The Altar Steps.
by Compton MacKenzie.
CHAPTER I
THE BISHOP"S SHADOW
Frightened by some alarm of sleep that was forgotten in the moment of waking, a little boy threw back the bedclothes and with quick heart and breath sat listening to the torrents of darkness that went rolling by.
He dared not open his mouth to scream lest he should be suffocated; he dared not put out his arm to search for the bell-rope lest he should be seized; he dared not hide beneath the blankets lest he should be kept there; he could do nothing except sit up trembling in a vain effort to orientate himself. Had the room really turned upside down? On an impulse of terror he jumped back from the engorging night and b.u.mped his forehead on one of the bra.s.s k.n.o.bs of the bedstead. With horror he apprehended that what he had so often feared had finally come to pa.s.s.
An earthquake had swallowed up London in spite of everybody"s a.s.surance that London could not be swallowed up by earthquakes. He was going down down to smoke and fire . . . or was it the end of the world? The quick and the dead . . . skeletons . . . thousands and thousands of skeletons.
"Guardian Angel!" he shrieked.
Now surely that Guardian Angel so often conjured must appear. A shaft of golden candlelight flickered through the half open door. The little boy prepared an att.i.tude to greet his Angel that was a compound of the suspicion and courtesy with which he would have welcomed a new governess and the admiring fellowship with which he would have thrown a piece of bread to a swan.
"Are you awake, Mark?" he heard his mother whisper outside.
He answered with a cry of exultation and relief.
"Oh, Mother," he sighed, clinging to the soft sleeves of her dressing-gown. "I thought it was being the end of the world."
"What made you think that, my precious?"
"I don"t know. I just woke up, and the room was upside down. And first I thought it was an earthquake, and then I thought it was the Day of Judgment." He suddenly began to chuckle to himself. "How silly of me, Mother. Of course it couldn"t be the Day of Judgment, because it"s night, isn"t it? It couldn"t ever be the Day of Judgment in the night, could it?" he continued hopefully.
Mrs. Lidderdale did not hesitate to rea.s.sure her small son on this point. She had no wish to add another to that long list of nightly fears and fantasies which began with mad dogs and culminated in the Prince of Darkness himself.
"The room looks quite safe now, doesn"t it?" Mark theorized.
"It is quite safe, darling."
"Do you think I could have the gas lighted when you really _must_ go?"
"Just a little bit for once."
"Only a little bit?" he echoed doubtfully. A very small illumination was in its eerie effect almost worse than absolute darkness.
"It isn"t healthy to sleep with a great deal of light," said his mother.
"Well, how much could I have? Just for once not a crocus, but a tulip.
And of course not a violet."
Mark always thought of the gas-jets as flowers. The dimmest of all was the violet; followed by the crocus, the tulip, and the water-lily; the last a brilliant affair with wavy edges, and sparkling motes dancing about in the blue water on which it swam.
"No, no, dearest boy. You really can"t have as much as that. And now snuggle down and go to sleep again. I wonder what made you wake up?"
Mark seized upon this splendid excuse to detain his mother for awhile.
"Well, it wasn"t ergzackly a dream," he began to improvise. "Because I was awake. And I heard a terrible plump and I said "what can that be?"
and then I was frightened and. . . ."
"Yes, well, my sweetheart, you must tell Mother in the morning."
Mark perceived that he had been too slow in working up to his crisis and desperately he sought for something to arrest the attention of his beloved audience.
"Perhaps my Guardian Angel was beside me all the time, because, look!
here"s a feather."
He eyed his mother, hoping against hope that she would pretend to accept his suggestion; but alas, she was severely unimaginative.
"Now, darling, don"t talk foolishly. You know perfectly that is only a feather which has worked its way out of your pillow."
"Why?"
The monosyllable had served Mark well in its time; but even as he fell back upon this stale resource he knew it had failed at last.
"I can"t stay to explain "why" now; but if you try to think you"ll understand why."
"Mother, if I don"t have any gas at all, will you sit with me in the dark for a little while, a tiny little while, and stroke my forehead where I b.u.mped it on the k.n.o.b of the bed? I really did b.u.mp it quite hard--I forgot to tell you that. I forgot to tell you because when it was you I was so excited that I forgot."
"Now listen, Mark. Mother wants you to be a very good boy and turn over and go to sleep. Father is very worried and very tired, and the Bishop is coming tomorrow."
"Will he wear a hat like the Bishop who came last Easter? Why is he coming?"
"No darling, he"s not that kind of bishop. I can"t explain to you why he"s coming, because you wouldn"t understand; but we"re all very anxious, and you must be good and brave and unselfish. Now kiss me and turn over."
Mark flung his arms round his mother"s neck, and thrilled by a sudden desire to sacrifice himself murmured that he would go to sleep in the dark.
"In the quite dark," he offered, dipping down under the clothes so as to be safe by the time the protecting candle-light wavered out along the pa.s.sage and the soft closing of his mother"s door a.s.sured him that come what might there was only a wall between him and her.
"And perhaps she won"t go to sleep before I go to sleep," he hoped.
At first Mark meditated upon bishops. The perversity of night thoughts would not allow him to meditate upon the pictures of some child-loving bishop like St. Nicolas, but must needs fix his contemplation upon a certain Bishop of Bingen who was eaten by rats. Mark could not remember why he was eaten by rats, but he could with dreadful distinctness remember that the prelate escaped to a castle on an island in the middle of the Rhine, and that the rats swam after him and swarmed in by every window until his castle was--ugh!--Mark tried to banish from his mind the picture of the wicked Bishop Hatto and the rats, millions of them, just going to eat him up. Suppose a lot of rats came swarming up Notting Hill and unanimously turned to the right into Notting Dale and ate him?
An earthquake would be better than that. Mark began to feel thoroughly frightened again; he wondered if he dared call out to his mother and put forward the theory that there actually was a rat in his room. But he had promised her to be brave and unselfish, and . . . there was always the evening hymn to fall back upon.
_Now the day is over,_ _Night is drawing nigh,_ _Shadows of the evening_ _Steal across the sky._
Mark thought of a beautiful evening in the country as beheld in a Summer Number, more of an afternoon really than an evening, with trees making shadows right across a golden field, and spotted cows in the foreground.
It was a blissful and completely soothing picture while it lasted; but it soon died away, and he was back in the midway of a London night with icy stretches of sheet to right and left of him instead of golden fields.
_Now the darkness gathers,_ _Stars begin to peep,_ _Birds and beasts and flowers_ _Soon will be asleep._
But rats did not sleep; they were at their worst and wake-fullest in the night time.
_Jesu, give the weary_ _Calm and sweet repose,_ _With thy tenderest blessing_ _May mine eyelids close._