He took her hand as he said this. She went a little paler, and her eyes brightened as though they would fill with tears as they met his; she could not have helped it, do what she would. But she only said, "Thank yo" kindly," and going up to Coulson she repeated the words and action to him; and then they went off together to dinner.
There was a lull of business for the next hour. John and Jeremiah were dining like the rest of the world. Even the elder errand-boy had vanished. Philip rearranged disorderly goods; and then sate down on the counter by the window; it was the habitual place for the one who stayed behind; for excepting on market-day there was little or no custom during the noon-hour. Formerly he used to move the drapery with which the window was ornamented, and watch the pa.s.sers-by with careless eye. But now, though he seemed to gaze abroad, he saw nothing but vacancy. All the morning since he got up he had been trying to fight through his duties--leaning against a hope--a hope that first had bowed, and then had broke as soon as he really tried its weight. There was not a sign of Sylvia"s liking for him to be gathered from the most careful recollection of the past evening. It was of no use thinking that there was. It was better to give it up altogether and at once. But what if he could not? What if the thought of her was bound up with his life; and that once torn out by his own free will, the very roots of his heart must come also?
No; he was resolved he would go on; as long as there was life there was hope; as long as Sylvia remained unpledged to any one else, there was a chance for him. He would remodel his behaviour to her.
He could not be merry and light-hearted like other young men; his nature was not cast in that mould; and the early sorrows that had left him a lonely orphan might have matured, but had not enlivened, his character. He thought with some bitterness on the power of easy talking about trifles which some of those he had met with at the Corneys" had exhibited. But then he felt stirring within him a force of enduring love which he believed to be unusual, and which seemed as if it must compel all things to his wish in the end. A year or so ago he had thought much of his own cleverness and his painfully acquired learning, and he had imagined that these were the qualities which were to gain Sylvia. But now, whether he had tried them and had failed to win even her admiration, or whether some true instinct had told him that a woman"s love may be gained in many ways sooner than by mere learning, he was only angry with himself for his past folly in making himself her school--nay, her taskmaster. To-night, though, he would start off on a new tack. He would not even upbraid her for her conduct the night before; he had shown her his displeasure at the time; but she should see how tender and forgiving he could be. He would lure her to him rather than find fault with her. There had perhaps been too much of that already.
When Coulson came back Philip went to his solitary dinner. In general he was quite alone while eating it; but to-day Alice Rose chose to bear him company. She watched him with cold severe eye for some time, until he had appeased his languid appet.i.te. Then she began with the rebuke she had in store for him; a rebuke the motives to which were not entirely revealed even to herself.
"Thou "re none so keen after thy food as common," she began. "Plain victuals goes ill down after feastin"."
Philip felt the colour mount to his face; he was not in the mood for patiently standing the brunt of the attack which he saw was coming, and yet he had a reverent feeling for woman and for age. He wished she would leave him alone; but he only said--"I had nought but a slice o" cold beef for supper, if you"ll call that feasting."
"Neither do G.o.dly ways savour delicately after the pleasures of the world," continued she, unheeding his speech. "Thou wert wont to seek the house of the Lord, and I thought well on thee; but of late thou"st changed, and fallen away, and I mun speak what is in my heart towards thee."
"Mother," said Philip, impatiently (both he and Coulson called Alice "mother" at times), "I don"t think I am fallen away, and any way I cannot stay now to be--it"s new year"s Day, and t" shop is throng."
But Alice held up her hand. Her speech was ready, and she must deliver it.
"Shop here, shop there. The flesh and the devil are gettin" hold on yo", and yo" need more nor iver to seek t" ways o" grace. New year"s day comes and says, "Watch and pray," and yo" say, "Nay, I"ll seek feasts and market-places, and let times and seasons come and go without heedin" into whose presence they"re hastening me." Time was, Philip, when thou"d niver ha" letten a merry-making keep thee fra"
t" watch-night, and t" company o" the G.o.dly."
"I tell yo" it was no merry-making to me," said Philip, with sharpness, as he left the house.
Alice sat down on the nearest seat, and leant her head on her wrinkled hand.
"He"s tangled and snared," said she; "my heart has yearned after him, and I esteemed him as one o" the elect. And more nor me yearns after him. O Lord, I have but one child! O Lord, spare her! But o"er and above a" I would like to pray for his soul, that Satan might not have it, for he came to me but a little lad."
At that moment Philip, smitten by his conscience for his hard manner of speech, came back; but Alice did not hear or see him till he was close by her, and then he had to touch her to recall her attention.
