Feng Xiao Qing didn"t know how to tell him as well because it was all a coincidence. Besides, there was another secret behind their relations.h.i.+p that she couldn"t talk about. She wanted to tell Lu Yi Feng everything, after all, she also felt stressed out with all of this and she had no one to talk with.This was also a secret that she didn"t want Xiao Xi Xi to know so she couldn"t tell the little girl as well. She sighed inwardly in distress... She knew that Lu Yi Feng was still waiting for her story so she could only tell him everything that she could tell him right now.
"Well... I hate him until the end... Basically, I don"t really have a relations.h.i.+p with him or something like that... I wasn"t even close to him back then --- just like I said, I hate him!" Feng Xiao Qing said helplessly while emphasizing the word "hate" because she could see the jealousy in Lu Yi Feng"s expression.
She had never been in love with anyone --- including Lu Ming Cheng. Honestly, the only man who had ever moved her so that she could love him wholeheartedly was Lu Yi Feng, the man in front of her right now.
The only man that had received her for who she was --- even her past as a gangster. On the other hand, she knew that Lu Ming Cheng always despised her as well and looked down at her background even though he joined the gang too.
She had always said that Lu Ming Cheng was the father but she had never said that they used to love each other or something like that. That would never happen! Her hatred toward him had never changed from the beginning up to this moment.
"How could you make a baby without loving each other?" Lu Yi Feng asked like a silly fool. Feng Xiao Qing would think that he was joking if she didn"t see his serious expression.
Feng Xiao Qing didn"t know whether she should laugh or cry and how to answer that question. What kind of era did he live in? He was the big boss of an entertainment company and yet, he could ask such a question.
It was so easy to make a baby ah~!
Feng Xiao Qing cleared her throat and said, "Err... you can make the baby just by doing the deed, right?" That was the only thing that she could say even though she knew that it would aggravate him even more. What else could she say ah~?! She didn"t want to talk about s*x with him, it would be too embarra.s.sing...
Lu Yi Feng frowned when he heard her question. Of course, he understood that point ah~! He wasn"t a fool... even though he had never held a woman before.
"That"s not what I mean!" Lu Yi Feng quickly denied. "I mean... Why did you do the deed with him if you don"t love him?" He quickly said in a low annoyed voice.
Feng Xiao Qing sighed. "It"s not as simple as that... At that time, we were in a messy gang fight and the enemies used a certain gas to distract us... Who knew that it was actually that kind of gas?!" She was also angry whenever she recalled that moment --- they were too careless and didn"t pay attention to the enemies" movement.
However, when they realized what kind of gas it was, it was already too late... Feng Xiao Qing knew her ugly appearance at that time became a joke for the enemies, so they must have prepared the gas beforehand to shame her. The thing that made her angry the most was the fact that they succeeded.
Back then, she didn"t think much about it because she had never thought of herself as a woman. She just accepted it as it was...
Without being told, Lu Yi Feng understood what she had implied. If that was the reason, who could they blame? It was because of the circ.u.mstances. However, his heart felt hurt for Feng Xiao Qing. Which woman wanted to lose her first time just like that?
"That is also the reason Lu Ming Cheng doesn"t know about Xiao Xi Xi, right?" Lu Yi Feng asked.
Feng Xiao Qing nodded her head. "Yes..."
She just accepted the baby and never planned to tell Lu Ming Cheng. There was no way she wanted to be connected with that man... Besides, she was afraid that Lu Ming Cheng would try to take Xiao Xi Xi away with his power after she stopped becoming a gangster.
However, after she was together with Lu Yi Feng, the result would be different. There was no need for her to be afraid of him, besides, Lu Ming Cheng had never seen her real face ah~!
"If he doesn"t know about Xiao Xi Xi, why do you feel afraid that he will know about her?" Lu Yi Feng was curious.
Feng Xiao Qing looked at him in wonder, "Don"t you know?"
"Know what?" Lu Yi Feng asked in surprise.
"I heard from Lu Ming Cheng once when he was in a drunk state. He has a birthmark behind his ear and the shape looks like a star. He said that his family always had that, right?" Feng Xiao Qing asked.
Lu Yi Feng frowned while shaking his head. "My mother never tells me that but I have the same birthmark so it must have been true. My father was always closer to Lu Ming Cheng so maybe he was the one who told Lu Ming Cheng about that," he said coolly.
Feng Xiao Qing sighed when she heard Lu Yi Feng"s words. Even though he said it without any emotions, she knew that he was feeling hurt by it. He must have been yearning for his father"s love. She patted his back softly, trying to comfort him. There was no way to change a biased father --- she had been through that so she wasn"t feeling surprised.
"So... where is your birthmark? Can I see it?" Feng Xiao Qing asked curiously.