The patriotism of the newspapers took a considerable time to affect the charity of the citizens of Putney, and so long as no neighbour showed signs of thinking that little Gerhardt was a monster and a spy it was fairly easy for Mrs. Gerhardt to sleep at night, and to read her papers with the feeling that the remarks in them were not really intended for Gerhardt and herself. But she noticed that her man had given up reading them, and would push them away from his eyes if, in the tiny sitting-room with the heavily-flowered walls, they happened to rest beside him. He had perhaps a closer sense of impending Fate than she.
The boy, David, went to his first work, and the girls to their school, and so things dragged on through that first long war winter and spring.
Mrs. Gerhardt, in the intervals of doing everything, knitted socks for "our poor cold boys in the trenches," but Gerhardt no longer sought out little jobs to do in the houses of his neighbours. Mrs. Gerhardt thought that he "fancied" they would not like it. It was early in that spring that she took a deaf aunt to live with them, the wife of her mother"s brother, no blood-relation, but the poor woman had nowhere else to go; so David was put to sleep on the horsehair sofa in the sitting-room because she "couldn"t refuse the poor thing." And then, of an April afternoon, while she was washing the household sheets, her neighbour, Mrs. Clirehugh, a little spare woman all eyes, cheekbones, hair, and decision, came in breathless and burst out:
"Oh! Mrs. Gerhardt, "ave you "eard? They"ve sunk the _Loositania_! Has I said to Will: Isn"t it horful?"
Mrs. Gerhardt, with her round arms dripping soap-suds, answered: "What a dreadful thing! The poor drowning people! Dear! Oh dear!"
"Oh! Those Huns! I"d shoot the lot, I would!"
"They _are_ wicked!" Mrs. Gerhardt echoed: "That was a dreadful thing to do!"
But it was not till Gerhardt came in at five o"clock, white as a sheet, that she perceived how this dreadful catastrophe affected them.
"I have been called a German," were the first words he uttered; "Dollee, I have been called a German."
"Well, so you are, my dear," said Mrs. Gerhardt.
"You do not see," he answered, with a heat and agitation which surprised her. "I tell you this _Lusitania_ will finish our business. They will have me. They will take me away from you all. Already the papers have: "Intern all the Huns."" He sat down at the kitchen table and buried his face in hands still grimy from his leather work. Mrs. Gerhardt stood beside him, her eyes unnaturally big.
"But Max," she said, "what has it to do with you? You couldn"t help it.
Max!"
Gerhardt looked up, his white face, broad in the brow and tapering to a thin chin, seemed all distraught.
"What do they care for that? Is my name Max Gerhardt? What do they care if I hate the war? I am a German. That"s enough. You will see."
"Oh!" murmured Mrs. Gerhardt, "they won"t be so unjust."
Gerhardt reached up and caught her chin in his hand, and for a moment those two pairs of eyes gazed, straining, into each other. Then he said:
"I don"t want to be taken, Dollee. What shall I do away from you and the children? I don"t want to be taken, Dollee."
Mrs. Gerhardt, with a feeling of terror and a cheerful smile, answered:
"You mustn"t go fancyin" things, Max. I"ll make you a nice cup of tea.
Cheer up, old man! Look on the bright side!"
But Gerhardt lapsed into the silence which of late she had begun to dread.
That night some shop windows were broken, some German names effaced. The Gerhardts had no shop, no name painted up, and they escaped. In Press and Parliament the cry against "the Huns in our midst" rose with a fresh fury; but for the Gerhardts the face of Fate was withdrawn. Gerhardt went to his work as usual, and their laborious and quiet existence remained undisturbed; nor could Mrs. Gerhardt tell whether her man"s ever-deepening silence was due to his "fancying things" or to the demeanour of his neighbours and fellow workmen. One would have said that he, like the derelict aunt, was deaf, so difficult to converse with had he become. His length of sojourn in England and his value to his employers, for he had real skill, had saved him for the time being; but, behind the screen, Fate twitched her grinning chaps.
