Martine heard the rustle of a lady"s dress and retired precipitately.
CHAPTER X
"YOU CANNOT UNDERSTAND"
With an affectation of briskness he was far from feeling, Mr. Kemble came down the stairs and joined his daughter in the hall. He had taken pains to draw his hat well over his eyes, antic.i.p.ating and dreading her keen scrutiny, but, strange to say, his troubled demeanor pa.s.sed unnoticed. In the interval of waiting Helen"s thoughts had taken a new turn. "Well, papa," she began, as they pa.s.sed into the street, "I am curious to know about the sick man. You stayed an age, but all the same I"m glad I came with you. Forebodings, presentiments, and all that kind of thing seemed absurd the moment I saw Jackson"s keen, mousing little visage. His very voice is like a ray of garish light entering a dusky, haunted room. Things suggesting ghosts and hobgoblins become ridiculously prosaic, and you are ashamed of yourself and your fears."
"Yes, yes," replied Mr. Kemble, yielding to irritation in his deep perplexity, "the more matter-of-fact we are the better we"re off. I suppose the best thing to do is just to face what happens and try to be brave."
"Well, papa, what"s happened to annoy you to-night? Is this sick man going to make you trouble?"
"Like enough. I hope not. At any rate, he has claims which I must meet."
"Don"t you think you can meet them?" was her next anxious query, her mind reverting to some financial obligation.
"We"ll see. You and mother"ll have to help me out, I guess. I"ll tell you both when we get home;" and his sigh was so deep as to be almost a groan.
"Papa," said Helen, earnestly pressing his arm, "don"t worry. Mamma and I will stand by you; so will Hobart. He is the last one in the world to desert one in any kind of trouble."
"I know that, no one better; but I fear he"ll be in deeper trouble than any of us. The exasperating thing is that there should be any trouble at all. If it had only happened before--well, well, I can"t talk here in the street. As you say, you must stand by me, and I"ll do the best I can by you and all concerned."
"Oh, papa, there was good cause for my foreboding."
"Well, yes, and no. I don"t know. I"m at my wits" end. If you"ll be brave and sensible, you can probably do more than any of us."
"Papa, papa, something IS the matter with Hobart," and she drew him hastily into the house, which they had now reached.
Mrs. Kemble met them at the door. Alarmed at her husband"s troubled face, she exclaimed anxiously, "Who is this man? What did he want?"
"Come now, mother, give me a chance to get my breath. We"ll close the doors, sit down, and talk it all over."
Mrs. Kemble and her daughter exchanged an apprehensive glance and followed with the air of being prepared for the worst.
The banker sat down and wiped the perspiration from his brow, then looked dubiously at the deeply anxious faces turned toward him. "Well,"
he said, "I"m going to tell you everything as far as I understand it.
Now I want to see if you two can"t listen calmly and quietly and not give way to useless feeling. There"s much to be done, and you especially, Helen, must be in the right condition to do it."
"Oh, papa, why torture me so? Something HAS happened to Hobart. I can"t endure this suspense."
"Something has happened to us all," replied her father, gravely.
"Hobart has acted like a hero, like a saint; so must you. He is as well and able to go about as you are. I"ve seen him and talked with him."
"He saw you and not me?" cried the girl, starting up.
"Helen, I entreat, I command you to be composed and listen patiently.
Don"t you know him well enough to be sure he had good reasons--"
"I can"t imagine a reason," was the pa.s.sionate reply, as she paced the floor. "What reason could keep me from him? Merciful Heaven! father, have you forgotten that I was to marry him to-day? Well," she added hoa.r.s.ely, standing before him with hands clinched in her effort at self-restraint, "the reason?"
"Poor fellow! poor fellow! he has not forgotten it," groaned Mr.
Kemble. "Well, I might as well out with it. Suppose Captain Nichol was not killed after all?"
Helen sank into a chair as if struck down as Nichol had been himself.
"What!" she whispered; and her face was white indeed.
