I have to get my head on straight because we have a huge concert tomorrow night. The last thing I want to do is f.u.c.k up a performance in my hometown.
Just For You.
Brittan.
To say the last three days have been stressful would be putting it lightly. Thankfully the concert Friday night went on without a hitch. The crowd was awesome. Jordon and the guys" opening performance was the best they"ve had since we"ve hit the road. I"m not sure if it was the contagious energy or what, but it was fascinating to watch.
Chicago is definitely proud of Tempting Tomorrow and made it known. As soon as they started playing Goodbye Chicago the crowd went nuts and sang along with them. They ended their performance with that song, and it was a great way to boost the energy of the arena before we went out on stage.
Keeping his word, Jordon had the guys do the cover of Lite "Em Up, instantly making my girly parts light on fire. We had some of the most explosive s.e.x that night. I don"t know if it was all the pent up frustration with everything going on but, after partying backstage, Jordon tossed me over his shoulder, and carried me into my dressing room where he rocked me with a few mind blowing o.r.g.a.s.ms.
Since today is Easter, our management has put us in a hotel for a few nights while we are in Cincinnati. We have a concert Tuesday, so we"ll be spending today and tomorrow just chilling and getting our sound checks all set for our next show.
I don"t think Jordon or I slept at all last night. We"ve been checking the paternity website since late last night. They said the results would be available between two to three days. Last night there was nothing, so anytime today we should have them.
Grabbing two coffee mugs out of the cupboard, I get to work making Jordon and me coffee. He"s lying in the living room of our suite watching Hop and snacking on the chocolate bunny I got him yesterday from the store next door to the hotel. I surprised him with it this morning. He"s a sucker for chocolate, and I thought it would perk up his mood.
He had the same thing in mind because as soon as I gave him his bunny he dug in his suitcase pulling out a big plastic Easter egg full of M&M"s. He was so sweet hand feeding me M&M"s while we laid in bed this morning.
Only thing that will make this morning better is seeing the website say the results are in, and he is not the father of Kinsley"s baby.
With coffee mugs in tow, I make my way into the living room. Jordon makes the world around me stop whenever I first walk into a room and see him. He always looks amazing, and it"s effortless, which makes him the s.e.xiest man on the planet. Right now, he is lying on the couch in nothing but briefs. His morning hair tussled on top of his head is making me practically salivate while looking at him.
I love this man so much. It"s exhilarating letting myself go and feel every wonderful, crazy, and spectacular moment with him. Even in the hard times, I feel that unbreakable connection to him as we band together and fight side by side as one.
Not all couples could get through what we"ve gone through this week, but our love is worth fighting for. I know how fragile life is, so I refuse to waste my time being mad or fighting over something that isn"t worth my time.
Once these results are in, we can go back to being carefree and exploring each state we visit. Paparazzi or not, I don"t care. Let them follow us. I"m done hiding from them. I"ll proudly let the world see I"m happy and as in love with Jordon Valentine, as he is with me.
Setting our mugs on the coffee table, I climb onto the couch beside him, and tuck my legs into his t-shirt I"m wearing. He has his laptop open beside our mugs on the table and its driving me nuts. I want them to hurry up and just let us know yes or no.
Snuggling up beside him, I press a kiss to his bare chest and slowly drag my nails up and down his taut, muscular body, trailing my hands along his delicious deep V. He shivers beneath my touch, and I can"t help but notice the goose b.u.mps that p.r.i.c.kle his skin.
"Does that tickle?" I ask in a sing-song voice as I prop my chin on his solid pec. I gaze up into his gorgeous blue irises that take my breath away and make my heart flutter frantically with just the slightest glance.
Shifting his body, he hooks his hands under my arms pulling me up and onto him. Hugging me tightly against him, he sucks my bottom lip into his mouth causing a moan to escape my lips.
"Mmm, you taste like chocolate." Jordon murmurs against my lips as he slips his tongue into my mouth. I can feel his erection pressing against my stomach. It"s causing my body to ignite with desire and a craving to have him deep inside, filling every inch of me.
I allow myself to get lost in the intoxicating concoction of his mouth on mine; his fingers kneading my a.s.s and sliding their way under my panties. I feel his rough, callused fingers slide between my slick folds and immediately grow wetter as he slides two fingers inside of me.
Oh, holy h.e.l.l, his fingers make me lose my G.o.d d.a.m.n mind.
My hands travel up his body working their way to his hair. Fisting his tussled locks, I pull on them gently as I deepen our kiss. The feeling of his warm, soft tongue twisting together with mine sends a shock wave of ecstasy straight down my spine. Ecstasy, that"s exploding inside my core as a delicious tingles, resonates deep inside me as his fingers caress my inner walls.
