During the terrible recital Mary Standish had not looked away from him, and now her hands were clenched like his own, and her eyes and face were aflame, as if she wanted to leap up and strike at something unseen between them.
"And after that, Alan; after that--"
She did not know that she had spoken his name, and he, hearing it, scarcely understood.
"John Graham kept his promise," he answered grimly. "The influence and money behind him haunted us wherever we went. My father had been successful, but one after another the properties in which he was interested were made worthless. A successful mine in which he was most heavily interested was allowed to become abandoned. A hotel which he partly owned in Dawson was bankrupted. One after another things happened, and after each happening my father would receive a polite note of regret from Graham, written as if the word actually came from a friend. But my father cared little for money losses now. His heart was drying up and his life ebbing away for the little cabin and the grave that were gone from the foot of the mountain. It went on this way for three years, and then, one morning, my father was found on the beach at Nome, dead."
"_Dead_!"
Alan heard only the gasping breath in which the word came from Mary Standish, for he was facing the window, looking steadily away from her.
"Yes--murdered. I know it was the work of John Graham. He didn"t do it personally, but it was _his money_ that accomplished the end. Of course nothing ever came of it. I won"t tell you how his influence and power have dogged me; how they destroyed the first herd of reindeer I had, and how they filled the newspapers with laughter and lies about me when I was down in the States last winter in an effort to make _your_ people see a little something of the truth about Alaska. I am waiting. I know the day is coming when I shall have John Graham as my father had him under our mountain twenty years ago. He must be fifty now. But that won"t save him when the time comes. No one will loosen my hands as I loosened my father"s. And all Alaska will rejoice, for his power and his money have become twin monsters that are destroying Alaska just as he destroyed the life of my father. Unless he dies, and his money-power ends, he will make of this great land nothing more than a sh.e.l.l out of which he and his kind have taken all the meat. And the hour of deadliest danger is now upon us."
He looked at Mary Standish, and it was as if death had come to her where she sat. She seemed not to breathe, and her face was so white it frightened him. And then, slowly, she turned her eyes upon him, and never had he seen such living pools of torture and of horror. He was amazed at the quietness of her voice when she began to speak, and startled by the almost deadly coldness of it.
"I think you can understand--now--why I leaped into the sea, why I wanted the world to think I was dead, and why I have feared to tell you the truth," she said. "_I am John Graham"s wife._"
CHAPTER XIX
Alan"s first thought was of the monstrous incongruity of the thing, the almost physical impossibility of a mesalliance of the sort Mary Standish had revealed to him. He saw her, young and beautiful, with face and eyes that from the beginning had made him feel all that was good and sweet in life, and behind her he saw the shadow-hulk of John Graham, the pitiless iron-man, without conscience and without soul, coa.r.s.ened by power, fiendish in his iniquities, and old enough to be her father!
A slow smile twisted his lips, but he did not know he smiled. He pulled himself together without letting her see the physical part of the effort it was taking. And he tried to find something to say that would help clear her eyes of the agony that was in them.
"That--is a most unreasonable thing--to be true," he said.
It seemed to him his lips were making words out of wood, and that the words were fatuously inefficient compared with what he should have said, or acted, under the circ.u.mstances.
She nodded. "It is. But the world doesn"t look at it in that way. Such things just happen."
She reached for a book which lay on the table where the tundra daisies were heaped. It was a book written around the early phases of pioneer life in Alaska, taken from his own library, a volume of statistical worth, dryly but carefully written--and she had been reading it. It struck him as a symbol of the fight she was making, of her courage, and of her desire to triumph in the face of tremendous odds that must have beset her. He still could not a.s.sociate her completely with John Graham.
Yet his face was cold and white.
Her hand trembled a little as she opened the book and took from it a newspaper clipping. She did not speak as she unfolded it and gave it to him.
