Sylvia's Lovers

Chapter 45

"I thought yo" knowed that I cared a deal for him."

There was something so pleading and innocent in her pale, troubled face, so pathetic in her tone, that Philip"s anger, which had been excited against her, as well as against all the rest of the world, melted away into love; and once more he felt that have her for his own he must, at any cost. He sate down by her, and spoke to her in quite a different manner to that which he had used before, with a ready tact and art which some strange instinct or tempter "close at his ear" supplied.

"Yes, darling, I knew yo" cared for him. I"ll not say ill of him that is--dead--ay, dead and drowned--whativer Kester may say--before now; but if I chose I could tell tales."

"No! tell no tales; I"ll not hear them," said she, wrenching herself out of Philip"s clasping arm. "They may misca" him for iver, and I"ll not believe "em."

"I"ll niver miscall one who is dead," said Philip; each new unconscious sign of the strength of Sylvia"s love for her former lover only making him the more anxious to convince her that he was dead, only rendering him more keen at deceiving his own conscience by repeating to it the lie that long ere this Kinraid was in all probability dead--killed by either the chances of war or tempestuous sea; that, even if not, he was as good as dead to her; so that the word "dead" might be used in all honest certainty, as in one of its meanings Kinraid was dead for sure.



"Think yo" that if he were not dead he wouldn"t ha" written ere this to some one of his kin, if not to thee? Yet none of his folk Newca.s.sel-way but believe him dead."

"So Kester says," sighed Sylvia.

Philip took heart. He put his arm softly round her again, and murmured--

"My la.s.sie, try not to think on them as is gone, as is dead, but t"

think a bit more on him as loves yo" wi" heart, and soul, and might, and has done iver sin" he first set eyes on yo". Oh, Sylvie, my love for thee is just terrible."

At this moment Dolly Reid was seen at the back-door of the farmhouse, and catching sight of Sylvia, she called out--

"Sylvia, thy mother is axing for thee, and I cannot make her mind easy."

In a moment Sylvia had sprung up from her seat, and was running in to soothe and comfort her mother"s troubled fancies.

Philip sate on by the well-side, his face buried in his two hands.

Presently he lifted himself up, drank some water eagerly out of his hollowed palm, sighed, and shook himself, and followed his cousin into the house. Sometimes he came unexpectedly to the limits of his influence over her. In general she obeyed his expressed wishes with gentle indifference, as if she had no preferences of her own; once or twice he found that she was doing what he desired out of the spirit of obedience, which, as her mother"s daughter, she believed to be her duty towards her affianced husband. And this last motive for action depressed her lover more than anything. He wanted the old Sylvia back again; captious, capricious, wilful, haughty, merry, charming. Alas! that Sylvia was gone for ever.

But once especially his power, arising from whatever cause, was stopped entirely short--was utterly of no avail.

It was on the occasion of d.i.c.k Simpson"s mortal illness. Sylvia and her mother kept aloof from every one. They had never been intimate with any family but the Corneys, and even this friendship had considerably cooled since Molly"s marriage, and most especially since Kinraid"s supposed death, when Bessy Corney and Sylvia had been, as it were, rival mourners. But many people, both in Monkshaven and the country round about, held the Robson family in great respect, although Mrs. Robson herself was accounted "high" and "distant;" and poor little Sylvia, in her heyday of beautiful youth and high spirits, had been spoken of as "a bit flighty," and "a set-up la.s.sie." Still, when their great sorrow fell upon them, there were plenty of friends to sympathize deeply with them; and, as Daniel had suffered in a popular cause, there were even more who, scarcely knowing them personally, were ready to give them all the marks of respect and friendly feeling in their power. But neither Bell nor Sylvia were aware of this. The former had lost all perception of what was not immediately before her; the latter shrank from all encounters of any kind with a sore heart, and sensitive avoidance of everything that could make her a subject of remark. So the poor afflicted people at Haytersbank knew little of Monkshaven news. What little did come to their ears came through Dolly Reid, when she returned from selling the farm produce of the week; and often, indeed, even then she found Sylvia too much absorbed in other cares or thoughts to listen to her gossip. So no one had ever named that Simpson was supposed to be dying till Philip began on the subject one evening. Sylvia"s face suddenly flashed into glow and life.

"He"s dying, is he? t" earth is well rid on such a fellow!"

"Eh, Sylvie, that"s a hard speech o" thine!" said Philip; "it gives me but poor heart to ask a favour of thee!"

"If it"s aught about Simpson," replied she, and then she interrupted herself. "But say on; it were ill-mannered in me for t" interrupt yo"."

"Thou would be sorry to see him, I think, Sylvie. He cannot get over the way, t" folk met him, and pelted him when he came back fra"

York,--and he"s weak and faint, and beside himself at times; and he"ll lie a dreaming, and a-fancying they"re all at him again, hooting, and yelling, and pelting him."