Although my lips ache to stay on his, I break away from his kiss and get to work removing his boxers. Jordon"s eyes are dark and full of want, making me shiver with the antic.i.p.ation of the o.r.g.a.s.ms he"s about to gift me with.
Stripping off my shirt, I toss it on the floor beside his boxers. I practically c.u.m when Jordon tears my small sc.r.a.p of lace panties off my body. Lifting me, I wrap my legs around his body as he carries me into the bedroom with quick strides "I stopped by the shop yesterday while I was out getting your chocolate bunny." I tell him breathlessly as he sets me down. I quickly dig inside my oversized purse, pulling out my bag of new goodies.
"Oh, and what did you get?" He asks as he traces my curves with the tips of his fingers, driving my body absolutely crazy.
Pulling the contents out of the bag, I show him a new vibrating b.u.t.t plug and new lubricant that is supposed to intensify o.r.g.a.s.ms.
"I figured it was time to add some new items to our little collection." I tell him matter-of-factly while taking his hand and leading him to the bed. "I thought we can have some fun while we try to pa.s.s the time."
Pressing his arms on both sides of my body, pinning me between him and the bed, he trails kisses across my b.r.e.a.s.t.s stopping at my nipple ring. He teases it with his tongue making me even wetter.
Leaving my breast, he sits up and heads into our en-suite, opening the new toy and quickly washing it. When he returns, I"m sprawled out and ready for him with a trail of M&M"s leading from the valley of my b.r.e.a.s.t.s to my slick folds.
"Happy-f.u.c.king-Easter to me." He curses while letting out a loud growl and crawling onto the bed between my thighs.
Leaning over my body, he begins sucking up each candy one by one. After eating the last candy, he slides his tongue between my wet folds and dips it inside my aching p.u.s.s.y that is urgently waiting to be filled by him; it"s almost unbearable.
"Mmm..." he moans against me as he pulls away licking his lips ever so slowly. "The chocolate is good, but this p.u.s.s.y tastes even better."
I can"t help but blush. He makes me turn ten shades of red on a daily basis because he is so forward. He"s so dirty, and it just turns me on even more.
"Be a naughty lil" Easter bunny and flip over putting that s.e.xy little bunny tail of yours up in the air. I need to get to work f.u.c.king you like a jack rabbit, baby. I"m going to show you just how much I love Easter and all the treats you have given me this morning."
Stifling a laugh, I flip onto my knees and arch my back while spreading my legs wide for Jordon.
I feel the plug covered with cool lubricant press against my a.s.s and the tingling sensation of the vibration comes to life. Jordon gently begins sliding it in and out of my a.s.s spreading the lube around inside.
I clamp down on my lip and fist the blankets beneath me as he inserts it completely. He then slides the head of his d.i.c.k, now moist with pre-c.u.m, over my c.l.i.t; teasing me and working its way to slowly enter me.
"G.o.d, I love you." Jordon says roughly as his hands ma.s.sage my a.s.s. He leans down trailing a path of kisses, sucking and sliding his tongue along the b.u.mps of my spine making me clench around his c.o.c.k, causing my body hum with need.
"I love you." I say barely audible because my face is pressed into the mattress.
Sitting back up, Jordon cups my a.s.s in each hand and begins pounding aggressively into me. The combination of the vibrator in my a.s.s and his c.o.c.k pumping into me at the perfect angle makes my head spin.
"f.u.c.k, that vibrating feels f.u.c.king amazing on my d.i.c.k." Jordon curses as he squeezes my a.s.s tighter.
"Glad...you...think...so." I laugh between moans. "Ohhh. G.o.d!" I scream as Jordon slides his hand around to my front to find my c.l.i.t. Holding himself with his left hand beside my head, he begins pleasuring me with his right hand, to the point I think I"m going to lose consciousness.
Turning my head, I press a kiss to his wrist, before pressing my forehead back into the bed.
His b.a.l.l.s stimulating my c.l.i.t, is one thing. Those magic f.u.c.king fingers playing my c.l.i.t...I can"t begin to describe with words what they do to my body. Having Jordon pleasuring me with his fingers, while the vibrator ma.s.sages every nerve ending inside my a.s.s is almost enough to push me over the edge. Combine that with the sensational pleasure of his long thick c.o.c.k ramming into me hard and fast as it slams into my g-spot over and over is the perfect combination to make me lose my f.u.c.king mind.
