The villagers shook their heads. Gift was a brave woman, but there was such a thing as being too brave. Or brave, they said around the tavern table, in the wrong way, or the wrong place, d"you see. n.o.body should ought to meddle with sorcery that ain"t born to it. Nor with sorcerers. You forget that. They seem the same as other folk. But they ain"t like other folk. Seems there"s no harm in a curer. Heal the foot rot, clear a caked udder. That"s all fine. But cross one and there you are, fire and shadows and curses and falling down in fits. Uncanny. Always was uncanny, that one. Where"d he come from, anyhow? Answer me that.
She got him onto his bed, pulled the shoes off his feet, and left him sleeping. Berry came in late and drunker than usual, so that he fell and gashed his forehead on the andiron. Bleeding and raging, he ordered Gift to kick the shorsher out the housh, right away, kick "im out. Then he vomited into the ashes and fell asleep on the hearth. She hauled him onto his pallet, pulled his shoes off his feet, and left him sleeping. She went to look at the other one. He looked feverish, and she put her hand on his forehead. He opened his eyes, looking straight into hers without expression. "Emer," he said, and closed his eyes again.
She backed away from him, terrified.
In her bed, in the dark, she lay and thought: He knew the wizard who named me. Or I said my name. Maybe I said it out loud in my sleep. Or somebody told him. But n.o.body knows it. n.o.body ever knew my name but the wizard, and my mother. And they"re dead, they"re dead... I said it in my sleep...
But she knew better.
She stood with the little oil lamp in her hand, and the light of it shone red between her fingers and golden on her face. He said her name. She gave him sleep.
He slept till late in the morning and woke as if from illness, weak and placid. She was unable to be afraid of him. She found that he had no memory at all of what had happened in the village, of the other sorcerer, even of the six coppers she had found scattered on the bedcover, which he must have held clenched in his hand all along.
"No doubt that"s what Alder gave you," she said. "The flint!"
"I said I"d see to his beasts at... at the pasture between the rivers, was it?" he said, getting anxious, the hunted look coming back into him, and he got up from the settle.
"Sit down," she said. He sat down, but he sat fretting.
"How can you cure when you"re sick?" she said.
"How else?" he said.
But he quieted down again presently, stroking the grey cat.
Her brother came in. "Come on out," he said to her as soon as he saw the curer dozing on the settle. She stepped outside with him.
"Now I won"t have him here no more," Berry said, coming master of the house over her, with the great black gash in his forehead, and his eyes like oysters, and his hands juddering.
"Where"ll you go?" she said.
"It"s him has to go."
"It"s my house. Bren"s house. He stays. Go or stay, it"s up to you."
"It"s up to me too if he stays or goes, and he goes. You haven"t got all the sayso. All the people say he ought to go. He"s not canny."
"Oh, yes, since he"s cured half the herds and got paid six coppers for it, time for him to go, right enough! I"ll have him here as long as I choose, and that"s the end of it."
"They won"t buy our milk and cheese," Berry whined.
"Who says that?"
"Sans wife. All the women."
"Then I"ll carry the cheeses to Oraby," she said, "and sell em there. In the name of honor, brother, go wash out that cut, and change your shirt. You stink of the pothouse." And she went back into the house. "Oh, dear," she said, and burst into tears.
"What"s the matter, Emer?" said the curer, turning his thin face and strange eyes to her.
"Oh, it"s no good, I know it"s no good. Nothing"s any good with a drunkard," she said. She wiped her eyes with her ap.r.o.n. "Was that what broke you," she said, "the drink?"
"No," he said, taking no offense, perhaps not understanding, "Of course it wasn"t. I beg your pardon," she said.
"Maybe he drinks to try to be another man," he said. "To alter, to change..."
"He drinks because he drinks," she said. "With some, that"s all it is. I"ll be in the dairy, now. I"ll lock the house door. There"s... there"s been strangers about. You rest yourself. It"s bitter out." She wanted to be sure that he stayed indoors out of harm"s way, and that n.o.body came hara.s.sing him. Later on she would go into the village, have a word with some of the sensible people, and put a stop to this rubbishy talk, if she could.
When she did so, Alder"s wife Tawny and several other people agreed with her that a squabble between sorcerers over work was nothing new and nothing to take on about. But San and his wife and the tavern crew wouldn"t let it rest, it being the only thing of interest to talk about for the rest of the winter, except the cattle dying. "Besides," Tawny said, "my man"s never averse to paying copper where he thought he might have to pay ivory." "Are the cattle he touched keeping afoot, then?" "So far as we can see, they are. And no new sickenings." "He"s a true sorcerer, Tawny," Gift said, very earnest. "I know it." "That"s the trouble, love," said Tawny. "And you know it! This is no place for a man like that. Whoever he is, is none of our business, but why did he come here, is what you have to ask." "To cure the beasts," Gift said.
