"What horrible weather!" said Blanche.
"Yes," said Marguerite, drawing closer to the fire at each gust of wind, "this night will be difficult to pa.s.s. I do not know, but it seems to me that something extraordinary is going to happen; that bat that I saw--and in my dream all those people were riding to the sabbath on broomsticks. That surely indicates something."
"Certainly," said Urbain, and the old woman, to rea.s.sure herself, rubbed the talisman between her hands.
Urbain"s story had lasted for a long time. Marguerite, however, had said nothing, as she was not anxious to go upstairs to bed. Blanche, who never saw Ursule leave without regret, had taken care not to observe that it was getting late and the young bachelor was not the one who would first think of breaking up the party. However, the clock struck, and they counted eleven strokes.
"O heavens! eleven o"clock," cried Blanche.
"O my G.o.d!" said Marguerite, trembling, "in an hour it will be midnight."
"But, dear nurse, Ursule cannot go so late and besides by the time she gets there--Wait! do you hear the rain, it is falling in torrents. How can she go to the Porte Saint-Antoine in such weather as this? It"s impossible."
"It is certain," said Urbain, "that the roads are very bad. There are no lanterns and often one puts one"s foot in holes that one does not see."
"Poor Ursule, her talisman will not prevent her from being drenched, will it?"
"It is true it doesn"t guarantee one against the effect of rain,"
responded Urbain, sighing.
"What is to be done?" said Marguerite.
"It"s very easy, my dear nurse, Ursule can sleep with me, and tomorrow, as soon as day breaks, she can go without making a noise. Will you, Ursule?"
Urbain was for some moments unable to answer, for these words of Blanche, "She can sleep with me," had so disturbed his whole being that he did not know what he was doing. At last he murmured in a changed voice,--
"If you think well of it, mademoiselle, I think well of it also."
"Most certainly I wish it, do I not dear nurse? We could not let her go out at this time of night. Why don"t you answer?"
Marguerite saw no harm in the country woman"s sleeping with Blanche, but rather hoped to gain an advantage thereby in keeping all night the precious relic; and, as her mind had been struck with the idea that some misfortune was going to happen to her, the possession of the little sc.r.a.p of cloth seemed to her like a benefaction of Providence.
"It"s true," said she, at last, "that the weather is frightful, and if Ursule will not forget to go away before daybreak--"
"Oh, yes, dear nurse, and if she is asleep I promise you I will wake her."
"Very well, then I"m willing that she should remain."
"Oh, how delightful," said Blanche, "we shall sleep together, Ursule. I have never slept with anyone. How we shall chat and laugh."
"No, indeed, no, indeed," said Marguerite; "on the contrary you must go to sleep without making any noise that monsieur could hear."
"Very well, we will go to sleep, dear nurse," responded the amiable child, and she added in Urbain"s ear, "We will talk very low."
"Well, in that case I will go to bed," said the old servant hesitating to return that which she held in her hand. "My dear Ursule," she said at last, "you have nothing to fear here. If you would permit me to keep your talisman for this night only, because I sleep in a room that is not safe and I can"t get that bat out of my head."
"Oh, keep it, Mademoiselle Marguerite," said Urbain, "may it do you much pleasure."
"Yes, keep it, dear nurse," said Blanche, "besides we have mine, that will be enough for us, will it not, Ursule?"
"But--yes, I believe so, mademoiselle."
Marguerite, delighted to possess a safeguard for the whole night, lighted her lamp and turned towards the door, saying,--
"Good night, my children, good night. Mercy, what a gust of wind.
Ursule, you must go tomorrow before daybreak."
"Yes, mademoiselle."
"Go to bed as quickly as possible, and extinguish your light, that no one may suspect anything."
"Be easy, dear nurse," said Blanche, "we"ll soon put it out."
Marguerite took her lamp and left the room. Blanche closed the door after her.
"Shut your door tight," said the old woman.