Mrs. Kemble rushed to her husband, demanding, "Do you mean to tell us that Captain Nichol is alive?"
"Yes; that"s just the question we"ve got to face."
"It brings up another question," replied his wife, sternly. "If he"s been alive all this time, why did he not let us know? As far as I can make out, Hobart has found him in Washington--"
"Helen," cried her father to the trembling girl, "for Heaven"s sake, be calm!"
"He"s alive, ALIVE!" she answered, as if no other thought could exist in her mind. Her eyes were kindling, the color coming into her face, and her bosom throbbed quickly as if her heart would burst its bonds.
Suddenly she rushed to her father, exclaiming, "He was the sick man.
Oh, why did you not let me see him?"
"Well, well!" e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.ed Mr. Kemble, "Hobart was right, poor fellow!
Yes, Helen, Captain Nichol is the sick man, not dangerously ill, however. You are giving ample reason why you should not see him yet; and I tell you plainly you can"t see him till you are just as composed as I am."
She burst into a joyous, half-hysterical laugh as she exclaimed, "That"s not asking much. I never saw you so moved, papa. Little wonder!
The dead is alive again! Oh, papa, papa, you don"t understand me at all! Could I hear such tidings composedly--I who have wept so many long nights and days over his death? I must give expression to overwhelming feeling here where it can do no harm, but if I had seen him--when I do see him--ah! he"ll receive no harm from me."
"But, Helen, think of Hobart," cried Mrs. Kemble, in sharp distress.
"Mother, mother, I cannot help it. Albert is alive, ALIVE! The old feeling comes back like the breaking up of the fountains of the great deep. You cannot know, cannot understand; Hobart will. I"m sorry, SORRY for him; but he will understand. I thought Albert was dead; I wanted to make Hobart happy. He was so good and kind and deserving that I did love him in a sincere, quiet way, but not with my first love, not as I loved Albert. I thought my love was buried with him; but it has burst the grave as he has. Papa, papa, let me go to him, now, NOW! You say he is sick; it is my place to nurse him back to life. Who has a better right? Why do you not bring him here?"
"Perhaps it will be best, since Helen feels so," said Mr. Kemble, looking at his wife.
"Well, I don"t know," she replied with a deep sigh. "We certainly don"t wish the public to be looking on any more than we can help. He should be either here or at his own home."
"There"s more reason for what you say than you think," Mr. Kemble began.
"There, papa," interrupted Helen, "I"d be more or less than human if I could take! this undreamed-of news quietly, I can see how perplexed and troubled you"ve been, and how you"ve kindly tried to prepare me for the tidings. You will find that I have strength of mind to meet all that is required of me. It is all simpler to me than to you, for in a matter of this kind the heart is the guide, indeed, the only guide. Think! If Albert had come back months ago; if Hobart had brought him back wounded and disabled--how would we have acted? Only our belief in his death led to what has happened since, and the fact of life changes everything back to--"
"Now, Helen, stop and listen to me," said her father, firmly. "In one sense the crisis is over, and you"ve heard the news which I scarcely knew how to break to you. You say you will have strength of mind to meet what is required of you. I trust you may. But it"s time you understood the situation as far as I do. Mother"s words show she"s off the track in her suspicion. Nichol is not to blame in any sense. He is deserving of all sympathy, and yet--oh, dear, it is such a complication!" and the old man groaned as he thought of the personality who best knew himself as Yankee Blank. "The fact is," he resumed to his breathless listeners, "Nichol is not ill at all physically. His mind is affected--"
Mrs. Kemble sank back in her chair, and Helen uttered a cry of dismay.
"Yes, his mind is affected peculiarly. He remembers nothing that happened before he was wounded. You must realize this, Helen; you must prepare yourself for it. His loss of memory is much more sad than if he had lost an arm or a leg. He remembers only what he has picked up since his injury."
"Then, then, he"s not insane?" gasped Helen.
"No, no, I should say not," replied her father, dubiously; "yet his words and manner produce much the same effect as if he were--even a stronger effect."