Chapter 819: You don"t even know how much I like you
"What are you talking about?! Who allowed you to talk about yourself like this?! You were only a child back then. All the mistakes were made by the generation before you. What does any of it have anything to do with you?!"
Only then did Jun Yexuan find the courage to look up to her face. His expression almost appeared possessed, "I was almost tainted by a man. Qingqing, don"t you find me dirty? Don"t you mind how dirty I.. Uh…"
Qiao Qing had wrapped her arms around him and kissed him in order to stop him from talking down on himself.
Scared by Qiao Qing"s pa.s.sion, Jun Yexuan was too stunned to speak. He stayed frozen and allowed her to do whatever she wanted.
After some time, Qiao Qing pressed her forehead against his and tried to even out her breath.
"Jun Yexuan, how do you view me? You see me as someone who"s unable to identify right from wrong? I want to kill those who hurt you. Why would I ever find you gross?"
"You don"t even know how wonderful you are. You are so wonderful, someone like me, someone with an iron heart, couldn"t help but fall for you."
"You don"t even know how much I like you. I like you so much I allow myself to feel all seven emotions and six desires."
"Nowadays, I get jealous, I get angry, and I am also very happy. I speak more words now. All of this is because of you. The only reason I was able to produce "Indulgence" was because of you."
"I only hate the fact that I was younger then and wasn"t able to be there for you during your hardest days."
"Your experiences pain me. I don"t even have enough energy to hurt for you, how could I ever detest you?"
"My heart hurt so much listening to your story, I felt like dying. Yet here you are, stabbing me. Are you doing this on purpose?"
Jun Yexuan"s heart shook as he listened. He then wiped off the tears on her face, "Qingqing, don"t cry. I was wrong."
Now that he"s said those words, the tears came endlessly for Qiao Qing.
Fl.u.s.tered, Jun Yexuan tried to wipe the tears off as he spoke with much affection.
"Before, when you cried for Leng Yan, I was insanely jealous. Now that you are crying for me, I feel so much regret. I rather you be happy forever and laugh forever. I don"t want you to cry. It pains me. Stop crying, okay?"
Qiao Qing opened her mouth, "I cried for Leng Yan because he would"ve died if I failed to cure him. If you were the one who was sick, I wouldn"t have cried."
Jun Yexuan, "..."
He had a look of uncertainty on his face.
His lost expression made Qiao Qing giggle.
"Because if I failed to cure you, I would"ve gone with you."
A statement that should"ve touched him made Jun Yexuan"s face appear extremely ugly.
"Not allowed!" Jun Yexuan stared at her seriously, "Even if my disease cannot be cured and I cannot stay with you forever, you must continue to live a good life. You need to live for me."
"What do you mean, not allowed?" Qiao Qing grabbed his collar and said violently, "You were the one who provoked me first! You were the one who forcefully entered my life and shamelessly stayed in my family home! You made me drop my guard and made me slowly fall in love with you! It"s all a trap! You were the one who made me different from how I was. And now, I cannot live without you! You cannot disallow me from doing that!"
Jun Yexuan gulped as the light in his eyes grew. The feeling of sweetness also slowly filled his heart, "For you, I will continue to live a good life."
Just then, a white silhouette arrived. The couple raised their heads and heard Qi Yusen"s voice, "As your brother, I don"t allow it either. As long as I"m here, there"s no way I"d let you die for him."
Qiao Qing"s body froze as Jun Yexuan sighed in relief.