Before three days I had exchanged vows of eternal fidelity with the lady, and all that, and had gained her consent to marry me on reaching England. As to the old man there was no trouble at all. He made no inquiries about my means, but wrung my hand heartily, and said G.o.d bless me. Besides, there were no friends of my own to consider. My parents were dead, and I had no relations nearer than cousins, for whom I didn"t care a pin.
"My wife lived at Exeter, and belonged to rather common people; but, of course, I didn"t care for that. Her own manners and style were refined enough. She had been sent by her father to a very fashionable boarding-school, where she had been run through the same mould as that in which her superiors had been formed, and so she might have pa.s.sed muster any where. Her father was awfully fond of her, and proud of her. She tyrannized over him completely. I soon found out that she had been utterly spoiled by his excessive indulgence, and that she was the most whimsical, nonsensical, headstrong, little spoiled beauty that ever lived. But, of course, all that, instead of deterring me, only increased the fascination which she exercised, and made me more madly in love than ever.
"Her name was not a particularly attractive one; but what are names!
It was Arethusa Wiggins. Now the old man always called her "Arry,"
which sounded like the vulgar p.r.o.nunciation of "Harry." Of course I couldn"t call her that, and Arethusa was too infernally long, for a fellow doesn"t want to be all day in p.r.o.nouncing his wife"s name.
Besides, it isn"t a bad name in itself, of course; it"s poetic, cla.s.sic, and does to name a ship of war, but isn"t quite the thing for one"s home and hearth.
"After our marriage we spent the honeymoon in Switzerland, and then came home. I had a very nice estate, and have it yet. You"ve never heard of Dacres Grange, perhaps--well, there"s where we began life, and a devil of a life she began to lead me. It was all very well at first. During the honey-moon there were only a few outbursts, and after we came to the Grange she repressed herself for about a fortnight; but finally she broke out in the most furious fashion; and I began to find that she had a devil of a temper, and in her fits she was but a small remove from a mad woman. You see she had been humored and indulged and petted and coddled by her old fool of a father, until at last she had grown to be the most whimsical, conceited, tetchy, suspicious, imperious, domineering, selfish, cruel, hard-hearted, and malignant young vixen that ever lived; yet this evil nature dwelt in a form as beautiful as ever lived. She was a beautiful demon, and I soon found it out.
"It began out of nothing at all. I had been her adoring slave for three weeks, until I began to be conscious of the most abominable tyranny on her part. I began to resist this, and we were on the verge of an outbreak when we arrived at the Grange. The sight of the old hall appeased her for a time, but finally the novelty wore off, and her evil pa.s.sions burst out. Naturally enough, my first blind adoration pa.s.sed away, and I began to take my proper position toward her; that is to say, I undertook to give her some advice, which she very sorely needed. This was the signal for a most furious outbreak.
What was worse, her outbreak took place before the servants. Of course I could do nothing under such circ.u.mstances, so I left the room. When I saw her again she was sullen and vicious. I attempted a reconciliation, and kneeling down I pa.s.sed my arms caressingly around her. "Look here," said I, "my own poor little darling, if I"ve done wrong, I"m sorry, and--"
"Well, what do you think my lady did?"
"I don"t know."
"She _kicked me_! that"s all; she kicked me, just as I was apologizing to her--just as I was trying to make it up. She kicked me! when I had done nothing, and she alone had been to blame. What"s more, her boots were rather heavy, and that kick made itself felt unmistakably.
"I at once arose, and left her without a word. I did not speak to her then for some time. I used to pa.s.s her in the house without looking at her. This galled her terribly. She made the house too hot for the servants, and I used to hear her all day long scolding them in a loud shrill voice, till the sound of that voice became horrible to me.
"You must not suppose, however, that I became alienated all at once.
That was impossible. I loved her very dearly. After she had kicked me away my love still lasted. It was a galling thought to a man like me that she, a common girl, the daughter of a small tradesman, should have kicked me; me, the descendant of Crusaders, by Jove! and of the best blood in England; but after a while pride gave way to love, and I tried to open the way for a reconciliation once or twice. I attempted to address her in her calmer moods, but it was without any success.
She would not answer me at all. If servants were in the room she would at once proceed to give orders to them, just as though I had not spoken. She showed a horrible malignancy in trying to dismiss the older servants, whom she knew to be favorites of mine. Of course I would not let her do it.
"Well, one day I found that this sort of life was intolerable, and I made an effort to put an end to it all. My love was not all gone yet, and I began to think that I had been to blame. She had always been indulged, and I ought to have kept up the system a little longer, and let her down more gradually. I thought of her as I first saw her in the glory of her youthful beauty on the Calais boat, and softened my heart till I began to long for a reconciliation. Really I could not see where I had done any thing out of the way. I was awfully fond of her at first, and would have remained so if she had let me; but, you perceive, her style was not exactly the kind which is best adapted to keep a man at a woman"s feet. If she had shown the slightest particle of tenderness, I would have gladly forgiven her all--yes, even the kick, by Jove!
