From that time onwards they frequently met in their friends" rooms.
Panna Stanislawa would sometimes bring a pound of sugar under her cloak, or a cold cutlet wrapped in paper, or a few rolls; Obarecki never brought anything, for he had nothing to bring; but instead he devoured the rolls and the "Darwinist" with his eyes.
One night, when escorting her home, he got as far as proposing to her.
She only broke into a hearty laugh and took leave of him with a friendly grasp of the hand. Shortly afterwards she had disappeared; he heard that she had gone as governess into some aristocratic family in Podolia.
And now he had found her again in this forsaken corner, in this forest village inhabited only by peasants, with not a single intelligent person near her. She had been living here all alone in this wilderness. And now she was dying.... All his former enthusiasm, and the unfulfilled dreams and desires of past days, suddenly sprang up within him and struck him like gusts of wind. A deadly pain seized his heart, and the poison of pa.s.sion took hold of his blood. He returned on tiptoe to the sick-room, rested his elbows on the bed, and feasted on the sight of the marvellous contours of her bare shoulders and the lines of her bosom and neck. The girl was asleep; the veins on her temples were swollen, the corners of her mouth were moist, she exhaled fever heat, and drew in the air with a loud whistling sound. Dr. Pawel sat down beside her on the edge of the bed, gently fondled the ends of her soft, bright hair, and stroked it along his face, sobbing while he kissed it.
"Stasia, Stachna! Dearest!" he whispered low. "You are not going to run away from me again, are you?... Never! ... you will be mine for ever ... do you hear?--for ever...."
The exuberance of youth awoke in him from its lethargy. Henceforth everything would be different; he felt a great strength in him for doing his work with his heart in it. Pain and hope were mingled as in a flame which consumed him and gave him no respite.
The night wore on. Though the hours went by slowly, more than six had pa.s.sed since the messenger left. It was four o"clock in the morning.
The doctor listened, starting up at every sound. He fancied each moment that someone was coming--opening the door--tapping at the window. He strained and strained with his whole organism to listen.
The wind howled, the door of the stove rattled; then again there was silence. The minutes pa.s.sed like ages; his nerves, overstrained by impatience, threw him into a state of trembling all over.
When he took her temperature for the sixth time, the sick girl slowly opened her eyes; they looked almost black under their shade of dark lashes. Straining to look at him, she said in a hoa.r.s.e voice:
"Who"s that?"
But she fell back at once into her former state of unconsciousness. He cherished this moment as if it were a treasure. Oh, if only he had some quinine to lessen the pain in her head and restore her to consciousness! But the messenger had not arrived, and did not arrive.
Before dawn Dr. Obarecki walked the length of the village through the deep snowdrifts, deluding himself with a last hope of seeing the boy.
An evil foreboding penetrated his heart like the point of a needle.
The wind still howled in the bare branches of the wayside poplars with a hollow sound, although the storm had abated. Women were coming out of the cottages to fetch water, their skirts tucked up above their knees. The farm lads were busy with the cattle; smoke was rising from the chimneys. Here and there a cloud of steam issued from a door which was opened for an instant.
The doctor found the Soltys" house, and ordered horses to be put in at once. Two pairs were harnessed, and a lad drove them up to the school.
The doctor took leave of the patient with eyes dilated with fatigue and despair, got into the sledge, and drove to Obrzydlwek.
He returned at two o"clock in the afternoon, bringing drugs, wine, and a store of provisions. He had stood up in the sledge almost all the way, longing to jump out and run faster than the horses, which were going at a gallop. He drove straight up to the school, but what he saw made him powerless to move from his seat.... A short, stifled cry burst from his lips, twisted with pain, when he saw that the windows were thrown wide open. A throng of children were crowded together in the pa.s.sage. White as a sheet he walked to the window and looked in, standing there with his elbows resting on the window-sill.
On a bench in the schoolroom lay the naked body of the young teacher; two old women were washing it. Tiny snowflakes flew in through the window and rested on the shoulders, damp hair, and half-open eyes of the dead girl.
Bent double, as though bearing a mountain-load on his shoulders, the doctor entered the little bedroom. He sat down and repeated dully: "It is so--it is so!" He felt as if huge rusty wheels were turning with a terrific rattle in his head.
Stasia"s bed was all in disorder; the window-frames rattled monotonously; the leaves of her plants were being caught by the frost, and drooped.
Through the half-open door the doctor saw some peasants kneeling round the body, which was now clothed; the children too had come in and were reading prayers from books; the carpenter was taking measurements for the coffin. He went in and gave orders in a husky voice for the coffin to be made of unplaned boards, and a heap of shavings to be placed under the head.
"Nothing else ... do you hear?" he said to the carpenter with suppressed rage. "Four boards ... nothing else...."