At the top of two printed columns was the picture of a young and beautiful girl; in an oval, covering a small s.p.a.ce over the girl"s shoulder, was a picture of a man of fifty or so. Both were strangers to him. He read their names, and then the headlines. "A Hundred-Million-Dollar Love" was the caption, and after the word love was a dollar sign. Youth and age, beauty and the other thing, two great fortunes united. He caught the idea and looked at Mary Standish. It was impossible for him to think of her as Mary Graham.
"I tore that from a paper in Cordova," she said. "They have nothing to do with me. The girl lives in Texas. But don"t you see something in her eyes? Can"t you see it, even in the picture? She has on her wedding things. But it seemed to me--when I saw her face--that in her eyes were agony and despair and hopelessness, and that she was bravely trying to hide them from the world. It"s just another proof, one of thousands, that such unreasonable things do happen."
He was beginning to feel a dull and painless sort of calm, the stoicism which came to possess him whenever he was confronted by the inevitable.
He sat down, and with his head bowed over it took one of the limp, little hands that lay in Mary Standish"s lap. The warmth had gone out of it. It was cold and lifeless. He caressed it gently and held it between his brown, muscular hands, staring at it, and yet seeing nothing in particular. It was only the ticking of Keok"s clock that broke the silence for a time. Then he released the hand, and it dropped in the girl"s lap again. She had been looking steadily at the streak of gray in his hair. And a light came into her eyes, a light which he did not see, and a little tremble of her lips, and an almost imperceptible inclination of her head toward him.
"I"m sorry I didn"t know," he said. "I realize now how you must have felt back there in the cottonwoods."
"No, you don"t realize--_you don"t!_" she protested.
In an instant, it seemed to him, a vibrant, flaming life swept over her again. It was as if his words had touched fire to some secret thing, as if he had unlocked a door which grim hopelessness had closed. He was amazed at the swiftness with which color came into her cheeks.
"You don"t understand, and I am determined that you _shall_," she went on. "I would die before I let you go away thinking what is now in your mind. You will despise me, but I would rather be hated for the truth than because of the horrible thing which you must believe if I remain silent." She forced a wan smile to her lips. "You know, Belinda Mulrooneys were very well in their day, but they don"t fit in now, do they? If a woman makes a mistake and tries to remedy it in a fighting sort of way, as Belinda Mulrooney might have done back in the days when Alaska was young--"
She finished with a little gesture of despair.
"I have committed a great folly," she said, hesitating an instant in his silence. "I see very clearly now the course I should have taken. You will advise me that it is still not too late when you have heard what I am going to say. Your face is like--a rock."
"It is because your tragedy is mine," he said.
She turned her eyes from him. The color in her cheeks deepened. It was a vivid, feverish glow. "I was born rich, enormously, hatefully rich," she said in the low, unimpa.s.sioned voice of a confessional. "I don"t remember father or mother. I lived always with my Grandfather Standish and my Uncle Peter Standish. Until I was thirteen I had my Uncle Peter, who was grandfather"s brother, and lived with us. I worshiped Uncle Peter. He was a cripple. From young manhood he had lived in a wheel-chair, and he was nearly seventy-five when he died. As a baby that wheel-chair, and my rides in it with him about the great house in which we lived, were my delights. He was my father and mother, everything that was good and sweet in life. I remember thinking, as a child, that if G.o.d was as good as Uncle Peter, He was a wonderful G.o.d. It was Uncle Peter who told me, year after year, the old stories and legends of the Standishes. And he was always happy--always happy and glad and seeing nothing but sunshine though he hadn"t stood on his feet for nearly sixty years. And my Uncle Peter died when I was thirteen, five days before my birthday came. I think he must have been to me what your father was to you."
He nodded. There was something that was not the hardness of rock in his face now, and John Graham seemed to have faded away.
