Oh, anything--I mean I would work at, anything I could get to do, but thus far I haven"t been able to find an occupation."
"Maybe I can help you; I"d like to try."
"I shall be very glad. I"ve tried, myself, to weariness."
"Well, of course where a man hasn"t a regular trade he"s pretty bad off in this world. What you needed, I reckon, was less book learning and more bread-and-b.u.t.ter learning. I don"t know what your father could have been thinking of. You ought to have had a trade, you ought to have had a trade, by all means. But never mind about that; we"ll stir up something to do, I guess. And don"t you get homesick; that"s a bad business. We"ll talk the thing over and look around a little. You"ll come out all right. Wait for me--I"ll go down to supper with you."
By this time Tracy had achieved a very friendly feeling for Barrow and would have called him a friend, maybe, if not taken too suddenly on a straight-out requirement to realize on his theories. He was glad of his society, anyway, and was feeling lighter hearted than before. Also he was pretty curious to know what vocation it might be which had furnished Barrow such a large acquaintanceship with books and allowed him so much time to read.
CHAPTER XII.
Presently the supper bell began to ring in the depths of the house, and the sound proceeded steadily upward, growing in intensity all the way up towards the upper floors. The higher it came the more maddening was the noise, until at last what it lacked of being absolutely deafening, was made up of the sudden crash and clatter of an avalanche of boarders down the uncarpeted stairway. The peerage did not go to meals in this fashion; Tracy"s training had not fitted him to enjoy this hilarious zoological clamor and enthusiasm. He had to confess that there was something about this extraordinary outpouring of animal spirits which he would have to get inured to before he could accept it. No doubt in time he would prefer it; but he wished the process might be modified and made just a little more gradual, and not quite so p.r.o.nounced and violent. Barrow and Tracy followed the avalanche down through an ever increasing and ever more and more aggressive stench of bygone cabbage and kindred smells; smells which are to be found nowhere but in a cheap private boarding house; smells which once encountered can never be forgotten; smells which encountered generations later are instantly recognizable, but never recognizable with pleasure. To Tracy these odors were suffocating, horrible, almost unendurable; but he held his peace and said nothing. Arrived in the bas.e.m.e.nt, they entered a large dining-room where thirty-five or forty people sat at a long table. They took their places. The feast had already begun and the conversation was going on in the liveliest way from one end of the table to the other. The table cloth was of very coa.r.s.e material and was liberally spotted with coffee stains and grease. The knives and forks were iron, with bone handles, the spoons appeared to be iron or sheet iron or something of the sort. The tea and coffee cups were of the commonest and heaviest and most durable stone ware. All the furniture of the table was of the commonest and cheapest sort. There was a single large thick slice of bread by each boarder"s plate, and it was observable that he economized it as if he were not expecting it to be duplicated. Dishes of b.u.t.ter were distributed along the table within reach of people"s arms, if they had long ones, but there were no private b.u.t.ter plates. The b.u.t.ter was perhaps good enough, and was quiet and well behaved; but it had more bouquet than was necessary, though n.o.body commented upon that fact or seemed in any way disturbed by it. The main feature of the feast was a piping hot Irish stew made of the potatoes and meat left over from a procession of previous meals. Everybody was liberally supplied with this dish. On the table were a couple of great dishes of sliced ham, and there were some other eatables of minor importance--preserves and New Orleans mola.s.ses and such things. There was also plenty of tea and coffee of an infernal sort, with brown sugar and condensed milk, but the milk and sugar supply was not left at the discretion of the boarders, but was rationed out at headquarters--one spoonful of sugar and one of condensed milk to each cup and no more. The table was waited upon by two stalwart negro women who raced back and forth from the bases of supplies with splendid dash and clatter and energy. Their labors were supplemented after a fashion by the young girl Puss. She carried coffee and tea back and forth among the boarders, but she made pleasure excursions rather than business ones in this way, to speak strictly. She made jokes with various people. She chaffed the young men pleasantly and wittily, as she supposed, and as the rest also supposed, apparently, judging by the applause and laughter which she got by her efforts. Manifestly she was a favorite with most of the young fellows and sweetheart of the rest of them. Where she conferred notice she conferred happiness, as was seen by the face of the recipient; and; at the same time she conferred unhappiness--one could see it fall and dim the faces of the other young fellows like a shadow. She never "Mistered" these friends of hers, but called them "Billy," "Tom," "John," and they called her "Puss" or "Hattie."