Sunbright had not been gone three days when a new stranger appeared in town: a man riding up the south road on a good horse and asking at the tavern for lodging. They sent him to Sans house, but San"s wife screeched when she heard there was a stranger at the door, crying that if San let another witch-man in the door her baby would be born dead twice over. Her screaming could be heard for several houses up and down the street, and a crowd, that is, ten or eleven people, gathered between Sans house and the tavern.
"Well, that won"t do," said the stranger pleasantly. "I can"t be bringing on a birth untimely. Is there maybe a room above the tavern?"
"Send him on out to the dairy," said one of Alder"s cowboys. "Gift"s taking whatever comes." There was some sn.i.g.g.e.ring and shushing.
"Back that way," said the taverner.
"Thanks," said the traveler, and led his horse along the way they pointed.
"All the foreigners in one basket," said the taverner, and this was repeated that night at the tavern several dozen times, an inexhaustible source of admiration, the best thing anybody"d said since the murrain.
Gift was in the dairy, having finished the evening milking. She was straining the milk and setting out the pans. "Mistress," said a voice at the door, and she thought it was the curer and said, "Just a minute while I finish this," and then turning saw a stranger and nearly dropped the pan. "Oh, you startled me!" she said. "What can I do for you, then?"
"I"m looking for a bed for the night."
"No, I"m sorry, there"s my lodger, and my brother, and me. Maybe San, in the village-"
"They sent me here. They said, "All the foreigners in one basket."" The stranger was in his thirties, with a blunt face and a pleasant look, dressed plain, though the cob that stood behind him was a good horse. "Put me up in the cow barn, mistress, it"ll do fine. It"s my horse needs a good bed; he"s tired. I"ll sleep in the barn and be off in the morning. Cows are a pleasure to sleep with on a cold night. I"ll be glad to pay you, mistress, if two coppers would suit, and my name"s Hawk."
"I"m Gift," she said, a bit fl.u.s.tered, but liking the fellow. "All right, then, Master Hawk. Put your horse up and see to him. There"s the pump, there"s plenty of hay. Come on in the house after. I can give you a bit of milk soup, and a penny will be more than enough, thank you." She didn"t feel like calling him sir, as she always did the curer. This one had nothing of that lordly way about him. She hadn"t seen a king when she first saw him, as with the other one.
When she finished in the dairy and went to the house, the new fellow, Hawk, was squatting on the hearth, skillfully making up the fire. The curer was in his room asleep. She looked in, and closed the door.
"He"s not too well," she said, speaking low. "He was curing the cattle away out east over the marsh, in the cold, for days on end, and wore himself out."
As she went about her work in the kitchen, Hawk lent her a hand now and then in the most natural way, so that she began to wonder if men from foreign parts were all so much handier about the house than the men of the Marsh. He was easy to talk with, and she told him about the curer, since there was nothing much to say about herself.
"They"ll use a sorcerer and then ill-mouth him for his usefulness," she said. "It"s not just."
"But he scared em, somehow, did he?"
"I guess he did. Another curer came up this way, a fellow that"s been by here before. Doesn"t amount to much that I can see. He did no good to my cow with the caked bag, two years ago. And his balm"s just pig fat, I"d swear. Well, so, he says to Otak, you"re taking my business. And maybe Otak says the same back. And they lose their tempers, and they did some black spells, maybe. I guess Otak did. But he did no harm to the man at all, but fell down in a swoon himself. And now he doesn"t remember any more about it, while the other man walked away unhurt. And they say every beast he touched is standing yet, and hale. Ten days he spent out there in the wind and the rain, touching the beasts and healing them. And you know what the cattleman gave him? Six pennies! Can you wonder he was a little rageous? But I don"t say..." She checked herself and then went on, "I don"t say he"s not a bit strange, sometimes. The way witches and sorcerers are, I guess. Maybe they have to be, dealing with such powers and evils as they do. But he is a true man, and kind."
"Mistress," said Hawk, "may I tell you a story?"
"Oh, are you a teller? Oh, why didn"t you say so to begin with! Is that what you are then? I wondered, it being winter and all, and you being on the roads. But with that horse, I thought you must be a merchant. Can you tell me a story? It would be the joy of my life, and the longer the better! But drink your soup first, and let me sit down to hear..."
"I"m not truly a teller, mistress," he said with his pleasant smile, "but I do have a story for you." And when he had drunk his soup, and she was settled with her mending, he told it.
"In the Inmost Sea, on the Isle of the Wise, on Roke Island, where all magery is taught, there are nine Masters," he began.
She closed her eyes in bliss and listened.