"Yes, dear nurse," answered the young girl, and she drew the bolt.
CHAPTER XVI
HOW WILL IT END
When one loves ardently, and when one sees that moment approach which heralds the consummation of his dearest wishes, when one is for the first time entirely alone with the beloved of his heart, one experiences an uneasiness, an agitation which one cannot quell, and which one cannot reasonably account for; it is almost as though one feared that one"s being would be unable to support the realization of this exquisite happiness, as though one doubted whether hopes so sweet, and which have hitherto been so unattainable, can ever be realized.
It is, above all, when one loves with the candor and good faith of early youth that one yields himself tremblingly to the first interview which sounds a knell to all the cherished past. Why, at the very moment of happiness, should one sigh and fear? Poor mortals, it seems that accustomed to sorrow, we shall always be astonished at being happy. In truth, this astonishment pa.s.ses with age and experience; then these delightful rendezvous do not cause us the same emotion; we regard them only as distractions, and laugh at the uneasiness, the embarra.s.sment, which accompanied our first intercourse with the ladies. Ungrateful that we are, we mock at the source of our happiness, at those sweet sensations which time has dissipated, with all the other illusions of our youth, after the manner of the fox in the fable.
"How awkward we were at eighteen years of age," we say; "how embarra.s.sed and constrained in a tete-a-tete, trembling like a leaf as we went to the rendezvous; what a difference now, we go to them singing, we reach that which we desire more quickly, we are a hundred times more pleasing." Yes, but our hair is becoming grizzly, our figure has become rotund, and some rather deep lines are imprinted at the corners of our eyes.
If the approach of long-desired happiness causes in love an inexplicable trouble, what should be the state of one who, all of a sudden, without having had even the slightest hope, finds himself in a position where he may obtain the greatest heights. Such was Urbain"s situation; he loved Blanche with the delirium, the intoxication, which one experiences at nineteen for his first love, and he found himself at eleven o"clock at night alone with the object of his tenderness in a little chamber, separated from all neighbors, with the lovely child drawing the bolt and beginning to undress herself to go to bed. What lover at such a moment could preserve his reason? Poor Blanche, I tremble for thee! In truth thou hast a talisman, but I have no great faith in its power; above all, if you allow yourself to remain with Urbain in the situation in which he is placed. The young bachelor tremblingly paused, sighing and saying not a word he remained standing in a corner of the room, while Blanche prepared the bed, coming and going, jumping and laughing, and finally began to undress herself.
"O heavens!" said Urbain to himself, trembling, coloring, and lowering his eyes, but raising them from time to time to look at Blanche. "O my G.o.d! what must I do. This is not the moment to declare myself, to make known to her who I am, to implore her pardon, and to confess my love to her; but, yes, it is indeed the moment. However, if that confession should frighten her, if her cries should bring somebody here, or if she should drive me from the room. That will be such a pity when I can, by deceiving her a little longer, share her bed, and--oh, no! that would be very ill done! But how pretty she is! great G.o.d, how charming! Ah, I will not look at her." And the rascal looked at her all the time, slyly, it is true, but the more he looked at her the more he felt his resolution imperilled; for each moment Blanche took off some part of her costume, already only a little petticoat covered her seductive form, and the straight corset which had imprisoned her pretty figure was laid upon the bed.
Blanche stopped; however, it was time. She looked at Urbain, who was still standing there, motionless and silent.
"Come, Ursule, why don"t you undress yourself?" said the young girl, approaching the bachelor.
"Because, mademoiselle, I do not know why, I"m afraid."
"What? you"re afraid? Are you afraid with me, Ursule?"
"Afraid, mademoiselle? Yes, I feel that I am very much afraid."
"Why, that"s just like Marguerite, and I, who am much younger, am a great deal braver. It is true that the wind blows very hard, but it won"t carry us away from here. How she trembles! Why Ursule, how can you go every evening alone as far as the Porte Saint-Antoine and yet you tremble with me in my chamber."