"Are you in love, Muriel?"
"What do you mean "love"?" This was the rhetorical question of the year.
"I"m going to tell you something," she said, switching the subject abruptly. "I suppose it"s none of my business, but I think it"s time for you two to settle down."
"Why, we are settled down."
"Yes, you are!" she scoffed archly. "Everywhere I go I hear stories of your escapades. Let me tell you, I have an awful time sticking up for you."
"You needn"t bother," said Gloria coldly.
"Now, Gloria," she protested, "you know I"m one of your best friends."
Gloria was silent. Muriel continued:
"It"s not so much the idea of a woman drinking, but Gloria"s so pretty, and so many people know her by sight all around, that it"s naturally conspicuous--"
"What have you heard recently?" demanded Gloria, her dignity going down before her curiosity.
"Well, for instance, that that party in Marietta _killed_ Anthony"s grandfather."
Instantly husband and wife were tense with annoyance.
"Why, I think that"s outrageous."
"That"s what they say," persisted Muriel stubbornly.
Anthony paced the room. "It"s preposterous!" he declared. "The very people we take on parties shout the story around as a great joke--and eventually it gets back to us in some such form as this."
Gloria began running her finger through a stray red-dish curl. Muriel licked her veil as she considered her next remark.
"You ought to have a baby."
Gloria looked up wearily.
"We can"t afford it."
"All the people in the slums have them," said Muriel triumphantly.
Anthony and Gloria exchanged a smile. They had reached the stage of violent quarrels that were never made up, quarrels that smouldered and broke out again at intervals or died away from sheer indifference--but this visit of Muriel"s drew them temporarily together. When the discomfort under which they were living was remarked upon by a third party, it gave them the impetus to face this hostile world together. It was very seldom, now, that the impulse toward reunion sprang from within.
Anthony found himself a.s.sociating his own existence with that of the apartment"s night elevator man, a pale, scraggly bearded person of about sixty, with an air of being somewhat above his station. It was probably because of this quality that he had secured the position; it made him a pathetic and memorable figure of failure. Anthony recollected, without humor, a h.o.a.ry jest about the elevator man"s career being a matter of ups and downs--it was, at any rate, an enclosed life of infinite dreariness. Each time Anthony stepped into the car he waited breathlessly for the old man"s "Well, I guess we"re going to have some sunshine to-day." Anthony thought how little rain or sunshine he would enjoy shut into that close little cage in the smoke-colored, windowless hall.
A darkling figure, he attained tragedy in leaving the life that had used him so shabbily. Three young gunmen came in one night, tied him up and left him on a pile of coal in the cellar while they went through the trunk room. When the janitor found him next morning he had collapsed from chill. He died of pneumonia four days later.
He was replaced by a glib Martinique negro, with an incongruous British accent and a tendency to be surly, whom Anthony detested. The pa.s.sing of the old man had approximately the same effect on him that the kitten story had had on Gloria. He was reminded of the cruelty of all life and, in consequence, of the increasing bitterness of his own.
He was writing--and in earnest at last. He had gone to d.i.c.k and listened for a tense hour to an elucidation of those minutiae of procedure which hitherto he had rather scornfully looked down upon. He needed money immediately--he was selling bonds every month to pay their bills. d.i.c.k was frank and explicit:
"So far as articles on literary subjects in these obscure magazines go, you couldn"t make enough to pay your rent. Of course if a man has the gift of humor, or a chance at a big biography, or some specialized knowledge, he may strike it rich. But for you, fiction"s the only thing.
You say you need money right away?"
"I certainly do."
"Well, it"d be a year and a half before you"d make any money out of a novel. Try some popular short stories. And, by the way, unless they"re exceptionally brilliant they have to be cheerful and on the side of the heaviest artillery to make you any money."
Anthony thought of d.i.c.k"s recent output, which had been appearing in a well-known monthly. It was concerned chiefly with the preposterous actions of a cla.s.s of sawdust effigies who, one was a.s.sured, were New York society people, and it turned, as a rule, upon questions of the heroine"s technical purity, with mock-sociological overtones about the "mad antics of the four hundred."
"But your stories--" exclaimed Anthony aloud, almost involuntarily.
"Oh, that"s different," d.i.c.k a.s.serted astoundingly. "I have a reputation, you see, so I"m expected to deal with strong themes."
Anthony gave an interior start, realizing with this remark how much Richard Caramel had fallen off. Did he actually think that these amazing latter productions were as good as his first novel?