Mr. Marsh sat at the head of the table, his wife sat at the foot. Marsh was a man of sixty, and was an American; but if he had been born a month earlier he would have been a Spaniard. He was plenty good enough Spaniard as it was; his face was very dark, his hair very black, and his eyes were not only exceedingly black but were very intense, and there was something about them that indicated that they could burn with pa.s.sion upon occasion. He was stoop-shouldered and lean-faced, and the general aspect of him was disagreeable; he was evidently not a very companionable person. If looks went for anything, he was the very opposite of his wife, who was all motherliness and charity, good will and good nature. All the young men and the women called her Aunt Rachael, which was another sign. Tracy"s wandering and interested eye presently fell upon one boarder who had been overlooked in the distribution of the stew. He was very pale and looked as if he had but lately come out of a sick bed, and also as if he ought to get back into it again as soon as possible. His face was very melancholy. The waves of laughter and conversation broke upon it without affecting it any more than if it had been a rock in the sea and the words and the laughter veritable waters. He held his head down and looked ashamed. Some of the women cast glances of pity toward him from time to time in a furtive and half afraid way, and some of the youngest of the men plainly had compa.s.sion on the young fellow--a compa.s.sion exhibited in their faces but not in any more active or compromising way. But the great majority of the people present showed entire indifference to the youth and his sorrows. Marsh sat with his head down, but one could catch the malicious gleam of his eyes through his s.h.a.ggy brows. He was watching that young fellow with evident relish. He had not neglected him through carelessness, and apparently the table understood that fact. The spectacle was making Mrs. Marsh very uncomfortable. She had the look of one who hopes against hope that the impossible may happen. But as the impossible did not happen, she finally ventured to speak up and remind her husband that Nat Brady hadn"t been helped to the Irish stew.
Marsh lifted his head and gasped out with mock courtliness, "Oh, he hasn"t, hasn"t he? What a pity that is. I don"t know how I came to overlook him. Ah, he must pardon me. You must indeed Mr--er--Baxter-- Barker, you must pardon me. I--er--my attention was directed to some other matter, I don"t know what. The thing that grieves me mainly is, that it happens every meal now. But you must try to overlook these little things, Mr. Bunker, these little neglects on my part. They"re always likely to happen with me in any case, and they are especially likely to happen where a person has--er--well, where a person is, say, about three weeks in arrears for his board. You get my meaning?--you get my idea? Here is your Irish stew, and--er--it gives me the greatest pleasure to send it to you, and I hope that you will enjoy the charity as much as I enjoy conferring it."
A blush rose in Brady"s white cheeks and flowed slowly backward to his ears and upward toward his forehead, but he said nothing and began to eat his food under the embarra.s.sment of a general silence and the sense that all eyes were fastened upon him. Barrow whispered to Tracy: "The old man"s been waiting for that. He wouldn"t have missed that chance for anything."
"It"s a brutal business," said Tracy. Then he said to himself, purposing to set the thought down in his diary later: "Well, here in this very house is a republic where all are free and equal, if men are free and equal anywhere in the earth, therefore I have arrived at the place I started to find, and I am a man among men, and on the strictest equality possible to men, no doubt. Yet here on the threshold I find an inequality. There are people at this table who are looked up to for some reason or another, and here is a poor devil of a boy who is looked down upon, treated with indifference, and shamed by humiliations, when he has committed no crime but that common one of being poor. Equality ought to make men n.o.ble-minded. In fact I had supposed it did do that."
After supper, Barrow proposed a walk, and they started. Barrow had a purpose. He wanted Tracy to get rid of that cowboy hat. He didn"t see his way to finding mechanical or manual employment for a person rigged in that fashion. Barrow presently said: "As I understand it, you"re not a cowboy."
"No, I"m not."
"Well, now if you will not think me too curious, how did you come to mount that hat? Where"d you get it?"
Tracy didn"t know quite how to reply to this, but presently said, "Well, without going into particulars; I exchanged clothes with a stranger under stress of weather, and I would like to find him and re- exchange."
"Well, why don"t you find him? Where is he?"
"I don"t know. I supposed the best way to find him would be to continue to wear his clothes, which are conspicuous enough to attract his attention if I should meet him on the street."
"Oh, very well," said Barrow, "the rest of the outfit, is well enough, and while it"s not too conspicuous, it isn"t quite like the clothes that anybody else wears. Suppress the hat. When you meet your man he"ll recognize the rest of his suit. That"s a mighty embarra.s.sing hat, you know, in a centre of civilization like this. I don"t believe an angel could get employment in Washington in a halo like that."
