Lawson hooked his thumbs in his belt. "We"re goin" "ome."
The greatest tale of b.l.o.o.d.y Lawson and the Siren is the Ma.s.sacre at Windy Port. Legend has it that their ship, cloaked in dark magic, slipped by the watchmen unnoticed. Once docked the crew cut a gruesome swath through the town, led by Lawson and his Sea Witch. Lawson brandished a rapier in one hand, a pistol in the other. The Siren, dressed in fine burgundy velvet, marched through town before him, seducing men to their grisly deaths. Her eyes were as black and cold as a shark"s, her hair a ma.s.s of ebony fire waving about her. They left none living in their wake, took what they wanted and stole back into the night as invisibly as they had arrived.
Like most legends, not a word of it was true.
They sailed into Windy Port under a royal flag they had appropriated from a previous hunt. They docked without incident, the crew scattering to the winds to pick up intelligence, hefty bar tabs, and the occasional wh.o.r.e.
The moment Lawson set her down on the dock, she fell. The hollowness inside her throbbed. She could not believe anything could have been so still as land. There was no life in it. The air was not strong enough to keep it fluid. It was rock. Still, empty, dead rock. She was but a sh.e.l.l, a humble reconstruction of the world upon which man walked every single day. How did they survive without a connection? She hugged her stomach, doubled up and gagged, only emptiness escaping her dry heaves.
"You okay, honey? Take it easy. It"ll pa.s.s soon."
The words spoken to her had a cadence she had never heard before, and it surprised her so much she didn"t understand them at first. The hands that pulled her hair back away from her face were small and delicate. The woman had on a black dress. Her hair was pinned up on her head and decorated with shiny black beads. She smelled...soft and nice. And she was gentle when she accepted the Siren"s embrace.
"It"s all right," the woman said as she patted her back. "Everything"s going to be all right."
She didn"t scream when pointed teeth pierced her flesh.
Everything was going to be just fine.
Suddenly conscious of her appearance, she pulled her dress over her head and began tearing at the woman"s clothes. Lawson knelt beside her and motioned for his men to surround them so as not to draw attention to the scene. "Discovered vanity, "ave we?" he chuckled as he helped her undress the woman"s corpse. Once she had changed, the men weighted the body and rolled it into the ocean.
Lawson helped her stand. He tossed a dark cloak about her and covered her hair with its hood. She was glad he didn"t force her to wear shoes-it was hard enough enduring this much separation from the water. She didn"t know how much more she would be able to bear.
The inn they went to almost pushed her sanity over the edge from sensory overload. The room was filled with people of all shapes and sizes. There were smells from the food, the ale, the dogs in front of the fire, the fire itself. Men and women talked and shouted and joked and laughed. A scrawny youth crawled up beside the dogs at one point and sang for his supper. She was mesmerized. These were so different from the songs of the water, the flash of fish in the currents, the mating of whales in the deep. Some were slow and soft; some were fast and loud. And when the rest of the room joined in, she clapped her hands in merriment.
The crew dropped in one by one to report and consult with Lawson throughout the night. There were nods and low whispers. She watched as papers were signed and money changed hands. Thus b.l.o.o.d.y Lawson conquered Windy Port, without ever leaving his seat. When the festivities ended he paid for his meal, tipped heavily and left, dragging his cloaked companion behind him. It was the sailors and merchants that returned to their vessels the next morning and found them empty or missing who took their anger out on the citizens of the port. Lawson and his crew were miles away before the ma.s.sacre even began. b.l.o.o.d.y Lawson and the Siren were never heard from again.
Several months later, Edward Malcolm opened a waterfront inn in the capitol city named The Sea La.s.s. He purchased the house next door as well. It had a master suite and a nursery and a very large kitchen that could be used to supplement the inn"s in case of overflow. One of the rooms in the house had a door with seven locks. They were installed the day before Molly"s return from school.
