Chapter 144: You Will Only Hurt Yourself By Caring Too Much
Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
When Lin Che woke up the next day, she felt her head was in a mess. She tried to remember what happened last night but realized that the sun was already high in the sky and her head was resting in the nook of a soft arm.
She seemed to recall what happened and when she turned around, she saw Gu Jingze beside her.
It turned out that she had been sleeping in his arms…
She quickly looked down to inspect her clothes and saw that she was still wearing the clothes from yesterday. Only then did she relax.
However, she could not remember what exactly happened last night.
Meanwhile.
Gu Jingze opened his eyes slowly.
He frowned at this fidgety woman who was starting to move again.
He did not sleep properly last night and he was now being disturbed again. His face had become indescribable.
When she saw Gu Jingze’s quiet gaze, Lin Che quickly sat up and moved away from his arm.
Rubbing her head, she said, “Sorry. Was I drunk again last night?”
Gu Jingze stared at her deeply. His eyes said it all.
Lin Che got up in embarra.s.sment, “I’m really sorry. I don’t know what came over me. I didn’t do anything last night right…”
“You forgot everything?”
“Yes…” Lin Che really forgot this time.
She had no idea what she drank. It was sweet but the alcoholic aftertaste was strong. After drinking that, she couldn’t remember anything else.
Gu Jingze said, “You dragged me along and insisted on sleeping with me. I wanted to leave but you weren’t willing. Because of you, I didn’t even get to wash up last night and went straight to bed.”
“Huh?” Lin Che looked at Gu Jingze in disbelief.
Looking at Gu Jingze, he seemed to be unharmed and just sitting there in his crumpled coat.
Lin Che blushed, “Sorry… I didn’t mean to…”
Gu Jingze said, “I didn’t know you would be so brazen when you’re drunk. You even insisted on taking off your clothes to make me sleep with you.”
“…” Lin Che refused to believe that she would do something like that.
But looking at Gu Jingze, he was so s.e.xy and charming. He could easily enchant women and make them lose control. Maybe she got drunk and her animal instincts took over. Maybe she really came on to him?
“Sorry sorry… I… I didn’t do anything to you, right?” Lin Che placed her hands across her chest and looked anxiously at Gu Jingze.
Gu Jingze scoffed, “Luckily, I blocked you. Otherwise, heh heh, I’ll see how you react today.”
“I’m really sorry… Then… Then how can I make it up to you?”
“Forget it. You would already be doing me a favor by not causing trouble outside every few days.”
“…” Lin Che looked at him guiltily. She watched Gu Jingze get off the bed while she sat there hatefully scolding herself.
She already told herself not to cause any trouble and she just did it again.
Gu Jingze opened the bathroom door and turned to look at the mulling Lin Che.
It seemed like she really forgot everything this time.
In the afternoon, Chen Yucheng saw Gu Jingze come in and said in surprise, “Wow, President Gu. What an honor to have you here. I thought with Madam around, you would never patronize me again.”
“You are right. I feel like you are no longer of use to me. I wanted to let you go help others instead. It’s too selfish of me to keep you tied down.”
Chen Yucheng’s expression immediately changed and he quickly smiled and said, “President Gu, as you said, researching your illness can be considered as helping others around the world with the same problem. But I couldn’t make any discovery and I dared not contribute to seeing patients anymore. I’ve been researching for such a long time. To give up now would be a waste of effort. Also, even though you have Madam, you can actually still come to me for other problems…”
Gu Jingze glared at him but was too lazy to argue, so he sat across him.
Chen Yucheng asked, “What’s the matter with you now?”
Chen Yucheng could tell that something was not right. He must have met an obstacle again.
“I just think that I’m beginning to not want a divorce anymore.”
“Huh?”
Chen Yucheng smiled at Gu Jingze, “I would guess so. Actually, there’s nothing bad about Madam. She may differ in status, lifestyle habits, and may sometimes not get along with you but she is actually not bad.”
Gu Jingze looked up and glanced at him.
“Is this rubbish going to solve my problem?”
Chen Yucheng sat up straight this time and looked at Gu Jingze, “You know that I can’t solve your problems. You have to do it yourself. I can only help you clarify your thoughts. Since you don’t want to divorce, then don’t. Why make it so difficult for yourself?”
“I just can’t make sense of why I don’t want a divorce.”
“What are some reasons you can think of?” Chen Yucheng was more professional now. He looked at Gu Jingze and spoke gently.
Gu Jingze replied, “Maybe I have gotten used to her existence. Maybe it’s because she’s the one asking for a divorce and I’m not happy about it. Maybe I have fantasies of her…”
“Fantasy?” Chen Yucheng almost stepped out of his role. He looked at Gu Jingze, “What… fantasy?”
Gu Jingze glared at him again. He was asking the obvious.
Upon seeing his look, Chen Yucheng immediately laughed.
Gu Jingze was unamused, “Chen Yucheng, do you really not wish to continue working?”
“No no. So you’re saying that you and her have not… done the deed?”
Gu Jingze’s face darkened.
Gu Jingze said, “I can’t let us be tangled up even more. I also can’t… do bad things to her just to fulfill my desires. That is my natural need and she is not an outlet to fulfill it with, so I can’t do that.”
Chen Yucheng replied, “I think you’re suppressing yourself too much; that’s why you can’t let go. Perhaps try to really be with her. Maybe then you won’t have such thoughts.”
“…”
Chen Yucheng said, “Why? What are you concerned about?”
“This way, if I really caved in to my desire and did something unforgettable to her, wouldn’t I be hurting her?”
Chen Yucheng said, “You’re concerned about her and that’s why you’re suppressing yourself. But why are you so concerned about her?”
“Because…”
“You can’t comprehend this either?”
“Yes…”
“This is a do-or-die problem. If you care about her and don’t wish to hurt her, then you can only hurt yourself. This is your choice.”
Gu Jingze still could not think it through.
In the end, the answer he needed was not something that anybody could tell him.
Thankfully, Lin Che really seemed to have forgotten everything that happened last night.
Back at home, Gu Jingze saw that Lin Che was opening a package.
Gu Jingze walked over, “What are you doing?”
“Someone sent it to me saying it needs my attention. I don’t know what it is.”