Tracy agreed to replace the hat with something of a modester form, and they stepped aboard a crowded car and stood with others on the rear platform. Presently, as the car moved swiftly along the rails, two men crossing the street caught sight of the backs of Barrow and Tracy, and both exclaimed at once, "There he is!" It was Sellers and Hawkins. Both were so paralyzed with joy that before they could pull themselves together and make an effort to stop the car, it was gone too far, and they decided to wait for the next one. They waited a while; then it occurred to Washington that there could be no use in chasing one horse- car with another, and he wanted to hunt up a hack. But the Colonel said: "When you come to think of it, there"s no occasion for that at all. Now that I"ve got him materialized, I can command his motions. I"ll have him at the house by the time we get there."
Then they hurried off home in a state of great and joyful excitement.
The hat exchange accomplished, the two new friends started to walk back leisurely to the boarding house. Barrow"s mind was full of curiosity about this young fellow. He said, "You"ve never been to the Rocky Mountains?"
"No."
"You"ve never been out on the plains?"
"No."
"How long have you been in this country?"
"Only a few days."
"You"ve never been in America before?"
Then Barrow communed with himself. "Now what odd shapes the notions of romantic people take. Here"s a young, fellow who"s read in England about cowboys and adventures on the plains. He comes here and buys a cowboy"s suit. Thinks he can play himself on folks for a cowboy, all inexperienced as he is. Now the minute he"s caught in this poor little game, he"s ashamed of it and ready to retire from it. It is that exchange that he has put up as an explanation. It"s rather thin, too thin altogether. Well, he"s young, never been anywhere, knows nothing about the world, sentimental, no doubt. Perhaps it was the natural thing for him to do, but it was a most singular choice, curious freak, altogether."
Both men were busy with their thoughts for a time, then Tracy heaved a sigh and said, "Mr. Barrow, the case of that young fellow troubles me."
"You mean Nat Brady?"
"Yes, Brady, or Baxter, or whatever it was. The old landlord called him by several different names."
"Oh, yes, he has been very liberal with names for Brady, since Brady fell into arrears for his board. Well, that"s one of his sarcasms--the old man thinks he"s great on sarcasm."
"Well, what is Brady"s difficulty? What is Brady--who is he?"
"Brady is a tinner. He"s a young journeyman tinner who was getting along all right till he fell sick and lost his job. He was very popular before he lost his job; everybody in the house liked Brady. The old man was rather especially fond of him, but you know that when a man loses his job and loses his ability to support himself and to pay his way as he goes, it makes a great difference in the way people look at him and feel about him."
"Is that so! Is it so?"
Barrow looked at Tracy in a puzzled way. "Why of course it"s so. Wouldn"t you know that, naturally. Don"t you know that the wounded deer is always attacked and killed by its companions and friends?"
Tracy said to himself, while a chilly and boding discomfort spread itself through his system, "In a republic of deer and men where all are free and equal, misfortune is a crime, and the prosperous gore the unfortunate to death." Then he said aloud, "Here in the boarding house, if one would have friends and be popular instead of having the cold shoulder turned upon him, he must be prosperous."
"Yes," Barrow said, "that is so. It"s their human nature. They do turn against Brady, now that he"s unfortunate, and they don"t like him as well as they did before; but it isn"t because of any lack in Brady--he"s just as he was before, has the same nature and the same impulses, but they-- well, Brady is a thorn in their consciences, you see. They know they ought to help him and they"re too stingy to do it, and they"re ashamed of themselves for that, and they ought also to hate themselves on that account, but instead of that they hate Brady because he makes them ashamed of themselves. I say that"s human nature; that occurs everywhere; this boarding house is merely the world in little, it"s the case all over--they"re all alike. In prosperity we are popular; popularity comes easy in that case, but when the other thing comes our friends are pretty likely to turn against us."
Tracy"s n.o.ble theories and high purposes were beginning to feel pretty damp and clammy. He wondered if by any possibility he had made a mistake in throwing his own prosperity to the winds and taking up the cross of other people"s unprosperity. But he wouldn"t listen to that sort of thing; he cast it out of his mind and resolved to go ahead resolutely along the course he had mapped out for himself.
