"Do you mean to say," inquired Captain Johns, in awe-struck whisper, "that you had a supernatural experience that night? You saw an apparition, then, on board my ship?"
Reluctance, shame, disgust, would have been visible on poor Bunter"s countenance if the great part of it had not been swathed up in cotton-wool and bandages. His ebony eyebrows, more sinister than ever amongst all that lot of white linen, came together in a frown as he made a mighty effort to say:
"Yes, I have seen."
The wretchedness in his eyes would have awakened the compa.s.sion of any other man than Captain Johns. But Captain Johns was all agog with triumphant excitement. He was just a little bit frightened, too. He looked at that unbelieving scoffer laid low, and did not even dimly guess at his profound, humiliating distress. He was not generally capable of taking much part in the anguish of his fellow-creatures. This time, moreover, he was excessively anxious to know what had happened.
Fixing his credulous eyes on the bandaged head, he asked, trembling slightly:
"And did it--did it knock you down?"
"Come! am I the sort of man to be knocked down by a ghost?" protested Bunter in a little stronger tone. "Don"t you remember what you said yourself the other night? Better men than me------Ha! you"ll have to look a long time before you find a better man for a mate of your ship."
Captain Johns pointed a solemn finger at Bunter"s bedplace.
"You"ve been terrified," he said. "That"s what"s the matter. You"ve been terrified. Why, even the man at the wheel was scared, though he couldn"t see anything. He _felt_ the supernatural. You are punished for your incredulity, Mr. Bunter. You were terrified."
"And suppose I was," said Bunter. "Do you know what I had seen? Can you conceive the sort of ghost that would haunt a man like me? Do you think it was a ladyish, afternoon call, another-cup-of-tea-please apparition that visits your Professor Cranks and that journalist chap you are always talking about? No; I can"t tell you what it was like. Every man has his own ghosts. You couldn"t conceive..."
Bunter stopped, out of breath; and Captain Johns remarked, with the glow of inward satisfaction reflected in his tone:
"I"ve always thought you were the sort of man that was ready for anything; from pitch-and-toss to wilful murder, as the saying goes.
Well, well! So you were terrified."
"I stepped back," said Bunter, curtly. "I don"t remember anything else."
"The man at the wheel told me you went backwards as if something had hit you."
"It was a sort of inward blow," explained Bunter. "Something too deep for you, Captain Johns, to understand. Your life and mine haven"t been the same. Aren"t you satisfied to see me converted?"
"And you can"t tell me any more?" asked Captain Johns, anxiously.
"No, I can"t. I wouldn"t. It would be no use if I did. That sort of experience must be gone through. Say I am being punished. Well, I take my punishment, but talk of it I won"t."
"Very well," said Captain Johns; "you won"t. But, mind, I can draw my own conclusions from that."
"Draw what you like; but be careful what you say, sir. You don"t terrify me. _You_ aren"t a ghost."
"One word. Has it any connection with what you said to me on that last night, when we had a talk together on spiritualism?"
Bunter looked weary and puzzled.
"What did I say?"
"You told me that I couldn"t know what a man like you was capable of."
"Yes, yes. Enough!"
"Very good. I am fixed, then," remarked Captain Johns. "All I say is that I am jolly glad not to be you, though I would have given almost anything for the privilege of personal communication with the world of spirits. Yes, sir, but not in that way."
Poor Bunter moaned pitifully.
"It has made me feel twenty years older."
Captain Johns retired quietly. He was delighted to observe this overbearing ruffian humbled to the dust by the moralizing agency of the spirits. The whole occurrence was a source of pride and gratification; and he began to feel a sort of regard for his chief mate.
It is true that in further interviews Bunter showed himself very mild and deferential. He seemed to cling to his captain for spiritual protection. He used to send for him, and say, "I feel so nervous," and Captain Johns would stay patiently for hours in the hot little cabin, and feel proud of the call.