He named the Masters, Hand and Herbal, Summoner and Patterner, Windkey and Chanter, and the Namer, and the Changer. "The Changers and the Summoner"s are very perilous arts," he said. "Changing, or transformation, you maybe know of, mistress. Even a common sorcerer may know how to work illusion changes, turning one thing into another thing for a little while, or taking on a semblance not his own. Have you seen that?"
"Heard of it," she whispered.
"And sometimes witches and sorcerers will say that they"ve summoned the dead to speak through them. Maybe a child the parents are grieving for. In the witch"s hut, in the darkness, they hear it cry, or laugh..."
She nodded.
"Those are spells of illusion only, of seeming. But there are true changes, and true summonings. And these may be true temptations to the wizard! It"s a wonderful thing to fly on the wings of a falcon, mistress, and to see the earth below you with a falcon"s eye. And summoning, which is naming truly, is a great power. To know the true name is to have power, as you know, mistress. And the summoner"s art goes straight to that. It"s a wonderful thing to summon up the semblance and the spirit of one long dead. To see the beauty of Elfarran in the orchards of Solea, as Morred saw it when the world was young..."
His voice had become very soft, very dark.
"Well, to my story. Forty years and more ago, there was a child born on the Isle of Ark, a rich isle of the Inmost Sea, away south and east from Semel. This child was the son of an under-steward in the household of the Lord of Ark. Not a poor man"s son, but not a child of much account. And the parents died young. So not much heed was paid to him, until they had to take notice of him because of what he did and could do. He was an uncanny brat, as they say. He had powers. He could light a fire or douse it with a word. He could make pots and pans fly through the air. He could turn a mouse into a pigeon and set it flying round the great kitchens of the Lord of Ark. And if he was crossed, or frightened, then he did harm. He turned a kettle of boiling water over a cook who had mistreated him."
"Mercy," whispered Gift. She had not sewn a st.i.tch since he began.
"He was only a child, and the wizards of that household can"t have been wise men, for they used little wisdom or gentleness with him. Maybe they were afraid of him. They bound his hands and gagged his mouth to keep him from making spells. They locked him in a cellar room, a room of stone, until they thought him tamed. Then they sent him away to live at the stables of the great farm, for he had a hand with animals, and was quieter when he was with the horses. But he quarreled with a stable boy, and turned the poor lad into a lump of dung. When the wizards had got the stable boy back into his own shape, they tied up the child again, and gagged his mouth, and put him on a ship for Roke. They thought maybe the Masters there could tame him."
"Poor child," she murmured.
"Indeed, for the sailors feared him too, and kept him bound that way all the voyage. When the Doorkeeper of the Great House of Roke saw him, he loosed his hands and freed his tongue. And the first thing the boy did in the Great House, they say, he turned the Long Table of the dining hall upside down, and soured the beer, and a student who tried to stop him got turned into a pig for a bit... But the boy had met his match in the Masters.
"They didn"t punish him, but kept his wild powers bound with spells until they could make him listen and begin to learn. It took them a long time. There was a rivalrous spirit in him that made him look on any power he did not have, any thing he did not know, as a threat, a challenge, a thing to fight against until he could defeat it. There are many boys like that. I was one. But I was lucky. I learned my lesson young.
"Well, this boy did learn at last to tame his anger and control his power. And a very great power it was. Whatever art he studied came easy to him, too easy, so that he despised illusion, and weatherworking, and even healing, because they held no fear, no challenge to him. He saw no virtue in himself for his mastery of them. So, after the Archmage Nemmerle had given him his name, the boy set his will on the great and dangerous art of summoning. And he studied with the Master of that art for a long time.
"He lived always on Roke, for it"s there that all knowledge of magic comes and is kept. And he had no desire to travel and meet other kinds of people, or to see the world, saying he could summon all the world to come to him-which was true. Maybe that"s where the danger of that art lies.
"Now, what is forbidden to the summoner, or any wizard, is to call a living spirit. We can call to them, yes. We can send to them a voice or a presentment, a seeming, of ourself. But we do not summon them, in spirit or in flesh, to come to us. Only the dead may we summon. Only the shadows. You can see why this must be. To summon a living man is to have entire power over him, body and mind. No one, no matter how strong or wise or great, can rightly own and use another.
"But the spirit of rivalry worked in the boy as he grew to be a man. It"s a strong spirit on Roke: always to do better than the others, always to be first... The art becomes a contest, a game. The end becomes a means to an end less than itself... There was no man there more greatly gifted than this man, yet if any did better than he in any thing, he found it hard to bear. It frightened him, it galled him.
