What if she already fell in love too deep and their relations.h.i.+p couldn"t go on? It would hurt her deeply ah~! Not only it would waste both of their times, but it would be hard for her to mend the broken heart... What Lu Ming Cheng did already made her feel hard to believe in true love... if there was a second time, it was better if she wouldn"t get married for the rest of her life."I was poor from a young age --- no money at all, thus, there was a time when I had to live on the street," Feng Xiao Qing admitted her past without any emotions.
Lu Yi Feng looked at her in surprise and his eyes were slightly widened. "Lived on the street?" Lu Yi Feng would never imagine that her condition was that bad ah~! No wonder... no wonder he wasn"t able to find out anything about her. Who would care for a homeless ah~?!
Feng Xiao Qing laughed out loud when she saw the disbelief look on Lu Yi Feng"s face, after all, this was the first time she saw this expression on his aloof face... It looked so comical and ease the heavy tension. She never thought that she would be able to crack his aloofness.
"How old are you back then? I mean, when you started to live alone by yourself?" Lu Yi Feng asked in a hoa.r.s.e voice. If this happened to any other person, he would never care and have such a big reaction. However, this was Feng Xiao Qing. His Feng Xiao Qing!
"Under ten years old..." Feng Xiao Qing answered vaguely because she didn"t want him to check and find out about her father.
Lu Yi Feng frowned. He would never think that Feng Xiao Qing"s father would be that mean! If she lived on the street after she was kicked out, it meant that he left her with nothing --- not even money or a place to live! How could he be so ruthless? A little child at that age --- what could she do all alone?!
He really didn"t understand what was inside Feng Xiao Qing"s father"s mind! Did he try to push her to her death? When he thought back, this was also true. He also burned her house... what else he couldn"t do?
However, this made Lu Yi Feng admired Feng Xiao Qing even more. If she wasn"t clever or had a strong will to survive, he believed she would already dead on the street back then and they would never be able to meet.
"What did you eat when you were living on the street?" Lu Yi Feng asked curiously. He knew that people wouldn"t dare to give a little girl job --- especially with her unknown background.
Feng Xiao Qing found that what she did back then was so embarra.s.sing, but she didn"t want to cover up that part of her anymore. No matter what, that past experiences were the things that made her become the current Feng Xiao Qing. If she continued staying in that house, she would grow up as a weak and cowardly woman. At least, she could live freely at the moment.
"Random things, actually... I didn"t want to beg, so usually, I would search for foods at the trash can or someone would pity me and give me free foods... more or less like that," Feng Xiao Qing answered. She talked in a detached manner... it was like it happened to another person and she just retold the story to him. She was a proud person, so she didn"t like to beg.
Even when she was desperate back then, she had never once lost her sanity.
The detachment look on her face certainly made his heart hurt for her --- even worse than if she cried pitifully in front of him. He couldn"t even imagine what kind of environment she had lived in... how lonely she was... even if he was lonely in his house back then, he could eat and sleep to his heart content and his mother still cared for him.
What about Feng Xiao Qing?
She was all alone with no one to lean on ah~!
Lu Yi Feng saw that there was a long gap between the age when she was kicked out by her father and when she was finally resurfaced with Xiao Xi Xi, he knew that there must be something going on in between. He wondered how he could make her open up and tell him more about her past.Find authorized novels in Webnovel，faster updates, better experience，Please click www.webnovel.com for visiting.
"How long did you live like that?" Lu Yi Feng asked cautiously.
"Almost two years..." Feng Xiao Qing said. "I didn"t really count it..." She didn"t even have a calendar... so how could she remember? In her mind back then, she was only searching for foods or shelters ah~!
"Where did you sleep?" Lu Yi Feng asked once more.
Feng Xiao Qing could see his expression clearly. He didn"t pity her, instead, he looked like that he was feeling hurt for her. It was a better expression than the former. If he pitied her, it would only hurt her ego because Feng Xiao Qing was a proud person.
"Do you really want to know?" Feng Xiao Qing asked. It was a bit embarra.s.sing, but oh well... if they had a fate to be together in the future, she hoped that with this knowledge... he would appreciate and cherish her even more. Even if she loved Lu Yi Feng, she also had her own selfishness...
Lu Yi Feng nodded his head confidently, indicating that he really wanted to know everything.
"I lived here and there, actually. There was no specific location... As long as I felt that the place was safe and good enough, I would sleep there. I used to follow around an old man who took care of me for a few months before the man was finally died due to a disease... He was also homeless just like me," Feng Xiao Qing explained while reminiscing her past memories.
When she remembered the man, her face became softened. In her heart, that old man was far better than her rich father. She could feel his love even though it was only a short moment.
"An old man?" Lu Yi Feng asked. He could see from her expression that the man meant a lot to her. Maybe, without this old man, she wouldn"t be able to survive and he was curious to hear more...
Feng Xiao Qing explained to him that the old man was the same as her --- a homeless person, however, it wasn"t because of his own fault. He was kicked out by his only son ah~! This old man was rich and he built his own company from scratch with his own blood and sweat. After his wife was dead, the old man wanted to spend his day traveling around the world. Thus, he planned to retire.
After he made the decision to retire, he gave his wealth to his son and daughter-in-law. Who would have thought that he actually raised a white-eyed wolf[1]?
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[1]. White-eyed wolf: an idiom that was used to describe a particularly cold-hearted, cruel person.