Chapter 84: I Hope This is a Good Memory
Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
Lin Che wanted to kick him away, “Gu Jingze, don’t make me force you out! Get off!”
“Why, Lin Che? Are you angry?” Gu Jingze held onto her hand as he looked at her, “You’re angry?”
Lin Che turned away her cheek, “I’m not angry.”
“Then why aren’t you looking at me?”
“Why should I look at you?”
Gu Jingze laughed, “Then, are you jealous?”
Lin Che’s ears were hot. She pushed Gu Jingze’s hand away, “I would be crazy to be jealous! Do you have dementia or something? Our marriage is fake. It’s not like we are really husband and wife!”
Gu Jingze fell back on the bed and looked at Lin Che as he said, “You’re really not jealous?”
Lin Che snorted, “Of course not!”
Lin Che sat up and glanced at Gu Jingze, “It’s all just an act. I know I’m good at it, but don’t mistake it for reality! I’m a professional actress. Of course, I will do my best to play the role of a good wife.”
Gu Jingze took a deep breath. Somehow, he could not help but feel a little disappointed.
“Alright,” Gu Jingze sat down and said, “I thought that you were jealous and avoiding me on purpose.”
“Ha, you’re getting more narcissistic.”
Gu Jingze asked, “Is there anything wrong with being narcissistic?”
“Of course,” Lin Che patted herself and also sat down. The two of them sat side by side on the bed. As the bed was huge, there was still a lot of s.p.a.ce, even with them sitting there.
Gu Jingze looked at her, “Narcissism means loving oneself. If you can’t even love yourself, how can you expect someone else to love you?”
“Ha, bulls.h.i.+t,” Lin Che looked at him, “Big Boss Gu has plenty of people who love him; he doesn’t need to love himself.”
“Since when do I have many people loving me?” Gu Jingze asked.
Lin Che replied, “That Miss Mo or something. I believe there’s more than just her.”
The mention of Mo Huiling reminded Gu Jingze of the complicated events that happened. He was starting to feel vexed again.
The original plan was simple. He and Lin Che would marry and agree to not disrupt each other’s lives and maintain a good relations.h.i.+p until they divorced.
However, the situation has progressed a lot further.
Gu Jingze said, “My relations.h.i.+p with Huiling is not what you think it is.”
“What do I think it is?” Lin Che tilted her head and looked at him.
Gu Jingze continued, “Huiling and I have known each other since we were young. We knew each other for almost thirty years, but we have never ever crossed that line. I promise you that as long as I’m married to you, I will never step over the boundaries with her. I’ll only treat her as a friend and as a younger sister.”
Lin Che hastily said, “That’s not necessary. You don’t have to promise me anything, really. I won’t get angry. You were originally with her anyway.”
However, she did feel grateful that he wanted to make that promise.
Even though the promise may not mean anything, it meant that he still respected her and was considerate of her feelings.
Lin Che looked at him, “You don’t have to do that for me. We already agreed to stay out of each other’s personal lives.”
Gu Jingze turned to her, “We did agree at the start but we are already married after all. I don’t think it’s fair for you. You’re only 23 and this is your first marriage. You shouldn’t be living with all this mess. I may not be able to give you a complete marriage, but at least I won’t betray you in other aspects. At least these memories won’t be so bad.”
Lin Che lifted her head and stared at him. She laughed nervously, “No, this was all because of me. Still, I am really thankful for you. Won’t Miss Mo be angry though?”
“From the moment I chose to marry you, she was angry. I know it’s also not easy for her, but we had no choice but to marry.”
Lin Che said, “Then why don’t you tell her that your family threatened you with her and you were forced to marry me for her sake?”
“Forget it. There’s no point in telling her that. I told her from the start that she had the choice to leave me and start a new life. I would have accepted it because this was all my fault too. If I told her, it would be even more difficult for her to let go. I’d rather she have the choice to leave and live her own life.”
Lin Che blamed herself even more, “I’m sorry. It’s all my fault…”
“At the beginning, I wanted to blame you and hate you, but after thinking it through, I realized that the both of us were caught in this marriage. Both of us were forced and there was nothing to blame on you,” Gu Jingze added, “You’re still young. You could have experienced love with another man but because of our marriage, you had to give up all of these. So you don’t have to apologize to me. This is not because of you. I guess it’s just a twist of fate that led us to today.”
Lin Che looked down and yawned. Hugging her knees, she was beginning to feel drowsy.
Gu Jingze said, “So if you have anything you need, just tell me. I’ll be happy to fulfill your requests.”
“It’s okay, really. You don’t need to make it up to me. I have gained a lot now; I can’t ask for a perfect life where I get everything I want. I have a place to sleep, countless people looking after me, and time to focus on my career. I’m already satisfied,” she gently laid down on the bed and covered herself with the blanket as she said softly, “You need to communicate nicely with Mo Huiling. She is a girl, after all. And girls just want to be coddled. All that you said to me just now… let’s leave it at that. If you told her this with the word ‘marriage’ loosely hanging from your lips, you’ll be dead…”
“…” Gu Jingze said, “When two people are together, they should be frank with each other.”
“Oh, no wonder. Even though you’re so handsome and rich, you have just one Miss Mo who can’t leave you alone. You totally deserve to not be able to find a wife. You don’t even know how to coddle a girl. When a girl says no, don’t you ever take it for real. When a girl says that she’s not angry with you, she’s lying. When a girl says don’t buy something because it’s too expensive, she’ll kill you if you really don’t buy it!”
“…”
Gu Jingze said, “My psychology cla.s.s did mention these before.”
“Hahaha, talking to girls with psychology. If psychological research can fully understand a girl, the subject is not a girl at all. If you use psychological theories to coddle a girl, you’re destined to be forever alone…”
Gu Jingze frowned as he said, “Is it that complicated? But why do girls want to be coddled?”
As he turned to look at Lin Che, she was already lying on the bed with her eyes closed. Her breathing had already slowed down to a steady rhythm.
How heartless…
Gazing at her pure sleeping face, he could not resist gently sweeping the hair on her forehead to the side. He lifted the blanket, leaned on one side, and lied down next to her. Looking sideways at her clear face, he felt a world of calmness. His heart also felt at peace as he lay there and closed his eyes, slowly drifting off to sleep.