Extracts from his diary: Have now spent several days in this singular hive. I don"t know quite what to make out of these people. They have merits and virtues, but they have some other qualities, and some ways that are hard to get along with. I can"t enjoy them. The moment I appeared in a hat of the period, I noticed a change. The respect which had been paid me before, pa.s.sed suddenly away, and the people became friendly--more than that--they became familiar, and I"m not used to familiarity, and can"t take to it right off; I find that out. These people"s familiarity amounts to impudence, sometimes. I suppose it"s all right; no doubt I can get used to it, but it"s not a satisfactory process at all. I have accomplished my dearest wish, I am a man among men, on an equal footing with Tom, d.i.c.k and Harry, and yet it isn"t just exactly what I thought it was going to be. I--I miss home. Am obliged to say I am homesick. Another thing-- and this is a confession--a reluctant one, but I will make it: The thing I miss most and most severely, is the respect, the deference, with which I was treated all my life in England, and which seems to be somehow necessary to me. I get along very well without the luxury and the wealth and the sort of society I"ve been accustomed to, but I do miss the respect and can"t seem to get reconciled to the absence of it. There is respect, there is deference here, but it doesn"t fall to my share. It is lavished on two men. One of them is a portly man of middle age who is a retired plumber. Everybody is pleased to have that man"s notice. He"s full of pomp and circ.u.mstance and self complacency and bad grammar, and at table he is Sir Oracle and when he opens his mouth not any dog in the kennel barks. The other person is a policeman at the capitol- building. He represents the government. The deference paid to these two men is not so very far short of that which is paid to an earl in England, though the method of it differs. Not so much courtliness, but the deference is all there.
Yes, and there is obsequiousness, too.
It does rather look as if in a republic where all are free and equal, prosperity and position const.i.tute rank.
CHAPTER XIII.
The days drifted by, and they grew ever more dreary. For Barrow"s efforts to find work for Tracy were unavailing. Always the first question asked was, "What Union do you belong to?"
Tracy was obliged to reply that he didn"t belong to any trade-union.
"Very well, then, it"s impossible to employ you. My men wouldn"t stay with me if I should employ a "scab," or "rat,"" or whatever the phrase was.
Finally, Tracy had a happy thought. He said, "Why the thing for me to do, of course, is to join a trade-union."
"Yes," Barrow said, "that is the thing for you to do--if you can."
"If I can? Is it difficult?"
"Well, Yes," Barrow said, "it"s sometimes difficult--in fact, very difficult. But you can try, and of course it will be best to try."
Therefore Tracy tried; but he did not succeed. He was refused admission with a good deal of promptness, and was advised to go back home, where he belonged, not come here taking honest men"s bread out of their mouths. Tracy began to realize that the situation was desperate, and the thought made him cold to the marrow. He said to himself, "So there is an aristocracy of position here, and an aristocracy of prosperity, and apparently there is also an aristocracy of the ins as opposed to the outs, and I am with the outs. So the ranks grow daily, here. Plainly there are all kinds of castes here and only one that I belong to, the outcasts." But he couldn"t even smile at his small joke, although he was obliged to confess that he had a rather good opinion of it. He was feeling so defeated and miserable by this time that he could no longer look with philosophical complacency on the horseplay of the young fellows in the upper rooms at night. At first it had been pleasant to see them unbend and have a good time after having so well earned it by the labors of the day, but now it all rasped upon his feelings and his dignity. He lost patience with the spectacle. When they were feeling good, they shouted, they scuffled, they sang songs, they romped about the place like cattle, and they generally wound up with a pillow fight, in which they banged each other over the head, and threw the pillows in all directions, and every now and then he got a buffet himself; and they were always inviting him to join in. They called him "Johnny Bull," and invited him with excessive familiarity to take a hand. At first he had endured all this with good nature, but latterly he had shown by his manner that it was distinctly distasteful to him, and very soon he saw a change in the manner of these young people toward him. They were souring on him as they would have expressed it in their language. He had never been what might be called popular. That was hardly the phrase for it; he had merely been liked, but now dislike for him was growing. His case was not helped by the fact that he was out of luck, couldn"t get work, didn"t belong to a union, and couldn"t gain admission to one. He got a good many slights of that small ill-defined sort that you can"t quite put your finger on, and it was manifest that there was only one thing which protected him from open insult, and that was his muscle. These young people had seen him exercising, mornings, after his cold sponge bath, and they had perceived by his performance and the build of his body, that he was athletic, and also versed in boxing. He felt pretty naked now, recognizing that he was shorn of all respect except respect for his fists. One night when he entered his room he found about a dozen of the young fellows there carrying on a very lively conversation punctuated with horse-laughter. The talking ceased instantly, and the frank affront of a dead silence followed. He said, "Good evening gentlemen," and sat down.
