Clearly there was no comfort to be afforded her, and after a few words of practical advice on the subject of the children"s education, he shook hands with her and started again in the direction of Cedar Hill.
The road with its November colours brought back to him the many hours when he had tramped over it in cheerfulness or in despair. The dull brown stretches of broomsedge, rolling like a high sea, the humble cabins, nestling so close to the ground, the pale clay road winding under the half-bared trees, from which the bright leaves were fluttering downward--these things made the breach of the years close as suddenly as if the divided scenery upon a stage had rolled together. While he walked alone here it was impossible to believe in the reality of his life in Botetourt.
As he approached Cedar Hill, the long melancholy avenue appeared to him as an appropriate shelter for Beverly"s gentle ghost. He was surprised to discover with what tenderness he was able to surround the memory of that poetic figure since he stood again in the atmosphere which had helped to cultivate his indefinable charm. In Tappahannock Beverly"s life might still be read in the dry lines of prose, but beneath the historic influences of Cedar Hill it became, even in Ordway"s eyes, a poem of sentiment.
Beyond the garden, he could see presently, through a gap in the trees, the silvery blur of life everlasting in the fallow land, which was steeped in afternoon sunshine. Somewhere from a nearer meadow there floated a faint call of "Coopee! Coopee! Coopee!" to the turkeys lost in the sa.s.safras. Then as he reached the house Aunt Mehitable"s face looked down at him from a window in the second story: and in response to her signs of welcome, he ascended the steps and entered the hall, where he stopped upon hearing a child"s voice through the half open door of the dining-room.
"May I wear my coral beads even if I am in mourning, Aunt Emily?"
"Not yet, Bella," answered Emily"s patient yet energetic tones. "Put them away awhile and they"ll be all the prettier when you take them out again."
"But can"t I mourn for papa and mamma just as well in my beads as I can without them?"
"That may be, dear, but we must consider what other people will say."
"What have other people got to do with my mourning, Aunt Emily?"
"I don"t know, but when you grow up you"ll find that they have something to do with everything that concerns you."
"Well, then, I shan"t mourn at all," replied Bella, defiantly. "If you won"t let me mourn in my coral beads, I shan"t mourn a single bit without them."
"There, there, Bella, go on with your lesson," said Emily sternly, "you are a naughty girl."
At the sound of Ordway"s step on the threshold, she rose to her feet, with a frightened movement, and stood, white and trembling, her hand pressed to her quivering bosom.
"You!" she cried out sharply, and there was a sound in her voice that brought him with a rush to her side. But as he reached her she drew quickly away, and hiding her face in her hands, broke into pa.s.sionate weeping.
It was the first time that he had seen her lose her habit of self-command, and while he watched her, he felt that each of her broken sobs was wrung from his own heart.
"I was a fool not to prepare you," he said, as he placed a restraining hand on the awe-struck Bella. "You"ve had so many shocks I ought to have known--I ought to have foreseen----"
At his words she looked up instantly, drying her tears on a child"s dress which she was mending. "You came so suddenly that it startled me, that is all," she answered. "I thought for a minute that something had happened to you--that you were an apparition instead of a reality. I"ve got into the habit of seeing ghosts of late."
"It"s a bad habit," he replied, as he pushed Bella from the room and closed the door after her. "But I"m not a ghost, Emily, only a rough and common mortal. Baxter wrote me of Beverly"s death, so I came thinking that I might be of some little use. Remember what you promised me in Botetourt."
As he looked at her now more closely, he saw that the clear brown of her skin had taken a sallow tinge, as if she were very weary, and that there were faint violet shadows in the hollows beneath her eyes. These outward signs of her weakness moved him to a pa.s.sion deeper and tenderer than he had ever felt before.
"I have not forgotten," she responded, after a moment in which she had recovered her usual bright aspect, "but there is really nothing one can do, it is all so simple. The farm has already been sold for debt, and so I shall start in the world without burdens, if without wealth."
"And the children? What of them?"
"That is arranged, too, very easily. Blair is fifteen now, and he will be given a scholarship at college. The girls will go to a friend of mine, who has a boarding school and has made most reasonable terms."
"And you?" he asked in a voice that expressed something of the longing he could not keep back. "Is there to be nothing but hard work for you in the future?"
"I am not afraid of work," she rejoined, smiling, "I am afraid only of reaching a place where work does not count."
As he made no answer, she talked on brightly, telling him of her plans for the future, of the progress the children had shown at their lessons, of the arrangements she had made for Aunt Mehitable and Micah, and of the innumerable changes which had occurred since he went away. So full of life, of energy, of hopefulness, were her face and voice that but for her black dress he would not have suspected that she had stood recently beside a deathbed. Yet as he listened to her, his heart was torn by the sharp anguish of parting, and when presently she began to question him about his life in Botetourt, it was with difficulty that he forced himself to reply in a steady voice. All other memories of her would give way, he felt, before the picture of her in her black dress against the burning logs, with the red firelight playing over her white face and hands.