"Mother," said he, "I was wrong. I"m fretted by many things. I shouldn"t ha" spoken so. It was ill-done of me."
"Oh, my lad!" said she, looking up and putting her thin arm on his shoulder as he stooped, "Satan is desiring after yo" that he may sift yo" as wheat. Bide at whoam, bide at whoam, and go not after them as care nought for holy things. Why need yo" go to Haytersbank this night?"
Philip reddened. He could not and would not give it up, and yet it was difficult to resist the pleading of the usually stern old woman.
"Nay," said he, withdrawing himself ever so little from her hold; "my aunt is but ailing, they"re my own flesh and blood, and as good folks as needs be, though they mayn"t be o" our--o" your way o"
thinking in a" things."
"Our ways--your ways o" thinking, says he, as if they were no longer his"n. And as good folks as need be," repeated she, with returning severity. "Them"s Satan"s words, tho" yo" spoke "em, Philip. I can do nought again Satan, but I can speak to them as can; an" we"ll see which pulls hardest, for it"ll be better for thee to be riven and rent i" twain than to go body and soul to h.e.l.l."
"But don"t think, mother," said Philip, his last words of conciliation, for the clock had given warning for two, "as I"m boun"
for h.e.l.l, just because I go t" see my own folks, all I ha" left o"
kin." And once more, after laying his hand with as much of a caress as was in his nature on hers, he left the house.
Probably Alice would have considered the first words that greeted Philip on his entrance into the shop as an answer to her prayer, for they were such as put a stop to his plan of going to see Sylvia that evening; and if Alice had formed her inchoate thoughts into words, Sylvia would have appeared as the nearest earthly representative of the spirit of temptation whom she dreaded for Philip.
As he took his place behind the counter, Coulson said to him in a low voice,--
"Jeremiah Foster has been round to bid us to sup wi" him to-night.
He says that he and John have a little matter o" business to talk over with us."
A glance from his eyes to Philip told the latter that Coulson believed the business spoken of had something to do with the partnership, respecting which there had been a silent intelligence for some time between the shopmen.
"And what did thou say?" asked Philip, doggedly unwilling, even yet, to give up his purposed visit.
"Say! why, what could a say, but that we"d come? There was summat up, for sure; and summat as he thought we should be glad on. I could tell it fra" t" look on his face."
"I don"t think as I can go," said Philip, feeling just then as if the long-hoped-for partnership was as nothing compared to his plan.
It was always distasteful to him to have to give up a project, or to disarrange an intended order of things, such was his nature; but to-day it was absolute pain to yield his own purpose.
"Why, man alive?" said Coulson, in amaze at his reluctance.
"I didn"t say I mightn"t go," said Philip, weighing consequences, until called off to attend to customers.
In the course of the afternoon, however, he felt himself more easy in deferring his visit to Haytersbank till the next evening. Charley Kinraid entered the shop, accompanied by Molly Brunton and her sisters; and though they all went towards Hester"s side of the shop, and Philip and Coulson had many people to attend to, yet Hepburn"s sharpened ears caught much of what the young women were saying. From that he gathered that Kinraid had promised them new year"s gifts, for the purchase of which they were come; and after a little more listening he learnt that Kinraid was returning to Shields the next day, having only come over to spend a holiday with his relations, and being tied with ship"s work at the other end. They all talked together lightly and merrily, as if his going or staying was almost a matter of indifference to himself and his cousins. The princ.i.p.al thought of the young women was to secure the articles they most fancied; Charley Kinraid was (so Philip thought) especially anxious that the youngest and prettiest should be pleased. Hepburn watched him perpetually with a kind of envy of his bright, courteous manner, the natural gallantry of the sailor. If it were but clear that Sylvia took as little thought of him as he did of her, to all appearance, Philip could even have given him praise for manly good looks, and a certain kind of geniality of disposition which made him ready to smile pleasantly at all strangers, from babies upwards.
As the party turned to leave the shop they saw Philip, the guest of the night before; and they came over to shake hands with him across the counter; Kinraid"s hand was proffered among the number. Last night Philip could not have believed it possible that such a demonstration of fellowship should have pa.s.sed between them; and perhaps there was a slight hesitation of manner on his part, for some idea or remembrance crossed Kinraid"s mind which brought a keen searching glance into the eyes which for a moment were fastened on Philip"s face. In spite of himself, and during the very action of hand-shaking, Philip felt a cloud come over his face, not altering or moving his features, but taking light and peace out of his countenance.