Molly"s homecoming was a grand event. Lawson, now called Edward, had covered every flat surface in the house with sweets and cakes and flowers. He had hired a seamstress to take Molly"s measurements for a whole new wardrobe, the only one that didn"t seem overly preoccupied with the Prince"s upcoming wedding. Paper-wrapped packages of all sized littered the largest of the tables. A doll and a rose waited on the chair for his princess.
The Siren sat on a stool in the corner, cut off from the sun and the earth, the water and wind. She waned as she watched the miniature cherub-faced human run through the door to embrace her father. Her mop of dark brown curls disappeared in her father"s coat as she hugged him, right before he picked her up and twirled her around the room. There was something about this strange apparition, this child, and she could not decide what it was.
Molly giggled as she snuggled her doll. She reached out to the rose.
"Be careful," her father warned her.
"Yes, Papa," she said smartly. "I will watch for the p.r.i.c.klies and the thornies." She buried her nose in the crimson petals and took a deep breath. When she opened her eyes, Molly saw the Siren there in the shadows.
The child set her doll down carefully on the table. "Who is she, Papa?" Molly whispered.
"She"s..." he started, twisting the ruby ring on his finger. "I saved "er," he said finally.
"She"s so pretty," Molly said. The child came around the table and held the flower out to her. "She"s just like the flower."
"Yes," he said. "Just like the rose. She"s got p.r.i.c.klies and thornies too, Molly. You have to be careful around her."
Molly took another step forward, still offering the flower. The Siren took it and grinned, being careful not to show any teeth. Before her father could stop her, Molly launched herself into the Siren"s arms.
The child"s skin was softer than the woman"s at the pier. Her hair smelled of sugar and...something...indescribable. She took another deep breath. There was life within this little bundle, so much life she all but vibrated with it.
Edward wrenched her away. He took her by the arms and held her tightly. He sank down to his knees, so that he could address Molly eye to eye.
"Don"t ye ever go near "er again," he said sternly.
"But Papa, she"s so sad," Molly cried.
"She is dangerous," he admonished. "Just be a good girl and do as yer papa says."
Molly bowed her head. "Yes, Papa."
"We"ll even call "er Rose, okay? So ye don"t forget." Edward chucked her under the chin. "Now, what are ye gonna name yer dolly?"
Molly"s eyes brightened again and she rushed back to the table for her doll.
The Siren sunk her nose into the flower and inhaled sugar and sweetness while she watched the child open the rest of her gifts.
That night as he escorted her to her room, he said to her, "Ye touch my daughter, I"ll kill ye." Then he shut the door and turned seven keys in seven locks.
Each day after that was much the same. She was not allowed to leave the house, and the third time Edward caught her staring out the windows, he forbade her that too. Each night he would take her to her room and give her the same warning about his daughter before turning the seven keys of her prison.
She would sit on her bed and stare into the darkness, wondering what she had done wrong. Had she not given him the riches he desired? Had she not paved the way for him to return home to be with his daughter? She had made him happy-why should she suffer as a result?
She edged closer to the window and watched the moon move across the sky. Somewhere not far, the reflection of that same light was skipping across the waves. Somehow, she would escape from this prison. Someday, seven locks would not hold her.
Every few nights he would bring her someone, long after Molly was asleep. He would wake before the dawn and take the body away. She learned all she could from these poor souls, but it was never enough. They were wh.o.r.es or cheats or liars, people whose absence in some way benefited Edward and whose minds were such a jumble of unreliable information she could never discern anything that could help her.
She waited. She waited while he scolded her every night. She waited as he shoved each of the seven bolts home. She waited as he fed her, sparingly, enough to survive. She waited for him to get comfortable, to slip, to let something get by him.
Like the snitch.
Edward bent over and the unconscious man fell from over his shoulder and onto the bed before her. "Small, but "e"s all ye"ll get, understand?"
She opened her mouth, throat contracting. "Yeth," she managed to say.
"Good. "Cause if ye touch my daughter, I"ll kill ye." He shut the door. She counted slowly to seven before pulling the man into her lap and feasting.