"I"m glad on "t," said Sylvia; "it"s t" best news I"ve heered for many a day,--he, to turn again" feyther, who gave him money fo t"

get a lodging that night, when he"d no place to go to. It were his evidence as hung feyther; and he"s rightly punished for it now."

"For a" that,--and he"s done a vast o" wrong beside, he"s dying now, Sylvie!"

"Well! let him die--it"s t" best thing he could do!"

"But he"s lying i" such dree poverty,--and niver a friend to go near him,--niver a person to speak a kind word t" him."

"It seems as yo"ve been speaking wi" him, at any rate," said Sylvia, turning round on Philip.

"Ay. He sent for me by Nell Manning, th" old beggar-woman, who sometimes goes in and makes his bed for him, poor wretch,--he"s lying in t" ruins of th" cow-house of th" Mariners" Arms, Sylvie."

"Well!" said she, in the same hard, dry tone.

"And I went and fetched th" parish doctor, for I thought he"d ha"

died before my face,--he was so wan, and ashen-grey, so thin, too, his eyes seem pushed out of his bony face."

"That last time--feyther"s eyes were starting, wild-like, and as if he couldn"t meet ours, or bear the sight on our weeping."

It was a bad look-out for Philip"s purpose; but after a pause he went bravely on.

"He"s a poor dying creature, anyhow. T" doctor said so, and told him he hadn"t many hours, let alone days, to live."

"And he"d shrink fra" dying wi" a" his sins on his head?" said Sylvia, almost exultingly.

Philip shook his head. "He said this world had been too strong for him, and men too hard upon him; he could niver do any good here, and he thought he should, maybe, find folks i" t" next place more merciful."

"He"ll meet feyther theere," said Sylvia, still hard and bitter.

"He"s a poor ignorant creature, and doesn"t seem to know rightly who he"s like to meet; only he seems glad to get away fra" Monkshaven folks; he were really hurt, I am afeared, that night, Sylvie,--and he speaks as if he"d had hard times of it ever since he were a child,--and he talks as if he were really grieved for t" part t"

lawyers made him take at th" trial,--they made him speak, against his will, he says."

"Couldn"t he ha" bitten his tongue out?" asked Sylvia. "It"s fine talking o" sorrow when the thing is done!"

"Well, anyhow he"s sorry now; and he"s not long for to live. And, Sylvie, he bid me ask thee, if, for the sake of all that is dear to thee both here, and i" th" world to come, thou"d go wi" me, and just say to him that thou forgives him his part that day."

"He sent thee on that errand, did he? And thou could come and ask me? I"ve a mind to break it off for iver wi" thee, Philip." She kept gasping, as if she could not say any more. Philip watched and waited till her breath came, his own half choked.

"Thee and me was niver meant to go together. It"s not in me to forgive,--I sometimes think it"s not in me to forget. I wonder, Philip, if thy feyther had done a kind deed--and a right deed--and a merciful deed--and some one as he"d been good to, even i" t" midst of his just anger, had gone and let on about him to th" judge, as was trying to hang him,--and had getten him hanged,--hanged dead, so that his wife were a widow, and his child fatherless for ivermore,--I wonder if thy veins would run milk and water, so that thou could go and make friends, and speak soft wi" him as had caused thy feyther"s death?"

"It"s said in t" Bible, Sylvie, that we"re to forgive."

"Ay, there"s some things as I know I niver forgive; and there"s others as I can"t--and I won"t, either."

"But, Sylvie, yo" pray to be forgiven your trespa.s.ses, as you forgive them as trespa.s.s against you."

"Well, if I"m to be taken at my word, I"ll noane pray at all, that"s all. It"s well enough for them as has but little to forgive to use them words; and I don"t reckon it"s kind, or pretty behaved in yo", Philip, to bring up Scripture again" me. Thou may go about thy business."

"Thou"rt vexed with me, Sylvie; and I"m not meaning but that it would go hard with thee to forgive him; but I think it would be right and Christian-like i" thee, and that thou"d find thy comfort in thinking on it after. If thou"d only go, and see his wistful eyes--I think they"d plead wi" thee more than his words, or mine either."

"I tell thee my flesh and blood wasn"t made for forgiving and forgetting. Once for all, thou must take my word. When I love I love, and when I hate I hate; and him as has done hard to me, or to mine, I may keep fra" striking or murdering, but I"ll niver forgive.

I should be just a monster, fit to be shown at a fair, if I could forgive him as got feyther hanged."

Philip was silent, thinking what more he could urge.

"Yo"d better be off," said Sylvia, in a minute or two. "Yo" and me has got wrong, and it"ll take a night"s sleep to set us right. Yo"ve said all yo" can for him; and perhaps it"s not yo" as is to blame, but yo"r nature. But I"m put out wi" thee, and want thee out o" my sight for awhile."

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