bruised sore in his innards afore t" men as come wi" a boat could pick him up."
She did not speak; she did not even tremble now; she set her teeth together, and, holding tight by Kester, she urged him on; but when they came to the end of the bridge, she seemed uncertain which way to turn.
"This way," said Kester. "He"s been lodgin" wi" Sally this nine week, an" niver a one about t" place as knowed him; he"s been i" t"
wars an" getten his face brunt."
"And he was short o" food," moaned Sylvia, "and we had plenty, and I tried to make yo"r sister turn him out, and send him away. Oh! will G.o.d iver forgive me?"
Muttering to herself, breaking her mutterings with sharp cries of pain, Sylvia, with Kester"s help, reached widow Dobson"s house. It was no longer a quiet, lonely dwelling. Several sailors stood about the door, awaiting, in silent anxiety, for the verdict of the doctor, who was even now examining Philip"s injuries. Two or three women stood talking eagerly, in low voices, in the doorway.
But when Sylvia drew near the men fell back; and the women moved aside as though to allow her to pa.s.s, all looking upon her with a certain amount of sympathy, but perhaps with rather more of antagonistic wonder as to how she was taking it--she who had been living in ease and comfort while her husband"s shelter was little better than a hovel, her husband"s daily life a struggle with starvation; for so much of the lodger at widow Dobson"s was popularly known; and any distrust of him as a stranger and a tramp was quite forgotten now.
Sylvia felt the hardness of their looks, the hardness of their silence; but it was as nothing to her. If such things could have touched her at this moment, she would not have stood still right in the midst of their averted hearts, and murmured something to Kester.
He could not hear the words uttered by that hoa.r.s.e choked voice, until he had stooped down and brought his ear to the level of her mouth.
"We"d better wait for t" doctors to come out," she said again. She stood by the door, shivering all over, almost facing the people in the road, but with her face turned a little to the right, so that they thought she was looking at the pathway on the cliff-side, a hundred yards or so distant, below which the hungry waves still lashed themselves into high ascending spray; while nearer to the cottage, where their force was broken by the bar at the entrance to the river, they came softly lapping up the shelving sh.o.r.e.
Sylvia saw nothing of all this, though it was straight before her eyes. She only saw a blurred mist; she heard no sound of waters, though it filled the ears of those around. Instead she heard low whispers p.r.o.nouncing Philip"s earthly doom.
For the doctors were both agreed; his internal injury was of a mortal kind, although, as the spine was severely injured above the seat of the fatal bruise, he had no pain in the lower half of his body.
They had spoken in so low a tone that John Foster, standing only a foot or so away, had not been able to hear their words. But Sylvia heard each syllable there where she stood outside, shivering all over in the sultry summer evening. She turned round to Kester.
"I mun go to him, Kester; thou"ll see that noane come in to us, when t" doctors come out."
She spoke in a soft, calm voice; and he, not knowing what she had heard, made some easy conditional promise. Then those opposite to the cottage door fell back, for they could see the grave doctors coming out, and John Foster, graver, sadder still, following them.
Without a word to them,--without a word even of inquiry--which many outside thought and spoke of as strange--white-faced, dry-eyed Sylvia slipped into the house out of their sight.
And the waves kept lapping on the shelving sh.o.r.e.
The room inside was dark, all except the little halo or circle of light made by a dip candle. Widow Dobson had her back to the bed--her bed--on to which Philip had been borne in the hurry of terror as to whether he was alive or whether he was dead. She was crying--crying quietly, but the tears down-falling fast, as, with her back to the lowly bed, she was gathering up the dripping clothes cut off from the poor maimed body by the doctors" orders. She only shook her head as she saw Sylvia, spirit-like, steal in--white, noiseless, and upborne from earth.
But noiseless as her step might be, he heard, he recognized, and with a sigh he turned his poor disfigured face to the wall, hiding it in the shadow.
He knew that she was by him; that she had knelt down by his bed; that she was kissing his hand, over which the languor of approaching death was stealing. But no one spoke.
At length he said, his face still averted, speaking with an effort.
"Little la.s.sie, forgive me now! I cannot live to see the morn!"
There was no answer, only a long miserable sigh, and he felt her soft cheek laid upon his hand, and the quiver that ran through her whole body.
"I did thee a cruel wrong," he said, at length. "I see it now. But I"m a dying man. I think that G.o.d will forgive me--and I"ve sinned against Him; try, la.s.sie--try, my Sylvie--will not thou forgive me?"
He listened intently for a moment. He heard through the open window the waves lapping on the shelving sh.o.r.e. But there came no word from her; only that same long shivering, miserable sigh broke from her lips at length.
"Child," said he, once more. "I ha" made thee my idol; and if I could live my life o"er again I would love my G.o.d more, and thee less; and then I shouldn"t ha" sinned this sin against thee. But speak one word of love to me--one little word, that I may know I have thy pardon."
"Oh, Philip! Philip!" she moaned, thus adjured.
Then she lifted her head, and said,
"Them were wicked, wicked words, as I said; and a wicked vow as I vowed; and Lord G.o.d Almighty has ta"en me at my word. I"m sorely punished, Philip, I am indeed."
He pressed her hand, he stroked her cheek. But he asked for yet another word.
"I did thee a wrong. In my lying heart I forgot to do to thee as I would have had thee to do to me. And I judged Kinraid in my heart."