Her heart pounded with a foreign pulse.
He was there.
Her lover.
He was everywhere inside this man"s head. He sat at the head of a table, talking sternly to a group of older men dressed in black. He sat in a large chair at the end of a hallway. He rode a horse down the path through the garden and along the beach. He rode in a carriage beside a beautiful, golden-haired maid and people threw flowers in the street before them.
He was the prince.
And he was getting married in a week.
Edward fell ill the next day. He did not come to let her out of her cell. The first two days of isolation weren"t bad. The third day, the snitch"s body began to smell. The fourth day, she tried to feed off it again and gagged. There had not been much in him to begin with, and whatever was left in him now was gelled and rancid. The fifth day, she began to shake. She pounded on the door and the walls and the window until the skin of her fists shed. The sixth day, she began to scream. It came out of her as a long, keening wail. It echoed her hunger, her desperation, her emptiness. Her voice gave out as the sun rose on the seventh day, his wedding day.
She spent the hours curled up against the door, hoping to hear something. Any sign of movement at all would have been welcome. She played with the ends of her faded hair, teasing them in and out between her toes. The shadows moved, lengthened, and eventually, the sun"s light died. Her hopes went right along with it. She placed her palm flat on the door beside her head.
It was warm.
She closed her eyes and could feel the energy radiating from the other side. She could hear small, shallow breaths. She could taste sugar on the air.
Molly.
She knocked two times on the door.
"Rose?" the tiny voice called hesitantly.
She knocked two times again.
"Daddy"s sick and he had to go away." Skirts rustled against the floorboards. "I"m lonely. Are you lonely?"
Two knocks.
"Do you want to play with my dolly?"
She spread her fingers against the door. "Yeth," she croaked.
The warmth faded, and there were sounds of a heavy chair being dragged across the floor. One, two, three, for, five, six, seven keys were all slowly turned in their locks. The chair was pushed aside, and the door opened.
Molly flew into her arms, the momentum pushing her back onto the bed in her weakened state. She cradled the frightened child in her arms, felt the porcelain head of her dolly poking into her side. She soaked up the child"s energy, willing it into her empty body. She bent her head and smelled the sweetness of her. She nuzzled her nose in the softness of her, like burrowing into the petals of a newly-opened flower.
She shouldn"t. She knew she shouldn"t, but he had caused her so much pain, and she had nothing left to lose.
Molly screamed and fought, but every bit of her gave the Siren the strength to hold her down, to fill the abyss inside her with this soul of pure innocence. It was so beautiful. The sensations did not wait until she was finished. They exploded into her mind every second. There was fear, yes, sweet fear, but then came sadness and betrayal. There was happiness and laugher, anger and tears, but most importantly, she finally realized the whys. She knew why a person felt joy and why they felt pain. She learned the elation of seeing something for the very first time, and the despair in losing it.
Loss. She knew now what she had been dealing out all this time. There was no way she could have ever known the impact of death without knowing what it was like to live a life. The weight of all the souls she had consumed pressed heavily upon her. She learned consequences. She realized that the things she did affected people other than the person she was killing. She understood that all the pain she had felt before was nothing to the pain these people would feel for the rest of their lives. She felt regret, and love.
Love.
It spread through her. Unconditional love tickled her down to the red tips of her fingers and toes. Love was trust. Love was faith. Love was believing in the impossible. The rainbow of Molly"s soul filled her with love until the last drop. She held Molly"s limp body in her arms...and she laughed.
She laughed and laughed, her voice echoing through the dark, vacant house. She laughed until she cried, tears flowing unchecked down her cheeks. She cried for Molly, for all of them. She cried for all the things she had done. She cried for herself, for everything she had lost, for nothing.
Or was it nothing?
She had to hurry. She had to leave this place and never come back. She gently laid Molly"s body out on the bed and curled her arm around her dolly. She smoothed back the dark curls and kissed her forehead. She covered herself in the black cloak and fled into the night.
