafhrd"s and she kissed him from the corner of the lip to the lobe of the ear, but when he would have returned these courtesies in full measure and more, she carried away his groping hands and, bracing herself on his arms, thereby confining them, pushed herself up and gazed at him with her enigmatic look, saying, "Dearest boy, it is the gray of dawn and soon comes the pink and you must leave me at once, or at most after a last engagement. Go home, marry that lovely and nimble treegirl-I"m sure now it was not a male youth-and live your proper, arrow-straight life far from the stinks and snares of civilization. The Show packs up and leaves early, day after tomorrow, and I have my crooked destiny to tread. When your blood has cooled, you will feel only contempt for me. Nay, deny it not-I know men! Though there is a tiny chance that you, being you, will recall me with a little pleasure. In which case I advise one thing only: never hint of it to your wife!"
Fafhrd matched her enigmatic look and answered, "Princess, I"ve been a pirate, which is nothing but a water thief, who often raids folk poor as your parents. Barbarism can match civilization"s every stench. Not one move in our frostbit lives but is strictured by a mad G.o.d"s laws, which we call customs, and by black-handed irrationalities from which there is no escape. My own father was condemned to death by bone-breaking by a court I dare not name. His offense: climbing a mountain. And there are murders and thievings and pimpings and-Oh, there are tales I could tell you if-"
He broke off to lift his hands so that he was holding her half above him, grasping her gently below the armpits, rather than she propped on her arms. "Let me come south with you, Vlana," he said eagerly, "whether as member of your troupe or moving alone-though I am a singing skald, I can also sword dance, juggle four whirling daggers, and hit with one at ten paces a mark the size of my thumbnail. And when we get to Lankhmar City, perhaps disguised as two Northerners, for you are tall, I"ll be your good right arm of vengeance. I can thieve by land, too, believe me, and stalk a victim through alleys, I should think, as sightlessly and silently as through forests. I can-"
Vlana, supported by his hands, laid a palm across his lips while her other hand wandered idly under the long hair at the back of his neck. "Darling," she said, "I doubt not that you are brave and loyal and skillful for a lad of eighteen. And you make love well enough for a youth-quite well enough to hold your white-furred girl and mayhap a few more wenches, if you choose. But, despite your ferocious words-forgive my frankness-I sense in you honesty, n.o.bility even, a love of fair play, and a hatred of torture. The lieutenant I seek for my revenge must be cruel and treacherous and fell as a serpent, while knowing at least as much as I of the fantastically twisty ways of the great cities and the ancient guilds. And, to be blunt, he must be old as I, which you miss by almost the fingers of two hands. So come kiss me, dear boy, and pleasure me once more and-"
Fafhrd suddenly sat up, and lifted her a little and sat her down, so that she sat sideways on his thighs, he shifting his grasp to her shoulders.
"No," he said firmly. "I see nothing to be gained by subjecting you once more to my inexpert caresses. But-"
"I was afraid you would take it that way," she interrupted unhappily. "I did not mean-"
"But," he continued with cool authority, "I want to ask you one question. Have you already chosen your lieutenant?"
"I will not answer that," she replied, eyeing him as coolly and confidently.
"Is he-?" he began and then pressed his lips together, catching the name "Vellix" before it was uttered.
She looked at him with undisguised curiosity as to what his next move would be. "Very well," he said at last, dropping his hands from her shoulders and propping himself with them. "You have tried, I think, to act in what you believe to be my best interests, so I will return like with like. What I have to reveal indicts barbarism and civilization equally." And he told her of Essedinex" and Hringorl"s plan for her.
She laughed heartily when he was done, though he fancied she had turned a shade pale.
"I must be slipping," she commented. "So that was why my somewhat subtle mimings so easily pleased Seddy"s rough and ready tastes, and why there was a place open for me in the troupe, and why he did not insist I wh.o.r.e for him after the Show, as the other girls must." She looked at Fafhrd sharply. "Some pranksters overset Seddy"s tent this midnight. Was it-?"
He nodded. "I was in a strange humor, last night, merry yet furious."
Honest, delighted laughter from her then, followed by another of the sharp looks. "So you did not go home when I sent you away after the Show?"
"Not until afterward," he said. "No, I stayed and watched."