Not till the howl which followed some air raids in 1916 did they take off Gerhardt, with a variety of other elderly men, whose crime it was to have been born in Germany. They did it suddenly, and perhaps it was as well, for a prolonged sight of his silent misery must have upset his family till they would have been unable to look on that bright side of things which Mrs. Gerhardt had, as it were, always up her sleeve. When, in charge of a big and sympathetic constable, he was gone, taking all she could hurriedly get together for him, she hastened to the police station. They were friendly to her there: She must cheer up, Missis, "e"d be all right, she needn"t worry. Ah! she could go down to the "Ome Office, if she liked, and see what could be done. But they "eld out no "ope! Mrs. Gerhardt waited till the morrow, having the little Violet in bed with her, and crying quietly into her pillow; then, putting on her Sunday best she went down to a building in Whitehall, larger than any she had ever entered. Two hours she waited, sitting un.o.btrusive, with big anxious eyes, and a line between her brows. At intervals of half an hour she would get up and ask the messenger cheerfully: "I "ope they haven"t forgotten me, sir. Perhaps you"d see to it." And because she was cheerful the messenger took her under his protection, and answered: "All right, Missis. They"re very busy, but _I"ll_ w.a.n.gle you in some"ow."
When at length she was w.a.n.gled into the presence of a grave gentleman in eye-gla.s.ses, realisation of the utter importance of this moment overcame her so that she could not speak. "Oh! dear"--she thought, while her heart fluttered like a bird--"he"ll never understand; I"ll never be able to make him." She saw her husband buried under the leaves of despair; she saw her children getting too little food, the deaf aunt, now bedridden, neglected in the new pressure of work that must fall on the only breadwinner left. And, choking a little, she said:
"I"m sure I"m very sorry to take up your time, sir; but my "usband"s been taken to the Palace; and we"ve been married over twenty years, and he"s been in England twenty-five; and he"s a very good man and a good workman; and I thought perhaps they didn"t understand that; and we"ve got three children and a relation that"s bedridden. And of course, we understand that the Germans have been very wicked; Gerhardt always said that himself. And it isn"t as if he was a spy; so I thought if you could do something for us, sir, I being English myself."
The gentleman, looking past her at the wall, answered wearily:
"Gerhardt--I"ll look into it. We have to do very hard things, Mrs.
Gerhardt."
Little Mrs. Gerhardt, with big eyes almost starting out of her head, for she was no fool, and perceived that this was the end, said eagerly:
"Of course I know that there"s a big outcry, and the papers are askin"
for it; but the people in our street don"t mind "im, sir. He"s always done little things for them; so I thought perhaps you might make an exception in his case."
She noticed that the gentleman"s lips tightened at the word outcry, and that he was looking at her now.
"His case was before the Committee no doubt; but I"ll inquire.
Good-morning."
Mrs. Gerhardt, accustomed to not being troublesome, rose; a tear rolled down her cheek and was arrested by her smile.
"Thank you, sir, I"m sure. Good-morning, sir."
And she went out. Meeting the messenger in the corridor, and hearing his: "Well, Missis?" she answered: "I don"t know. I must look on the bright side. Good-bye, and thank you for your trouble." And she turned away feeling as if she had been beaten all over.
The bright side on which she looked did not include the return to her of little Gerhardt, who was duly detained for the safety of the country.
Obedient to economy, and with a dim sense that her favourite papers were in some way responsible for this, she ceased to take them in, and took in sewing instead. It had become necessary to do so, for the allowance she received from the government was about a quarter of Gerhardt"s weekly earnings. In spite of its inadequacy it was something, and she felt she must be grateful. But, curiously enough, she could not forget that she was English, and it seemed strange to her that, in addition to the grief caused by separation from her husband from whom she had never been parted not even for a night, she should now be compelled to work twice as hard and eat half as much because that husband had paid her country the compliment of preferring it to his own. But, after all, many other people had much worse trouble to grieve over, so she looked on the bright side of all this, especially on those days once a week when alone, or accompanied by the little Violet, she visited that Palace where she had read in her favourite journals to her great comfort that her husband was treated like a prince. Since he had no money he was in what they called "the battalion," and their meetings were held in the bazaar, where things which "the princes" made were exposed for sale.
