Although Mark had only claimed from his uncle the right to believe what it was right for him to believe, the richness of his belief presently began to seem too much for one. His nature was generous in everything, and he felt that he must share this happiness with somebody else. He regretted the death of poor Mr. Spaull, for he was sure that he could have persuaded poor Mr. Spaull to cut off his yellow moustache and become a Catholic. Mr. Palmer was of course hopeless: Saint Augustine of Hippo, St. Paul himself even, would have found it hard to deal with Mr.
Palmer; as for the new master, Mr. Blumey, with his long nose and long chin and long frock coat and long boots, he was obviously absorbed by the problems of mathematics and required nothing more.
Term came to an end, and during the holidays Mark was able to spend most of his time at Meade Cantorum. He had always been a favourite of Mrs.
Ogilvie since that Whit-sunday nearly two months ago when she saw him looking at her garden and invited him in, and every time he revisited the Vicarage he had devoted some of his time to helping her weed or prune or do whatever she wanted to do in her garden. He was also on friendly terms with Miriam, the elder of Mr. Ogilvie"s two sisters, who was very like her brother in appearance and who gave to the house the decorous loving care he gave to the church. And however enthralling her domestic ministrations, she had always time to attend every service; while, so well ordered was her manner of life, her religious duties never involved the household in discomfort. She never gave the impression that so many religious women give of going to church in a fever of self-gratification, to which everything and everybody around her must be subordinated. The practice of her religion was woven into her life like the strand of wool on which all the others depend, but which itself is no more conspicuous than any of the other strands. With so many women religion is a subst.i.tute for something else; with Miriam Ogilvie everything else was made as nearly and as beautifully as it could be made a subst.i.tute for religion. Mark was intensely aware of her holiness, but he was equally aware of her capable well-tended hands and of her chatelaine glittering in and out of a lawn ap.r.o.n. One tress of her abundant hair was grey, which stood out against the dark background of the rest and gave her a serene purity, an austere strength, but yet like a nun"s coif seemed to make the face beneath more youthful, and like a cavalier"s plume more debonair. She could not have been over thirty-five when Mark first knew her, perhaps not so much; but he thought of her as ageless in the way a child thinks of its mother, and if any woman should ever be able to be to him something of what his mother had been, Mark thought that Miss Ogilvie might.
Esther Ogilvie the other sister was twenty-five. She told Mark this when he imitated the villagers by addressing her as Miss Essie and she ordered him to call her Esther. He might have supposed from this that she intended to confer upon him a measure of friendliness, even of sisterly affection; but on the contrary she either ignored him altogether or gave him the impression that she considered his frequent visits to Meade Cantorum a nuisance. Mark was sorry that she felt like that toward him, because she seemed unhappy, and in his desire for everybody to be happy he would have liked to proclaim how suddenly and unexpectedly happiness may come. As a sister of the Vicar of the parish, she went to church regularly, but Mark did not think that she was there except in body. He once looked across at her open prayer book during the _Magnificat_, and noticed that she was reading the Tables of Kindred and Affinity. Now, Mark knew from personal experience that when one is reduced to reading the Tables of Kindred and Affinity it argues a mind untouched by the reality of worship. In his own case, when he sat beside his uncle and aunt in the dreary s...o...b..idge church of their choice, it had been nothing more than a sign of his own inward dreariness to read the Tables of Kindred and Affinity or speculate upon the Paschal full moons from the year 2200 to the year 2299 inclusive. But St. Margaret"s, Meade Cantorum, was a different church from St. Jude"s, s...o...b..idge, and for Esther Ogilvie to ignore the joyfulness of worshipping there in order to ponder idly the complexities of Golden Numbers and Dominical Letters could not be ascribed to inward dreariness. Besides, she wasn"t dreary. Once Mark saw her coming down a woodland glade and almost turned aside to avoid meeting her, because she looked so fay with her wild blue eyes and her windblown hair, the colour of last year"s bracken after rain. She seemed at once the pursued and the pursuer, and Mark felt that whichever she was he would be in the way.
