"You arm your servants against him!"
"In a few days--" she faltered.
"You insult him and me now," said I, enraged at the half indication of her relenting, which spoiled her look of modestly--resolute beauty, and seemed to show that she meant to succ.u.mb without letting me break her.
"You are mistress of the place."
"I am. I wish I were not."
"You are mistress of Riversley, and you refuse to let my father come in!"
"While I am the mistress, yes."
"Anywhere but here, Harry! If he will see me or aunty, if he will kindly appoint any other place, we will meet him, we shall be glad."
"I request you to let him enter the house. Do you consent or not?"
"He was refused once at these doors. Do you refuse him a second time?"
"I do."
"You mean that?"
"I am obliged to."
"You won"t yield a step to me?"
"I cannot."
The spirit of an armed champion was behind those mild features, soft almost to supplication to me, that I might know her to be under a constraint. The nether lip dropped in breathing, the eyes wavered: such was her appearance in open war with me, but her will was firm.
Of course I was not so dense as to be unable to perceive her grounds for refusing.
She would not throw the burden on her grandada, even to propitiate me--the man she still loved.
But that she should have a reason, and think it good, in spite of me, and cling to it, defying me, and that she should do hurt to a sentient human creature, who was my father, for the sake of blindly obeying to the letter the injunction of the dead, were intolerable offences to me and common humanity. I, for my own part, would have forgiven her, as I congratulated myself upon reflecting. It was on her account--to open her mind, to enlighten her concerning right and wrong determination, to bring her feelings to bear upon a crude judgement--that I condescended to argue the case. Smarting with admiration, both of the depths and shallows of her character, and of her fine figure, I began:--She was to consider how young she was to pretend to decide on the balance of duties, how little of the world she had seen; an oath sworn at the bedside of the dead was a solemn thing, but was it Christian to keep it to do an unnecessary cruelty to the living? if she had not studied philosophy, she might at least discern the difference between just resolves and insane--between those the soul sanctioned, and those hateful to nature; to bind oneself to carry on another person"s vindictiveness was voluntarily to adopt slavery; this was flatly-avowed insanity, and so forth, with an emphatic display of patience.
The truth of my words could not be controverted. Unhappily I confounded right speaking with right acting, and conceived, because I spoke so justly, that I was specially approved in pressing her to yield.
She broke the first pause to say, "It"s useless, Harry. I do what I think I am bound to do."
"Then I have spoken to no purpose!"
"If you will only be kind, and wait two or three days?"
"Be sensible!"
"I am, as much as I can be."
"Hard as a flint--you always were! The most grateful woman alive, I admit. I know not another, I a.s.sure you, Janet, who, in return for millions of money, would do such a piece of wanton cruelty. What! You think he was not punished enough when he was berated and torn to shreds in your presence? They would be cruel, perhaps--we will suppose it of your s.e.x--but not so fond of their consciences as to stamp a life out to keep an oath. I forget the terms of the Will. Were you enjoined in it to force him away?"
My father had stationed himself in the background. Mention of the Will caught his ears, and he commenced shaking my aunt Dorothy"s note, blinking and muttering at a great rate, and pressing his temples.
"I do not read a word of this," he said,--"upon my honour, not a word; and I know it is her handwriting. That Will!--only, for the love of heaven, madam,"--he bowed vaguely to Janet "not a syllable of this to the princess, or we are destroyed. I have a great bell in my head, or I would say more. Hearing is out of the question."
Janet gazed piteously from him to me.
To kill the deer and be sorry for the suffering wretch is common.
I begged my father to walk along the carriage-drive. He required that the direction should be pointed out accurately, and promptly obeyed me, saying: "I back you, remember. I should certainly be asleep now but for this extraordinary bell." After going some steps, he turned to shout "Gong," and touched his ear. He walked loosely, utterly unlike the walk habitual to him even recently in Paris.
"Has he been ill?" Janet asked.
"He won"t see the doctor; the symptoms threaten apoplexy or paralysis, I "m told. Let us finish. You were aware that you were to inherit Riversley?"
"Yes, Riversley, Harry; I knew that; I knew nothing else."
"The old place was left to you that you might bar my father out?"
"I gave my word."
"You pledged it--swore?"
"No."
"Well, you"ve done your worst, my dear. If the axe were to fall on your neck for it, you would still refuse, would you not?"
Janet answered softly: "I believe so."
"Then, good-bye," said I.
That feminine softness and its burden of unalterable firmness pulled me two ways, angering me all the more that I should feel myself susceptible to a charm which came of spiritual rawness rather than sweetness; for she needed not to have made the answer in such a manner; there was pride in it; she liked the soft sound of her voice while declaring herself invincible: I could see her picturing herself meek but fixed.
"Will you go, Harry? Will you not take Riversley?" she said.
I laughed.
"To spare you the repet.i.tion of the dilemma?"
"No, Harry; but this might be done."
"But--my fullest thanks to you for your generosity: really! I speak in earnest: it would be decidedly against your grandada"s wishes, seeing that he left the Grange to you, and not to me."
"Grandada"s wishes! I cannot carry out all his wishes," she sighed.
"Are you anxious to?"
We were on the delicate ground, as her crimson face revealed to me that she knew as well as I.
I, however, had little delicacy in leading her on it. She might well feel that she deserved some wooing.