"f.u.c.k...Jordon...it feels too good..." my words trail off as my moans of pleasure consume me.
"That"s it baby, let yourself go. Feel the music, Brittan." He tells me between grunts.
I"m only able to last a few more seconds before I explode with an intense, mind-shattering o.r.g.a.s.m making my body vibrate and tingle from my head straight to the tips of my toes as it goes completely numb.
"Jordon...ohhh...myyy...G.o.d!" I cry out as he prolongs my o.r.g.a.s.m and drives my body to the brink of unconsciousness. I feel as if I"m floating on a cloud and my body has drifted off to another world as I ride the biggest high that only Jordon can give me.
My lungs are burning and screaming at me to breathe. I don"t realize I"m holding my breath as I frantically meet Jordon thrust for thrust until I find myself gasping for air.
"Mmmm....uuhhhh...f.u.c.kkkk!" Jordon yells and moans the most erotic and arousing sounds making me come harder. He shudders against me, and I feel his warm c.u.m filling me as my walls contract around him and another o.r.g.a.s.m tears through my body.
I"ve squeezed my eyes closed so tightly I"m seeing stars behind my eyelids. My throat is hoa.r.s.e from the cries of ecstasy...but it"s so worth it. I could care less if our neighbors on the other side of the wall just heard us because that was the best f.u.c.k of my entire life.
We crash on the bed with Jordon falling on top of me before rolling off and lying beside me.
With a look of pure l.u.s.t and satisfaction on his face, Jordon lovingly runs his hands along my face. Slowly, he slides the pad of his thumb across my bottom lip that is swollen and red from our intense, pa.s.sionate kiss in the living room.
We lay like this for a few moments, getting lost in each other"s eyes, before making our way into the shower to clean up. With each pa.s.sing moment, I feel my anxiety building up again. We had a few minutes of bliss that helped distract us from the matter at hand.
While I dried my hair and slipped on yoga pants and a tank top, Jordon warmed up our coffees and waited for me at the couch. He wants to do this together because the results will affect us both.
I crawl onto the couch, tucking my knees under me, lean against him and rest my head on his shoulder. He balances his laptop on his lap and pulls up the website again.
After typing the login information we were given, we click and wait for the page to load. I squeeze Jordon"s arm and hold my breath while we wait to see if the results are ready. We"ve already done this four times now, and each time seems to get harder rather than easier.
My eyes pop open wide as the results show on the screen.
"Thank you G.o.d! You see that, babe! I f.u.c.king told you! I told you that the baby wasn"t mine." Jordon shouts, setting the laptop on the table and jumping up. Pulling me into his arms, he hugs me tightly against his body with his face buried in my neck as he kisses and whispers against my skin, "I knew it. Deep down, I knew."
We stand there for a few moments wrapped in each other"s arms as the relief of what we just read washes over us and truly sinks in.
Finally falling back onto the couch, I climb onto his lap, wrap my arms tightly around his neck and gently flutter kisses along his neck to his mouth.
Sitting up I flash him the biggest smile causing my cheeks to ache, "I"m so happy for us and Brock! The results came back the way we knew they would. We should send a text congratulating him."
"This is just another reason why I love you." Jordon says as he grabs his phone off of the table. Pressing his hand to the small of my back, he pulls me flush against his chest. I sink into him resting my cheek against his chest and listen to the beat of his heart. "With everything we had going on you still took the time to care about how it was affecting the other people involved."
Swirling my fingers down his chest in a circular motion, I get lost in thought thinking about everything Jordon just said. It"s crazy because when I was with Cane I was that same caring girl. After he died I lost myself, and for years was selfish. I didn"t care about the pain I was putting my friends and family through while they watched on helplessly as I destroyed myself.
Since Jordon came into my life, I"m slowly finding the girl I once was. I"m also striving to be better than the younger version of myself. I want to be the woman Jordan would be proud to call his wife and someone a child would be proud to call their mother.
"I just hope Kinsley can learn from all of this and hopefully reconcile with Brock. He seems like he truly loves her and that baby. If her mother really loves her, she"ll support Kinsley with any decision she makes and try not to manipulate her daughter anymore by interfering with her happiness and the wellbeing of that child."
Jordon lets out a loud chuckle shaking my body as his chest rises and falls with his laughter. "See! That"s exactly what I mean. Kinsley was the world"s biggest b.i.t.c.h to you, and here you are sympathizing with her and wishing her a happy life."
Laughing along with him, I spin on his lap so that I"m straddling him now. Running my fingers through his damp hair I give him an impish grin, "What can I say, I"m a sucker for love and all that mushy s.h.i.t now that I"ve got you." I tease, as I lean down and press a ton of kisses across his face, and giggle uncontrollably as Jordon"s fingers begin tickling my hips.
