There was a ring. It was nine o"clock. It was Aylmer"s voice.
CHAPTER XXI
The Great Exception
The absurdly simple explanation, made almost in dumb show, by action rather than in dialogue, was soon given. He was surprised, simply enchanted, at the entire frankness of her recognition; she acknowledged openly that it mattered to her tremendously whether or not he was on intimate terms or flirting with little Miss Argles, or with little Miss anybody. He was not even to look at any woman except herself, that was arranged between them now and understood. They were side by side, with hands clasped as a matter of course, things taken for granted that he formerly never dreamt of. The signs of emotion in her face he attributed of course to the morning"s contretemps, knowing nothing of the other trouble.
"It"s heavenly being here again. You"re prettier than ever, Edith; sweeter than ever. What a time I had away. It got worse and worse."
"Dear Aylmer!"
"You"re far too good and kind to me. But I _have_ suffered--awfully."
"So have I, since this morning. I felt--"
"What did you feel? Tell me!"
"Must I?"
"Yes!"
"I felt, when I saw you with her, as if I hadn"t got a friend in the world. I felt quite alone. I felt as if the ground were going to open and swallow me up. I relied on you so much, far more than I knew! I was struck dumb, and rooted to the spot, and knocked all of a heap, in a manner of speaking, as Vincy would say," Edith went on, laughing. "But now, you"ve cured me thoroughly; you"re such a _real_ person."
"Angel!"
She still left her hand in his. Her eyes were very bright, the result of few but salt tears, the corners of her mouth were lifted by a happy smile, not the tantalising, half-mocking smile he used to see. She was changed, and was, he thought, more lovable--prettier; today"s emotion had shaken her out of herself. The reaction of this evening gave a brilliancy to her eyes, happy curves to her lips, and the slight disarrangement of her hair, not quite silky-smooth tonight, gave her a more irresponsible look. She seemed more careless--younger.
"Where"s Bruce?" Aylmer asked suddenly.
"He"s gone to the club. He"ll be back rather soon, I should think."
"I won"t wait. I would rather not meet him this evening. When shall I see you again?"
"Oh, I don"t know. I don"t think I want to make any plans now."
"As you wish. I say, do you really think Vincy can care for that girl?"
"I believe he has had a very long friendship of some kind with her.
He"s never told me actually, but I"ve felt it," Edith said.
"Is he in love with her? Can he be?"
"In a way--in one of his peculiar ways."
"She"s in love with him, I suppose," said Aylmer. "It was only because she thought it would please him that she wanted to see those things at the museum. I think she"s a little anxious. I found her a wild, irritating, unaccountable, empty creature. I believe she wants him to marry her."
"I hope he won"t, unless he _really_ wants to," said Edith. "It would be a mistake for Vincy to sacrifice himself as much as that."
"I hope indeed he won"t," exclaimed Aylmer. "And I think it"s out of the question. Miss Argles is only an incident, surely. She looks the slightest of episodes."
"It"s a very long episode. It might end, though--if she insists and he won"t."
"Oh, bother, never mind them!" Aylmer replied, with boyish impatience.
"Let me look at _you_ again. Do you care for me a little bit, Edith?"
"Yes; I do."
"Well, what"s going to be done about it?" he asked, with happy triviality.
"Don"t talk nonsense," she replied. "We"re just going to see each other sometimes." "I"ll be satisfied with anything!" cried Aylmer, "after what I"ve suffered not seeing you at all. We"ll have a new game. You shall _make_ the rules and I"ll keep them."
"Naturally."
"About the summer?"
"Oh, no plans tonight. I must think." She looked thoughtful.
"Tell me, how"s Archie?" he said.
"Archie"s all right--delightful. Dilly, too. But I"m rather bothered."
"Why should you bother? What"s it about? Tell me at once."
She paused a moment. "Miss Townsend won"t be able to come back any more," she said steadily.
"Really? What a pity. I suppose the fool of a girl"s engaged, or something."
"She won"t come back any more," answered Edith.
"Will you have to get a new Miss Townsend?"
"I thought of being their governess myself--during the holidays, anyhow."
"But that will leave you hardly any time--no leisure."
"Leisure for what?"
"For anything--for me, for instance," said Aylmer boldly. He was full of the courage and audacity caused by the immense relief of seeing her again and finding her so responsive.
There is, of course, no joy so great as the cessation of pain; in fact all joy, active or pa.s.sive, is the cessation of some pain, since it must be the satisfaction of a longing, even perhaps an unconscious longing. A desire is a sort of pain, even with hope, without it is despair. When, for example, one takes artistic pleasure in looking at something beautiful, that is a cessation of the pain of having been deprived of it until then, since what one enjoys one must have longed for even without knowing it.
"Look here," said Aylmer suddenly. "I don"t believe I can do without you."
"You said _I_ was to make the rules."
"Make them then; go on."