An hour later, when he rose to go, he took both of her hands in his, and bending his head laid his burning forehead against her open palms.
"Emily," he said, "tell me that you understand."
For a moment she gazed down on him in silence. Then, as he raised his eyes, she kissed him so softly that it seemed as if a spirit had touched his lips.
"I understand--forever," she answered.
At her words he straightened himself, as though a burden had fallen from him, and turning slowly away he went out of the house and back in the direction of Tappahannock.
CHAPTER III
ALICE"S MARRIAGE
It was after ten o"clock when he returned to Botetourt, and he found upon reaching home that Lydia had already gone to bed, though a bottle of cough syrup, placed conspicuously upon his bureau, bore mute witness to the continuance of her solicitude. After so marked a consideration it seemed to him only decent that he should swallow a portion of the liquid; and he was in the act of filling the tablespoon she had left, when a ring at the door caused him to start until the medicine spilled from his hand. A moment later the ring was repeated more violently, and as he was aware that the servants had already left the house, he threw on his coat, and lighting a candle, went hurriedly out into the hall and down the dark staircase. The sound of a hand beating on the panels of the door quickened his steps almost into a run, and he was hardly surprised, when he had withdrawn the bolts, to find Alice"s face looking at him from the darkness outside. She was pale and thin, he saw at the first glance, and there was an angry look in her eyes, which appeared unnaturally large in their violent circles.
"I thought you would never open to me, papa," she said fretfully as she crossed the threshold. "Oh, I am so glad to see you again! Feel how cold my hands are, I am half frozen."
Taking her into his arms, he kissed her face pa.s.sionately as it rested for an instant against his shoulder.
"Are you alone, Alice? Where is your husband?"
Without answering, she raised her head, shivering slightly, and then turning away, entered the library where a log fire was smouldering to ashes. As he threw on more wood, she came over to the hearth, and stretched out her hands to the warmth with a nervous gesture. Then the flame shot up and he saw that her beauty had gained rather than lost by the change in her features. She appeared taller, slenderer, more distinguished, and the vivid black and white of her colouring was intensified by the perfect simplicity of the light cloth gown and dark furs she wore.
"Oh, he"s at home," she answered, breaking the long silence. "I mean he"s in the house in Henry Street, but we had a quarrel an hour after we got back, so I put on my hat again and came away. I"m not going back--not unless he makes it bearable for me to live with him. He"s such--such a brute that it"s as much as one can do to put up with it, and it"s been killing me by inches for the last months. I meant to write you about it, but somehow I couldn"t, and yet I knew that I couldn"t write at all without letting you see it. Oh, he"s unbearable!" she exclaimed, with a tremor of disgust. "You will never know--you will never be able to imagine all that I"ve been through!"
"But is he unkind to you, Alice? Is he cruel?"
She bared her arm with a superb disdainful gesture, and he saw three rapidly discolouring bruises on her delicate flesh. The sight filled him with loathing rather than anger, and he caught her to him almost fiercely as if he would hold her not only against Geoffrey Heath, but against herself.
"You shall not go back to him," he said, "I will not permit it!"
"The worst part is," she went on vehemently, as if he had not spoken, "that it is about money--money--always money. He has millions, his lawyers told me so, and yet he makes me give an account to him of every penny that I spend. I married him because I thought I should be rich and free, but he"s been hardly better than a miser since the day of the wedding. He wants me to dress like a dowdy, for all his wealth, and I can"t buy a ring that he doesn"t raise a terrible fuss. I hate him more and more every day I live, but it makes no difference to him as long as he has me around to look at whenever he pleases. I have to pay him back for every dollar that he gives me, and if I keep away from him and get cross, he holds back my allowance. Oh, it"s a dog"s life!" she exclaimed wildly, "and it is killing me!"
"You shan"t bear it, Alice. As long as I"m alive you are safe with me."
"For a time I could endure it because of the travelling and the strange countries," she resumed, ignoring the tenderness in his voice, "but Geoffrey was so frightfully jealous that if I so much as spoke to a man, he immediately flew into a rage. He even made me leave the opera one night in Paris because a Russian Grand Duke in the next box looked at me so hard."
Throwing herself into a chair, she let her furs slip from her shoulders, and sat staring moodily into the fire. "I"ve sworn a hundred times that I"d leave him," she said, "and yet I"ve never done it until to-night."
While she talked on feverishly, he untied her veil, which she had tossed back, and taking off her hat, pressed her gently against the cushions he had placed in her chair.
"You look so tired, darling, you must rest," he said.
"Rest! You may as well tell me to sleep!" she exclaimed. Then her tone altered abruptly, and for the first time, she seemed able to penetrate beyond her own selfish absorption. "Oh, you poor papa, how very old you look!" she said.