"Thou thought as he was faithless and fickle," she answered quickly; "and so he were. He were married to another woman not so many weeks at after thou went away. Oh, Philip, Philip! and now I have thee back, and--"
"Dying" was the word she would have said, but first the dread of telling him what she believed he did not know, and next her pa.s.sionate sobs, choked her.
"I know," said he, once more stroking her cheek, and soothing her with gentle, caressing hand. "Little la.s.sie!" he said, after a while when she was quiet from very exhaustion, "I niver thought to be so happy again. G.o.d is very merciful."
She lifted up her head, and asked wildly, "Will He iver forgive me, think yo"? I drove yo" out fra" yo"r home, and sent yo" away to t"
wars, wheere yo" might ha" getten yo"r death; and when yo" come back, poor and lone, and weary, I told her for t" turn yo" out, for a" I knew yo" must be starving in these famine times. I think I shall go about among them as gnash their teeth for iver, while yo"
are wheere all tears are wiped away."
"No!" said Philip, turning round his face, forgetful of himself in his desire to comfort her. "G.o.d pities us as a father pities his poor wandering children; the nearer I come to death the clearer I see Him. But you and me have done wrong to each other; yet we can see now how we were led to it; we can pity and forgive one another.
I"m getting low and faint, la.s.sie; but thou must remember this: G.o.d knows more, and is more forgiving than either you to me, or me to you. I think and do believe as we shall meet together before His face; but then I shall ha" learnt to love thee second to Him; not first, as I have done here upon the earth."
Then he was silent--very still. Sylvia knew--widow Dobson had brought it in--that there was some kind of medicine, sent by the hopeless doctors, lying upon the table hard by, and she softly rose and poured it out and dropped it into the half-open mouth. Then she knelt down again, holding the hand feebly stretched out to her, and watching the faint light in the wistful loving eyes. And in the stillness she heard the ceaseless waves lapping against the shelving sh.o.r.e.
Something like an hour before this time, which was the deepest midnight of the summer"s night, Hester Rose had come hurrying up the road to where Kester and his sister sate outside the open door, keeping their watch under the star-lit sky, all others having gone away, one by one, even John and Jeremiah Foster having returned to their own house, where the little Bella lay, sleeping a sound and healthy slumber after her perilous adventure.
Hester had heard but little from William Darley as to the owner of the watch and the half-crown; but he was chagrined at the failure of all his skilful interrogations to elicit the truth, and promised her further information in a few days, with all the more vehemence because he was unaccustomed to be baffled. And Hester had again whispered to herself "Patience! Patience!" and had slowly returned back to her home to find that Sylvia had left it, why she did not at once discover. But, growing uneasy as the advancing hours neither brought Sylvia nor little Bella to their home, she had set out for Jeremiah Foster"s as soon as she had seen her mother comfortably asleep in her bed; and then she had learnt the whole story, bit by bit, as each person who spoke broke in upon the previous narration with some new particular. But from no one did she clearly learn whether Sylvia was with her husband, or not; and so she came speeding along the road, breathless, to where Kester sate in wakeful, mournful silence, his sister"s sleeping head lying on his shoulder, the cottage door open, both for air and that there might be help within call if needed; and the dim slanting oblong of the interior light lying across the road.
Hester came panting up, too agitated and breathless to ask how much was truth of the fatal, hopeless tale which she had heard. Kester looked at her without a word. Through this solemn momentary silence the lapping of the ceaseless waves was heard, as they came up close on the shelving sh.o.r.e.
"He? Philip?" said she. Kester shook his head sadly.
"And his wife--Sylvia?" said Hester.
"In there with him, alone," whispered Kester.
Hester turned away, and wrung her hands together.
"Oh, Lord G.o.d Almighty!" said she, "was I not even worthy to bring them together at last?" And she went away slowly and heavily back to the side of her sleeping mother. But "Thy will be done" was on her quivering lips before she lay down to her rest.
The soft gray dawn lightens the darkness of a midsummer night soon after two o"clock. Philip watched it come, knowing that it was his last sight of day,--as we reckon days on earth.
He had been often near death as a soldier; once or twice, as when he rushed into fire to save Kinraid, his chances of life had been as one to a hundred; but yet he had had a chance. But now there was the new feeling--the last new feeling which we shall any of us experience in this world--that death was not only close at hand, but inevitable.
He felt its numbness stealing up him--stealing up him. But the head was clear, the brain more than commonly active in producing vivid impressions.
It seemed but yesterday since he was a little boy at his mother"s knee, wishing with all the earnestness of his childish heart to be like Abraham, who was called the friend of G.o.d, or David, who was said to be the man after G.o.d"s own heart, or St John, who was called "the Beloved." As very present seemed the day on which he made resolutions of trying to be like them; it was in the spring, and some one had brought in cowslips; and the scent of those flowers was in his nostrils now, as he lay a-dying--his life ended, his battles fought, his time for "being good" over and gone--the opportunity, once given in all eternity, past.
All the temptations that had beset him rose clearly before him; the scenes themselves stood up in their solid materialism--he could have touched the places; the people, the thoughts, the arguments that Satan had urged in behalf of sin, were reproduced with the vividness of a present time. And he knew that the thoughts were illusions, the arguments false and hollow; for in that hour came the perfect vision of the perfect truth: he saw the "way to escape" which had come along with the temptation; now, the strong resolve of an ardent boyhood, with all a life before it to show the world "what a Christian might be"; and then the swift, terrible now, when his naked, guilty soul shrank into the shadow of G.o.d"s mercy-seat, out of the blaze of His anger against all those who act a lie.