Here Mr. and Mrs. Gerhardt would stand in front of some doll, some blotting-book, calendar, or walking-stick, which had been fashioned by one of "the princes." There they would hold each others" hands and try to imagine themselves unsurrounded by other men and wives, while the little Violet would stray and return to embrace her father"s leg spasmodically. Standing there, Mrs. Gerhardt would look on the bright side, and explain to Gerhardt how well everything was going, and he mustn"t fret about them, and how kind the police were, and how auntie asked after him, and Minnie would get a prize; and how he oughtn"t to mope, but eat his food, and look on the bright side. And Gerhardt would smile the smile which went into her heart just like a sword, and say:
"All right, Dollee. I"m getting on fine." Then, when the whistle blew and he had kissed little Violet, they would be quite silent, looking at each other. And she would say in a voice so matter-of-fact that it could have deceived no one:
"Well, I must go now. Good-bye, old man!"
And he would say:
"Good-bye, Dollee. Kiss me."
They would kiss, and holding little Violet"s hand very hard she would hurry away in the crowd, taking care not to look back for fear she might suddenly lose sight of the bright side. But as the months went on, became a year, eighteen months, two years, and still she went weekly to see her "prince" in his Palace, that visit became for her the hardest experience of all her hard week"s doings. For she was a realist, as well as a heroine, and she could see the lines of despair not only in her man"s heart but in his face. For a long time he had not said: "I"m getting on fine, Dollee." His face had a beaten look, his figure had wasted, he complained of his head.
"It"s so noisy," he would say constantly; "oh! it"s so noisy--never a quiet moment--never alone--never--never--never--never. And not enough to eat; it"s all reduced now, Dollee."
She learned to smuggle food into his hands, but it was very little, for they had not enough at home either, with the price of living ever going up and her depleted income ever stationary. They had--her "man" told her--made a fuss in the papers about their being fed like turkeyc.o.c.ks, while the "Huns" were sinking the ships. Gerhardt, always a spare little man, had lost eighteen pounds. She, naturally well covered, was getting thin herself, but that she did not notice, too busy all day long, and too occupied in thinking of her "man." To watch him week by week, more hopeless, as the months dragged on, was an acute torture, to disguise which was torture even more acute. She had long seen that there _was_ no bright side, but if she admitted that she knew she would go down; so she did not. And she carefully kept from Gerhardt such matters as David"s overgrowing his strength, because she could not feed him properly; the completely bedridden nature of auntie; and worse than these, the growing coldness and unkindness of her neighbours. Perhaps they did not mean to be unkind, perhaps they did, for it was not in their nature to withstand the pressure of ma.s.s sentiment, the continual personal discomfort of having to stand in queues, the fear of air raids, the c.u.mulative indignation caused by stories of atrocities true and untrue.
In spite of her record of kindliness towards them she became tarred with the brush at last, for her nerves had given way once or twice, and she had said it was a shame to keep her man like that, gettin" iller and iller, who had never done a thing. Even her reasonableness--and she was very reasonable--succ.u.mbed to the strain of that weekly sight of him, till she could no longer allow for the difficulties which Mrs. Clirehugh a.s.sured her the Government had to deal with. Then one day she used the words "fair play," and at once it became current that she had "German sympathies." From that time on she was somewhat doomed. Those who had received kindnesses from her were foremost in showing her coldness, being wounded in their self-esteem. To have received little benefits, such as being nursed when they were sick, from one who had "German sympathies" was too much for the pride which is in every human being, however humble an inhabitant of Putney. Mrs. Gerhardt"s c.o.c.kney spirit could support this for herself, but she could not bear it for her children. David came home with a black eye, and would not say why he had got it. Minnie missed her prize at school, though she had clearly won it. That was just after the last German offensive began; but Mrs.
Gerhardt refused to see that this was any reason. Little Violet twice put the heart-rending question to her: "Aren"t I English, Mummy?"
She was answered: "Yes, my dear, of course."
But the child obviously remained unconvinced in her troubled mind.
And then they took David for the British army. It was that which so upset the applecart in Mrs. Gerhardt that she broke out to her last friend, Mrs. Clirehugh:
"I do think it"s hard, Eliza. They take his father and keep him there for a dangerous Hun year after year like that; and then they take his boy for the army to fight against him. And how I"m to get on without him I don"t know."
Little Mrs. Clirehugh, who was Scotch, with a Gloucestershire accent, replied:
"Well, we"ve got to beat them. They"re such a wicked lot. I daresay it"s "ard on you, but we"ve got to beat them."