She was glad again to be in the air and running over the earth, despite what little support they gave her. She followed her heart and the dim memories of the snitch up to the castle gates.
She strode up to the guards there and threw her hood back. Those that knew of her let her pa.s.s. Those that didn"t know of her learned.
The myriad halls and stairs and rooms made the castle a giant labyrinth, but she knew where she was going. Up and up and up...to the balcony suites of the Prince"s bedchamber. She did not stop until she was at the foot of his bed, staring down at his sleeping body. She wanted to shake him awake, wanted to explain everything to him, wanted to scream her love for him to the rafters.
But she couldn"t.
If he awoke now, he would know what she had become. He would see the evil inside of her, the mark of it in her hair and on her skin. She had saved his life, true, but how many others had she taken on her path back to him? With love came regret. She knew what she had to do. She knew that the only thing she had to offer him now was her absence. If she could just touch him one more time...she reached out a hand to him and stopped herself.
No.
It would not stop at a touch, she knew that from what had happened with Molly. She could never be with him, truly be with him, because eventually she would consume him. His soul was not bright enough for her to survive alone outside it, nor was it strong enough to sustain him once she had consumed it. If she stayed beside him, it would mean his death.
She was a monster.
She forced her hand back to herself and placed it over her heart. She hoped that it spoke enough in the silence for him to hear it, to feel how much she loved him. If it had been water and not air between them, she knew he would have felt it.
He stirred and opened his eyes.
She gave herself one moment, one tiny, blessed moment of looking into his eyes before she turned and ran.
She tripped down the stairs and cut her feet on the stones. The cloak caught on something and she unfastened it. She was sure that soon they would come for her. They would hunt her like the beast she was. She tasted the tears that streamed down her face and knew there was only one refuge.
The cold beach sand kissed her feet like a prayer. The salty spray mixed with her tears, chasing them away. The first tiny wave reached up and licked her toes. Waves rumbled in a cadence she had almost forgotten how to translate.
Come, they pulled.
Home, they crashed.
She took small steps forward. The sand slipped out from beneath her if she stayed too long. The force of the waves pushed her backwards in opposition to the call she felt.
Come, they pulled.
She stumbled, and the tide ripped her sideways along the beach. Gasping, she managed to regain her footing and continue walking out to sea. The current grabbed at her clothes, and she tore them off. The tips of her hair mingled with the foam. Flotsam swirled around her waist.
Home, they crashed.
She walked until the undertow took her and dragged her out to sea.
I lost her sometime before that, back when the moon shone off her white skin and blood red hair. But I didn"t have to live inside her anymore to know where she was headed.
She would grab the first sharp object she found maybe a crab"s claw or a clam"s sh.e.l.l and rip gills into herself so that the water could flow through her again. The first one might have been straight, but the rest would be ragged and flawed. She would make her way to the Deep, her body drawn to the neverending call of the soul of the world. She would make a home there among the bloodworms and the warm vents and the other predators.
She would take her love and regret with her. She would heal in the balm of the ocean, away from the complexities of mortal life. She would tell herself that if the day came, if the words were spoken and the magic came to her, she would turn them away. She would not let evil back into the world. The suffering would end with her. She would stew in the self-affliction until it became a dim memory, tucked away in the recesses of her mind like sight and sound, air and fire. Time would fade her lover"s face, his name into nothing, and then time itself would melt into darkness. She would ebb and flow and never die.
And when that day did come, ages and ages from now, she would choose the light. She would choose the escape. She would let the evil out one last time just to feel it all again, to live.
As I had.
Strong arms wrapped around me, brushing my satin bedclothes against the small jagged scars on either side of my chest. I leaned back against him, feeling his heartbeat through his chest.
"I just had the strangest dream," he said. I felt his deep voice rumble through the skin of my back. "You came to me while I lay in bed, only your hair was red and your skin was different. You stared at me like you wanted to say something, and then you ran. You looked so...sad."
He turned me around to face him. "The day you saved me was the happiest day of my life. And this day should be the happiest day of yours. Don"t be sad."