There was no response. He flushed to the temples but forced himself to maintain silence. He sat there in this uncomfortable stillness some time, then got up and went out.
The moment he had disappeared he heard a prodigious shout of laughter break forth. He saw that their plain purpose had been to insult him. He ascended to the flat roof, hoping to be able to cool down his spirit there and get back his tranquility. He found the young tinner up there, alone and brooding, and entered into conversation with him. They were pretty fairly matched, now, in unpopularity and general ill-luck and misery, and they had no trouble in meeting upon this common ground with advantage and something of comfort to both. But Tracy"s movements had been watched, and in a few minutes the tormentors came straggling one after another to the roof, where they began to stroll up and down in an apparently purposeless way. But presently they fell to dropping remarks that were evidently aimed at Tracy, and some of them at the tinner. The ringleader of this little mob was a short-haired bully and amateur prize-fighter named Allen, who was accustomed to lording it over the upper floor, and had more than once shown a disposition to make trouble with Tracy. Now there was an occasional cat-call, and hootings, and whistlings, and finally the diversion of an exchange of connected remarks was introduced: "How many does it take to make a pair?"
"Well, two generally makes a pair, but sometimes there ain"t stuff enough in them to make a whole pair." General laugh.
"What were you saying about the English a while ago?"
"Oh, nothing, the English are all right, only--I--"
"What was it you said about them?"
"Oh, I only said they swallow well."
"Swallow better than other people?"
"Oh, yes, the English swallow a good deal better than other people."
"What is it they swallow best?"
"Oh, insults." Another general laugh.
"Pretty hard to make "em fight, ain"t it?"
"No, taint hard to make "em fight."
"Ain"t it, really?"
"No, taint hard. It"s impossible." Another laugh.
"This one"s kind of spiritless, that"s certain."
"Couldn"t be the other way--in his case."
"Why?"
"Don"t you know the secret of his birth?"
"No! has he got a secret of his birth?"
"You bet he has."
"What is it?"
"His father was a wax-figger."
Allen came strolling by where the pair were sitting; stopped, and said to the tinner; "How are you off for friends, these days?"
"Well enough off."
"Got a good many?"
"Well, as many as I need."
"A friend is valuable, sometimes--as a protector, you know. What do you reckon would happen if I was to s.n.a.t.c.h your cap off and slap you in the face with it?"
"Please don"t trouble me, Mr. Allen, I ain"t doing anything to you."
You answer me! What do you reckon would happen?"
"Well, I don"t know."
Tracy spoke up with a good deal of deliberation and said: "Don"t trouble the young fellow, I can tell you what would happen."
"Oh, you can, can you? Boys, Johnny Bull can tell us what would happen if I was to s.n.a.t.c.h this chump"s cap off and slap him in the face with it. Now you"ll see."
He s.n.a.t.c.hed the cap and struck the youth in the face, and before he could inquire what was going to happen, it had already happened, and he was warming the tin with the broad of his back. Instantly there was a rush, and shouts of: "A ring, a ring, make a ring! Fair play all round! Johnny"s grit; give him a chance."
The ring was quickly chalked on the tin, and Tracy found himself as eager to begin as he could have been if his antagonist had been a prince instead of a mechanic. At bottom he was a little surprised at this, because although his theories had been all in that direction for some time, he was not prepared to find himself actually eager to measure strength with quite so common a man as this ruffian. In a moment all the windows in the neighborhood were filled with people, and the roofs also. The men squared off, and the fight began. But Allen stood no chance whatever, against the young Englishman. Neither in muscle nor in science was he his equal. He measured his length on the tin time and again; in fact, as fast as he could get up he went down again, and the applause was kept up in liberal fashion from all the neighborhood around. Finally, Allen had to be helped up. Then Tracy declined to punish him further and the fight was at an end. Allen was carried off by some of his friends in a very much humbled condition, his face black and blue and bleeding, and Tracy was at once surrounded by the young fellows, who congratulated him, and told him that he had done the whole house a service, and that from this out Mr. Allen would be a little more particular about how he handled slights and insults and maltreatment around amongst the boarders.
