Selena was silent for three days, then Lisa pushed her way in for an interview with Police Chief Edwards. She lied; said it was a piece about mothers" cooking, how good it is, favourite recipes.
He was a big man, charming, with a dazzling smile. If she"d met him at a bar, any pick up line would have worked.
He was furious when he realised where she stood. "How dare you? I am not a monster. I want families to be safe from people like you and your cancerous words." He threw her out, hissing, "Write nothing. Say nothing."
That night, Lisa heard a crash of gla.s.s downstairs and reached for the phone. Voices, and she knew for sure there was someone in the house.
She dialled Keith but his mobile didn"t work; all she heard was a high-pitched squeal. Then she dialled her neighbours, hoping one would at least look out the window, shout at the invaders. No answer. Finally, in desperation, she called the police. She flipped open her computer and logged on at the same time.
The phone rang a dozen times. She heard the men downstairs, moving around as if they were looking for something. She quietly shut her door, then moved to look out of the window. It was barred; she had no chance of getting out that way.
"Hold, please," the operator said.
Music, some old pop song, played on bells. "Help," she whispered. She hid in the cupboard. She didn"t care what the men took; they could have it all. She didn"t want to disturb them. They carried machetes, these home invaders, and guns. They would not always try to kill, but she knew that many arrived out of it on booze or drugs.
"h.e.l.lo?" she whispered into the phone. Footsteps on the stairs.
"Can I help you?" The cold, hard voice of the operator.
"My home is being invaded," she whispered. She gave her address. "Hold, please." The operator was remarkably calm; unaffected.
"Lisa Turner?" This came through the door. They knew her name.
"Lisa Turner, we have a warrant for the repossession of your home due to uncontrolled verbiage activity."
Lisa felt deep relief. Every day she spent in fear that her moment of activism would catch up with her, that the grieving relatives perhaps would track her down and ask her why people had to die for her cause. Lisa did not regret the fire. The building had been on sacred ground and the activities inside had destroyed the souls of the true residents of the country. She was sorry that people had needed to die, but it had been necessary. She had lost contact deliberately with those who had instigated the attack; they had considered the deaths a victory, whereas she felt great pain, great guilt, and knew that she would have to atone for it one day.
The police operator hung up on her. As the men entered her room, Lisa hit send, and her notes went out to a dozen journalists and activists around the world.
She expected to be interviewed, locked up, but they gave her thirty minutes to pack her bag and leave her home.
They recommended a hotel for her to stay in, which made her laugh. They would watch her every move, listen to her every word.
Before he ran, Keith had told her, "We can"t put friends or family at risk. If you need to, come join me. Don"t go anywhere else. If they take your house, go there. It"s the first stop. We"ll get the b.a.s.t.a.r.ds."
They confiscated Lisa"s car, too, so she hailed a taxi to take her to the Cewa Flats. They pa.s.sed through a roadblock at the end of the street; Lisa wondered who it was they were keeping out. All the way the driver cleared his throat, spitting out the window. When they arrived, he turned and smiled at her. His teeth were red. "I"ll be out of this country soon. I keep my mouth shut. I"m just waiting for my visa to come through."
"You know it won"t, don"t you? You know they"re not letting anyone out. They"ve cancelled all visas, all pa.s.sports."
He shook his head. "University girl. You don"t know how this country goes. You shouldn"t tell lies to us."
Lisa climbed out, paying him a generous tip. "Good luck with it," she said. He gave her such a look of hatred she mis-shut the door and had to do it again.
The flats were dirty and huge up close. She stepped forward, over a grey, cracked path. The front dirt area was empty of people, a rare thing. Even after the families left, the young men remained, and they hung together in clumps, moving as one large ma.s.s, always something in their hands to be tossed up and down, up and down.
None of the young men were there. In their rooms? Lisa looked up at the many dark doorways. Doorless.
An old woman took her hand and squeezed it. "I am Rashmilla. I will guide you through the spirits." She had an odd shape, lumpy around the chest, as if she had a child hidden in there.
"Up there," she pointed. "You find a room up there. You scream if they bother you, and I"ll send my sister to talk to them."
Lisa saw the lump in Rashmilla"s chest wriggle.
"You can see her?" Rashmilla whispered. She began to unb.u.t.ton her dress; Lisa backed away, wanting to escape.