"Taking a quick walk by myself," she called out to him as they pa.s.sed.
No, she was certainly not dreary. But what was she?
Mark abandoned the problem of Esther in the pleasure of meeting the Reverend Oliver Dorward, who arrived one afternoon at the Vicarage with a large turbot for Mrs. Ogilvie, and six Flemish candlesticks for the Vicar, announcing that he wanted to stay a week before being inducted to the living of Green Lanes in the County of Southampton, to which he had recently been presented by Lord Chatsea. Mark liked him from the first moment he saw him pacing the Vicarage garden in a soutane, buckled shoes, and beaver hat, and he could not understand why Mr. Ogilvie, who had often laughed about Dorward"s eccentricity, should now that he had an opportunity of enjoying it once more be so cross about his friend"s arrival and so ready to hand him over to Mark to be entertained.
"Just like Ogilvie," said Dorward confidentially, when he and Mark went for a walk on the afternoon of his arrival. "He wants spiking up. They get very slack and selfish, these country clergy. Time he gave up Meade Cantorum. He"s been here nearly ten years. Too long, nine years too long. Hasn"t been to his duties since Easter. Scandalous, you know. I asked him, as soon as I"d explained to the cook about the turbot, when he went last, and he was bored. Nice old p.u.s.s.y cat, the mother. Hullo, is that the _Angelus_? d.a.m.n, I knelt on a thistle."
"It isn"t the _Angelus_," said Mark quietly. "It"s the bell on that cow."
But Mr. Dorward had finished his devotion before he answered.
"I was half way through before you told me. You should have spoken sooner."
"Well, I spoke as soon as I could."
"Very cunning of Satan," said Dorward meditatively. "Induced a cow to simulate the _Angelus_, and planted a thistle just where I was bound to kneel. Cunning. Cunning. Very cunning. I must go back now and confess to Ogilvie. Good example. Wait a minute, I"ll confess to-morrow before Morning Prayer. Very good for Ogilvie"s congregation. They"re stuffy, very stuffy. It"ll shake them. It"ll shake Ogilvie too. Are you staying here to-night?"
"No, I shall bicycle back to s...o...b..idge and bicycle over to Ma.s.s to-morrow."
"Ridiculous. Stay the night. Didn"t Ogilvie invite you?"
Mark shook his head.
"Scandalous lack of hospitality. They"re all alike these country clergy.
I"m tired of this walk. Let"s go back and look after the turbot. Are you a good cook?"
"I can boil eggs and that sort of thing," said Mark.
"What sort of things? An egg is unique. There"s nothing like an egg.
Will you serve my Ma.s.s on Monday? Saying Ma.s.s for Napoleon on Monday."
"For whom?" Mark exclaimed.
"Napoleon, with a special intention for the conversion of the present government in France. Last Monday I said a Ma.s.s for Shakespeare, with a special intention for an improvement in contemporary verse."
Mark supposed that Mr. Dorward must be joking, and his expression must have told as much to the priest, who murmured:
"Nothing to laugh at. Nothing to laugh at."
"No, of course not," said Mark feeling abashed. "But I"m afraid I shouldn"t be able to serve you. I"ve never had any practice."
"Perfectly easy. Perfectly easy. I"ll give you a book when we get back."
Mark bicycled home that afternoon with a tall thin volume called _Ritual Notes_, so tall that when it was in his pocket he could feel it digging him in the ribs every time he was riding up the least slope. That night in his bedroom he practised with the help of the wash-stand and its accessories the technique of serving at Low Ma.s.s, and in his enthusiasm he bicycled over to Meade Cantorum in time to attend both the Low Ma.s.s at seven said by Mr. Dorward and the Low Ma.s.s at eight said by Mr.