Tracy was a hero now, and exceedingly popular. Perhaps n.o.body had ever been quite so popular on that upper floor before. But if being discountenanced by these young fellows had been hard to bear, their lavish commendations and approval and hero-worship was harder still to endure. He felt degraded, but he did not allow himself to a.n.a.lyze the reasons why, too closely. He was content to satisfy himself with the suggestion that he looked upon himself as degraded by the public spectacle which he had made of himself, fighting on a tin roof, for the delectation of everybody a block or two around. But he wasn"t entirely satisfied with that explanation of it. Once he went a little too far and wrote in his diary that his case was worse than that of the prodigal son. He said the prodigal son merely fed swine, he didn"t have to chum with them. But he struck that out, and said "All men are equal. I will not disown my principles. These men are as good as I am."
Tracy was become popular on the lower floors also. Everybody was grateful for Allen"s reduction to the ranks, and for his transformation from a doer of outrages to a mere threatener of them. The young girls, of whom there were half a dozen, showed many attentions to Tracy, particularly that boarding house pet Hattie, the landlady"s daughter. She said to him, very sweetly, "I think you"re ever so nice."
And when he said, "I"m glad you think so, Miss Hattie," she said, still more sweetly, "Don"t call me Miss Hattie--call me Puss."
Ah, here was promotion! He had struck the summit. There were no higher heights to climb in that boarding house. His popularity was complete.
In the presence of people, Tracy showed a tranquil outside, but his heart was being eaten out of him by distress and despair.
In a little while he should be out of money, and then what should he do? He wished, now, that he had borrowed a little more liberally from that stranger"s store. He found it impossible to sleep. A single torturing, terrifying thought went racking round and round in his head, wearing a groove in his brain: What should he do--What was to become of him? And along with it began to intrude a something presently which was very like a wish that he had not joined the great and n.o.ble ranks of martyrdom, but had stayed at home and been content to be merely an earl and nothing better, with nothing more to do in this world of a useful sort than an earl finds to do. But he smothered that part of his thought as well as he could; he made every effort to drive it away, and with fair keep it from intruding a little success, but he couldn"t now and then, and when it intruded it came suddenly and nipped him like a bite, a sting, a burn. He recognized that thought by the peculiar sharpness of its pang. The others were painful enough, but that one cut to the quick when it calm. Night after night he lay tossing to the music of the hideous snoring of the honest bread-winners until two and three o"clock in the morning, then got up and took refuge on the roof, where he sometimes got a nap and sometimes failed entirely. His appet.i.te was leaving him and the zest of life was going along with it. Finally, owe day, being near the imminent verge of total discouragement, he said to himself--and took occasion to blush privately when he said it, "If my father knew what my American name is,--he--well, my duty to my father rather requires that I furnish him my name. I have no right to make his days and nights unhappy, I can do enough unhappiness for the family all by myself. Really he ought to know what my American name is." He thought over it a while and framed a cablegram in his mind to this effect: "My American name is Howard Tracy."
That wouldn"t be suggesting anything. His father could understand that as he chose, and doubtless he would understand it as it was meant, as a dutiful and affectionate desire on the part of a son to make his old father happy for a moment. Continuing his train of thought, Tracy said to himself, "Ah, but if he should cable me to come home! I--I--couldn"t do that--I mustn"t do that. I"ve started out on a mission, and I mustn"t turn my back on it in cowardice. No, no, I couldn"t go home, at--at-- least I shouldn"t want to go home." After a reflective pause: "Well, maybe--perhaps--it would be my duty to go in the circ.u.mstances; he"s very old and he does need me by him to stay his footsteps down the long hill that inclines westward toward the sunset of his life. Well, I"ll think about that. Yes, of course it wouldn"t be right to stay here. If I-- well, perhaps I could just drop him a line and put it off a little while and satisfy him in that way. It would be--well, it would mar everything to have him require me to come instantly." Another reflective pause-- then: "And yet if he should do that I don"t know but--oh, dear me--home! how good it sounds! and a body is excusable for wanting to see his home again, now and then, anyway."
He went to one of the telegraph offices in the avenue and got the first end of what Barrow called the "usual Washington courtesy," where "they treat you as a tramp until they find out you"re a congressman, and then they s...o...b..r all over you." There was a boy of seventeen on duty there, tying his shoe. He had his foot on a chair and his back turned towards the wicket. He glanced over his shoulder, took Tracy"s measure, turned back, and went on tying his shoe. Tracy finished writing his telegram and waited, still waited, and still waited, for that performance to finish, but there didn"t seem to be any finish to it; so finally Tracy said: "Can"t you take my telegram?"