Taking On The Magical World

I have to say I did feel ashamed but having a new magical life over weights all the humiliation.

I stayed in my bed for quite the while and felt bored so then I tried to move myself, but my baby muscles and bone do not seem up to the task.

I sighed to myself, it seems like I am not going to get started on magic right away.

I think to myself, what can I do. Then I think about all those wuxia novels I read and the first thing you have to do on your cultivation journey is meditate.

I have to say I feel quite gleeful of my intellect and at that moment, reading all those books felt like it was not a waste of time.

I got comfortable in my blanket and closed my eyes, my goal is to first sense the magic in me and around me, then my second goal is to control the magic in me and around me, after that we will see what we can do after that.

I spent the next few weeks trying to clear my head and hoping I have a sudden epiphany and that I will be able to see the mana in me and in nature but clearing my mind for a few minutes is a real challenge!

So far, all I have to show for my efforts is that I have only been able to clear my mind for 40 minutes, then I would doze off to sleep, stupid baby body, that is the second challenge, I have to sleep for hours upon hours, so that means I cannot get much done.

Besides that, I had a pleasant surprise when Ms. Weasley can to congratulate my mother for a successful delivery. I totally forgotten we live near the Weasley family and I have to say I really did like Ms. Weasley, when I was reading the books, she was how I secretly imagined my mom would have been like if she was alive, when I read the books as a kid.

We also had a few warlocks and witches, who have questionable sanity, come by to add to my father"s newspaper.

A woman that looked like my mother but slightly older also came by and she and my mother had a heated argument at the door steps of our house, I really did wish that I could get out of my crib so that I can caught what they were saying but alas the woman left and this baby body does not want to work.

My mother came back into the house and hastily closed all the locks we had at our door, my father came to her and comforted her the best he could, then she came to me and picked me out of my crib and held me tight to her chest.

My mother looked as if she was looking far away into the distance, then she spoke me, but it felt like she was convincing herself "Do not worry, mother is not going to allow them to take me from you."

My mother then fed me, changed my diapers, put me back in my crib leaving me to think to myself.

Who was that woman, she looked so similar to my mother, was she mother"s sister? It seems there is a big mystery surrounding mother, in the books mother died to a spell backfiring, it looks like that there was more to it.

All in all, this is very worrying, and I do not want my new life to be ruined so I need to get stronger!

With new found conviction I throw myself into meditating and trying to sense the magic in me and around me.

Finally, after 3 months at it I can finally sense the magic in me and all around me!

I do not know how I did it, but I was carrying on meditating, wondering if this was all pointless but I decided to continue since I had nothing to do because I could not walk yet, and I had nothing much to do in my bed.

Then suddenly it was like I awakened an eye, a third eye, since I could see it.

Of course it not much, I can only see the magic 1 meter all around me but I finally came out with something.

It was really beautiful, that I cannot stop hanging my mouth wide open, staring wide eyes all around me and trying to absorb it all in.

I look deep into myself and I could see it, magic coursing in me.

I try to somehow grab it and I succeed but I let it go right away because I get hit with a sudden terrible headache.

Even with the terrible headache, I cannot help but feel gleeful, my stupid plan succeeded.

I try to calm down and review what is going on.

It seems like I awakened a third eye and I can see magic now, but that is nowhere in the books.

You know what f.u.c.k the books, I drink all that bulls.h.i.t when I was a kid but when I read it again as a teenager, I had some serious questions like how could some kids defeat the greatest dark wizard of all time and how does a muggle-blood like Hermione know more about magic than pure-bloods like Draco who is from a n.o.ble family, like what the h.e.l.l was he doing for 11 years, sitting around?

All I can trust in the books is the plot I know, but besides that I need to question everything else the books have to say about the wizarding world and magic.

Anyways what was that serious headache I got when I tried to grab the magic in my body?

I try the other approach and try to grab the magic in the environment but it seems not to listen to me so I grab it forcefully and then it just slips away, then I grab it forcefully again and this time I tried to put into my body but I let it go right away because it felt like I was becoming very bloated and would blow up in a mess of blood and flesh any second if I did not let it go, I do not want to die this early into my new life.

This time I try to grab the magic in my body again since I had some success with it.

I grab the magic in my body and continue to grab more since I do not feel like I would die, I grab more and more trying to collect all of my magic in my body in one location. Then the terrible headache comes back, and I force myself to continue to grab more magic in body until I pa.s.s out.