A light step followed the voice. Already he was on the stairs. He came bounding down to her like an eager boy. For one wild moment she thought he was going to throw his arms about her. But he stopped himself before he reached her.
"I say, how ill you look!" he said.
That was all the greeting he uttered, and in the same moment she saw that the black hair above his forehead was powdered with white. It sent such a shock through her as no word or action of his could have caused.
She stood for a moment gazing at him in stiff inaction. Then, still stiffly, she held out her hand. But she could not utter a word. She felt as if she were going to burst into tears.
He took the hand. His dark eyes interrogated her, but they told her nothing. "It"s all right," he said rapidly. "I"m Jeanie"s visitor. I shan"t forget it. It was decent of you to send. I say, you--you are not really ill, what?"
No, she was not ill. She heard herself telling him so in a voice she did not know. And all the while she felt as if her heart were bleeding, bleeding to death.
He let her hand go, and straightened himself with the old free arrogance of movement. "May I have something to eat?" he said. "Your message only got to me this morning. I was at breakfast, and I had to leave it to catch the train. So I"ve had practically nothing."
That moved her to activity. She led the way into the little parlour where luncheon had been laid. He sat down at the table, and she waited upon him, almost in silence, yet no longer with embarra.s.sment.
"Aren"t you going to join me?" he said.
She sat down also, and took a minute helping of cold chicken.
"I say, you"re not going to eat all that!" e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.ed Piers.
She had to laugh a little, though still with that horrified sense of tragedy at her heart.
He laughed too his careless boyish laugh, and in a moment all the electricity of the past few moments had gone out of the atmosphere. He leaned forward unexpectedly and transferred a wing of chicken from his plate to hers.
"Look here, Avery! You must eat. It"s absurd. So fire away like a sensible woman!"
There was no tenderness in his tone, but, oddly, she thrilled to its imperiousness, conscious of the old magnetism compelling her. She began to eat in silence.
Piers ate too in his usual quick fashion, glancing at her once or twice but making no further comment.
"Tell me about Jeanie!" he said, finally. "What has brought her to this?
Can"t we do anything--take her to Switzerland or somewhere?"
Avery shook her head. "Can"t you see?" she said, in a low voice.
He frowned upon her abruptly. "I see lots," he said enigmatically. "It"s quite hopeless, what? Wyndham told me as much. But--I don"t believe in hopeless things."
Avery looked at him, mystified by his tone. "She is dying," she said.
"I don"t believe in death either," said Piers, in the tone of one who challenged the world. "And now look here, Avery! Let"s make the best of things for the kiddie"s sake! She"s had a rotten time all her days. Let"s give her a decent send-off, what? Let"s give her the time of her life before she goes!"
He got up suddenly from his chair and went to the open window.
Avery turned her head to watch him, but for some reason she could not speak.
He went on vehemently, his face turned from her. "In Heaven"s name don"t let"s be sorry! It"s such a big thing to go out happy. Let"s play the game! I know you can; you were always plucky. Let"s give her everything she wants and some over! What, Avery, what? I"m not asking for myself."
She did not know exactly what he was asking, but she did not dare to tell him so. She sat quite silent, feeling her heart quicken, striving desperately to be calm.
He flung round suddenly, and came to her. "Will you do it?" he said.
She raised her eyes to his. She was white to the lips.
He made one of his quick, half-foreign gestures. "Don"t!" he said harshly. "You make me feel such a brute. Can"t you trust me--can"t you pretend to trust me--for Jeanie"s sake?" His hand closed fiercely on the back of her chair. He bent towards her. "It"s only a hollow bargain.
You"ll hate it of course. Do you suppose I shall enjoy it any better? Do you suppose I would ask it of you for any reason but this?"
Something in his face or voice pierced her. She felt again that dreadful pain at her heart, as if the blood were draining from it with every beat.
"I don"t know what to say to you, Piers," she said at last.
He bit his lip in sheer impatience, but the next moment he controlled himself. "I"m asking a difficult thing of you," he said, forcing his voice to a quiet level. "It isn"t particularly easy for me either; perhaps in a sense, it"s even harder. But you must have known when you sent for me that something of the kind was inevitable. What you didn"t know--possibly--was that Jeanie is grieving badly over our estrangement.
She wants to draw us together again. Will you suffer it? Will you play the game with me? It won"t be for long."
His eyes looked straight into hers, but they held only a great darkness in which no flicker of light burned. Avery felt as if the gulf between them had widened to a measureless abyss. Once she could have read him like an open book; but now she had not the vaguest clue to his feelings or his motives. He had as it were withdrawn beyond her ken.
"Is it to be only make-believe?" she asked at last.
"Just that," he said, but she thought his voice rang hard as he said it.
An odd little tremor went through her. She put her hand up to her throat.
"Piers, I don"t know--I am afraid--" She broke off in agitation.
He leaned towards her. "Don"t be afraid!" he said. "There is nothing so d.a.m.ning as fear. Shall we go up to her now? I promised I wouldn"t be long."
She rose. He was still standing close to her, so close that she felt the warmth of his body, heard the sharp indrawing of his breath.
For one sick second she thought he would s.n.a.t.c.h her to him; but the second pa.s.sed and he had not moved.
"Shall we go?" he said again. "And I say, can you put me up? I don"t care where I sleep. Any sort of shakedown will do. That sofa--" he glanced towards the one by the window upon which Jeanie had been wont to lie.
"If you like," Avery said.
She felt that the power to refuse him had left her. He would do as he thought fit.
They went upstairs together, and she saw Jeanie"s face light up as they entered. Piers was behind. Coming forward, he slipped a confident hand through Avery"s arm. She felt his fingers close upon her warningly, checking her slight start; and she knew with an odd mixture of relief and dismay that this was the beginning of the game. She forced herself to smile in answer, and she knew that she succeeded; but it was one of the greatest efforts of her life.
CHAPTER IV
THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN
For a week after Piers" arrival, Jeanie was better, so much better that she was able to be carried downstairs and into the garden where she loved to lie. There was a piano in the sitting-room, and Piers would sit at it by the hour together, playing anything she desired. She loved his music, would listen entranced for any length of time while he led her through a world of delight that she had never explored before. It soothed her restlessness, comforted her in weariness, made her forget her pain. And then the summer weather broke. There came a spell of rainy days that made the garden impossible, and immediately Jeanie"s strength began to wane.
It went from her very gradually. She suffered but little, save when her breathing or her cough troubled her. But it was evident to them all that her little craft was putting out to sea at last.
Piers went steadfastly on with the _role_ he had a.s.signed to himself. He never by word or look reminded Avery of the compact between them. He merely took her support for granted, and--probably in consequence of this--it never failed him.