"We had been married about six months or so, and had not spoken for over four months; so on the day I refer to I went to her room. She received me with a sulky expression, and a hard stare full of insult.
""My dear," said I, "I have come to talk seriously with you."
""Kate," said she, "show this gentleman out."
"It was her maid to whom she spoke. The maid colored. I turned to her and pointed to the door, and she went out herself. My wife stood trembling with rage--a beautiful fury.
""I have determined," said I, quietly, "to make one last effort for reconciliation, and I want to be heard. Hear me now, dear, dear wife.
I want your love again; I can not live this way. Can nothing be done?
Must I, must you, always live this way? Have I done any wrong? If I have, I repent. But come, let us forget our quarrel; let us remember the first days of our acquaintance. We loved one another, darling. And how beautiful you were! You are still as beautiful; won"t you be as loving? Don"t be hard on a fellow, dear. If I"ve done any wrong, tell me, and I"ll make it right. See, we are joined together for life.
Can"t we make life sweeter for one another than it is now? Come, my wife, be mine again."
"I went on in this strain for some time, and my own words actually softened me more as I spoke. I felt sorry, too, for my wife, she seemed so wretched. Besides, it was a last chance, and I determined to humble myself. Any thing was better than perpetual hate and misery. So at last I got so affected by my own eloquence that I became quite spooney. Her back was turned to me; I could not see her face. I thought by her silence that she was affected, and, in a gush of tenderness, I put my arm around her.
"In an instant she flung it off, and stepped back, confronting me with a face as hard and an eye as malevolent as a demon.
"She reached out her hand toward the bell.
""What are you going to do?" I asked.
""Ring for my maid," said she.
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""Don"t," said I, getting between her and the bell. "Think; stop, I implore you. This is our last chance for a reconciliation."
"She stepped back with a cruel smile. She had a small penknife in her hand. Her eyes glittered venomously.
""Reconciliation," she said, with a sneer. "_I_ don"t want it; _I_ don"t want _you. You_ came and forced yourself here. Ring for my maid, and I will let her show you the door."
""You can"t mean it?" I said.
""I do mean it," she replied. "Ring the bell," she added, imperiously.
"I stood looking at her.
""Leave the room, then," she said.
""I must have a satisfactory answer," said I.
""Very well," said she. "Here it is."
"And saying this she took the penknife by the blade, between her thumb and finger, and slung it at me. It struck me on the arm, and buried itself deep in the flesh till it touched the bone. I drew it out, and without another word left the room. As I went out I heard her summoning the maid in a loud, stern voice.
"Well, after that I went to the Continent, and spent about six months.
Then I returned.
"On my return I found every thing changed. She had sent off all the servants, and brought there a lot of ruffians whom she was unable to manage, and who threw every thing into confusion. All the gentry talked of her, and avoided the place. My friends greeted me with strange, pitying looks. She had cut down most of the woods, and sold the timber; she had sent off a number of valuable pictures and sold them. This was to get money, for I afterward found out that avarice was one of her strongest vices.
"The sight of all this filled me with indignation, and I at once turned out the whole lot of servants, leaving only two or three maids.
I obtained some of the old servants, and reinstated them. All this made my wife quite wild. She came up to me once and began to storm, but I said something to her which shut her up at once.
"One day I came home and found her on the portico, in her riding-habit. She was whipping one of the maids with the b.u.t.t end of her riding-whip. I rushed up and released the poor creature, whose cries were really heart-rending, when my wife turned on me, like a fury, and struck two blows over my head. One of the scars is on my forehead still. See."
And Dacres put aside his hair on the top of his head, just over his right eye, and showed a long red mark, which seemed like the scar of a dangerous wound.
"It was an ugly blow," he continued. "I at once tore the whip from her, and, grasping her hand, led her into the drawing-room. There I confronted her, holding her tight. I dare say I was rather a queer sight, for the blood was rushing down over my face, and dripping from my beard.
""Look here, now," I said; "do you know any reason why I shouldn"t lay this whip over your shoulders? The English law allows it. Don"t you feel that you deserve it?"
"She shrank down, pale and trembling. She was a coward, evidently, and accessible to physical terror.
""If I belonged to your cla.s.s," said I, "I would do it. But I am of a different order. I am a gentleman. Go. After all, I"m not sorry that you gave me this blow."
"I stalked out of the room, had a doctor, who bound up the wound, and then meditated over my situation. I made up my mind at once to a separation. Thus far she had done nothing to warrant a divorce, and separation was the only thing. I was laid up and feverish for about a month, but at the end of that time I had an interview with my wife. I proposed a separation, and suggested that she should go home to her father. This she refused. She declared herself quite willing to have a separation, but insisted on living at Dacres Grange.
""And what am I to do?" I asked.
""Whatever you please," she replied, calmly.
""Do you really propose," said I, "to drive me out of the home of my ancestors, and live here yourself? Do you think I will allow this place to be under your control after the frightful havoc that you have made?"