"I was left, then, alone with my Grandfather Standish," she went on. "He didn"t love me as my Uncle Peter loved me, and I don"t think I loved him. But I was proud of him. I thought the whole world must have stood in awe of him, as I did. As I grew older I learned the world _was_ afraid of him--bankers, presidents, even the strongest men in great financial interests; afraid of him, and of his partners, the Grahams, and of Sharpleigh, who my Uncle Peter had told me was the cleverest lawyer in the nation, and who had grown up in the business of the two families. My grandfather was sixty-eight when Uncle Peter died, so it was John Graham who was the actual working force behind the combined fortunes of the two families. Sometimes, as I now recall it, Uncle Peter was like a little child. I remember how he tried to make me understand just how big my grandfather"s interests were by telling me that if two dollars were taken from every man, woman, and child in the United States, it would just about add up to what he and the Grahams possessed, and my Grandfather Standish"s interests were three-quarters of the whole. I remember how a hunted look would come into my Uncle Peter"s face at times when I asked him how all this money was used, and where it was. And he never answered me as I wanted to be answered, and I never understood. I didn"t know _why_ people feared my grandfather and John Graham. I didn"t know of the stupendous power my grandfather"s money had rolled up for them. I didn"t know"--her voice sank to a shuddering whisper--"I didn"t know how they were using it in Alaska, for instance.
I didn"t know it was feeding upon starvation and ruin and death. I don"t think even Uncle Peter knew _that_."
She looked at Alan steadily, and her gray eyes seemed burning up with a slow fire.
"Why, even then, before Uncle Peter died, I had become one of the biggest factors in all their schemes. It was impossible for me to suspect that John Graham was _antic.i.p.ating_ a little girl of thirteen, and I didn"t guess that my Grandfather Standish, so straight, so grandly white of beard and hair, so like a G.o.d of power when he stood among men, was even then planning that I should be given to him, so that a monumental combination of wealth might increase itself still more in that juggernaut of financial achievement for which he lived. And to bring about my sacrifice, to make sure it would not fail, they set Sharpleigh to the task, because Sharpleigh was sweet and good of face, and gentle like Uncle Peter, so that I loved him and had confidence in him, without a suspicion that under his white hair lay a brain which matched in cunning and mercilessness that of John Graham himself. And he did his work well, Alan."
A second time she had spoken his name, softly and without embarra.s.sment.
With her nervous fingers tying and untying the two corners of a little handkerchief in her lap, she went on, after a moment of silence in which the ticking of Keok"s clock seemed tense and loud.
"When I was seventeen, Grandfather Standish died. I wish you could understand all that followed without my telling you: how I clung to Sharpleigh as a father, how I trusted him, and how cleverly and gently he educated me to the thought that it was right and just, and my greatest duty in life, to carry out the stipulation of my grandfather"s will and marry John Graham. Otherwise, he told me--if that union was not brought about before I was twenty-two--not a dollar of the great fortune would go to the house of Standish; and because he was clever enough to know that money alone would not urge me, he showed me a letter which he said my Uncle Peter had written, and which I was to read on my seventeenth birthday, and in that letter Uncle Peter urged me to live up to the Standish name and join in that union of the two great fortunes which he and Grandfather Standish had always planned. I didn"t dream the letter was a forgery. And in the end they won--and I promised."
She sat with bowed head, crumpling the bit of cambric between her fingers. "Do you despise me?" she asked.
"No," he replied in a tense, unimpa.s.sioned voice. "I love you."
She tried to look at him calmly and bravely. In his face again lay the immobility of rock, and in his eyes a sullen, slumbering fire.
"I promised," she repeated quickly, as if regretting the impulse that had made her ask him the question. "But it was to be business, a cold, unsentimental business. I disliked John Graham. Yet I would marry him.
In the eyes of the law I would be his wife; in the eyes of the world I would remain his wife--but never more than that. They agreed, and I in my ignorance believed.
"I didn"t see the trap. I didn"t see the wicked triumph in John Graham"s heart. No power could have made me believe then that he wanted to possess only _me_; that he was horrible enough to want me even without love; that he was a great monster of a spider, and I the fly lured into his web. And the agony of it was that in all the years since Uncle Peter died I had dreamed strange and beautiful dreams. I lived in a make-believe world of my own, and I read, read, read; and the thought grew stronger and stronger in me that I had lived another life somewhere, and that I belonged back in the years when the world was clean, and there was love, and vast reaches of land wherein money and power were little guessed of, and where romance and the glory of manhood and womanhood rose above all other things. Oh, I wanted these things, and yet because others had molded me, and because of my misguided Standish sense of pride and honor, I was shackling myself to John Graham.