Ogilvie. He was able to detect mistakes that were made by the village boys who served that Sunday morning, and he vowed to himself that the Monday Ma.s.s for the Emperor Napoleon should not be disfigured by such inaccuracy or clumsiness. He declined the usual invitation to stay to supper after Evening Prayer that he might have time to make perfection more perfect in the seclusion of his own room, and when he set out about six o"clock of a sun-drowsed morning in early August, apart from a faint anxiety about the _Lavabo_, he felt secure of his accomplishment. It was only when he reached the church that he remembered he had made no arrangement about borrowing a ca.s.sock or a cotta, an omission that in the mood of grand seriousness in which he had undertaken his responsibility seemed nothing less than abominable. He did not like to go to the Vicarage and worry Mr. Ogilvie who could scarcely fail to be amused, even contemptuously amused at such an ineffective beginning.
Besides, ever since Mr. Dorward"s arrival the Vicar had been slightly irritable.
While Mark was wondering what was the best thing to do, Miss Hatchett, a pious old maid who spent her nights in patience and sleep, her days in worship and weeding, came hurrying down the churchyard path.
"I am not late, am I?" she exclaimed. "I never heard the bell. I was so engrossed in pulling out one of those dreadful sow-thistles that when my maid came running out and said "Oh, Miss Hatchett, it"s gone the five to, you"ll be late," I just ran, and now I"ve brought my trowel and left my prayer book on the path. . . ."
"I"m just going to ring the bell now," said Mark, in whom the horror of another omission had been rapidly succeeded by an almost unnatural composure.
"Oh, what a relief," Miss Hatchett sighed. "Are you sure I shall have time to get my breath, for I know Mr. Ogilvie would dislike to hear me panting in church?"
"Mr. Ogilvie isn"t saying Ma.s.s this morning."
"Not saying Ma.s.s?" repeated the old maid in such a dejected tone of voice that, when a small cloud pa.s.sed over the face of the sun, it seemed as if the natural scene desired to accord with the chill cast upon her spirit by Mark"s announcement.
"Mr. Dorward is saying Ma.s.s," he told her, and poor Miss Hatchett must pretend with a forced smile that her blank look had been caused by the prospect of being deprived of Ma.s.s when really. . . .
But Mark was not paying any more attention to Miss Hatchett. He was standing under the bell, gazing up at the long rope and wondering what manner of sound he should evoke. He took a breath and pulled; the rope quivered with such an effect of life that he recoiled from the new force he had conjured into being, afraid of his handiwork, timid of the clamour that would resound. No louder noise ensued than might have been given forth by a can kicked into the gutter. Mark pulled again more strongly, and the bell began to chime, irregularly at first with alternations of sonorous and feeble note; at last, however, when the rhythm was established with such command and such insistence that the ringer, looking over his shoulder to the south door, half expected to see a stream of perturbed Christians hurrying to obey its summons. But there was only poor Miss Hatchett sitting in the porch and fanning herself with a handkerchief.
Mark went on ringing. . . .
Clang--clang--clang! All the holy Virgins were waving their palms.
Clang--clang--clang! All the blessed Doctors and Confessors were tw.a.n.ging their harps to the clanging. Clang--clang--clang! All the holy Saints and Martyrs were tossing their haloes in the air as schoolboys toss their caps. Clang--clang--clang! Angels, Archangels, and Princ.i.p.alities with faces that shone like bra.s.s and with forms that quivered like flames thronged the noise. Clang--clang--clang! Virtues, Powers, and Dominations bade the morning stars sing to the ringing.
Clang--clang--clang! The ringing reached up to the green-winged Thrones who sustain the seat of the Most High. Clang--clang--clang! The azure Cherubs heard the bells within their contemplation: the scarlet Seraphs felt them within their love. Clang--clang--clang! The lidless Eye of G.o.d looked down, and Miss Hatchett supposing it to be the sun crossed over to the other side of the porch.
Clang--clang--clang--clang--clang--clang--clang--clang. . . .
"Hasn"t Dorward come in yet? It"s five past eight already. Go on ringing for a little while. I"ll go and see how long he"ll be."
Mark in the absorption of ringing the bell had not noticed the Vicar"s approach, and he was gone again before he remembered that he wanted to borrow a ca.s.sock and a cotta. Had he been rude? Would Mr. Ogilvie think it cheek to ring the bell without asking his permission first? But before these unanswered questions had had time to spoil the rhythm of his ringing, the Vicar came back with Mr. Dorward, and the congregation, that is to say Miss Hatchett and Miss Ogilvie, was already kneeling in its place.