Anthony went back to the apartment and set to work. He found that the business of optimism was no mean task. After half a dozen futile starts he went to the public library and for a week investigated the files of a popular magazine. Then, better equipped, he accomplished his first story, "The Dictaphone of Fate." It was founded upon one of his few remaining impressions of that six weeks in Wall Street the year before.
It purported to be the sunny tale of an office boy who, quite by accident, hummed a wonderful melody into the dictaphone. The cylinder was discovered by the boss"s brother, a well-known producer of musical comedy--and then immediately lost. The body of the story was concerned with the pursuit of the missing cylinder and the eventual marriage of the n.o.ble office boy (now a successful composer) to Miss Rooney, the virtuous stenographer, who was half Joan of Arc and half Florence Nightingale.
He had gathered that this was what the magazines wanted. He offered, in his protagonists, the customary denizens of the pink-and-blue literary world, immersing them in a saccharine plot that would offend not a single stomach in Marietta. He had it typed in double s.p.a.ce--this last as advised by a booklet, "Success as a Writer Made Easy," by R. Meggs Widdlestien, which a.s.sured the ambitious plumber of the futility of perspiration, since after a six-lesson course he could make at least a thousand dollars a month.
After reading it to a bored Gloria and coaxing from her the immemorial remark that it was "better than a lot of stuff that gets published," he satirically affixed the nom de plume of "Gilles de Sade," enclosed the proper return envelope, and sent it off.
Following the gigantic labor of conception he decided to wait until he heard from the first story before beginning another. d.i.c.k had told him that he might get as much as two hundred dollars. If by any chance it did happen to be unsuited, the editor"s letter would, no doubt, give him an idea of what changes should be made.
"It is, without question, the most abominable piece of writing in existence," said Anthony.
The editor quite conceivably agreed with him. He returned the ma.n.u.script with a rejection slip. Anthony sent it off elsewhere and began another story. The second one was called "The Little Open Doors"; it was written in three days. It concerned the occult: an estranged couple were brought together by a medium in a vaudeville show.
There were six altogether, six wretched and pitiable efforts to "write down" by a man who had never before made a consistent effort to write at all. Not one of them contained a spark of vitality, and their total yield of grace and felicity was less than that of an average newspaper column. During their circulation they collected, all told, thirty-one rejection slips, headstones for the packages that he would find lying like dead bodies at his door.
In mid-January Gloria"s father died, and they went again to Kansas City--a miserable trip, for Gloria brooded interminably, not upon her father"s death, but on her mother"s. Russel Gilbert"s affairs having been cleared up they came into possession of about three thousand dollars, and a great amount of furniture. This was in storage, for he had spent his last days in a small hotel. It was due to his death that Anthony made a new discovery concerning Gloria. On the journey East she disclosed herself, astonishingly, as a Bilphist.
"Why, Gloria," he cried, "you don"t mean to tell me you believe that stuff."
"Well," she said defiantly, "why not?"
"Because it"s--it"s fantastic. You know that in every sense of the word you"re an agnostic. You"d laugh at any orthodox form of Christianity--and then you come out with the statement that you believe in some silly rule of reincarnation."
"What if I do? I"ve heard you and Maury, and every one else for whose intellect I have the slightest respect, agree that life as it appears is utterly meaningless. But it"s always seemed to me that if I were unconsciously learning something here it might not be so meaningless."
"You"re not learning anything--you"re just getting tired. And if you must have a faith to soften things, take up one that appeals to the reason of some one beside a lot of hysterical women. A person like you oughtn"t to accept anything unless it"s decently demonstrable."
"I don"t care about truth. I want some happiness."
"Well, if you"ve got a decent mind the second has got to be qualified by the first. Any simple soul can delude himself with mental garbage."
"I don"t care," she held out stoutly, "and, what"s more, I"m not propounding any doctrine."
The argument faded off, but reoccurred to Anthony several times thereafter. It was disturbing to find this old belief, evidently a.s.similated from her mother, inserting itself again under its immemorial disguise as an innate idea.
They reached New York in March after an expensive and ill-advised week spent in Hot Springs, and Anthony resumed his abortive attempts at fiction. As it became plainer to both of them that escape did not lie in the way of popular literature, there was a further slipping of their mutual confidence and courage. A complicated struggle went on incessantly between them. All efforts to keep down expenses died away from sheer inertia, and by March they were again using any pretext as an excuse for a "party." With an a.s.sumption of recklessness Gloria tossed out the suggestion that they should take all their money and go on a real spree while it lasted--anything seemed better than to see it go in unsatisfactory driblets.