Molly Brunton began to say something, and he gladly turned to look at her. She was asking him why he went away so early, for they had kept it up for four hours after he left, and last of all, she added (turning to Kinraid), her cousin Charley had danced a hornpipe among the platters on the ground.
Philip hardly knew what he said in reply, the mention of that pas seul lifted such a weight off his heart. He could smile now, after his grave fashion, and would have shaken hands again with Kinraid had it been required; for it seemed to him that no one, caring ever so little in the way that he did for Sylvia, could have borne four mortal hours of a company where she had been, and was not; least of all could have danced a hornpipe, either from gaiety of heart, or even out of complaisance. He felt as if the yearning after the absent one would have been a weight to his legs, as well as to his spirit; and he imagined that all men were like himself.
CHAPTER XIV
PARTNERSHIP
As darkness closed in, and the New Year"s throng became scarce, Philip"s hesitation about accompanying Coulson faded away. He was more comfortable respecting Sylvia, and his going to see her might be deferred; and, after all, he felt that the wishes of his masters ought to be attended to, and the honour of an invitation to the private house of Jeremiah not to be slighted for anything short of a positive engagement. Besides, the ambitious man of business existed strongly in Philip. It would never do to slight advances towards the second great earthly object in his life; one also on which the first depended.
So when the shop was closed, the two set out down Bridge Street to cross the river to the house of Jeremiah Foster. They stood a moment on the bridge to breathe the keen fresh sea air after their busy day. The waters came down, swollen full and dark, with rapid rushing speed from the snow-fed springs high up on the moorland above. The close-packed houses in the old town seemed a cl.u.s.ter of white roofs irregularly piled against the more unbroken white of the hill-side.
Lights twinkled here and there in the town, and were slung from stern and bow of the ships in the harbour. The air was very still, settling in for a frost; so still that all distant sounds seemed near: the rumble of a returning cart in the High Street, the voices on board ship, the closing of shutters and barring of doors in the new town to which they were bound. But the sharp air was filled, as it were, with saline particles in a freezing state; little pungent crystals of sea salt burning lips and cheeks with their cold keenness. It would not do to linger here in the very centre of the valley up which pa.s.sed the current of atmosphere coming straight with the rushing tide from the icy northern seas. Besides, there was the unusual honour of a supper with Jeremiah Foster awaiting them.
He had asked each of them separately to a meal before now; but they had never gone together, and they felt that there was something serious in the conjuncture.
They began to climb the steep heights leading to the freshly-built rows of the new town of Monkshaven, feeling as if they were rising into aristocratic regions where no shop profaned the streets.
Jeremiah Foster"s house was one of six, undistinguished in size, or shape, or colour; but noticed in the daytime by all pa.s.sers-by for its spotless cleanliness of lintel and doorstep, window and window frame. The very bricks seemed as though they came in for the daily scrubbing which brightened handle, knocker, all down to the very sc.r.a.per.
The two young men felt as shy of the interview with their master under such unusual relations of guest and host, as a girl does of her first party. Each rather drew back from the decided step of knocking at the door; but with a rebuffing shake at his own folly, Philip was the one to give a loud single rap. As if they had been waited for, the door flew open, and a middle-aged servant stood behind, as spotless and neat as the house itself; and smiled a welcome to the familiar faces.
"Let me dust yo" a bit, William," said she, suiting the action to the word. "You"ve been leanin" again some whitewash, a"ll be bound.
Ay, Philip," continued she, turning him round with motherly freedom, "yo"ll do if yo"ll but gi" your shoon a polishin" wipe on yon other mat. This"n for takin" t" roughest mud off. Measter allays polishes on that."
In the square parlour the same precise order was observed. Every article of furniture was free from speck of dirt or particle of dust; and everything was placed either in a parallel line, or at exact right-angles with every other. Even John and Jeremiah sat in symmetry on opposite sides of the fire-place; the very smiles on their honest faces seemed drawn to a line of exact.i.tude.
Such formality, however admirable, was not calculated to promote ease: it was not until after supper--until a good quant.i.ty of Yorkshire pie had been swallowed, and washed down, too, with the best and most generous wine in Jeremiah"s cellar--that there was the least geniality among them, in spite of the friendly kindness of the host and his brother. The long silence, during which mute thanks for the meal were given, having come to an end, Jeremiah called for pipes, and three of the party began to smoke.