"In the last months preceding my twenty-second birthday I learned more of the man than I had ever known before; rumors came to me; I investigated a little, and I began to find the hatred, and the reason for it, which has come to me so conclusively here in Alaska. I almost knew, at the last, that he was a monster, but the world had been told I was to marry him, and Sharpleigh with his fatherly hypocrisy was behind me, and John Graham treated me so courteously and so coolly that I did not suspect the terrible things in his heart and mind--and I went on with the bargain. _I married him._"
She drew a sudden, deep breath, as if she had pa.s.sed through the ordeal of what she had most dreaded to say, and now, meeting the changeless expression of Alan"s face with a fierce, little cry that leaped from her like a flash of gun-fire, she sprang to her feet and stood with her back crushed against the tundra flowers, her voice trembling as she continued, while he stood up and faced her.
"You needn"t go on," he interrupted in a voice so low and terribly hard that she felt the menacing thrill of it. "You needn"t. I will settle with John Graham, if G.o.d gives me the chance."
"You would have me stop _now_--before I have told you of the only shred of triumph to which I may lay claim!" she protested. "Oh, you may be sure that I realize the sickening folly and wickedness of it all, but I swear before my G.o.d that I didn"t realize it then, until it was too late. To you, Alan, clean as the great mountains and plains that have been a part of you, I know how impossible this must seem--that I should marry a man I at first feared, then loathed, then came to hate with a deadly hatred; that I should sacrifice myself because I thought it was a duty; that I should be so weak, so ignorant, so like soft clay in the hands of those I trusted. Yet I tell you that at no time did I think or suspect that I was sacrificing _myself_; at no time, blind though you may call me, did I see a hint of that sickening danger into which I was voluntarily going. No, not even an hour before the wedding did I suspect that, for it had all been so coldly planned, like a great deal in finance--so carefully adjudged by us all as a business affair, that I felt no fear except that sickness of soul which comes of giving up one"s life. And no hint of it came until the last of the few words were spoken which made us man and wife, and then I saw in John Graham"s eyes something which I had never seen there before. And Sharpleigh--"
Her hands caught at her breast. Her gray eyes were pools of flame.
"I went to my room. I didn"t lock my door, because never had it been necessary to do that. I didn"t cry. No, I didn"t cry. But something strange was happening to me which tears might have prevented. It seemed to me there were many walls to my room; I was faint; the windows seemed to appear and disappear, and in that sickness I reached my bed. Then I saw the door open, and John Graham came in, and closed the door behind him, and locked it. My room. He had come into _my room!_ The unexpectedness of it--the horror--the insult roused me from my stupor. I sprang up to face him, and there he stood, within arm"s reach of me, a look in his face which told me at last the truth which I had failed to suspect--or fear. His arms were reaching out--
""You are my wife," he said.
"Oh, I knew, then. "_You are my wife_," he repeated. I wanted to scream, but I couldn"t; and then--then--his arms reached me; I felt them crushing around me like the coils of a great snake; the poison of his lips was at my face--and I believed that I was lost, and that no power could save me in this hour from the man who had come to my room--the man who was my husband. I think it was Uncle Peter who gave me voice, who put the right words in my brain, who made me laugh--yes, laugh, and almost caress him with my hands. The change in me amazed him, stunned him, and he freed me--while I told him that in these first few hours of wifehood I wanted to be alone, and that he should come to me that evening, and that I would be waiting for him. And I smiled at him as I said these things, smiled while I wanted to kill him, and he went, a great, gloating, triumphant beast, believing that the obedience of wifehood was about to give him what he had expected to find through dishonor--and I was left alone.