"If who bothers me?" Lisa said. "I have friends here, you know. They don"t bother people. They speak the truth."
"I"m not talking about your friends, dear," Rashmilla said. "You will know when you meet one."
It was hard to tell a vacated room from an inhabited one. Families had left in a hurry, leaving rubbish, belongings behind. Small clay pots, some with grey ash to the rim, sat in many corners. Mouldy cushions, piles of mice-infested newspaper, remnants of clothes.
Lisa poked her head through a door on the top floor, saw a man sprawled on a mat and pulled back.
"Who"s there? Who is it?" he called. "I"m at home."
Lisa backed away. He hadn"t seen her and she didn"t know him. He sounded desperate; too eager.
She changed her tactic after that, walked slowly past each door and tried to have a sideways peek through the shuttered window. The walls had posters, dismal and ancient attempts to bring colour and life to the small, dank rooms. They seemed embedded, welded to the walls.
She carried a small suitcase. She"d left the rest of her things behind in her house; she imagined the police would have been through everything by now and taken what they wanted. She found a room with a mat and a pile of empty, rusted tins, each with a dry residue at the bottom. She put down her suitcase and tried to find comfort in the s.p.a.ce. The rooms were three metres square, s.p.a.ce for a mat and a sink which also did as a toilet, she could tell.
Looking from her window, all she could see were buildings: dark, rank, decrepit.
It was late--past eleven--and quiet. She curled onto her mat. It was hard and thin with smooth stains at either end. She pulled out a shirt and used that as a shield for her face.
In the morning, people started to emerge. A sense of community filled her. Of possibility. She could hear people talking quietly, and footsteps, people moving around, making breakfast, and, she hoped, coffee. She recognised faces; people she knew. From the inside out the room didn"t look so bad. She had a view, when she stood on her toes and squinted, of a small grove of trees that would bear fruit during the wet season. With a small breeze she fancied she could smell the fruit. It was intoxicating, like the first sniff of a good wine.
She liked wine. Felt an emptiness for it. That first sip around the dinner table, already knowing that the conversation would become freer the more people drank. That soon they would be shouting, making plans, talking of outrages, human rights, and moving the country forward.
She saw Rashmilla one floor down in the building to her left. She called out, but her voice seemed m.u.f.fled. She tried again but then...she opened her mouth to call out again and from her feet, from through the floor, rose a tall, thin ghost, a man with red lesions along his cheekbones. He raised his fist and she flinched, unprepared.
He thrust the fist into her mouth and out, so fast all she felt was a mouthful then nothing but the taste of anchovies left behind.
She reached to grab him but he leapt over the balcony, over so fast he blurred in her eyes.
She heard nothing.
She looked over and there was nothing, only Rashmilla looking up, her face serene.
Lisa ran; got to the stairwell, turned around and the ghost was right beside her, fist raised. With his other hand he shushed her, finger to lips.
She hated to be shushed. "I won"t...." she started, but the fist again, in and out of her mouth again, how the h.e.l.l? She couldn"t even get her own fist in there.
She watched him this time over the side and down to the ground where he seemed to...disintegrate.
Lisa dragged herself down the stairs. There were people in many of the rooms, most with their hands over their ears. Others moved up and down the stairs, purposeless. She knew some of them, had sat and talked all night with them, but none of them acknowledged her or seemed willing even to meet her eyes.
Rashmilla slid up to her as she reached the bottom step. "I don"t want peas," Lisa said, waving her away.
"Have you understood?"
Lisa"s eyes adapted; she could see a young girl, the ghost of a young girl, resting herself on Rashmilla"s chest. Lisa could see her face, her teeth; she could see the dirty scarf she wore around her neck.
"I understand I won"t stay here." Lisa stepped away. Rashmilla grabbed her arm, reached out and touched Lisa"s scarred cheek.
"You were burned badly in a fire. I look at you and think of loss. Of all the things gone in the fire."
Rashmilla had the skin of a child. Soft, pale brown, unblemished; it was wrong for her.
Lisa pushed past; Rashmilla hissed, "You behave ugly, you get the cancer of the breath."
"I don"t believe you."
"It doesn"t matter if you believe or not. This is not about belief."
There were deep holes here, dug by bored children. Lisa reached the stone path and trod carefully this time, lifting her foot over the stones.