"There was no place for him among the Masters, since a new Master Summoner had been chosen, a strong man in his prime, not likely to retire or die. Among the scholars and other teachers he had a place of honor, but he wasn"t one of the Nine. He"d been pa.s.sed over. Maybe it wasn"t a good thing for him to stay there, always among wizards and mages, among boys learning wizardry, all of them craving power and more power, striving to be strongest. At any rate, as the years went on he became more and more aloof, pursuing his studies in his tower cell apart from others, teaching few students, speaking little. The Summoner would send gifted students to him, but many of the boys there scarcely knew of him. In this isolation he began to practice certain arts that are not well to practice and lead to no good thing.
"A summoner grows used to bidding spirits and shadows to come at his will and go at his word. Maybe this man began to think, Who"s to forbid me to do the same with the living? Why have I the power if I cannot use it? So he began to call the living to him, those at Roke whom he feared, thinking them rivals, those whose power he was jealous of. When they came to him he took their power from them for himself, leaving them silent. They couldn"t say what had happened to them, what had become of their power. They didn"t know.
"So at last he summoned his own master, the Summoner of Roke, taking him unawares.
"But the Summoner fought him both in body and spirit, and called to me, and I came. Together we fought against the will that would destroy us."
Night had come. Gift"s lamp had flickered out. Only the red glow of the fire shone on Hawk"s face. It was not the face she had thought it. It was worn, and hard, and scarred all down one side. The hawk"s face, she thought. She held still, listening.
"This is not a teller"s tale, mistress. This is not a story you will ever hear anyone else tell.
"I was new at the business of being Archmage then. And younger than the man we fought, and maybe not afraid enough of him. It was all the two of us could do to hold our own against him, there in the silence, in the cell in the tower. n.o.body else knew what was going on. We fought. A long time we fought. And then it was over. He broke. Like a stick breaking. He was broken. But he fled away. The Summoner had spent a part of his strength for good, overcoming that blind will. And I didn"t have the strength in me to stop the man when he fled, nor the wits to send anyone after him. And not a shred of power left in me to follow him with. So he got away from Roke. Clean gone.
"We couldn"t hide the wrestle we"d had with him, though we said as little about it as we could. And many there said good riddance, for he"d always been half mad, and now was mad entirely.
"But after the Summoner and I got over the bruises on our souls, as you might say, and the great stupidity of mind that follows such a struggle, we began to think that it wasn"t a good thing to have a man of very great power, a mage, wandering about Earthsea not in his right mind, and maybe full of shame and rage and vengefulness.
"We could find no trace of him. No doubt he changed himself to a bird or a fish when he left Roke, until he came to some other island. And a wizard can hide himself from all finding spells. We sent out inquiries, in the ways we have of doing so, but nothing and n.o.body replied. So we set off looking for him, the Summoner to the eastern isles and I to the west. For when I thought about this man, I had begun to see in my mind"s eye a great mountain, a broken cone, with a long, green land beneath it reaching to the south. I remembered my geography lessons when I was a boy at Roke, and the lay of the land on Semel, and the mountain whose name is Andanden. So I came to the High Marsh. I think I came the right way."
There was a silence. The fire whispered.
"Should I speak to him?" Gift asked in a steady voice.
"No need," said the man like a falcon. "I will." And he said, "Irioth."
She looked at the door of the bedroom. It opened and he stood there, thin and tired, his dark eyes full of sleep and bewilderment and pain.
"Ged," he said. He bowed his head. After a while he looked up and asked, "Will you take my name from me?"
"Why should I do that?"
"It means only hurt. Hate, pride, greed."
"I"ll take those names from you, Irioth, but not your own."
"I didn"t understand," Irioth said, "about the others. That they are other. We are all other. We must be. I was wrong."
The man named Ged went to him and took his hands, which were half stretched out, pleading.
"You went wrong. You"ve come back. But you"re tired, Irioth, and the way"s hard when you go alone. Come home with me."
Irioth"s head drooped as if in utter weariness. All tension and pa.s.sion had gone out of his body. But he looked up, not at Ged but at Gift, silent in the hearth corner.
"I have work here," he said.
Ged too looked at her.
"He does," she said. "He heals the cattle."
"They show me what I should do," Irioth said, "and who I am. They know my name. But they never say it."
After a while Ged gently drew the older man to him and held him in his arms. He said something quietly to him and let him go. Irioth drew a deep breath.
"I"m no good there, you see, Ged," he said. "I am, here. If they"ll let me do the work." He looked again at Gift, and Ged did also. She looked at them both.
"What say you, Emer?" asked the one like a falcon.
"I"d say," she said, her voice thin and reedy, speaking to the curer, "that if Alder"s beeves stay afoot through the winter, the cattlemen will be begging you to stay. Though they may not love you."
"n.o.body loves a sorcerer," said the Archmage. "Well, Irioth! Did I come all this way for you in the dead of winter, and must go back alone?"
"Tell them-tell them I was wrong," Irioth said. "Tell them I did wrong. Tell Thorion-" He halted, confused.