She looked at him in a tender, mocking, wondering way which asked quite plainly, "And what did you see?" But this time he found it very easy not to name Vellix.
"So you"re a gentleman, too," she joked. "But why didn"t you tell me about Hringorl"s base scheme earlier? Did you think I"d become too frightened to be amorous?"
"A little of that," he admitted, "but it was chiefly that I did not decide until this moment to warn you. Truth to tell, I only came back to you tonight because I was frightened by ghosts, though later I found other good reasons. Indeed, just before I came to your tent, fear and loneliness-yes, and a certain jealousy too-had me minded to hurl myself into Trollstep Canyon, or else don skis and attempt the next-to-impossible leap which has teased my courage for years...."
She clutched his upper arm, digging in fingers. "Never do that," she said very seriously. "Hold onto life. Think only of yourself. The worst always changes for the better-or oblivion."
"Yes, so I was thinking when I would have let the air over the canyon decide my destiny. Would it cradle me or dash me down? But selfishness, of which I"ve a plenty whatever you think-that and a certain leeriness of all miracles-quashed that whim. Also, I was earlier half minded to trample your tent before pulling down the Show Master"s. So there is some evil in me, you see. Aye, and a shut-mouthed deceitfulness."
She did not laugh, but studied his face most thoughtfully. Then for a time the enigma-look came back into her eyes. For a moment Fafhrd thought he could peer past it, and he was troubled, for what he thought he glimpsed behind those large, brown-irised pupils was not a sibyl surveying the universe from a mountaintop, but a merchant with scales in which he weighed objects most carefully, at whiles noting down in a little book old debts and new bribes and alternate plans for gain.
But it was only one troubling glimpse, so his heart joyed when Vlana, whom his big hands still held tilted above him, smiled down into his eyes and said, "I will now answer your question, which I would and could not earlier. For I have only this instant decided that my lieutenant will be ... you. Hug me on it!"
Fafhrd grappled her with eager warmth and a strength that made her squeal, but then just before his body had fired unendurably, she pushed up from him, saying breathlessly, "Wait, wait! We must first lay our plans."
"Afterward, my love. Afterward," he pleaded, straining her down.
"No!" she protested sharply. "Afterward loses too many battles to Too Late. If you are lieutenant, I am captain and give directions."
"Harkening in obedience," he said, giving way. "Only be swift."
"We must be well away from Cold Corner before kidnap time," she said. "Today I must gather my things together and provide us with sleigh, swift horses, and a store of food. Leave all that to me. You behave today exactly as is your wont, keeping well away from me, in case our enemies set spies on you, as both Seddy and Hringorl are most like to do-"
"Very well, very well," Fafhrd agreed hurriedly. "And now, my sweetest-"
"Hush and have patience! To cap your deception, climb into the roof of G.o.dshall well before the Show, just as you did last night. There just might be an attempt to kidnap me during the Show-Hringorl or his men becoming overeager, or Hringorl seeking to cheat Seddy of his gold-and I"ll feel safest with you on watch. Then when I exit after wearing the toga and the silver bells, come you down swiftly and meet me at the stable. We"ll escape during the break between the first and second halves of the Show, when one way or another all are too intent on what more"s coming, to take note of us. You"ve got that? Stay far away today? Hide in the roof? Join me at the halves break? Very well! And now, darlingest lieutenant, banish all discipline. Forget every atom of respect you owe your captain and-"
But now it was Fafhrd"s turn to delay. Vlana"s talk had allowed time for his own worries to rouse and he held her away from him although she had knit her hands behind his neck and was straining to draw their two bodies together.
He said, "I will obey you in every particular. Only one warning more, which it"s vital you heed. Think as little as you can today about our plans, even while performing actions vital to them. Keep them hid behind the scenery of your other thoughts. As I shall mine, you may be sure. For Mor my mother is a great reader of minds."
"Your mother! Truly she has overawed you inordinately, darling, in a fashion which makes me itch to set you wholly free-oh, do not hold me off! Why, you speak of her as if she were the Queen of Witches."
"And so she is, make no mistake," Fafhrd a.s.sured her dourly. "She is the great white spider, while the whole Cold Waste, both above and below, is her web, on which we flies must go tippy-toe, o"erstepping sticky stretches. You will will heed me?" heed me?"
