The next day came in a flas.h.!.+Lu Yi Feng should have felt refreshed if not for the fact that he literally couldn"t sleep ah~! His anxiety got the better of him and he kept tossing around on the bed. Even though he had insomnia, he admitted that this time... it had nothing to do with it ah~!
His mind kept thinking about the confession and what if he failed... because of that, he kept dreaming about it all night. He never thought that chasing a woman could be this hard! He wondered why all the CEOs inside the Korean drama could be that confident when chasing the woman of their dreams. They were even able to look cool all the time! So unlike him ah~!
Well... reality and movie would always be different...
Lu Yi Feng looked at his face through the mirror and felt horrified at what he had seen. How could he let her see him in this condition? He needed to do something! He had planned a pretty epic confession so how could he let himself look bad?! What if Feng Xiao Qing had a second thought about himself ah~?!
No... No... No... He couldn"t let that happen.
He went out of the room and saw Xiao Xi Xi sit obediently in the living room. Because of that, he forgot to search on his phone "how to remove panda eyes". He almost forgot what day it was --- it was Sat.u.r.day.
"Xi Xi... is your mommy already going out?" Lu Yi Feng asked while searching around carefully.
He deliberately came out of the room a bit later than usual so he didn"t need to face the woman"s question about his current state. He seemed to hear that she was already going out just now but he just wanted to make sure.
It was so hard to keep a secret! After all, he was a newbie in this matter and he was afraid that he would accidentally blurt out the truth.
"Yes, Daddy... she just left," Xiao Xi Xi answered while watching TV. Her attention was fully on the movie because today was her day off from kindergarten and she was allowed to watch cartoons a bit longer than usual. Thus, she didn"t really pay attention to Lu Yi Feng"s face.
"Good!" Lu Yi Feng sighed in relief. He forgot to lower his voice so Xiao Xi Xi was able to hear his words clearly.
Her ears perked up when she heard those words and felt surprised! What did Daddy mean by saying that it was good when mommy was gone? Was there something that happened between them that she didn"t know about?! She frowned while furrowing her eyebrows like an adult and she didn"t even want to pay attention to the cartoon anymore!
"Why is it good?" Xiao Xi Xi asked in confusion. She thought that they must have been fighting but after a little while, she changed her mind.
She looked up and felt surprised because of Lu Yi Feng"s panda eyes were pretty bad. She gasped in surprise and asked, "Daddy, what happened to your eyes?" She could more or less guess that it must have something to do with his eyes...
"I"m fine... I just couldn"t sleep last night... so I need to find something to deal with this..." Lu Yi Feng helplessly said.
"I know what to do!" Xiao Xi Xi said excitement.
"Really?" Lu Yi Feng was a bit doubtful. How could she know anything about beauty rescue ah~? After all, she was only five.
"Mommy used to have panda eyes all the time..." She explained.
"When?" Lu Yi Feng asked in surprise.
"Before she met you, Daddy..." Xiao Xi Xi sighed in sadness if she thought about the past.
"How come?" He was feeling curious about the reason.
"Because she needed to take so many works at once and she only slept mostly three to four hours a day..." She explained.
"How do you know about it?"
Feng Xiao Qing wasn"t the type of person who would whine about her hard life to her own daughter so he wondered how the little girl knew about this kind of detail.
"Before this, I didn"t go to school and had a nanny to take care of me at home... the nanny was the one who told me everything... I didn"t believe her and waited for mommy to go home one day... Of course, I pretended to sleep because she always went back home late at night, besides, she would scold me if I didn"t sleep..." Xiao Xi Xi told him with a helpless look on her face.
"Why did she tell you all that? Does your mommy know that you know?" Lu Yi Feng asked in confusion. It wasn"t a nanny"s job to meddle in the employer"s family matter ah~! He was pretty sure that Feng Xiao Qing wouldn"t want Xiao Xi Xi to live in worry every day so she didn"t explain anything to her in the first place.
Xiao Xi Xi looked down in embarra.s.sment while shaking her head, "No, Daddy... Mommy doesn"t know anything about it so you shouldn"t tell her!"
"Why?"
"Because it"s my fault..." Xiao Xi Xi said in a low voice. "I kept making a fuss and once said to the nanny that I hated Mommy for leaving me all alone all the time..."
She was really ashamed of her selfishness. When she knew the real reasons for her mommy"s disappearance all the time, it was like she was being slapped on the face. The reality was hard! Without working, there was no way that both of them could eat. She always wondered why mommy was all alone but she didn"t force her when mommy didn"t want to tell her anything.
Lu Yi Feng sighed. It seemed like he misunderstood the nanny because she had made the right choice. She didn"t want Xiao Xi Xi to grow up and hate her mommy...
He decided to skip this matter because it was already in the past... he could do nothing to change that. "Oh well... What should I do?" He asked.