"Why is it when you say "love and mushy s.h.i.t" I get turned on? I swear; you"ve got the mouth of a sailor and the body of G.o.ddess, and I wouldn"t have it any other way."
Sing From the Heart.
May 18th 2014 Las Vegas.
Jordon.
This last month has been a whirlwind of events. Our alb.u.m has skyrocketed since we hit number one with Goodbye Chicago. Tonight is our first performance at an award"s show, and I am so f.u.c.king nervous; I swear I may vomit.
It"s true what they say about good or bad publicity, its still publicity. I now know it to be true because, after everything with Kinsley, the press became obsessed with me and my love life. After releasing a statement about Kinsley"s daughter not being mine, and informing the media that we did a paternity test to prove it, the press began obsessing over Brittan and me.
They follow us everywhere, but it doesn"t faze us. We have learned to just ignore them and go on with our lives. This is a business, and we need them as much as they need us. If they weren"t following us around and plastering our faces on every rag mag on the street corner, our alb.u.m sales wouldn"t be as good as they are.
We"re now in Las Vegas for the Billboard Music Awards, and we came a day early to explore Vegas. Thankfully the press has been as respectful as they can. They have been leaving some distance between us and them, instead of being in our faces shouting a million questions while we"re out.
Last night Brittan celebrated her one year sober anniversary with a huge party here in Las Vegas. We had a private VIP booth at Marquee so we could get away from the craziness and just let loose. We partied with all our bandmates, and of course they had a flock of women partying with us too.
I"m so proud of her for staying clean this past year.
Her one relapse will always stay between us. That one moment of weakness could have been the end of this tour, and we would have never begun as a couple. My determination to help her stay clean led me to falling in love with the most mesmerizing woman on the entire planet.
We"re getting ready in our penthouse suite at the Aria Resort and Casino. Brittan looks smoking hot in her dress for tonight"s Billboard Awards. It"s strapless and makes her t.i.ts look amazing. They are covered in silver sequins, and the skirt of the dress is all black feathers that stop mid-thigh. It makes me hard just thinking about exploring under it to see if she"s wearing panties or not.
Half the time she dresses like this just to drive me f.u.c.king crazy, I swear!
Her heels are sequin and covered in skulls making her look like the hot, bada.s.s rocker chick I know she is. They make her legs look like they go on for miles. She is definitely going to be the s.e.xiest woman on the Red Carpet tonight. Every guy will have their eyes on her, but she"ll be on my arm.
I decided on a cla.s.sic all black tuxedo with a silver tie to coordinate with Brittan"s dress. I step into the living room where she"s surrounded by hair and make-up artists. Her a.s.sistant Toby is reading off a list of s.h.i.t she has to do at the award show, because like us; she"s presenting an award and performing.
Holding her hand up in the air, she says to the crew, "Okay. Five second break!" Jumping down from her make-up chair, she sashays her way over to me.
I"m propped up against the wall eating up the site before me. She looks like a Hard Rock Beauty Queen with red "suck me until I c.u.m hard down your throat" lips. I quickly adjust myself as she stops in front of me. Slowly, she slides her red manicured nail down my tie, as she runs her eyes over my body.
"Mmhhmm, just like I imagined. f.u.c.king s.e.x-on-a-stick. You definitely need to start wearing suits more often." She has a mischievous glimmer twinkling in her dark chocolate eyes that let me know she is thinking dirty thoughts.
Laughing, I snaked my arm around her waist and pull her against me, letting her feel just how turned on that mouth of hers, and this outfit are making me.
"I refuse to wear these monkey suits more than I have to. But I will be taking full advantage of how turned on its making you if ya let me squeeze a quickie in before we go?"
Slapping my chest Brittan wiggles out of my arms, "Pshhh, are you insane!? I didn"t sit here for five hours making my b.u.t.t go numb for nothing, Romeo. You can take full advantage of this body." She says dramatically, sliding her hand down the front of herself; turning me on even more, "After the show is over."
Stepping forward again, she cups my b.a.l.l.s and extremely hard d.i.c.k in her hand as a devilish grin dances across her lips, "If you"re a good boy, I"ll ride you in the limo after the show. I really want to tear this shirt off you and watch the b.u.t.tons fly."
f.u.c.k me and that dirty mouth she has on her.
I think I"ll officially be sporting a hard on all day.
"You know how much I enjoy being naughty, but for that reward I think I can handle behaving, just for tonight."