"Yes, yes, yes! And now-"
He brought her slowly down toward him, as a man might put a wineskin to his mouth, tantalizing himself. Their skins met. Their lips poised.
Fafhrd became aware of a profound silence above, around, below, as if the very earth were holding her breath. It frightened him.
They kissed, drinking deeply of each other, and his fear was drowned.
They parted for breath. Fafhrd reached out and pinched the lamp"s wick so that the flame fled and the tent was dark except for the cold silver of dawn seeping in by cranny and crack. His fingers stung. He wondered why he"d done it-they"d loved by lamplight before. Again fear came.
He clasped Vlana tightly in the hug that banishes all fears.
And then of a sudden-he could not possibly have told why-he was rolling over and over with her toward the back of the tent. His hands gripping her shoulders, his legs clamping hers together, he was hurling her sideways over him and then himself over her in swiftest alteration.
There was a crack crack like thunder and the jolt of a giant"s fist hammered against the granite-frozen ground behind them, where the middle of the tent became nothing high, while the hoops above them leaned sharply that way, drawing the tent"s leather skin after. like thunder and the jolt of a giant"s fist hammered against the granite-frozen ground behind them, where the middle of the tent became nothing high, while the hoops above them leaned sharply that way, drawing the tent"s leather skin after.
They rolled into the racked garments spilling down. There was a second monster crack followed by a crashing and a crunching like some super-giant beast snapping up a behemoth and crunching it between its jaws. Earth quivered for a s.p.a.ce.
Then all was silent after that great noise and ground-shaking, except for the astonishment and fear buzzing in their ears. They clutched each other like terrified children.
Fafhrd recovered himself first. "Dress!" he told Vlana and squirmed under the back of the tent and stood up naked in the biting cold under the pinkening sky.
The great bough of the snow sycamore, its crystals dashed off in a vast heap, lay athwart the middle of the tent, pressing it and the pallet beneath into the frozen earth.
The rest of the sycamore, robbed of its great balancing bough, had fallen entire in the opposite direction and lay mounded around with shaken-off crystals. Its black, hairy, broken-off roots were nakedly exposed.
All the crystals shone with a pale flesh-pink from the sun.
Nothing moved anywhere, not even a wisp of breakfast smoke. Sorcery had struck a great hammerstroke and none had noted it except the intended victims.
Fafhrd, beginning to shake, slithered under again. Vlana had obeyed his word and was dressing with an actress"s swiftness. Fafhrd hurried into his own garments, piled so providentially at this end of the tent. He wondered if he had been under a G.o.d"s directions in doing that and in snuffing out the lamp, which else by now would have had the crushed tent flaming.
His clothes felt colder than the icy air, but he knew that would change.
He crawled with Vlana outside once more. As they stood up, he faced her toward the fallen bough with the great crystal heap around it and said, "Now laugh at the witchy powers of my mother and her coven and all the Snow Women."
Vlana said doubtfully, "I see only a bough that was overweighted with ice."
Fafhrd said, "Compare the ma.s.s of crystals and snow that was shaken off that bough with those elsewhere. Remember: hide your thoughts!"
Vlana was silent.
A black figure was racing toward them from the traders" tents. It grew in size as it grotesquely bounded.
Vellix the Venturer was gasping as he stamped to a stop and seized Vlana"s arms. Controlling his breathing, he said, "I dreamed a dream of you struck down and pashed. Then a thunderclap waked me."
Vlana answered, "You dreamed the beginning of the truth, but in a matter like this, almost is as good as not at all."
Vellix at last saw Fafhrd. Lines of jealous anger engraved his face and his hand went to the dagger at his belt.
"Hold!" Vlana commanded sharply. "I had indeed been mashed to a mummy, except that this youth"s senses, which ought to have been utterly engrossed in something else, caught the first cues of the bough"s fall, and he whipped me out of death"s way in the very nick. Fafhrd"s his name."
Vellix changed his hand"s movement into part of a low bow, sweeping his other arm out wide.
"I am much indebted to you, young man," he said warmly, and then after a pause, "for saving the life of a notable artiste artiste."