He remembered that someone ought to be informed--her family.... Where was her family? With an aimless activity he began to arrange her books, school-registers, notebooks and ma.n.u.scripts into a pile. Among the papers he came upon the beginning of a letter.
"DEAR HELENKA" (it ran)--"I have felt so ill for some days past that I am probably going into the presence of Minos and Rhadamanthus, Aeacus, Triptolemus, and many others of the kind. In case of my removing to another place, please ask the Mayor of my village to send you all my property, consisting of books. I have at last finished my little primer, _Physics for the People_, over which we have so often racked our brains. Unfortunately I have not made a fair copy.
If you have time--in case of my removal--arrange for the publication at once. Let Anton copy it out; he will do this for me.
"Oh, bother!... I just remember I owe our bookseller eleven roubles sixty-five kopeks; pay him with my winter coat, for I have no money.... Take for yourself in remembrance...."
The last words were illegible. There was no address; it was not possible to send off the letter. The doctor discovered the ma.n.u.script of the _Physics_ in the table drawer. It consisted of notes on slips of paper, mixed up with rubbish of all kinds. There was a little underlinen, a cloak lined with catskin, and an old black skirt, in the wardrobe.
While the doctor busied himself in this way, he suddenly noticed the boy who had been sent for the remedies in the schoolroom. He was huddled against a corner of the stove, treading from one foot to the other. Savage hatred sprang up in the doctor"s heart.
"Why did you not come back in time?" he cried, running up to the boy.
"I lost my way in the fields ... the horse gave out.... I arrived on foot in the morning ... the young lady was already----"
"You lie!"
The boy did not answer. The doctor looked into his eyes, and was overcome by a strange feeling. Those eyes were weary and terrible; a peasant"s stupid, mute, wild despair lurked in them as in an underground cavern.
"Here, sir, I have brought back the books the teacher lent me," he said, drawing some worn, soiled books from under his coat.
"Leave me alone! Be off!" the doctor cried, turning away and hurrying into the next room.
Here he stood among the rubbish, the books and papers thrown on the floor, and asked himself with a harsh laugh: "What am I doing here? I am no good; I have no right to be here!"
A feeling of profound reverence made him think the dead girl"s thoughts in deep humility. Had he remained an hour longer, he would have risen to the heights where madness dwells. Without wishing to confess it to himself, he knew that it was fear on his own account which was taking possession of him. Throughout all that was overwhelming him at this moment, he felt that, a great lack of balance was threatening to deprive him of the essence of human feeling--of egoism. To stifle egoism would mean his allowing himself to be enveloped by the same rosy mist which had transported this girl from the earth. He must escape at once. Having decided on this, he began to despair in beautiful phrases which immediately brought him considerable relief. He ordered the sledge to be brought round....
Bending over Stasia"s body, he whispered all the beautiful, empty things which people say in praise of greatness. He lingered once more in the doorway and looked back; for a second he wondered whether it would not be better to die at once. Then he pushed past the peasants crowding round the door, sprang into the sledge, tripped himself up, tumbled on his face, and was carried off, stifled by spasmodic sobs.
Stanislawa"s death exercised so much influence over Dr. Pawel"s disposition that for some time afterwards, in his leisure moments, he read Dante"s _Divine Comedy_; he gave up playing whist, and dismissed his housekeeper, aged twenty-four. But gradually he grew calm. He is now doing exceedingly well; he has grown stout, and has made a nice little sum. He has even revived some of his optimistic tendencies. For thanks to his energetic agitation, all the world in Obrzydlwek, with the exception of a few conservatives, is now smoking cigarettes rolled by themselves, instead of buying ready-made ones which are known to be injurious.
At last!...
FOOTNOTES:
[22] It is considered a special privilege to walk on either side of the priest and support his arms in the procession.
[23] Answers more or less to the old-fashioned term "beadle."
THE CHUKCHEE
BY WACLAW SIEROSZEWSKI
The country was shrouded in the bitter Arctic night. Cold mists swept along the ground below; a dark sky, spangled with stars, stretched above.
A man was standing on the steps of a little house with small windows and a flat roof; his head was bare, his hands were thrust deep into his pockets. He was gazing fixedly towards the south, where the first dawn was to break upon the long darkness. At times he fancied that he could already see it there, for something seemed to quiver in the infinite darkness; but then the changing mist merely swayed to and fro, and the stars trembled on the horizon. His weary eyes therefore turned towards the little town; his house stood on the outskirts of it. Lights were twinkling in the windows there, and the dogs in the various backyards were yelping and howling loudly in chorus. "Oh, how deadly this is!" he thought--"enough to drive anyone mad. And in a frost like this it"s certain no one will come."
He was just turning to go indoors, when he caught the sound of snow creaking under quick footsteps. He began to listen; the footsteps turned into the path leading up to his house.
"Is that you, Jzef?"