"Don"t let me interrupt your walk!" she called.
"I"m mighty sorry," he answered in confusion. "Did I go too fast?"
"I"m cold," she announced. "I want to go home. And you walk too fast."
"I"m very sorry."
Side by side they started for the Plaza. He wished he could see her face.
"Men don"t usually get so absorbed in themselves when they"re with me."
"I"m sorry."
"That"s very interesting."
"It _is_ rather too cold to walk," he said, briskly, to hide his annoyance.
She made no answer and he wondered if she would dismiss him at the hotel entrance. She walked in without speaking, however, and to the elevator, throwing him a single remark as she entered it:
"You"d better come up."
He hesitated for the fraction of a moment.
"Perhaps I"d better call some other time."
"Just as you say." Her words were murmured as an aside. The main concern of life was the adjusting of some stray wisps of hair in the elevator mirror. Her cheeks were brilliant, her eyes sparkled--she had never seemed so lovely, so exquisitely to be desired.
Despising himself, he found that he was walking down the tenth-floor corridor a subservient foot behind her; was in the sitting room while she disappeared to shed her furs. Something had gone wrong--in his own eyes he had lost a shred of dignity; in an unpremeditated yet significant encounter he had been completely defeated.
However, by the time she reappeared in the sitting-room he had explained himself to himself with sophistic satisfaction. After all he had done the strongest thing, he thought. He had wanted to come up, he had come.
Yet what happened later on that afternoon must be traced to the indignity he had experienced in the elevator; the girl was worrying him intolerably, so much so that when she came out he involuntarily drifted into criticism.
"Who"s this Bloeckman, Gloria?"
"A business friend of father"s."
"Odd sort of fellow!"
"He doesn"t like you either," she said with a sudden smile.
Anthony laughed.
"I"m flattered at his notice. He evidently considers me a--" He broke off with "Is he in love with you?"
"I don"t know."
"The deuce you don"t," he insisted. "Of course he is. I remember the look he gave me when we got back to the table. He"d probably have had me quietly a.s.saulted by a delegation of movie supes if you hadn"t invented that phone call."
"He didn"t mind. I told him afterward what really happened."
"You told him!"
"He asked me."
"I don"t like that very well," he remonstrated.
She laughed again.
"Oh, you don"t?"
"What business is it of his?"
"None. That"s why I told him."
Anthony in a turmoil bit savagely at his mouth.
"Why should I lie?" she demanded directly. "I"m not ashamed of anything I do. It happened to interest him to know that I kissed you, and I happened to be in a good humor, so I satisfied his curiosity by a simple and precise "yes." Being rather a sensible man, after his fashion, he dropped the subject."
"Except to say that he hated me."
"Oh, it worries you? Well, if you must probe this stupendous matter to its depths he didn"t say he hated you. I simply know he does."
"It doesn"t wor----"
"Oh, let"s drop it!" she cried spiritedly. "It"s a most uninteresting matter to me."
With a tremendous effort Anthony made his acquiescence a twist of subject, and they drifted into an ancient question-and-answer game concerned with each other"s pasts, gradually warming as they discovered the age-old, immemorial resemblances in tastes and ideas. They said things that were more revealing than they intended--but each pretended to accept the other at face, or rather word, value.
The growth of intimacy is like that. First one gives off his best picture, the bright and finished product mended with bluff and falsehood and humor. Then more details are required and one paints a second portrait, and a third--before long the best lines cancel out--and the secret is exposed at last; the planes of the pictures have intermingled and given us away, and though we paint and paint we can no longer sell a picture. We must be satisfied with hoping that such fatuous accounts of ourselves as we make to our wives and children and business a.s.sociates are accepted as true.
"It seems to me," Anthony was saying earnestly, "that the position of a man with neither necessity nor ambition is unfortunate. Heaven knows it"d be pathetic of me to be sorry for myself--yet, sometimes I envy d.i.c.k."
Her silence was encouragement. It was as near as she ever came to an intentional lure.
"--And there used to be dignified occupations for a gentleman who had leisure, things a little more constructive than filling up the landscape with smoke or juggling some one else"s money. There"s science, of course: sometimes I wish I"d taken a good foundation, say at Boston Tech. But now, by golly, I"d have to sit down for two years and struggle through the fundamentals of physics and chemistry."
She yawned.
"I"ve told you I don"t know what anybody ought to do," she said ungraciously, and at her indifference his rancor was born again.
"Aren"t you interested in anything except yourself?"
"Not much."
He glared; his growing enjoyment in the conversation was ripped to shreds. She had been irritable and vindictive all day, and it seemed to him that for this moment he hated her hard selfishness. He stared morosely at the fire.
Then a strange thing happened. She turned to him and smiled, and as he saw her smile every rag of anger and hurt vanity dropped from him--as though his very moods were but the outer ripples of her own, as though emotion rose no longer in his breast unless she saw fit to pull an omnipotent controlling thread.
He moved closer and taking her hand pulled her ever so gently toward him until she half lay against his shoulder. She smiled up at him as he kissed her.