Something grabbed her ankle, both ankles, and pulled her back. No time to prepare, she landed with a crack on her chin and lay there, pain blurring her thoughts of all else.
"You can"t step over the gravestones," Rashmilla said, shaking her head. She dabbed at Lisa"s chin with a filthy rag. "They moved them so carefully, laying them down one by one. It doesn"t matter, though. The ghosts don"t care about how gentle they were."
Lisa crawled from stone to stone and saw that Rashmilla was telling the truth; the names and dates of the long dead, the recently dead, their stones laid close together.
Lisa pushed herself up and ran to her room, ignoring the whisper of the ghosts around her.
She turned on her laptop to send some emails, get some action. The outrage at such desecration, surely that would get a response. Her first message was to Selena. There was a woman of power, with a voice. Selena needed to know the place wasn"t safe, that it wasn"t a good place to meet. There were ghosts.
The battery was dead, though, and she felt a sense of great disconnection.
Rashmilla knocked at their doors one by one. "You will listen to the speech," she told everyone. "You will listen when he speaks."
"Listen," her childhood ghost echoed. "Listen to the man in the van."
Police Chief Edwards, broadcasting through the speakers of his large white van, said, "Language is a violence. You lepers bring cancer of the breath to the people; it is best you are kept away from the deserving, the good people of this land who support what we are doing and accept it."
Lisa saw Keith, waved at him, wanting his help. Look at me, look at me. He scratched under his arms and went back inside.
She circled around Rashmilla, then went up the stairs to Keith"s room. The smell of human waste was terrible. Did they use the sinks? With barren ground surrounding the buildings, she couldn"t see why people would use sinks for their toilets.
Keith lay on his mat. She had never seen him inactive; it looked odd. Even when he rested he would read, take notes, do something. He lay there, almost motionless.
"Keith," she said. "It"s me. I"m here."
There was a stirring around her, like bats she couldn"t see.
"They don"t like you to talk loud," he said. He got up. "I"d ask you in but there"s not really any room."
"There isn"t. This place is awful, Keith. It"s haunted."
"It"s safe," he said, but his eyes were closed as he spoke.
"It"s not safe. There are ghosts here who don"t want us to speak."
"They don"t like noise. They don"t mind quiet talking."
"What about talking about our situation?" she said. Keith curled up away from her, blocking his ears with his shoulders, his hand over his mouth. At her ankles, she felt a tugging, and she looked down to see the ghost of a legless man, his fist drawn, his face livid.
"Quiet," Keith whispered.
"I"m not staying here, Keith. This is not a haven. Haven"t you realised that?"
The look he gave her made her feel shallow and empty.
Keith turned his back to her, curled up on his mat and hummed softly.
"We"ll get out of here," Lisa said. "I"ll find a way and we"ll get out."
Keith gave a low moan, blocking his ears. Lisa felt a cool breeze behind her and turned to see a gelid old ghost of a woman, shaking with fury. The woman lifted her arms and flew at Lisa, clutching her fingers at Lisa"s throat.
Lisa choked, trying to suck in air. It smelt like old potatoes.
The old woman thrust her thumbs into Lisa"s mouth and pinched. The pain brought tears to her eyes. Her terror was so complete she felt as if another word would never come from her.
The old woman vanished in a faster-than-light flash. Lisa turned to see Keith, sitting up, hugging his knees.
"Shhh," he said.
She left him and went to lie on her own mat, to think. Surely she was able to think.
The moment she closed her eyes, her head was filled with voices, a mess of noise she couldn"t make sense of. The voices were flat, dull; it sounded like thirty people reading the newspaper aloud in languages unfamiliar to them.
She lay with her eyes open, letting her body rest. She felt a deep exhaustion. She had not felt such sustained fear since the fire. That, at least, had been a tangible threat with an obvious course of action: if she was caught, she would confess and never give any names away.
Here...but there was something she could do. She scrabbled for her phone and found it. The battery was fully charged, but she could get no signal except a high-pitched squeal that made her want to jump out of the window.
Lisa tried again, and again, and once more to step over the stone path, but she couldn"t. The ghosts screamed in her ears; she felt a pop, as if her eardrums had burst, and a sharp pain, which felt like a knitting needle in one ear and out the other.
"Can you call someone to visit? I have a friend I want to contact."
Rashmilla shook her head. Her childhood ghost laughed, spun around.
"You can"t leave."