Mark in a ca.s.sock that was much too long for him and in a cotta that was in the same ratio as much too short preceded Mr. Dorward from the sacristy to the altar. A fear seized him that in spite of all his practice he was kneeling on the wrong side of the priest; he forgot the first responses; he was sure the Sanctus-bell was too far away; he wished that Mr. Dorward would not mutter quite so inaudibly. Gradually, however, the meetness of the gestures prescribed for him by the ancient ritual cured his self-consciousness and included him in its pattern, so that now for the first time he was aware of the significance of the preface to the Sanctus: _It is very meet, right, and our bounden duty, that we should at all times, and in all places, give thanks unto thee, O Lord, Holy Father, Almighty Everlasting G.o.d._
Twenty minutes ago when he was ringing the church bell Mark had experienced the rapture of creative noise, the sense of individual triumph over time and s.p.a.ce; and the sound of his ringing came back to him from the vaulted roof of the church with such exultation as the missal thrush may know when he sits high above the fretted boughs of an oak and his music plunges forth upon the January wind. Now when Mark was ringing the Sanctus-bell, it was with a sense of his place in the scheme of worship. If one listens to the twitter of a single linnet in open country or to the buzz of a solitary fly upon a window pane, how incredible it is that myriads of them twittering and buzzing together should be the song of April, the murmur of June. And this Sanctus-bell that tinkled so inadequately, almost so frivolously when sounded by a server in Meade Cantorum church, was yet part of an unimaginable volume of worship that swelled in unison with Angels and Archangels lauding and magnifying the Holy Name. The importance of ceremony was as deeply impressed upon Mark that morning as if he had been formally initiated to great mysteries. His coming confirmation, which had been postponed from July 2nd to September 8th seemed much more momentous now than it seemed yesterday. It was no longer a step to Communion, but was apprehended as a Sacrament itself, and though Mr. Ogilvie was inclined to regret the ritualistic development of his catechumen, Mark derived much strength from what was really the awakening in him of a sense of form, which more than anything makes emotion durable. Perhaps Ogilvie may have been a little jealous of Dorward"s influence; he also was really alarmed at the prospect, as he said, of so much fire being wasted upon poker-work. In the end what between Dorward"s encouragement of Mark"s ritualistic tendencies and the "spiking up" process to which he was himself being subjected, Ogilvie was glad when a fortnight later Dorward took himself off to his own living, and he expressed a hope that Mark would perceive Dorward in his true proportions as a dear good fellow, perfectly sincere, but just a little, well, not exactly mad, but so eccentric as sometimes to do more harm than good to the Movement. Mark was shrewd enough to notice that however much he grumbled about his friend"s visit Mr. Ogilvie was sufficiently influenced by that visit to put into practice much of the advice to which he had taken exception. The influence of Dorward upon Mark did not stop with his begetting in him an appreciation of the value of form in worship. When Mark told Mr. Ogilvie that he intended to become a priest, Mr. Ogilvie was impressed by the manifestation of the Divine Grace, but he did not offer many practical suggestions for Mark"s immediate future. Dorward on the contrary attached as much importance to the manner in which he was to become a priest.
"Oxford," Mr. Dorward p.r.o.nounced. "And then Glas...o...b..ry."
"Glas...o...b..ry?"
"Glas...o...b..ry Theological College."
Now to Mark Oxford was a legendary place to which before he met Mr.
Dorward he would never have aspired. Oxford at Haverton House was merely an abstraction to which a certain number of people offered an illogical allegiance in order to create an excuse for argument and strife.
Sometimes Mark had gazed at Eton and wondered vaguely about existence there; sometimes he had gazed at the towers of Windsor and wondered what the Queen ate for breakfast. Oxford was far more remote than either of these, and yet when Mr. Dorward said that he must go there his heart leapt as if to some recognized ambition long ago buried and now abruptly resuscitated.
"I"ve always been Oxford," he admitted.