For Mr. Bunter was ill, and could not leave his berth for a good many days. He became a convinced spiritualist, not enthusiastically--that could hardly have been expected from him--but in a grim, unshakable way.
He could not be called exactly friendly to the disembodied inhabitants of our globe, as Captain Johns was. But he was now a firm, if gloomy, recruit of spiritualism.
One afternoon, as the ship was already well to the north in the Gulf of Bengal, the steward knocked at the door of the captain"s cabin, and said, without opening it:
"The mate asks if you could spare him a moment, sir. He seems to be in a state in there."
Captain Johns jumped up from the couch at once.
"Yes. Tell him I am coming."
He thought: Could it be possible there had been another spiritual manifestation--in the daytime, too!
He revelled in the hope. It was not exactly that, however. Still, Bunter, whom he saw sitting collapsed in a chair--he had been up for several days, but not on deck as yet--poor Bunter had something startling enough to communicate. His hands covered his face. His legs were stretched straight out, dismally.
"What"s the news now?" croaked Captain Johns, not unkindly, because in truth it always pleased him to see Bunter--as he expressed it--tamed.
"News!" exclaimed the crushed sceptic through his iands. "Ay, news enough, Captain Johns. Who will be able to deny the awfulness, the genuineness? Another man would have dropped dead. You want to know what I had seen. All I can tell you is that since I"ve seen it my hair is turning white."
Bunter detached his hands from his face, and they hung on each side of his chair as if dead. He looked broken in the dusky cabin.
"You don"t say!" stammered out Captain Johns. "Turned white! Hold on a bit! I"ll light the lamp!"
When the lamp was lit, the startling phenomenon could be seen plainly enough. As if the dread, the horror, the anguish of the supernatural were being exhaled through the pores of his skin, a sort of silvery mist seemed to cling to the cheeks and the head of the mate. His short beard, his cropped hair, were growing, not black, but gray--almost white.
When Mr. Bunter, thin-faced and shaky, came on deck for duty, he was clean-shaven, and his head was white. The hands were awe-struck.
"Another man," they whispered to each other. It was generally and mysteriously agreed that the mate had "seen something," with the exception of the man at the wheel at the time, who maintained that the mate was "struck by something."
This distinction hardly amounted to a difference. On the other hand, everybody admitted that, after he picked up his strength a bit, he seemed even smarter in his movements than before.
One day in Calcutta, Captain Johns, pointing out to a visitor his white-headed chief mate standing by the main-hatch, was heard to say oracularly:
"That man"s in the prime of life."
Of course, while Bunter was away, I called regularly on Mrs. Bunter every Sat.u.r.day, just to see whether she had any use for my services. It was understood I would do that. She had just his half-pay to live on--it amounted to about a pound a week. She had taken one room in a quiet little square in the East End.
And this was affluence to what I had heard that the couple were reduced to for a time after Bunter had to give up the Western Ocean trade--he used to go as mate of all sorts of hard packets after he lost his ship and his luck together--it was affluence to that time when Bunter would start at seven o"clock in the morning with but a gla.s.s of hot water and a crust of dry bread. It won"t stand thinking about, especially for those who know Mrs. Bunter. I had seen something of them, too, at that time; and it just makes me shudder to remember what that born lady had to put up with. Enough!
Dear Mrs. Bunter used to worry a good deal after the _Sapphire_ left for Calcutta. She would say to me: "It must be so awful for poor Winston"--Winston is Bunter"s name--and I tried to comfort her the best I could. Afterwards, she got some small children to teach in a family, and was half the day with them, and the occupation was good for her.
In the very first letter she had from Calcutta, Bunter told her he had had a fall down the p.o.o.p-ladder, and cut his head, but no bones broken, thank G.o.d. That was all. Of course, she had other letters from him, but that vagabond Bunter never gave me a scratch of the pen the solid eleven months. I supposed, naturally, that everything was going on all right.